This isn’t just a song… it’s my truth. ❄️
For the last two Howlmas seasons, I’ve spent the holidays alone. No family, no warmth, just the cold hum of the computer screen and the quiet echo of memories that never really fade.

Last Howlmas is more than music it’s a reflection of every silent night I’ve faced, every time I tried to keep strong while the world kept moving without me.
It’s about trust broken, bonds lost, and still finding the strength to howl even when no one howls back.

I wrote this for those who’ve felt the same.
For the wolves who keep standing even when the snow feels heavier each year.
For my community my pack who understand that being strong doesn’t mean being unbreakable.

🎧 Listen, feel, and let it snow.
Sometimes, the frost is the only thing that understands.

💬 Lyrics highlight:

“Last Howlmas, I gave you my paw,
But the pack turned cold, they shut the door.
This year, my heart disappears,
In the snow I fade, drowning in my fears.”

❄️ You’re not alone. Even if your world feels frozen someone else is still howling out there with you. 🐾

Kiba Snowpaw – Last Howlmas | A Lonely Heart in the Snow (Emotional Furry Ballad)

From the frozen world of HowlStrom, where winter storms bury both body and spirit, I, Kiba Snowpaw, your Alpha Ice Wolf, howl into the void once again. I am 39 winters old, a wolf who has carried too many scars, who has fought too many battles I never wanted, who has survived only because I had to. My life has been one long fight, and though I still stand, I am tired. I do not fight because I want to. I fight because the world will not let me rest.  

This song, My Lament Configuration, is my soul turned into sound. Anyone who has seen Hellraiser knows what the Lament Configuration is — a puzzle box, a prison, a path to endless suffering and torment. That is my life. Every breath is another turn of the box, every choice another lock snapping shut, every day another cage. I am trapped inside my own lament configuration, unable to escape, unable to find peace, forced to fight when all I want is to be done.  

This is more than music. It is my truth:  
- A wolf broken and asking why God hates him, why he must carry a pain he never earned.  
- A life that feels like a curse, every breath heavier than the last.  
- Chains that tighten no matter how hard I fight, keeping me inside a prison I never built.  
- The shadow of my father’s absence, the weight of loss, the scars of survival.  
- A howl to the heavens met only with silence, a cry for mercy that never comes.  

To my community, my pack: You have seen me fight when my paws were too heavy to move. You have heard my howls when I was too broken to stand. This song is for you as much as it is for me. For everyone who feels trapped inside their own lament configuration, who knows the lore, who knows the endless torment — you are not alone. My howl is your howl.  

Until the day mercy finds me, I remain chained. But even in chains, I will howl the truth.  

🐺❄️ Stay floofy, stay strong, but know this: even Alpha wolves break. Even Alpha wolves long to be free of their own puzzle box. This is my cry. This is My Lament Configuration.  

My Lament Configuration | Alpha Ice Wolf’s Song of Endless Chains 🐺💔❄️ | Kiba Snowpaw Original

Howls from the storm of HowlStrom. 🐺❄️  
This is me, Kiba Snowpaw, your Alpha Ice Wolf. I am 39 winters old, and my paws are heavy. I never fought because I wanted to. I fought because I had to. Every day has been a battle, every night a cage I could not escape. I carry the scars of a wolf who has lost too much, who buried his father, who stood against demons within and without, and who wonders why he is still forced to breathe when all he longs for is peace.  

This song, Haven’t I Fought Enough, is not just sound. It is my howl of exhaustion. My cry to the sky. My question to a god that will not answer. I am tired. I have given all I had. I bled, I cried, I carried burdens no wolf should bear. And still I am here, chained to a fight I did not choose.  

This song is my heart poured raw:  
- Quiet nights where survival feels like torture.  
- Endless battles that left me scarred inside and out.  
- The grief of watching my father fade, while I stayed, loyal and broken.  
- The anger of being kept alive without reason, the rage of asking why mercy never comes.  
- The howl of a wolf too tired to keep going, but forced to keep fighting.  

To my community, my pack: You have stood with me when the frost was thickest. You have heard my howls when they were broken, and you have given me reason to keep moving when my paws wanted to stop. This song is for you as much as it is for me. It is proof that even Alpha wolves fall, even Alpha wolves cry out, and even Alpha wolves need to be heard. If you carry scars, if you carry battles you never wanted, know that you are not alone.  

This is my cry. This is my truth. Haven’t I fought enough?  

🐺❄️ Stay floofy, stay strong, but remember: even the strongest Alpha can be tired. Even the coldest storm has an end.  

📝 Lyrics:  
[Verse 1 – Quiet, Broken]
Another night, I’m still alive,
But I don’t know the reason why.
I’ve bled, I’ve cried, I’ve paid the price,
Still God won’t let me close my eyes.

[Verse 2 – Heavy with Sorrow]
I carried pain no wolf should bear,
Screamed my howls into empty air.
I fought through fire, I fought through frost,
But I’m still here, forever lost.

[Chorus – Explosive, Angry]
Haven’t I fought enough?
Haven’t I bled enough?
Why keep me here, when all I know is pain?
Haven’t I done my time?
Haven’t I paid the price?
God, this torture runs through every vein.

[Verse 3 – Personal, Confessional]
I buried my father, I watched him fade,
I gave my life, I gave, I stayed.
I fought my demons, I stood my ground,
But still You keep me chained and bound.

[Bridge 1 – Whispered, Fragile]
If You can hear me, answer why,
Why won’t You let me say goodbye?
The cage is heavy, the leash is tight,
I’ve fought enough… I’ve lost the fight.

[Chorus – Explosive, Angry]
Haven’t I fought enough?
Haven’t I bled enough?
Why keep me here, when all I know is pain?
Haven’t I done my time?
Haven’t I paid the price?
God, this torture runs through every vein.

[Verse 4 – Darker, Angrier]
Every day’s a battle scar,
I’ve dragged this body far too far.
My spirit’s tired, my soul is weak,
Yet You still force my lungs to breathe.

[Bridge 2 – Orchestral Build]
The storms, the trials, the endless nights,
The fights I’ve fought, the loss, the fright.
If there’s a reason, I can’t see—
This feels like torture, endlessly.

[Chorus – Massive, Haunting]
Haven’t I fought enough?
Haven’t I bled enough?
Why keep me here, when all I know is pain?
Haven’t I done my time?
Haven’t I paid the price?
God, this torture runs through every vein.

[Final Verse – Broken, Soft]
So if You’re listening, hear my cry,
The wolf is tired, he longs to die.
Haven’t I given all I could?
Haven’t I suffered more than I should?

[Outro – Whispered Howl, Fading]
Haven’t I fought enough?
Haven’t I bled enough?
If mercy lives, then let me go…
I’ve carried hell, and You should know.

Kiba Snowpaw – Last Howlmas | A Lonely Heart in the Snow (Emotional Furry Ballad)

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