[lyrics]

[cineraria]

It's in my head everyday
I wanna lay in bed and never wake

I'm smiling but I'm hurting
I keep climbing but I'm falling
Darling I swear I'm almost sane

I love you and I'm sorry
I can't help but hate this body
Reaching for anything to stop the ache
So I pick it up again

[benzo]

i'm so sorry im addicted
i wanna change but i don't fit in
i feel ashamed because im not a man
i don't even know what i am
i disassociate to numb the pain 
take oxycontin to the fucking brain
and when it's over i'll be happy
cos then i can be set free

[halfhearted]

when it’s over ur just happy
girl you only wanna trap me down
put my body in the backseat
how come my friends
never come around
tears all on my pages i know where it went wrong
find me in the basement, write another
damn song
i knew it wouldn’t last long x2

[benzo]

i'm so sorry im addicted
i wanna change but i don't fit in
i feel ashamed because im not a man
i don't even know what i am
i disassociate to numb the pain 
take oxycontin to the fucking brain
and when it's over i'll be happy
cos then i can be set free

I'm Addicted

I Disassociate To Numb The Pain w/ halfhearted & Cineraria (prod.venus)

[lyrics]

[benzo]

my body damaged from the drugs i been taking
so sorry mum but i aint gonna make it
i just wanna make you proud
but all i do is let you down

i look into the mirror 
breaking down again
such an ugly figure
will u hold my hand
and say u love me as i cry into your arms
im so fucking sorry mum

i'm feeling dizzy from the pills i just took
im overdosing and i do not give fuck
there's cut on my arms
i'm a broken star
i'm the fallen one
no hope no more

winter nights are closing in and i don't feel good
i'm so sorry for all the shit that i've done
hope u can forgive me & i hope you don't resent me

[cray]

all this pain up on my chest, 
but imma light this, 
no friends, lonely kid with a cut wrist, 
remember all the times u were my sidekick, 
yea, u put that shit to the side quick

imma search imma roam
Until I find my home, 
I’m really running out of hope, 
girl I love you tho, 
take 2 xans for the road, my head might fucking explode, 
shits in overload, 
woah woah woah woah

[benzo]

i'm feeling dizzy from the pills i just took
im overdosing and i do not give fuck
there's cut on my arms
i'm a broken star
i'm the fallen one
no hope no more

winter nights are closing in and i don't feel good
i'm so sorry for all the shit that i've done
hope u can forgive me & i hope you don't resent me

I Just Wanna Make You Proud

I Just Wanna Make You Proud w/yungcray (prod.king theta)

i really wanna live the dream life, shit but it turns out <3

lyrics: 
this is everything I have I don’t know if this gon work out,
I really wanna live the dream life shit but it turns out,
I don’t know what I want but what if this does work out,
maybe I could help my parents so they never have work now,

up inside my head the voices yea they tell me to stop,
there’s a lack of understanding they don’t know this is all I got,
It really makes me think who would I be without this shit,
maybe lost in my life, without this music I would not be shit,

I started two years ago, I progressed a bit ,
and I lost A couple friends on the way but it is what it is,
to the people I have now sorry for being so distant,


I can’t find myself so I made it my life mission,
seek out for help find somebody to listen,
all I see is flaws in myself how I fix this?
I rely on smoke at night to get me to the next day,
without it, it’s like kryptonite it bites me on my worst days,
I don’t drop enough so I gotta up the work rate,

she said I don’t see no flaws you don’t need fucking fixing,
I know you feel lost I can join u with ur mission,
I know that it’s hard living life with addictions


make ur last wish drop the penny in the fountain
we been climbing too long to drop up off this mountain
i been here im soon gone, eighteen years im counting,

I can’t find myself so I made it my life mission,
seek out for help find somebody to listen

this is everything I have I don’t know if this gon work out,
I really wanna live the dream life shit but it turns out,
I don’t know what I want but what if this does work out,
maybe I could help my parents so they never have work now,

up inside my head the voices yea they tell me to stop,
there’s a lack of understanding they don’t know this is all I got,
It really makes me think who would I be without this shit,
maybe lost in my life, without this music I would not be shit,

life mission [michael harrison]

[lyrics]

[benzo- v1]

as i walk down this path it's getting dark
no light in sight 
i made it to the park
snorting ketamine on the steps
overdosed can you guess what's next
getting rushed to the hospital
everybody crying please don't let him go
but all he wants to do is be alone
and he's frozen in the snow

[benzo- hook]

i tried my best for you
stayed by your side all damn night
i tried my best for you
but you weren't willing to fight
i cried i screamed i sweared
you'd promise you'd never leave
we argued everyday
now i wear your heart on my sleeve

[notahero-v2]

i wear my heart on my sleeve
then u cut me open
i hope that u hold it
i hope that u protect it
i been losing my mind with all the stressing
i don’t wanna figure it out i’ve had too many lessons
i hate it when ur not around cuz it’s fucking depressing
how the fuck am i more than what i think if i’m always feeling less than
no matter what i ever tell u
i could never let u go
the only one that i confide to
u know things that nobody else knows
baby i just wanna hold u
imma get rich and build us a house that’s perfect for two
i told u everything’s for u

oh baby if i told u that we’d end up together and i could buy u anything u want
would u believe me
then would u need me
oh i could save u with my songs
i can save u with my songs

[benzo-hook]

i tried my best for you
stayed by your side all damn night
i tried my best for you
but you weren't willing to fight
i cried i screamed i sweared
you'd promise you'd never leave
we argued everyday
now i wear your heart on my sleeve

now i wear youre heart on my sleeve

Now I Wear Your Heart On My Sleeve w/notahero (prod.king theta)

[lyrics]

got me feeling isolated
im incarcerated to my soul
got me feeling isolated
those words hurt more than you'll ever know

close the gates
don't let me in
i'm worthless and i'm damaging
i ruin everything i touch
i know that i fucked up 

oh no, no no no
don't leave 
please don't go, go, go
i'm sorry that i couldn't save you
but i don't know what to do

got me feeling isolated
incarcerated to my soul
got me feeling isolated
your words hurt more than you'll ever know

you got me feeling isolated
i'm incarcerated to my soul
got me feeling isolated
your words hurt more than you'll ever know

Isolated

Isolated (prod.mollybeats)

(ZBee)

at the end of the day
i wish my life would change
i see a photo of myself 
and then i break the frame
i’ve been so upset recently 
i’ve had an epiphany 
what if everybody disappeared 
and that’s including me 
 
oh 
i 
got
what i 
asked for
and more
oh god
oh god

(KID Benzo)

and at the end of the day
i want my life to change
but i'm stuck in my ways
thinking bout it again

got me going insane
yeah im hooked on these drugs
girl i want it to stop
but i feel so numb

i'm all one
disintegrated 
im on my own
so intoxicated 

(ZBee)

at the end of the day
i wish my life would change
i see a photo of myself 
and then i break the frame
i’ve been so upset recently 
i’ve had an epiphany 
what if everybody disappeared 
and that’s including me

break the frame (feat. KID Benzo) (michael harrison)

Never Noticed ft. KiD CURSE (prod. Lxst Ghxul)

She Fucking For Fun

beans! (prod.aveany)

lyrics ⬇️

whats the reason for looking at yourself and saying
im so worthless and desperate i need my medication 
what i painted regret it i needed ventilation 
you wanted validation 
but you couldnt hear me say it
and you remember those nights
when i got so frustrated 
with you and everything else
evil that we created
once we got to those heights
i think our love had faded
cause i did not like ur disguise i hated how you fake it

everlasting love isnt quite what we imagined
but i hope you know you cant just restore your life magically 
youll have go through the poorest conditions oh so sadly 
mystery how i cant defend myself when theyre all happy

maybe i got issues i cant solve 
maybe youre just someone i pissed off

but hopefully not
cuz i been working on all my flaws 
fixing up my temper ik i need a lot
Thats right thats right u need lots of help
no lie no lie
started ringing bells in my head oh my god
i guess i gotta try mh best this time
whole life on the line i guess im fine
but im not going next
yea ima put my head down and finally get rest

that’s right (everest)

Lyrics : 

I was standing tall then I hit the fall 
Shadows on my walls darkness consumes all 
She ain’t picking up my calls then I start to drawl 
Soon I start to bawl “ is this all my fault ?” 

I’m crawling back to earth I’m needing love from her
I’m crawling back to earth I’m needing love from her 
I feel so fucking hurt Face down in the dirt 
I feel so fucking hurt Face down in the dirt 

I cannot find my words struggling with these terms 
Feeling all this hurt after all that has occurred 
I’m struggling so and it just gets worse 
Struggling so I don’t know if I’ll return 
I’m really so concerned after every twist and turn 
I hope one day that maybe I’ll learn 
I hope one day that maybe I’ll learn 
Learn how to deal with all this fucking hurt 

I was standing tall then I hit the fall 
Shadows on my walls darkness consumes all 
She ain’t picking up my calls then I start to drawl 
Soon I start to bawl “ is this all my fault ?” 

I’m crawling back to earth I’m needing love from her
I’m crawling back to earth I’m needing love from her 
I feel so fucking hurt Face down in the dirt 
I feel so fucking hurt Face down in the dirt

All My Fault (deadends)

this probably isn't finished but it is here for now

Now I Wear Your Heart On My Sleeve w/notahero (prod.king theta)

KID Benzo☆

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