i unironically i hope i lose my virginity to this song

(twilight)

respite

@jeffjenkem

i've been missing something in my life
it's like i'm out of my element all the time
cause i don't know how i'm supposed to react
when i'm going in blind

circled by the vultures they're pecking me dry
it won't happen till i'm older but the thought of it might
i wish i could just be bolder and follow the light 
yeah i got sick of the act so i left it behind
 
it's so cold my body shaking
and i find it hard to find the warmth in something i've mistaken
could you check my vital signs i'm tryna find oasis
if it's beating fine i'll crawl across the desert till i make it

i saw all that i could take and still i move along
encumbered past my breaking point it's doing harm
i don't wanna make it about me at all
it's just something i've awakened and i'm too alarmed 

i should probably get some rest
like the rest 
buzzin till my heart beat straight 
out my chest
tell me why this fog still rolling in my head?
i need a lighthouse
i don't want this ship to wreck

lighthouse (jeffjenkem x flesh)

feat @fleshgolem
prod @taylor

can u scratch my back
leave some scars if u want
i need an artifact
of the times we had fun
i knew they wouldn’t last
like the light of the sun
i hope ur coming back
cause i’ll come running back

i’m puffing gas top floor of the ashton
20k in my closet i love fashion
i’m not doing okay stop asking
my money long baby i don’t have to ration

under my skin always tryna get reactions
i bet it won’t be funny if we started blasting
i wanna feel what love is like i want some passion
if u down then we can roll lights camera action

honestly i just wanna sit here in silence
when i’m alone it’s like my head is full of sirens
my tank is running low i forgot to check the mileage
but u can have all my attention undivided

can u scratch my back
leave some scars if u want
i need an artifact
of the times we had fun
i knew they wouldn’t last
like the light of the sun
i hope ur coming back
cause i’ll come running back

i’m puffing gas top floor of the ashton
20k in my closet i love fashion
i’m not doing okay stop asking
my money long baby i don’t have to ration

i wish i knew how to take it apart
make it so everything straight from the heart
mechanical parts
all of my body been charged
it gets bizarre when it malfunctioning hard
the message been parsed, i gotta shoot for the stars 

i wanna talk but i'm loading
outta my sight and my focus
i'm gotta walk where i'm going
you cannot come you don't know me
i just get high to get outta my mind but
it only makes sense in the moment
i was alright for a second i tried
now i'm tryna find out if ur joking

artifacts w/ flesh golem (taylor morgan)

baby im fed up with excuses
you think that you slick but now i know the truth is
you been treating me like im useless
gone through all the shit just to use me

i been looking down but the drugs got me up yuh
i don’t wanna cry so the drugs got me numb yuh 
thinking all the time bout the shit that we said 
do another line and get fucked out my head 

don’t be fronting
i know you been lying when u stunting 
now you on my line, trying to apologize 
but it’s too late cuz now i feel nothing

baby im fed up with excuses
you think that you slick but now i know the truth is
you been treating me like im useless
gone through all the shit just to use me

guitar done by @prodbytwilightblue 
drums done by @frevelthorthy
feature, art, and mix/master done by @draven.fm

fed up ft. draven (twilightblue x frevel)

prod @whos-that-clown

LYRICC
Soon you'll want me, i'll crawl right back
Staying calm in the heat of attack
Say mean words, but u dont mean that
And if you ever reconsider you know where im at

fed up with the bullshit, fed up with the lies
Hit me with a full clip, right between the eyes
I know that you want me, but u never tried
Yet I ran right back, what a fool am i?

Did this to myself im so stupid
Fell for you so quick, arrow mustve been cupid
All my dreams are feeling so lucid, 
but they slowly turn to nightmares ur making me feel useless

A cannon loaded up with feelings, 
Shot into my ship, grapeshot and now im bleeding
Baby i swear that ur a demon,
 i see it in your eyes
i feel hypnotised
As im slipping away
To another kind of place
My heart is bleeding out
Your the cause and the cure no doubt

I knew this from the first go, yet i gave it a second try
I dont understand why i gave you, all my precious time

The clock is slowly ticking
Were running low on minutes
The second hand ticks faster
And my heart finally kicks in

fed up [prod. the sound clown]

Mixed/Mastered By Me 
-
Produced By https://soundcloud.com/jolst & https://soundcloud.com/pekarot_161
-
Lyrics

don't tell me how to be i don't wanna see
we fight, then more we talk  2 o'clock and i can't fucking sleep 
lining up that coke every night ya i won't fucking breathe 
saw u with some guy but that's a price to pay so 
i don't wanna move on way too fast no 
tell me u don't care 
just know i'm not surprised 
and i'm not sleeping tonight

hold me close to my head 
ima go mia u won't notice
ima leave u out every night 
leave u cause it's time
notice in my eyes i'll despise u till i die
u don't need me nah nah that's okay
cause ima vanish she want stay but i don't care hoe 
nah and don't u ever tell me how to be 

don't tell me how to be i don't wanna see
we fight, then more we talk  2 o'clock and i can't fucking sleep 
lining up that coke every night ya i won't fucking breathe 
saw u with some guy but that's a price to pay so 
i don't wanna move on way too fast no 
tell me u don't care 
just know i'm not surprised 
and i'm not sleeping tonight

we fight, then more we talk (jolst x pekarot)

written during the time of meeting @sewerperson

lyrics

i’m wasted force
spent time in the sewers but i wanted more
coz when i left back to reality i felt lost i just needed merly discourse

tell me ur story 
tell me where’s home
show me the future
ik it’s cold but

if i hit 40
u need 2 know
that this was ur doing to which i owe my soul

been here since day 1
i wish it showed
where was this love at 
where did it go omg

u see we’re bonded
but different holes 
that we climbed out of 
i hope ur proud of me

5 yrs of listening 
th dust has settled yeh things r so different
that shit was splifferent
taught me to write my own book and spot out the fiction
put a purpose in som of these bad chapters 
gave me a mission

the track was rusted now tunnel vision 
things r so clear when im zoned in and listening 
life is worth living 
found from within but without u
its missing
especiilay when i miss home

ik ur lost
this wrld can be cruel but u haven’t yet lost…

i saw the bridges then the fire
id stroll so peaceful in the mire
i’ve been so many destinations but no scenes compare to this. i’m not a cryer

but i can’t help but shed a tear
a lot past brought out tnite
to keep it tight th_heavy beers
to stay surreal i kept it light

i’ve put a body 2 a voice
and i wish that i could stop time
i dont know how i got here 
but im not gonna question why
ima live this fuckin moment when u hand me that old mic
sing our fucking lungs out 
forget our sorrowed lives

sewers

_sewers (secre x javiifontan)

prod. 1tcyxo & wasterr
@safeatlast

[kill breanna:]
theres not enough beat 4 me
cus i got 2 much hate in me
this shit aint what i had in mind..
im changing my mind like every, every, night
u can see my eyes, so dont ask me how im doing
i think i wanna vomit
i know im dumb, i promise

i cant stand 2 wait on me no more
i feel like my eyes hit the flooor
good try, but i still know whats deep inside of my mind
good bye! to all the fake cunts in my friendss list
i see the fuckn walls spinnin
hold up, i did not finish
i said "fuck my demise", no i am not finished
nah i dont fuck w thermal countries fuck yo fins, bitch
yes im wired up, off that mud and them pills, bitch
reliable asf, im always high, im never low
im happy when not home, buy that shit by the o
fuck. everybody. that i known, i guess
i guess i shoulda waited, but i did it feelin lifeless
yEEEAaahAHAHahAHAHHhooooOOooOOOo

[lil divine:]
feelin lifeless
got no fuckin heartbeat
i gotchu in my sights bitch 

ye i pull up wit a knife quick
stick it in ur corneas 
and leave u fuckin eyeless

i see the fuckn floors spinnin
maybe i should stop sippin

they screamin out divine
this my life and i did it

i fucked up yea i admit it
let me speak for just a minute
i dont ask a lot from you
just let me have my time wit it 

got no time aint no wristwatch  
i got no time for a pit stop
im comin up letcho bitch watch
u aint on my team u got kicked off

no gucci and no saint laurent
rock teen hearts til the day i drop
bitch ima go like pokemon
ima run this shit til the day im gone 

[kill breanna:]
theres not enough beat for me
cus i got too much hate in me
this shit aint what i had in mind
im changing my mind like every, every, night
u can see my eyes, so dont ask me how im doing
i think i wanna vomit
ulooksodumbipromise

[lil divine:]
i dont know what you see in me
its the same shit like every week
this shit aint what i had in mind
im killing myself like every fucking night

you switched up your love
and it sucks,
and it hurts 

[kill breanna:]
fuck grownin up, stay a kid
fuck growin up, this is shit
i fucked around, and raced that shit a bit
fuck a speed limit, bitch im lit
FUCK a bitch who dont believe in shit!
FUCK a bitch who dont try for shit!
nah i dont fuck w thermal countries fuck yo fins, bitch
yes im wired up, off that mud and them pills
reliable as fuck, im always high, im never low!
im dazed, meo!
please leave me alone!
i guess i should've waited, but i did it feeling lifeless.

ulooksodumbipromise w/ lil divine

ulooksodumbipromise w/ safeatlast

don't worry, it's not your fault

the conclusion to moss man

very special shoutout to the boys @horoshavibes and @swainesworld for helping make this happen

LYRICS:

(HOROSHA)
How would you like to lose your mind tonight?
How would you like to lose your mind tonight?

I guess I'm feeling it again,
it's like an energy borne from anxiety
and I can't shake it
information age, restless
paralyzed by potential endings

there's a million different ways to face oblivion
wait, it's too much, I'd better change apps
before I'm nauseated by the cognitive dissonance
of our own algorithms manufacturing distance
we're not okay

(MELMIGE)
slipping through the cracks again
mental chemistry off balance ensuring that i can’t relax a friend
is sayin something goes unnoticed
paying price for old components
seizing up i’m not as young as i once was
decades pass in a single month
relegated comfort cause i don’t stress enough
sometimes i try to listen but the instant some transmission
message sent i spread the distance
know that it’s not intention
i just can’t focus show a moment of my clarity
remember what i spoke on the comedy
how connections overwhelms and burdens younger minds
now mine is hurting all the voices gather into static find
it’s harder now to see the nuance
comprehension skills are put off
for instant gratification
no time given for creation
now i’m forgetting what i’m doing why i’m here or my relation
to the world around me
hoped by now i would’ve found me

stimuli inspires me to be complacent
now i’m tired nothing else about me
switching focus of my vision no precision
in my irises just finding nicer views for timelessness
and obstinance a pinch on tendons couldn’t wake me up
feel romero monster living numb and willful ignorance
reset tensions every time i’m swiping up
preset thoughts can’t miss the posts i want
attention fucked so i can’t help but be blunt

(SWAINE)
back on my 1 track shit
wait a minute
collecting myself like the damn deck just finished
was back in my cell
just a shell, mad diminished
feeding into self-help took me out of the grander vision
and the massive picture that im
paintin when i stay rappin with it
i cant believe it
i had to leave it
im way too down low to even speak it to existence

i know im misfit
i know that im different
i know that im mixed in with all these others who cant grab me without gloves like a pigskin
i know i dont fit in
i know i aint sticky like glue before they mix it
when i stick on em i aint ever lettin go
cuz this shit aint a fuckin hobby
think that i already told you so
i think you already know

put the blame on me here i go
if i was anybody else, i'd blow
if i made a song just a little emo
if i wasnt wrong would i really be close?
close to the edge
close to the ledge
if i jumped off, I'd be a legend i guess
you know im a dog, ima do what i said
and i still got it all left in me, fuck yes

romero (feat horosha and swaine) [prod alanfor]

prod. lil divine, no samples <3
@user-642636378
mixed by lil divine, @killbreanna, and @user-642636378

[lil divine:]
stop and just wait for a minute
please listen close cuz i need this
theres blood on my clothes from the leakage
and i dont know who i can trust with the secrets

can you promise me youll keep it
safe from the scouring demons
drain all my blood with the leeches
and leave my body here to drown in the deep end

[halfhearted:]

drown in the deepend 
losing my soul
hate in ur eyes
when you break all my bones
u don’t regret all the lies thag you told
but each time you tell me
we’ll walk down this road again

sick of driving on them potholes
i think i got stockholm
forgot how you would hold me close

so now i’m clinging to a bottle
i bet you hope i rot in peace
so, lay me six feet deep

[lil divine:]

left in the dirt holdin hopes out for somethin
dont take my words and convert them to weapons
wrote you a song out of words that mean nothin
but you wont ever see it on a motherfuckin setlist

so baby tell me do you really wanna go
i cant see you through the 6 feet of snow
left my feelings in a box on the road
need a key to get the lock off my soul

i can feel the weight crushin my bones
bloody teeth embedded in the throne
why tf u keep hittin my phone?

why cant you leave me the fuck alone
when youre here this house dont feel like home
shattered fragments pierce throughout my skull
skull

[halfhearted:]

leave me to drown with the leaches
seeping in lust will i ever defeat this
stole all my love
not enough 
it’s a weakness
i was the one but i told u i’m leaving soon

we keep running round in circles
the bridges yeah we burned those
so i can never hold on hope

and i’ll let you watch me tie my rope
broke down, left my love on the side of the road
hometown, but feel like there’s no where to go
long frown, but i think i’m getting used to the cold

[lil divine:]

stop with the lies
n tell me the truth
when ur body lies
next to mine at noon
is it because u love me
or am i a solution to u
for what somebody else did
stop with the lies
n tell me the truth
when ur body lies
next to mine at noon
is it because u love me
or am i a replacement to u
tell me who did u lose

leeches

leeches w/ halfhearted

02

just imagine..

lyrics

with a tenderness in my throat

she takes the advantage in a nice tone

she takes off the writings on the wall

she knows my memorys taking its toll

/

in summer of 1917  this choice was proven costly

never forgave but once layed down a poppy, in memry of u 

u were standing with  crying over this severed tomb

a mourning of 51 years, unexpected doom

/

it was u and it was me and it as us x 3

and now its u and now its dust

/

those that fell, all crumbled to nothing 

jus a distant thought and an empty sort of loving 

in this town not many make an impact

held back by the past it just keeps running

/

running and running 

is something funny

take u somewhere fancy where branches die and birds cant fly

to a place thats shaded and never been sunny

i hope that i can make this day just lovely

/

with a tenderness in my throat

she takes the advantage in a nice tone

she takes off the writings on the wall

she knows my memorys taking its toll

/

in the winter of, well many years later 

there was a change of course

a meet ur maker sort of moment for everyone that was there witness it

many lives lost but as many had begun with theirs

/

it was u and it was me and it as us x 3

and now its u and now its dust

/

rubble and bone had been the history for so long

a seemingly ordinary day had made hearts warm

snow falls down, in this grey and white town

but no abyss will the eyes be drawn (to)

/

no pain or suffering 

may b lost but 0 buffering

take u somewhere where the flowers hit potential, somewhere special

where only u and me can create these memories

ik intention wise tho that u were never a friend to me

someplace where things always reach their potential

someplace where things always reach their potential (stillvanishing)

prod. warheart x 1swbas

im mad that im still stuck on what i want
cus it makes me focus on what i want one on one
and im glad that i see stars when im awake 
but i see god in the sky and he says it isnt worth it
were tired of the hurting and we know this isnt working 
so ill go back to how i was and making songs from hurting  
i learned to be a burden but i guess it wasnt worth it 
cause we're all burned out
and everything we made out,
is all figured out.
yeah,
its all figured out, 
yeah,
its all figured out,
yeah.. uhh
oh yeah, i hate that it is!
(SHIT!)
oh my god..
i hate that it is.

im really bad at this and i need more than a hug
i need more than love,
i need more than runts,
i need more than a dub,
i need something to get me away, everythings bad again
and oh my fucking god.. i miss my bro, mynameagain  
im sad as fuck babe,
theres no other way
and i hope you know my fate
a million dollar vase is gonna be left of this ;(((
nothing could compare to how we felt when we left
we built everything until there was nothing left
im bawling out my eyes & idk what to do..

yeah, eat life like some food
maybe im a dude..
YOU CAN FOCUS ON YOU
(ill sacrifice)
NOTHINGS STOPPING YOU
(my time)
AYE!
AND IF YOU THINK THERE IS, PLEASE EXPLAIN THOUROUGHLY 
CAUSE HOW THE FUCK YOU MADE IT SO FAR WITHOUT IT WORKING, B?
🔌
im really bad at this and i need more than a hug
i need more than love,
i need more than runts,
i need more than a dub,
i need more than racks,
i need more than cash,
boy you dont make rat shit,
boy i make RAP shit, yeah..

i hope things will be fine; i dont know.. 
i've never been more uncertain in my life.
i think i'm like... dying x_x
were tired of the hurting and we know this isnt working<3
so ill go back to how i was and making songs from hurting!!!
ouu~
ouu~
we built everything until there's nothing-
ouu~
im bawling out my eyes & idk what to do..

SHIT!!!

sacrifice

kill breanna

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