Hate for myself

Can't Decide if I'm alive

She woke up
Lit a cigarette and put that playlist on
That I made for her when I cared about her
With all her favorite songs
I ain't put my music on it though
She hates the way I talk
About them drugs or the love I lost
But I'm fucked up and too far gone
I'm being honest
You just want those songs to be about you but they not bitch
You just another problem
And I don't need your trauma
It's hard to tell how high I really get when I'm at the bottom
She tried showing off her man to get me jealous so I robbed 'em

She still let me fuck
That's embarrassing as fuck
Or she just really fucking dumb
Either way I'm moving on
Y'all ain't never had the touch
You need them to put you on
How you gonn' get your money up
She fell asleep in the bathtub
With her playlist on
That I made for her when I cared about her
With all her favorite songs
I ain't put my music on it though
She hates the way I talk
About the way we was in love before she gave it fucking up
Lil bitch you lost it
You made this a show and then you left me in the moshpit
Took my clothes and stole my soul you been left me exhausted
Left me low and left me all alone baby you not it
Took that rope and left it on my throat baby you knot it
Heartless heartthrob
Hard times won't stop
She not the one I told y'all
She played me like an old song
I'm in Manta Rey by the ocean with my new bitch givin' me shoulder rubs
We heading back to the city when I sober up

I just lit another cigarette and put that playlist on
That I made for her when I cared about her
With all her favorite songs
I ain't put my music on it though
She hates the way I talk
About them drugs or the love I lost
But I'm fucked up and too far gone I'm being honest

But we past that
She says I lost everything we had but I don't think we ever had that
Fuck shooting shots I want my strap back
Girl you got nowhere left to hide
You a nightmare I got flashbacks
Can't ride with me you need a bus pass
Or you need to learn to pump gas
If you on my mind you trespassed
I need my money back plus tax
Cut you off like mustache
My love for you just rushed past
You wanted a song about you so I made this for your punk ass

She woke up lit a cigarette
And put that playlist on
That I made for her when I cared about her
With all her favorite songs
I ain't put my music on it though
She hates the way I talk
About them drugs or the love I lost
But I'm fucked up and too far gone
I'm being honest
You just want these songs to be about you but they not bitch
You just another problem and I don't need your trauma
Hard to tell how high I really get when I'm at the bottom
She tried showing off her man to get me jealous so I robbed 'em

favorite songs (p. mileage)

roses (+prodbykg + yeezo)

'Complicated' is my first solo release in a while and one I'm really proud of, it's the first of many that truly feels like something unique and personal. Hope you enjoy <3

complicated

KILLING ME

Stream/Buy
https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/belak/13-reasons-why

vocals, mixing, & mastering by me
produced by yungspoiler

Lyrics:

if you opened my chest up, would it be an empty cave?
or a fire burning with passion?
if you opened my head up, would it be the greenest grass?
or the flowers dying?

quit overthinking, i got 13 reasons
why i cant tell you whats eating me from the inside out
i went out drinking, threw up on the bedsheets at the Four Seasons
everythings falling around me
i feel like im fucking drowning

when you open my chest up
can you find a reason to live
or am i just another mistake?
when you open my head up
am i standing on the edge of the bridge
looking down below?

quit overthinking, i got 13 reasons
why i cant tell you whats eating me from the inside out
i went out drinking, threw up on the bedsheets at the Four Seasons
everythings falling around me
i feel like im fucking drowning
x3

13 Reasons Why

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Dead By 25 (Prod. sleepless boy)

Nauseous Feat.Mishaal (prod.capsctrl)

CRIM - I NEED U

co-codependency
you take the best of me
i'm so hung up on u..

co-codependency
you took the best of me
i'm so hung up on you
always scared that we be falling thru
can you be alone for five more minutes before blowin up my phone?

so it's an issue of trust
everybody's drunk with lust
we all want security
but cheat with impunity
is my commute to work now subject to scrutiny?
goddamn better stage a mutiny

so don't get me wrong, i wanna be with u
'yeah, right' then all hell breaks loose

can you be alone for five more minutes before blowin up my phone?
cus i'm fraying and stressing and twisting my stomach in knots

[produced by yung spoiler]
[art by onlyfriend]

coco dependency [prod. yungspoiler]

Lyrics: 
(NIKKO)
She keep stabbing into my heart
But you cant stab my love away
Knew she was evil from the damn start
She would dance on my fucking grave
If you a demon show your damn claws
And I'll introduce the blood to fang
Under the moon you look the best darling
I just cant get our love to break
She keep stabbing into my heart
But you cant stab my love away
Knew she was evil from the damn start
She would dance on my fucking grave
If you a demon show your damn claws
And I'll introduce the blood to fang
Under the moon you look the best darling
I just cant get our love to break
(Sace)
And baby when did I
Get lost in my ways
And she the selfish type
She dragging claws through my veins
But who am I to judge from her appearance
I just knew I should've sensed it off a single disappearance
She get lost in the rain
And she can see her vision shifting
She got claws horns and fangs
But I can never tell the difference cause it's
Knew she was evil from the damn start
And I just came from a lonely place
If you a demon show your damn flaws
And tell me how I'm supposed tom walk away
And shawty like a fallen angel
Leaning on my shoulder
I dont even see a halo
Shawty stole my heart and I been feeling like its fatal
How am I supposed to run if I cant even keep it stable
(NIKKO)
She got my heart like its zip tied
Shawty from hell why she been fye
Ride on my dick like a zipline
Love it gon crash like a riptide
All in my head like she in mine
Penis hit stomach I'm inside
Smoke on that bitch how I get high
She out of tears why she dont cry
My whip the color of cinnamon
All in her mouth like a dentist is
Black in the blood yeah its venomous
She wanna sit on my Vetements
She wanna sit on my dick
K
Way that she love fucking torture
Shawty want fuck I cant pay for abortion hey
Knife in my stomach she force it
Shawty a witch I'm a muhfucking sorcerer yuh

She keep stabbing into my heart
But you cant stab my love away
Knew she was evil from the damn start
She would dance on my fucking grave
If you a demon show your damn claws
And I'll introduce the blood to fang
Under the moon you look the best darling
I just cant get our love to break
She keep stabbing into my heart
But you cant stab my love away
Knew she was evil from the damn start
She would dance on my fucking grave
If you a demon show your damn claws
And I'll introduce the blood to fang
Under the moon you look the best darling
I just cant get our love to break

Mazikeen (feat. sace6)

i can't decide why i'm alive [prod. sorrow bringer]

Previously known under the name FossDotWally

Nauseous Feat.Mishaal (prod.capsctrl)

KindaSorta