A Mother's Love

feel sum (prod. g x young mooski)

guitar by @3dates
cover art by https://www.instagram.com/lifeishell.fallen/

huge thank you to @astridxeon for helping me find my way around skrillex sound design 

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drowning in blood my head is so fucked 
fallen out of love I don’t wanna wake up 
staple my flesh cauterize my wounds with cigarettes 
reaching for the knife and I 
cut you deep until you’re mine 
you’ll be my dead valentine 
cutting into my skin 
let the blood drain 
until there’s nothing 
left of me to save 

dig my nails under my skin
i will kill 
our sight intertwines 
my eyes longing for your kiss 
I can’t talk with my mouth slit 
stab stab stab I will rip it all out 
blood everywhere 
if you’re not mine then you’re nobody’s now 
slit my wrists with no one else around 
both of our bodies rotting in the ground

1girl1boxcutter prod. marceline x sedate {fallen}

original: https://brokeneyesocket.bandcamp.com/album/synthetic-hate-2

purchase this remix and more here: https://brokeneyesocket.bandcamp.com/album/synthetic-hate-remixes

thanks to Broken Eye Socket for asking me to participate.

Synthetic Hate - Broken Eye Socket (King Yosef Remix)

feat @xdeadsidex

prod @krvmpux

cover @fuckcursed

lyrics
LXLIHVRD:
fear in you
I know the pain
I know fear
can hear the fear
can see the pain

fear is heard
know their place
the kings are here
we are given our will
will of God
learn our secrets

Seams at the knees
Faith in my existence
I know the secrets
Sacred secrets
I need the will
will of God
Help me find this loss

DEVDSIDE:
Destruction of my mind
I won’t get out alive
The face covered in blood
My soul is no more bright
The darkness in my sight
Never-ending fight
The fear in what live
Won’t leave me
Even if I die

Secrets darkness (feat.DEVD$IDE)(prod. krvmpux)

lost my life in you

https://martyrdxm.bandcamp.com/track/cry-in-the-dark

Мое сердце мертво, как все ваши лица
Оставь меня одного, не сил больше терпеть
Прогнившие мысли сжирают мой разум
Кричать в темноте - нет больше сил
Уйти бы мне в ночь, уйти навсегда
В темную бурю сознания, что болью моей рождено
Увидеть тот свет
Нет, для нас остался лишь холод мертвой земли, что вы все убили.

Cry in the Dark​.​.​.

Lyrics: Won’t forget the time you kissed my face 
eye to eye
All the nights we fought We hate to say 
There’s been better times.
I just wish I never hurt you then
Turn off those lights
I wish Id known if your alright 
Wish to only hear my name.

When you cry 
I’m by your side.
I asked you what you wanted then
You say you want a better life
You say you want it all inside.

I just wish I was a better man.

I tried, after the pain I shared 
After the blood
After the pain I shared 
After the blood
It was all for you

Mother Nature Love Me Kindly

lyrics
; I know I’m alone, this cut opens up and sews. All alone again.
You say that you love me you say that you feel me.
so why do I feel alone?
This can’t be real
This can’t be...
These cuts grow deeper...
You can tell it’s not fine but you keep turning back to my lies.
I keep on throwing.
I destroy my life.
I empty myself all the blood on the ground.

i gave you my teeth now i have nothing.

nails///

I did this a month after my wife died. I didn't feel better. Thank you all for your support. I want this to play at my funeral. 
lyrics:
I don't know
Where I go. 
(I want ***).
My official page: https://soundcloud.com/heavylungs21223