produced by grayskies

runaway with me today...

my past self has been erased
better off without a trace
brand new mask over the face
i stray away, from feeling hate

to find a purpose
baby, i been feeling worthless
lets go off, escape this burden
stay with me, my heart is burning

runaway with me today

been so lost and out of mind
its so haunting i cant stand to find
you living in a place
at times like this lets
up and split, alright

lets be off and disappear 
runaway with me my dear
(x2)

runaway with me today 

plz and thanks :)

11/26/23

"RUN." p. grayskies

rain (construct)

rain (construct) (prod. UNREMORSE)

Wake in the classroom windows shut
The last thing I remember’s the truck
A reflection sees that I got crushed
I guess this is what they call bad luck

Put my hands on the ground and push myself back up again
Gasp from the corner when they see my face, a lost friend
They know the look but they can't remember a single name
Am I trapped in a hell forced to lay here and decay

They feel like they know what it's like
To sense like you're not real lost in time
I try to explain to you I care
It's just all, it's all in my head

Realities just a kick in the teeth
Numb yourself out to not feel a thing
Derealization comes with the flood
It's like my souls been dragged through the mud

Whiplash to the devil in front of me
He looks familiar reflections key
Cus that person  was always me
Dragging coffins around  to keep peace

change your mind now perspectives are skewed
He wants to speak about how I was used
So easily no he didn't have to do a thing
Cus this hell was brought on by me

Cracks in the window frame speak the truth
They  show me memories of how I was abused
A family tormented in pain
Bottled down to ignite the flame

He tells me secrets of when I was a kid
I didn't know much but he knew I gave in
To jealousy acts of blindness, corrupted fiend
I guess the one I really hated was always me

They feel like they know what it's like
To sense like you're not real, lost in time
I try to explain to you I care
It's just all, it's all in my head

Realities just a kick in the teeth
Numb yourself out to not feel a thing
Derealization comes with the flood
It's like my soul’s been dragged through the mud

Lets Go

LYRICS:

With eyes wide shut did you expect much
A kid 16 stolen car burnt clutch
30 of the limit, yeah losing traction to the sludge
My car goes up the boundary yeah that's the first time that I lost touch

In my brain or something it's still a stain on my name
Try to reach out to someone but all that's left pain
Are we truly on our own in this life
You bring a kid out who can't walk and put his neck to the scythe and you

Ask how he's doing, does he have a job yet
You’re always locked in your room, yeah are you upset
It's not like you would even understand if I explained
A father's expression is numb when you just bring shame
 
I had a conversation with the devil in the undertow
No matter how hard you work you will still someone that you loathe
Yeah I know I will be always someone that I just hate
At least I can admit so I put up with the weight

I'm just a burden, just a burden
Everything’s too much I’m still hurting
Im uncertain, im uncertain
If I stay can I still say im alive

It’s disturbing, it’s disturbing
Every time I leave it’s not working
I'm just lurking, I’m just lurking
I'm sick of always living a lie

A life tied to the noose yeah always bad news
Do I stay do I go, yeah I never can choose
Making friends with the pills it's the same
See another psych who has to see a paper note to know my name

Give too much empathy, you'll be tread on
If I'm not careful I'll end up gone
Can't stand up for myself when I tell them I just need a break
Keep on pushing on my mental state I'll end up in a shallow grave

And I’ll sink, sink into somewhere I don't know
See my life down here and I'll say please go
I don't want to know about something that I will never be
There's a heavy weight on my chest and I think I've met defeat, alone

Feel the hate peel the skin, just a heretic within
Or at least your god would say
What's the problem yeah what's wrong thought I made this one strong
Chuck him down to the side, see what's messed up inside

I'm just a burden, just a burden
Everything’s too much I’m still hurting
Im uncertain, im uncertain
If I stay can I still say im alive

It’s disturbing, it’s disturbing
Every time I leave it’s not working
I'm just lurking, I’m just lurking
I'm sick of always living a lie

All I Bring Is Shame

off this ride

Prod by: Me :)

Artwork by: https://www.instagram.com/kidaart_005/

Lyrics:

(Chorus)
Feel like I’m dying ‘cause I can’t be real
I live in my thoughts, don’t know what I feel
Lets hide in the moment and live for the thrill
This time I’ll be fine ‘cause these pills fucking kill
The voice that keeps talking inside of my head
Louder and louder it screams that we’re dead
I’m cautiously waiting, so carefully tread
You speak without words but enough has been said

(Verse)
You don’t think I notice when you lie to me
I’m fucked up so I get it, you don’t vibe with me
Now slowly stepping back, I need to distance me
Now fucking sick and tired, I can never sleep

I'm obnoxious right?
Talking like I never fucking see the light
See the light? I could only ever fucking live at night
Live at night? The only time I find the fucking peace to write
Please be alright, my truth, my sun, my only one, my heart will soon ignite

(Bridge)
My heart will soon ignite
My heart will soon ignite

(Chorus)
Feel like I’m dying ‘cause I can’t be real
I live in my thoughts, don’t know what I feel
Lets hide in the moment and live for the thrill
This time I’ll be fine ‘cause these pills fucking kill
The voice that keeps talking inside of my head
Louder and louder it screams that we’re dead
I’m cautiously waiting, so carefully tread
You speak without words but enough has been said

Cautious

SMILE :)

https://soundcloud.com/nicolassales

lyrics

Changed this world
With a laptop
Evolving till the life stop
Creating till the sun don’t shine

Soul bound
Save you from a come down
Pull you by the rope now
Ascend up to the warm bright lights

Changed this world
With a laptop
Evolving till the life stop
Creating till the sun don’t shine

Soul bound
Save you from a come down
Pull you by the rope now
Ascend up to the warm bright lights

Kindness
In me
Thriving
Dizzy
Gasoline
In my lungs hitting

Evolving
With me
Homies
Lifting
Ascending high
We’re flying really

I don’t care
Where I fit right
But I can’t care
To decide
I feel I ain’t designed
To live a life that defined

I don't care
Let them glare
I live my life like a dare

Empty stares
Everywhere
They sold control of their life

Who am I
Who am I
Without someone by my side
Who am I
Who am I
Am I not what I decide
What happened
To that person
That I used to be
Did he die
Who am I becoming
Who am I asking this to

Oohhh
Is it a disguise
Is it all a lie

Am I really here
There’s no way to know
Thrown in this world
With nowhere to go
This bird has flown
You’re all alone
Only yourself to call a home

I clear my head
I clear my thoughts
Remove myself from it all
Somehow i am and I am not
Somehow I am and I am not

I see
I taste
I breathe
I hear
I walk
I run
I laugh, I
I search
I find
I wonder why
I wonder why
I wonder why

I Wonder Why

⸸ MUSIC VIDEO ⸸

$LOTHBOI x Nicolas Sales - I Wonder Why

Blank face staring back thru the mirror
Wish I knew where to find another picture
Cold frost lurks through the other window
Damn, I'll never understand how to end up

Try to crash memories but they're all gone
Try to live through the pain but im so lost
Say I cant come back, but ive come up?
What ya say, what ya say, what ya say now?

TAKE MY SOUL
TAKE MY ALL,
TAKE MY ALL, NOW
TIME TO FALL
NOTHER GHOST
IN MY OWN HOUSE

BROKEN MENTAL, IN THE ZONE
IN MY SAFE SPACE -
TRANSFORM, CODE NEVER LEFT ME
NOTHA TASTE FROM THE ORG TRYNA PLACE ME
TIME I GET A FORWARD ON MY OWN PACE

STAY ALONE, ALL THE TIME
DOES IT HELP ME?
FORGOT WHATS ITS LIKE
TO FEEL AGAIN.
TO FEEL AGAIN.
UGH, EY

Blank face staring back thru the mirror
Wish I knew where to find another picture
Cold frost lurks through the other window
Damn, I'll never understand how to end up

Try to crash memories but they're all gone
Try to live through the pain but im so lost
Say I cant come back, but ive come up?
What ya say, what ya say, what ya say now?

I've dug through my pockets, and come up empty...

IDLEGLANCE

I've dug through my pockets, and come up empty... [prod. purc]

HATEME

[Hook]

cuz all these people hate me
that is all i know
told me that they hate me
told me that i’m low
told me on the daily
told me to go home
cuz all these people hate me
that is all i know

all these people hate me
that is all i know
told me that they hate me
told me that i’m low
told me on the daily
told me to go home
cuz all these people hate me
that is all i know


[Part]

cuz all these people hate me
wanna see me fall
wanna see me fail
want me on my own
wanna make me think
that i’m all alone

cuz all these people hate me
that is all i know
smiling in my face
but talking shit when they at home
all these people hate me
hate me to the bone
ask me for a feature
and my answer will be no


[Hook]

cuz all these people hate me
that is all i know
told me that they hate me
told me that i’m low
told me on the daily
told me to go home
cuz all these people hate me
that is all i know

all these people hate me
that is all i know
told me that they hate me
told me that i’m low
told me on the daily
told me to go home
cuz all these people hate me
that is all i know

HATE ME (prod. EXORCIST ⛧)

WANNA KNOW

[Hook]

shawty wanna know
shawty wanna know
when i’m coming back
cuz she’s up home alone
shawty wanna know
shawty wanna know
if i’m calling back
hanging up on the phone

shawty wanna know
shawty wanna know
when i’m coming back
cuz she’s up home alone
shawty wanna know
shawty wanna know
if i’m calling back
hanging up on the phone


[Part]

Tears falling down from the sky
Tears falling down from her eyes
She cries cuz she cannot be with me
But Baby yeah I really need to leave

She wanna be with me, fall asleep
And calls me every day of the week
She really fell in love, so deep
And I know she wanna fuck, she a freak


[Pre-Chorus] 

Shawty wanna know
Shawty wanna know
Shawty wanna know


[Hook]

shawty wanna know
shawty wanna know
when i’m coming back
cuz she’s up home alone
shawty wanna know
shawty wanna know
if i’m calling back
hanging up on the phone

shawty wanna know
shawty wanna know
when i’m coming back
cuz she’s up home alone
shawty wanna know
shawty wanna know
if i’m calling back
hanging up on the phone

WANNA KNOW (prod. EXORCIST ⛧ )

https://ffm.bio/kissthedoctor

地獄楽.  ♱̶̢̢̡̧͕͖̬͍͉͓͙̣̹͎̳͖͍͉͙͉͚̻̦̭̜̪̫̙̘͇̠̳̪͓̭̣̫̦͈̠͚̳͍̻̩̼̤̯̲̤͉͜͜ͅ   ♱̴̧̨͓̗͍͔̦̤̳͎͇͉̼̥̯̜̼̦̞        ♱̶̢̢̡̧͕͖̬͍͉͓͙̣̹͎̳͖͍͉͙͉͚̻̦̭̜̪̫̙̘͇̠̳̪͓̭̣̫̦͈̠͚̳͍̻̩̼̤̯̲̤͉͜͜ͅ    ☥̵̡̢̡̦̼̭̙͔̬͓̤̩̠̲͉͉͕͈̯̹͓̱̦̼̞̬̳̞̙̟͇͈ͅ
...     ♱̴̧̨͓̗͍͔̦̤̳͎͇͉̼̥̯̜̼̦̞ ♱̶̢̢̡̧͕͖̬͍͉͓͙̣̹͎̳͖͍͉͙͉͚̻̦̭̜̪̫̙̘͇̠̳̪͓̭̣̫̦͈̠͚̳͍̻̩̼̤̯̲̤͉͜͜ͅ

WANNA KNOW (prod. EXORCIST ⛧ )

KISSTHEDOCTOR

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