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v v v
yeah i know
no one knows my name
but i keep on trucking 
i just hope the work 
pays off or fucking something
but if it dont i wont be suprised
hell or nothing and left to die
stayed up every night for a year straight
studying my mixing and studying my membrane
always thought that i was fucking insane
never had no one to relate to, yeah yeah
never had no friends 
still fucking dont
i always end up alone again
and thats my fault too
i push them away
i push them away
please dont put any worth to my name
i swear to fuckin god i dont deserve that shit 
yeah im just a sad ass girl trapped in her room and shit
never leave my room unless i really fuckin have to
i dont know
i dont know
every night i smoke, man it got me feeling slow mo
throat burns, red eyes, and i feel like shit
feel like i wanna crawl in a hole and dip
say you really dont want me to do that
if you really dont want me to, please try and stop me
(try and stop me)
(try and stop me)
uncomfortable like always
always fuckin sweat
always fuckin stress 
about some dumb fuckin shit
always miss my boyfriend
always miss my dad
just wanna feel decent
how hard is that?
how hard is it to feel like im normal?
how hard is it to feel like im clean?
how hard is it to feel like kai?
how hard is it to feel alright?
aye, aye, 
no one knows my name
but i keep on truckin
i could just repeat that shit 
but i feel like workin
and i feel like nothing
hopefully im something
maybe ill find out one fuckin day but
not soon
yeah i was in marshall and u called me
said ur in asheville, can you meet me soon?
and i hit u back, said "im down, im down, im down"
always really am but you dont understand
look at twitter once then you go and advance
babe i think your heads clouded give me a chance
you look fucking flawless how you are boy dont trip
ay one grand for a trip (one trip)
just to hold my boy in my arms real quick (real quick)
yeah its real fucking tuff long distance relationship shit
yeah but its real love thats the shit you dont get.

hell or nothing (pekarot)

let up ft.gauze (prod. michael rose)

KILL MY SELF [PROD.MIKEYLIKESITTxNONSENSE]

him <3

lyrics:
telling me that i'm better off dying all alone,
but i wanna be with you, we can finally grow
old together, me and you in cold weather,
i'ma keep my shit with me, i'ma keep my shit together for you

do you hear me? do you think i'm dead?
could you heal me? can i rest my head
on your chest? i'll wake up on your bed,
i wanna tell you 'bout how things were never meant to be

hold me close dear, i don't wanna lose you here,
dropping you, it's the only thing i'm really scared of,
got me full of fear, baby i'm here,
i know that you're worth it cause you act like you're sent from above

canopy

A Gift And A Curse

HOW DOES IT FEEL

lyrics ⬇️ :))).    PROD GREENWOOD.

talk to myself on the daily
Switch up my mood got me shaking
you swore it’s the truth never makin sense
i wish u could call you my baby
But lately
you and I have both been failing
you never used to talk to my friends like that
now everywhere I go I gotta watch my back
look at my surroundings 
I think they’re approaching
now they gotta bounty on me
Idc low care
I’m not one to run away so you gon have to face me
maybe there’s another day where you will get to play me
or play me not
If you watch me rot away will I be worth a shot
Prolly not because I change every day when your gone
so let’s be honest 
you been breakin me down
you left a promise but there was nothing found

decks 🐐

i broke a promise to ya honestly i never thought
that it would change everything that i thought i knew and i
fought the battle but the war was too much all along
i still remember all those nights out on the promenade
and i wish that i could take it all back
i see the message in the pitch black
never good, its always bad, how do you live like that?
several months and now you're asking for a little back

greenwood 🐐

two weeks could you call back?
looking outside of the pain but it's all that
i don't want hope cause i'm holding it so bad
just to find out in the end that it don't last
don't ask questions i don't want new friends
got old ones but they pretend
so i'm paranoid for the weekend
might disappear just to free them, fuck

slow burn surrounding it
with a subtle breath i'm wearing thin these days
suddenly so attached
up in the place i'm at
summer had come so fast
wanted to stop so bad

play me, or play me not w/ decks & greenwood

@nate2timezz  

Lyrics:

Blood flow
Blood flows out my neck
Like the drugs you bring me closer to death
I carry burdens and stress
Don’t go
But you already left
So I’m getting higher, till I repent
Can’t keep doing this I’ll start to resent you

That’s the last thing I wanna do
Spread my ashes under the moon
Kill the person I am
Become someone new
Depression is the home i know
I’ve grown so comfortable with cold
All my inconsistencies 
Eat like a disease
Can you get me outta this
Don’t think that my heart can even handle it
So many times ive been beaten down, 
Till I don’t even have the strength to get up
I try to cover up my pain and all my lost trust
Cover it all up with new clothes
And new hoes
Still feel alone
Leave another hole in me, baby imma bleed slow

Blood flow
Blood flows out my neck
Like the drugs you bring me closer to death
I carry burdens and stress
Don’t go
But you already left
So I’m getting higher, till I repent
Can’t keep doing this I’ll start to resent you

Cut me deeper 
I can’t really feel inside
It’s okay take my life
It’ll be fine let’s pass time
Sippin wine with my ghost
Glowing eyes, heavy smoke
Lead the blind, to a rope
Make me choke 
make choke on all my words
You make me wanna sip until my vision blurs
Until my vision blurs
Think about the past it’s all a blur
But I’m still disturbed that’s for sure
That’s my curse
I don’t wanna ask if it get worse
Cause it still hurts
Tell me what’s your motive on this earth
Descended from the heavens like an angelic demon
I came from nothing no meaning
So now I give myself meaning
Don’t need a reason I’m breathing
just fighting the feeling
Fighting the feeling

Spotify

BLOOD FLOW (prod. nate2timez & Blocktane)

(Lyrics)

U say it’s love
I know it’s not
I know it’s nothing I can stop
U say it’s love
I know it’s not
I know it’s nothing I can stop

So when we break up u better fucking leave me alone
All the things I did for u, u turned a house to a home
I never thought I’d make it thru, u had a delicate tone
When u said I’d be okay I almost cried on the phone
People talkin, I don’t even hear a word that they say
Ima cover up my ears and pray for a better day
Every time u were away yeah I was going insane 
I need us to be done but when u crying my name

It’s harder, and harder to kill ur ghost 
Cinematic lies and tropes
In my room, I should make a toast
To never love again cause I don’t know how to cope

I hate all our history, it’s leaving me with misery 
I do not want ur sympathy, u lying was a mystery
I guess it wasn’t meant to be, u don’t know what u meant to me
I’ll kill my sorrows mentally, I’m passed out from the pills it seems

U say it’s love
I know it’s not
I know it’s nothing I can stop
U say it’s love
I know it’s not
I know it’s nothing I can stop

Why do u insist to fix problems that don’t exist
U bitch, u left me cut up like my wrist, a slit
Ur stuck in my mind like a tick, i sit
And wonder where i should begin

My therapist says that ur a heretic
Ur too fucking arrogant, I’m not ur experiment
It’s hard to make comparisons
I locked away my feelings in a garrison

U say it’s love
I know it’s not
I know it’s nothing I can stop
U say it’s love
I know it’s not
I know it’s nothing I can stop

i hate our history. [prod. sorrow bringer]

Thinking out loud

why cant you be happy? (prod. mydepression)

On Me // Grave .

soundcloud.com/elijahheaps
soundcloud.com/curtainss

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dA2HcNieR0U

Toxic w/ Elijah Heaps (prod. curtains)(VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION)

all i needed

bitty - All I Needed (prod. river beats)

Produced by @taxpurposes 

Lyrics: 
Lay me face down put me in the 
basement 
Take me out when you doubt that I'm waiten
Know you pout and you wanna trade places 
Babygirl don't think that I could ever really fake this 
Use me for the moments that your life feel like a nightmare 
Been moven fast but I think I'm stoppen right here 
Late night walls talk  not as much as these sheets 
Taste my lips a lot before she go to sleep
Repeat in the morning alright 
Fill all these cracks in our fault lines 
I don't shake anymore when can't find a meaning 
I believe when you say that you don't plan on leaving 
I wanna see your skin in august 
I bet that you still keep the picture in your locket
I'll let her check me when I'm outa pocket 
You couldn't do a thing to make me ever not want it 
Ima go and say it I still feel same
4 years watch four more out the windowpane 
Then 50 after long as we're together 
Take this always for worse or better
Lay me face down put me in the 
basement 
Take me out when you doubt that I'm waiten
Know you pout and you wanna trade places 
Think we fall apart when can't share the same spaces 
Lay me face down put me in the 
basement 
Take me out when you doubt that I'm waiten
Know you pout and you wanna trade places 
You know what I'm about when I say let's 
Make this forever 
Late night walls talk  not as much as these sheets 
Taste my lips a lot before she go to sleep
Late night walls talk  not as much as these sheets 
Taste my lips a lot before she go to sleep
Lay me face down put me in the 
basement 
Take me out when you doubt that I'm waiten
Know you pout and you wanna trade places 
Babygirl don't think that I could ever really fake this 
Lay me face down put me in the 
basement 
Take me out when you doubt that I'm waiten
Know you pout and you wanna trade places 
Think we fall apart when can't share the same spaces 
Ima go and say it I still feel same
4 years watch four more out the windowpane 
Then 50 after long as we're together 
Take this always for worse or better

Feel The Same (prod. taxpurposes)

BUM BITCH x PHEE6Z

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