Happy Halloween 🎃 ~ (freestyle)


This beautiful beat was created by~ SICKID
https://youtube.com/@sickkidwav?si=V2DNAlxlWU_X2xF0



📸~verysickinhumancreature (instagram)



Lyrics:

Sometimes I feel like this love is made up
Like the love that I need, will never be with me 
Maybe I just think too deep
The weight of all this pressures making it harder for me to breath
I just been smoking all this weed, to try and fall asleep
Cauterize my wounds and my cuts that still bleed
Watch the blood drip off my body as it leaves
It's not something I want to have to need
My skin is something I'm just really not comfortable in
I've had a bad experience with love that makes it hard to love again
Especially when I've been changed through the pain from what i've had to live
It's been hard to explain to girls I've loved, I was touched by the devil as a kid
So now the love, that I desire, is unrealistic and adrift 
I've been traveling this void trying my hardest not to give
Nothing less than my truth 
& every more that I can gift
Trust me that I understand this pain
I see the evil of the world and wonder how it came
I just try to be a light of sum kind to guide the way
To those that I love and even those that seem estranged 
It's just hard when they start thinking of you weak enough to take advantage of
Cause of all the good that you do and unconditional love you that you been handin'
I'm blessed enough to say I have the strength to keep them banished 
I didn't think with how my love shined that it could be blinding
I should have known that with how I resemble some diamonds
Some people would try to take from me, so I've been taken for granted and taken advantage of
As they try to recreate the greatness of me
But I'm authentically myself  
As it is written in the scene
So you will never have what it takes to be me
And be as amazing as it seems
Lights, eyes, action,
and then seen.

a note to self

"I'd rather chase a dream without having a clue where it'll take me." 🥀🌙

Wanderer.

a note to self

Kōru