I'm so thankful that I found you 💜💜💜

<#333333 sorry that i couldn't get  best of, you

this shits been stuck in my head for weeks bro!

@rouri404

(maxime)
you left me open cut me open like a surgeon
cut so fucking deep now its got me hurting
yeah i didnt deserve this always lookin at it wrong
like did you deserve this?
yeah im uncertain get the money
then you know im fuckin splurgin
on a never ending cycle self destruction
blow it up escape this rut and then im running
now i fuckin run shit

(rouri404)
cut 2 deep blood puddled 2 my ankles
constant state of panic
Know id do it if u say so
anxious throwin up always say we goin up
know I used 2 give a fuck 
now I just want on that payroll 
clawing out my eyes at the sight of seein u with him
sun will never rise if I don’t admit 
2 myself that I need 2 get over this shit

self destruction w/ rouri404 (p. jolst)

out on all platforms

the moment felt familiar when we walked to that lake
had my hand grasped to yours tight, in spite of your dismay
the leaves started falling, you averted your gaze
why the face?

why the face

and i'm losing my hair over someone who don't care about me
hiding frustration the emotions fall out of me and i can barely take it
signs clear can't mistake it
it comes to a barrier that i couldn't even break if i tried

just lay down and hide
you never gave a fuck about my health in the first place, the first place
so fuck off with your standards, get outta my face and just
take your
hands off my neck and you'll
learn a bit of some fucking respect, i'm so
nervous, an emotional wreck
not again
not again, not again

if you
say so
i'd just
lay low
take time
die slow
take time
die slow

running round in circles, such a fucking hypocrite, a little liquor, never hurts me as long as i forget about, youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

as long as i forget about you

1st Place

1st Place (prod. Pekarot)

produced by xona <3

-lyrics-
so I walk right  here left stranded 
got nothing left worth landing
but I beg that you stay
just move on out my way
so tell me what I could’ve done 
these voices is cunning enough
the picture of us, had it rough
the edges that we’ve broken up

and there’s ice, forming my skin 
oh why
you bruise me like it’s fine
I’ve never seen blood on my knife
see the world in a different height
I don’t know what I am to you 
and I’m up feeling rude
saw you in a different light
deviance is upmost-

oh bad timing 
can you follow through?
oo~
I don’t feel alright
I don’t care what you say
break me down and left astray
oo~

~I’m terrified~
I wouldn’t like me too
there’s a discord from us too
and I suffocate
no truths
can save me from the ruins
and I hate your stay
curls run down your shoulders weight
care for a break?
care for a break?
I’ll end me before this day (okay?)
tell me what you wonder
tell me what you need
I wasn’t kidding when I said "leave"
sitting under trees, writing for me
you’ve been distant to my plead

oh bad timing 
can you follow through?
oo~
I don’t feel alright
I don’t care what you say
break me down and left astray
oo~

curls

spotify

https://open.spotify.com/track/0bqdZ25dWQ6LgEV3G8J9fu?si=0c6142c1cf9e46a0

biteki vid vvvvvv
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zmOMzIdftbo

lov u fern <33 @x1fern

mix and master by me

Vocals
https://soundcloud.com/kryst4n/lovely-ft-fern-p-king-theta-184-bm-vocals/s-5c5ywlaA5qq?si=ba41921996cf453f851b8906a4d4068a&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

lyrics ~

(me)
paint me darling
make me important
cuz id do anything just for a glimpse of ur attention
tell me ur sorry said don't even worry
u couldnt mess up anything if u tried tried
my dear ur perfect
ur so lovely
I was drowning in hurt until u came beside me
cuz u lighten my mood and there's stars all around me
cuz u make it so bright when its raining and cloudy

(fern)
tell me a secret 
cuz i cant believe it
i've been thinking bout you at my 9 to 5
and how i wanna spend my whole life
shawty in my head got me kinda fucked up
sitting in my room wanna say i love you
tryna be cool but im burning up inside
baby if u have me im here for the ride
im here for the ride

(me)
paint me darling
make me important
cuz id do anything just for a glimpse of ur attention
tell me ur sorry said don't even worry
u couldnt mess up anything if u tried tried
my dear ur perfect
ur so lovely
I was drowning in hurt until u came beside me
cuz u lighten my mood and there's stars all around me
cuz u make it so bright when its raining and cloudy

lovely feat 1fern prod king theta

so this is off of my old PC which broke and i lost all the files :p so if mix sounds weird that why,,..hoppeeee u enjoy(:
presave fisheye !!! ffm.to/fisheye

(shoutout @youngburial @dead4cf for gettin on <3)

codependent w/fatse & 4cf (xmichaelwarren)

Mixed/Mastered By Me
-
Featuring https://soundcloud.com/funeral
-
Produced By https://soundcloud.com/dxnnyfxntom & https://soundcloud.com/prodmichael
-
Lyrics

cut deep, so much hate in me, it runs deep
no i don't wanna stay awake, god i just wanna sleep
i lay me down, i pray to u, i pray my soul to keep
lie in the shadows, in my sorrow, i just die and weep x2

I’ll just die and weep ya she is tired of me
and now she’s kicking me out and I got nowhere to sleep 
I’m gonna rest in peace 
while u was talking to me
and u just wasted my damn time 
and u were making it clear
that u didn’t need me

cause sometimes u would bring it up that I was clumsy 
and it hurts to know that u don’t love me
not anymore ur not here

cut deep so much hate in me it runs deep 
no i don't wanna stay awake no I just wanna sleep

cut deep, so much hate in me, it runs deep
no i don't wanna stay awake, god i just wanna sleep
i lay me down, i pray to u, i pray my soul to keep
lie in the shadows, in my sorrow, i just die and weep x2

just wanna sleep w/ funeral (dxnnyfxntom x michaelwarren)

eyelids (drma x yunny)

prod by me :)

lyrics:

smokin brick in my free time, 
if he wanna test me we gon show him how the lights shine
i think you should ask him if it's brighter on the other side
don't be talkin shit if you can't back it boy it'll save your life

don't be takin shit from people I don't even understand
that's why you'll stay in my dm's actin like some fucking fan
you should really grow a pair and say it with your chest man
actin so pussy but you never even seen that

I know if I keep on talking shit things will get bad
but you hurt me and I won't forget that
If I go to hell you're gonna have to come with me


[[retaliation & hesitance]]

clone

𝘪𝘮𝘢 𝘳𝘶𝘪𝘯 𝘮𝘺 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦
additional production by me
https://open.spotify.com/album/1Q2ggA8q5zizowN7b2AJat?si=_dkJHWDjSz6JXoDPz9XwNw
visualizer: https://youtu.be/ELC3oCwdewU

(I’ma say sorry then I do again)
(I’ma burn every bridge, till’ I’m stuck in the ends)
(Now you live in my head, now I play pretend)
(I don’t wanna die, but I think about it)
(Swear I wanna die when I think about it)
(Hard to see the light when your thoughts clouded)
(And I only feel alive when the room’s crowded)

You’ve been outta touch for a minute, I know
You been outta reach, you’ve been trying to grow
And it’s hard to breathe when you think about it
Hard to say sorry when it don’t mean shit

I’ma ruin my life, I’ma fuck up my friends
I’ma say sorry, then I’ll do it again
I’ma burn every bridge, till’ I’m stuck in the ends
Now you live in my head, now I play pretend

I don’t wanna die, but I think about it
Swear I wanna die when I think about it
Hard to see the light when your thoughts clouded
And I only feel alive when the room’s crowded

I’ma ruin my life, I’ma fuck up my friends
I’ma say sorry, then I’ll do it again
I’ma burn every bridge, till’ I’m stuck in the ends
Now you live in my head, now I play pretend

I don’t wanna die, but I think about it
Swear I wanna die when I think about it
Hard to see the light when your thoughts clouded
And I only feel alive when the room’s crowded

I don’t wanna die, but I think about it
Swear I wanna die when I think about it
Hard to see the light when your thoughts clouded
And I only feel alive when the room’s crowded

I don’t wanna die, but I think about it
Swear I wanna die when I think about it
Hard to see the light when your thoughts clouded
And I only feel alive when the room’s crowded

ends (simon m)

i made this 7 months ago and still  kind of hate my part
@karoisnotok killed it ty to @starsbeforesunrise as well for making the drop <33

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VMrf88KA_aQ
BITEKI VID ^^^^^^^^^^
lyrics~

(kryst3n)
you came to me w some real lies
i walked out before i realized
that i couldnt live wout u
say imma change but i  never get around to
keep telling me how i messed up
im sorry that i couldnt get the best of u
now ive been tryna keep my head up
its not that hard when ur not breathing down my neck

now im stuck in bed wout u
im sorry i ever shout at u
now im stuck inside a cloudy room
im sorry i ever doubted u

(karo)
could u tell me
how to avoid all the drowning
would you help me
if you saw that i was the one drowning
liike ur favorite season u are ice cold
i feel like ur one that i might hold
every day i feel im on a tight rope
every time we talk i get the eyeroll
told u i am not enough u didnt listen
now ur running off sayin u are quiting
now u wanna talk to me like tell me whats the difference
just take a second and look at the distance
right up between us
angry red phoenix
talking like u mean it but u dont really mean us
and nothing comes between us
pull strings like a seamstress
everybody talking but not one of them have seen us

around2 ft okay karo p king theta, starsbeforesunrise

produced xona
guitar by oc

@b_murph

-lyrics-
you swore to be the one i could trust
but things don’t end up that way
where i fall for you again 
i just wanted to see
whatever you wanted to bring
cause i’m happy when i’m with you
and you saw that in me and knew

you would tear it apart
so do you want to harm and ignore the start that connects my heart?
it doesn’t matter to you
i’m just blind to the truth
i guess it’s too much to handle
when alone in this room

so the harm is done
can’t open my arms
she watched me rot
and i gave it up

yeah, i put all my trust in you
guessing that was a mistake
and i cant get away from you 
you're just stuck in my head these days
tell me what you're going through
yeh, you know i'd be there for you
just don't tell me the truth
bout what you're bout to do
picture perfect when i look at your face
yeah, i can't seem to look away
no i can't look away from you

but could you just lie to me, lie to me, lie to me
'cause i don't want you to leave
no i don't want you to leave me
uh
so could you just stay with me, stay with me, stay with me
'cause i never wanna see you go
this is our home

i was over it
to bury within all the foliage
i couldn’t stop to think that i would catch no sleep holding-
so you brag and hold my hand
keep touch and make a path
to stay close without a past
so please don’t forget that

picture perfect

picture perfect w/ bmurph

disc @kryst3n
@kryst4n
proud member of @forgort
also proud member of @starsfallen

around2 ft okay karo p king theta, starsbeforesunrise

kryst3n

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