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im trapped in seperation feat claude (king theta)

rip jd
production by king theta

think i’d start to notice
when things go out of focus
you play me like a fool
the one i am
but i just can’t understand
why its always in your hands
and i know its all for show
you’re just an actor on your own

blood
on your hands when you’re feeling numb
feel like a fool
but crawl back when it’s said and done

but i just can’t understand
why it’s always in your hands
and i know it’s all for show
you’re just an actor on your own

in the middle of the night
i see ghosts in all directions
and i can’t even wonder why
it’s haunting me, it’s haunting me

i know
maybe you were right
cause i have no reflection and im
bleeding from my eyes
you’re taunting me, you’re taunting me

but i can’t understand
why im always dealt this hand
so ill cry on the phone
you’re just an actor on your own

blood
on your hands when you’re feeling numb
feel like a fool
but crawl back when it’s said and done

but i just can’t understand
why it’s always in your hands
and i know it’s all for show
you’re just an actor on your own

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hands (king theta)

mixed by @luvkurtis
prod by pekarot
lyrics:

And i've got this pit in my gut
I'm not sure what I want
So ill keep my mouth shut
And I'll just bottle it up
But you told me to

(chorus)
U told me to
Talk it out

I'm breaking
I don't know how

I know that we’re
over now

You said that its fine but im
Breaking apart

And I cant keep
Doing this all on my own

I'm breaking apart
I don't know where to go

You told me its
Fine but i'm not even
Sure if i'll make it back home

And id cry when i needed ya
I cant keep faking but i'm too conceited ya
You'd tell me to calm down when i get too heated yea
You know i can't leave my life here without you

But you know
You'd pick me when i was low

You taught me how
to pick up the phone

You taught me how
To just let it go

(chorus)
U told me to
Talk it out

I'm breaking
I don't know how

I know that we’re
over now

You said that its fine but im
Breaking apart

And I'm, And I'm giving up
And I, And I need someone
And I, And I, And I hate your guts
And I, And I dont think I'd

Ever run
I hope that I
Become what you want
And I cannot
Talk Im done
If im breaking I'll
Suck it up
I know that its
Over now
Still wish we could
Talk somehow
But I've become numb
And you dont know what
I've become

U told me to
Talk it out

I'm breaking
I don't know how

I know that we’re
over now

You said that its fine but im
Breaking apart 2x

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talk it out

[LYRICS]
i wanna fall fast asleep 
i think i’ve fallen in deep 
the walls are starting to speak 
my life means nothin to me 
shit faced everyday fuck a weekend 
cant wait for the day that im leaving 
i’ve been living all the shit that im singing 
burnt out i don’t know what im thinking 

don’t wanna remember the end of the night
i was so fucked up i thought i would die 
i guess there’s a reason why im still alive
but i feel like there’s something missing inside
baby im so alone
i party with ghosts
you’ll never see them and you’ll never know
but that’s how it goes
when you’re diagnosed 
i need a drink i need a dose 
so what if i fuck up my life 
so what if im fallin behind 
i don’t think i wanna live 
i couldn’t do this again 
oh no please don’t leave me in here
(im prayin prayin)
sitting in silence 
my tongue i bite it
i been out wilding
getting lit till im dying 
i’m dying

i wanna fall fast asleep 
i think i’ve fallen in deep 
the walls are starting to speak 
my life means nothin to me 
shit faced everyday fuck a weekend 
cant wait for the day that im leaving 
i’ve been living all the shit that im singing 
burnt out i don’t know what im thinking 

thank u to @nokerbforever for mastering this song and thank you to everyone who sticks around to listen :3
this song is about my struggles with alcoholism so its a bit personal but hope u enjoy!

PARTY4GHOST

PARTY4GHOST [branwen x ryini beats]

feat. @claudesdiary
prod. dercept x jkei
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(lyrics)

im runnin fast in my forces
i said something but i dont think that its important yeah
i felt some things but i just think that i ignored it
i couldnt smell a thing cuz of the white that i just snorted

im runnin fast in my forces
filled with cracks like some porcelain
i made some racks and i just balled em up and torched them
lookin at my past there was a couple of misfortunes

-claude-

im finna get me a bag
why they gon tell me its bad
i needa get them racks fast
no we ain’t gon make it back
im finna put that on my life
someone come get me high
roll it up touch the sky

i was always on my fuckin knees being treated less
do u understand a single thing? has it been making sense?
don’t tell me that it’s over
don’t tell me that it won’t hurt

i was always on my fuckin knees being treated less
do u understand a single thing? has it been making sense?
don’t tell me that it’s over
don’t tell me that it won’t hurt


:')

porcelain feat. claude

spedup by 1🤤

mix master by me

vocals
https://soundcloud.com/kryst4n/payperview-vocals-130-bminor/s-difQAkXR1rF?si=e27bf0426497488f932c3416aa5e994d&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

lyrics
if u dont feel it say that
dont lead me on dont make me feel bad
and u said u loved me did u really mean- fuck that
and before u leave and pick up ur keys
you could just say that
you didnt want me at all
u just wanna leave it all

(chorus)
like bitch i cant see at all
like whyd i trip i shouldnt care at all
weight on my chest it aint the best
and i cant breathe at all
like bitch i dont know what u want
say u want me, u dont, ur dumb
count up my bread by the end of the month
u were all I thought I'd want
one good month was all i wanted
ud have to go get him involved
cuz u know u needed someone else
i guess i wasnt that great for u
alone garnering hate for u
ur watching me like pay per view
i tried before but I fucked it up
I tried before but u fucked me up

so we'll leave it at that
i been trying to heal
its better but still bad
i know u dont feel bad
you set my heart cold but i still feel
ur caught in a lie and I wonder what was real
I blunder, u forgot the deal
and my hearts still cold
I'm walking a tightrope
I'm better off keeping my eyes closed
i wonder where the fuck my time go
no its not great for me
and im whipping i dont wanna drive slow
u had to be so damn dry though
like what was ur deal
tried hard but we couldnt be real
u didnt see me i didnt appeal

(chorus)

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produced by mix
thank you, everyone,
sorry its been awhile
love every last one of you <3
wish me a happy birthday :D

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lyrics:

Oh that's music to my ear-

I'll hold my grudge
cause you lie too much
now you're mocking me
why can't you see?

I see myself in a ditch 
filled with rocks and sand in it
will you come and pull me out of here?
I know that the end is near
It's been different since I was cured
remembering pain that I endured
been pushed in dirt so many times

how am I even alive?

I can see the light
how am I alive?
i don't wanna die
how am I alive?
I can see the light
how am I alive?
i don't wanna die
how am I alive?

I'll hold my grudge
Cause you lie too much
Now you're mocking me
why can't you see?

(how am I alive?)
(alive, alive, alive)


how am I alive?
I just wanna die
should I end my life?
should I use this knife?

thank you <3

childhood

produced by xona

@seenyona

-lyrics-
the only path that I run is getting worse than I’d want
got to you without a fuss and you didnt even care enough
to ask if I’m good or better than way before
hoping it’s a get back and less of hearts being torn 
I got too much hatred overtaking my entire heart
even on the side ive been looking for the way-

cause the way that I hide
makes it ever harder to come by
I can’t decide
whether I should cut the rope that ties
no, don’t I wanna live with myself
but I’d rather die then ask for your help
so how can you act on guilt
when you caused this to wilt

cant let down, someone youve never had
im pushing past all the static man
your words cut past my flesh, and im 
sure if they heard the vile words
they'd leave just like i did before causin quivering lips
who the fuck you think you are, constantly giving me lip? 
no matter how many times u post your body
it wont ever give the same attention that i give

cause the way that I hide
makes it ever harder to come by
I can’t decide
whether I should cut the rope that ties
no, don’t I wanna live with myself
but I’d rather die then ask for your help
so how can you act on guilt
when you caused this to wilt

locket

locket w/ yona

yona x @grasior prod @xona

"yona"
spiral through
past the bend
cant see anything with the glare in my lens
to for close
ill make amends
so ill set you aside and take my chance to ascend

step onto the field
WATCH THE GROUND SPLIT IN HALF
twitching in my eye,
HAVENT SLEPT IN DAYS MAN
force myself out of bed,
EVEN WHEN I CANT
muster up the courage,
GHAUL OR STRENGTH

"grasior"
i would lie to cross away with you
how many losses for a blood moon
weeks spent in a lonely hue
wake up i hear your fate is soon

heard you whispers now i cant let go
keep on climbing oh your a coward no?
fall apart the only thing is hope
you keep on talking with nobody home

who do you think you are
talk behind their back like they never go far
seasons change in your head
when you keep talking about
how cold the air is how cold the air is

keep on talking hard like you'd never go far
i've been wondering if you know who you are
you keep on living life in your fantasy world
how true (x2)

ice breaker w/ grasior

shotgun carousel

[LYRICS]
i been tryna get on
headlines headlines 
but im frozen like a deer in front of headlights 
and i wanna make it clear that nothings alright 
seems like everything i feared is right by my side 
oh i swear to god it’s like they’ll never notice 
talk to me like i’m some sort of bonus 
im nobody you’re nobody important 
all the vices that i carry make me dormant 

i’m feeling a rush going right through my blood 
then it disappears and it makes my body numb 
i’ve been feeling so vacant and i’m still patiently waiting  
i’ve been fucking up my life for no reason drugs and pretty faces my weakness 
praying night and day oh jesus 
ill accept the last resort when hell freezes 
oh i cant simply forget it 
i’m just a low life a peasant 
and i would kill just to get it
a life that i’d never step in
thats why im tryna get on

headlines headlines
but im frozen like a deer in front of headlights 
and i wanna make it clear that nothings alright 
seems like everything i feared is right by my side 
oh i swear to god it’s like they’ll never notice 
talk to me like i’m some sort of bonus 
im nobody you’re nobody important 
all the vices that i carry make me dormant

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