✦hope u like it :) recorded the part on like my first days w covid xd but i was able to finish it b4 it striked me down lol if u ever have or need anything just text me! i appreciate everyone listening to this <3✦

lyrics
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cuz i know that shit's gonna hurt u 
when u see me up 
and i want that shit to happen 
cuz u did hurt me too 
and for myself im in a different spot now 
couldn't hide my pain that night,
she was LAUGHING ME OUT..

couldnt see the pain inside ur eyes, 
was it really all my fault?
now im asking myself what'd i do wrong
i know thats not what im supposed to do
cuz it wasnt my fault and u know that too

my vision's going blurry,
i cannot see anymore
which path should i choose,
the right or the left one?
i didnt do wrong 
yeah im feeling so dumb
fell down so often,
i cannot move on

all this pressure on me..
feeling like im dying!
im doing slowly,
but no one notice
not even my closest one's
"i just wanna closure"
i just wanna go far
where nobody finds me

cuz i know that shit's gonna hurt u
when u see me up
and i want that shit to happen
cuz u did hurt me too
and for myself im in a different spot now
couldn't hide my pain that night,
she was LAUGHING ME OUT..

DEMON AMV <3

LAUGHING ME OUT (altery)

this was the most fun i done had recordin lol xD

###LYRICS###
{@silentcxbin}
(ooooh)
bitch I sport a milli
when I walk it like I talk it
pants to heavy 
now they hanging 
cause the pockets

{@jcastralife}
who is that yo bitch
we just pop it like a socket 
you know that I'm ridin' with my boys 
yeah mobbin'

{@silentcxbin}
throw us in the cell yeah
the way we be locked in
fuck up a bag!
but I triple up my profits

{@jcastralife}
I'm gon' raid the spot
laptops, keys & wallets
throw him in a pit
fuck throwin' him in a coffin

{@jcastralife}
cause todays another day
yeah you couldn't go away
so you're waiting for the sun
but all you found was shade

{@silentcxbin}
talk shit!
ima make it whip
just like a bobble head
walk it I be in the park
I got my dogs again

{@jcastralife}
hold up

that lil baby be heaven sent
why she have to take my 
fuckin' breath again

{@silentcxbin}
daisies in my grave 
yeah ok that's my flower bed
nicotine and weed
with the night is my medicine 

{@jcastralife}
I stay up late at night 
in my head

{@silentcxbin}
I don't wanna talk bout 
where you been

{@jcastralife}
yeah I told you yesterday
that you didn't get your way 
see you walked this path I paved
now you end up in your grave
cause todays another day
yeah you couldn't go away
see you walked this path I paved
now you end up in your grave

{@silentcxbin}
bitch I sport a milli
when I walk it like I talk it
pants to heavy 
now they hanging 
cause the pockets

{@jcastralife}
who is that yo bitch
we just pop it like a socket 
you know that I'm ridin' with my boys 
yeah we mobbin'

{@silentcxbin}
throw us in the cell yeah
the way we be locked in
fuck up a bag!
but I triple up my profits

{@jcastralife}
I'm gon' raid the spot
laptops, keys & wallets
throw him in a pit
fuck throwin' him in a coffin

////////////////////////////////
!!other cool shit bout the song!!
mixed & master by: @silentcxbin
prod by: kibo
gear:  dbx 286s, shure sm7b, electro voice 410, scarlet 2i2
inspo: shinigami - vengeance ft: fats'e & 93feetofsmoke /// Savage Ga$p x Shinigami x convolk - i guess i'm over it

#5  w/ AstraLife (kibo)

Featuring: @nokerbforever
Written by: Kurama SD & NOKERB
Produced by: jolst & dercept 
Mixed by: JoshIGuess & NOKERB
Mastered by: NOKERB
Artwork by: Kurama SD

[Intro: Kurama SD]
Some days I feel like a ghost
Feel like a ghost 
Going crazy in the back of the class 
I never thought anything 
You said was true 
So what the fuck dude 
True 

[Chorus: NOKERB]
Cuz i know that she doesn't move on,
Doesn't move on yeah she doesn't do that, 
And she wants to drag me down with her 
Yeah she doesn't go, 
She always looks into one direction 
Is it just her ghost who talks to me?
x2 

[Verse: Kurama SD]
I fucked up 
I know I did
At least I didn't hide it 
I'm still a letdown 
I'm still a letdown 

Thought I was cool
But I always lose 
Nobody cares 
Who I am 
(WHO I AM) 

[Chorus: NOKERB]
Cuz i know that she doesn't move on,
Doesn't move on yeah she doesn't do that, 
And she wants to drag me down with her 
Yeah she doesn't go, 
She always looks into one direction 
Is it just her ghost who talks to me?
x2 

[Outro: Kurama SD]
Think I know everything 
But I know nothing 
So I fade away

GHOST w/ NOKERB (Prod. jolst & dercept)

Featuring: @yokaidreams 
Written by: Kurama SD & Yokai Dreams
Produced by: grayskies 
Mixed by: JoshIGuess & Yokai Dreams 
Mastered by: JoshIGuess 
Artwork by: Kurama SD

[Intro: Kurama SD]
(Back off)
Life brings hell 
In the worst ways
Life is pain
(Life is pain)

[Verse 1: Kurama SD]
I walk through the burning path
Feels like broken glass
Every step is full of wrath 
The scars are still on my skin
From when you sunk your teeth in
Still I moved on though I'm bleeding 
at least I'm fucking breathing 
Everything is burning to pieces 

[Pre-Chorus: ]
Burning trees 
And Oranges leaves
Maybe I just need to 

[Chorus: Yokai Dreams]
back off
i need to back off
from fighting battles i can't win
stand off
i need to stand tall
i'm fighting battles deep within
(deep within)

[Bridge: Kurama SD]
Fighting battles 
Its a handful
I'll mange somehow 
(Somehow)

[Verse 2: Kurama SD]
Seeing red everywhere 
Nothing left here but pain to share
U stare in my eyes 
I can't help but glare 
Flames burn on
I can hardly bare 
All this pain

[Pre-Chorus: Kurama SD]
Burning trees 
And Oranges leaves
Maybe I just need to 

[Chorus: Yokai Dreams]
back off
i need to back off
from fighting battles i can't win
stand off
i need to stand tall
i'm fighting battles deep within
(Deep within)

[Verse 3: Yokai Dreams] 
act right
if i could act right
i wouldn't be in this situation
for now i need to back off
i need to back off
i think the battle's about to begin
about to begin

[Outro: Kurama SD]
I'll be right 
There

Battles I Can't Win w/ Yokai Dreams (Prod. grayskies)

@55depths
@leftunconscious-xo

background vocals by leftunconscious-xo

i'll be there soon.

lyrics:
"hi, it's me.
um, i'm just calling to see
what time you're picking me up
this morning.
um, so just give me a call"

i wrote you a letter
attached to my sweater
and babe it gets better
i thought you should know
i'm trying my best
if love were a test
i'd study for you
with notes on my chest

and give me a reason
to wait through the season
i'm tired of waiting
i'm falling apart
and give me a reason
to stop all the bleeding
i've slowly been fading
no love in my heart

it's never the same
cause things always change
the seasons will know
just how i feel

and give me a reason
to wait through the season
i'm tired of waiting
i'm falling apart
and give me a reason
to stop all the bleeding
i've slowly been fading
no love in my heart

seasons w/ leftunconscious

featuring & engineered by @mjmadeit
produced by @fantom-instrumentals aka @fantommuzik

(Intro)
Tell me what's on your mind?
I know what's on mine
You and me tonight

I just wanna hold you tight
Make you mine
All the time

(Chorus)
I don't wanna fuck around too much and leave you down and out again
I know your heart is set somewhere and i'm just fighting to get in
I know I treated you better without no one else
You know I love you so much even by myself

(JoshIGuess Verse)
And I said why'd you do me like that?
Arguments the only time you hit me right back
I'm sorry I'm not around I've been getting sidetracked
I've gotten comfortable with life while you still feeling attached

I want a simple life not no complications
Wonder if I'll ever last forever dating
I've been tryna work out I've been staying patient
But it's tough knowing things you did were blatant

(Chorus 2)
I don't wanna fuck around too much and leave you down and out again
I know your heart is set somewhere and i'm just fighting to get in
I know I treated you better without no one else
You know I love you so much even by myself

lyric video

Myself w/ NightDreams (Fantom)

forget

@55depths
@silentcxbin
@failure404
produced by me.
EP art by cxbin!

off of the COGNIZANT EP with silentcxbin!

lyrics:
(dth)
you think you know me
but you knew me
face it
while i'm lost in the darkness
and tracing my own chalk outline on the pavement
you must be dreaming
to think
that i'll take this
while i listen to you
exposing the truth in your own self hatred

is this what you want to be when i come back?
things have been tough here too
and you know that
i know you know that
is this what you want to be when i come back?
things have been tough here too
and you know that
i know you know that

(epitomeoffailure)
i know you know that i can't stay
these racing thoughts have been
plaguing my brain
oh how i wish things would
stay the same
now i'm in pain
i have seen better days
i remember when things were simple
now every day just feels like a struggle
to know my place
and where i belong
when half the time
i don't know what's going on

(cxbin)
if i fall will i land?
well take me back to eden
place your bet
draw your hand
but still there never even

okay ya your walking now
okay ill just go on bout
don't wanna sit and pout now
don't wanna be around now

sell my soul
the scripture already written
don't think twice
but maybe i should listen
fucked up now
can't get out the kitchen
shoot at me 
got plenty ammunition
unload rounds in me
in my chest
keeps me down
from doing my best
i'm a stupid fuck
its all in my head
well that's what you wanted right?

(dth)
is this what you want to be when i come back?
things have been tough here too
and you know that
i know you know that
is this what you want to be when i come back?
things have been tough here too
and you know that
i know you know that

tough w/ epitomeoffailure and silentcxbin

produced , written , and performed by Solio

purgatory

mixed/mastered by me 
-
produced by https://soundcloud.com/fantasycamp & https://soundcloud.com/sainttomorrow

asleep in ur arms (fantasy camp + saint tomorrow)

Mixed/Mastered By Me 
-
Produced By https://soundcloud.com/jolst & https://soundcloud.com/pekarot_161
-
Lyrics

don't tell me how to be i don't wanna see
we fight, then more we talk  2 o'clock and i can't fucking sleep 
lining up that coke every night ya i won't fucking breathe 
saw u with some guy but that's a price to pay so 
i don't wanna move on way too fast no 
tell me u don't care 
just know i'm not surprised 
and i'm not sleeping tonight

hold me close to my head 
ima go mia u won't notice
ima leave u out every night 
leave u cause it's time
notice in my eyes i'll despise u till i die
u don't need me nah nah that's okay
cause ima vanish she want stay but i don't care hoe 
nah and don't u ever tell me how to be 

don't tell me how to be i don't wanna see
we fight, then more we talk  2 o'clock and i can't fucking sleep 
lining up that coke every night ya i won't fucking breathe 
saw u with some guy but that's a price to pay so 
i don't wanna move on way too fast no 
tell me u don't care 
just know i'm not surprised 
and i'm not sleeping tonight

we fight, then more we talk (jolst x pekarot)

I'm a musician that makes All kinds of music about both my life and issues I wanna talk about
If you wanna hear my new music I changed accounts here's the link https://soundcloud.com/reapers-shadow

Battles I Can't Win w/ Yokai Dreams (Prod. grayskies)

Kurama SD (New account in bio)