✦hope u like it :) recorded the part on like my first days w covid xd but i was able to finish it b4 it striked me down lol if u ever have or need anything just text me! i appreciate everyone listening to this <3✦

lyrics
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cuz i know that shit's gonna hurt u 
when u see me up 
and i want that shit to happen 
cuz u did hurt me too 
and for myself im in a different spot now 
couldn't hide my pain that night,
she was LAUGHING ME OUT..

couldnt see the pain inside ur eyes, 
was it really all my fault?
now im asking myself what'd i do wrong
i know thats not what im supposed to do
cuz it wasnt my fault and u know that too

my vision's going blurry,
i cannot see anymore
which path should i choose,
the right or the left one?
i didnt do wrong 
yeah im feeling so dumb
fell down so often,
i cannot move on

all this pressure on me..
feeling like im dying!
im doing slowly,
but no one notice
not even my closest one's
"i just wanna closure"
i just wanna go far
where nobody finds me

cuz i know that shit's gonna hurt u
when u see me up
and i want that shit to happen
cuz u did hurt me too
and for myself im in a different spot now
couldn't hide my pain that night,
she was LAUGHING ME OUT..

DEMON AMV <3

LAUGHING ME OUT (altery)

this was the most fun i done had recordin lol xD

###LYRICS###
{@silentcxbin}
(ooooh)
bitch I sport a milli
when I walk it like I talk it
pants to heavy 
now they hanging 
cause the pockets

{@jcastralife}
who is that yo bitch
we just pop it like a socket 
you know that I'm ridin' with my boys 
yeah mobbin'

{@silentcxbin}
throw us in the cell yeah
the way we be locked in
fuck up a bag!
but I triple up my profits

{@jcastralife}
I'm gon' raid the spot
laptops, keys & wallets
throw him in a pit
fuck throwin' him in a coffin

{@jcastralife}
cause todays another day
yeah you couldn't go away
so you're waiting for the sun
but all you found was shade

{@silentcxbin}
talk shit!
ima make it whip
just like a bobble head
walk it I be in the park
I got my dogs again

{@jcastralife}
hold up

that lil baby be heaven sent
why she have to take my 
fuckin' breath again

{@silentcxbin}
daisies in my grave 
yeah ok that's my flower bed
nicotine and weed
with the night is my medicine 

{@jcastralife}
I stay up late at night 
in my head

{@silentcxbin}
I don't wanna talk bout 
where you been

{@jcastralife}
yeah I told you yesterday
that you didn't get your way 
see you walked this path I paved
now you end up in your grave
cause todays another day
yeah you couldn't go away
see you walked this path I paved
now you end up in your grave

{@silentcxbin}
bitch I sport a milli
when I walk it like I talk it
pants to heavy 
now they hanging 
cause the pockets

{@jcastralife}
who is that yo bitch
we just pop it like a socket 
you know that I'm ridin' with my boys 
yeah we mobbin'

{@silentcxbin}
throw us in the cell yeah
the way we be locked in
fuck up a bag!
but I triple up my profits

{@jcastralife}
I'm gon' raid the spot
laptops, keys & wallets
throw him in a pit
fuck throwin' him in a coffin

////////////////////////////////
!!other cool shit bout the song!!
mixed & master by: @silentcxbin
prod by: kibo
gear:  dbx 286s, shure sm7b, electro voice 410, scarlet 2i2
inspo: shinigami - vengeance ft: fats'e & 93feetofsmoke /// Savage Ga$p x Shinigami x convolk - i guess i'm over it

#5  w/ AstraLife (kibo)

Featuring: @yokaidreams 
Written by: Kurama SD & Yokai Dreams
Produced by: grayskies 
Mixed by: JoshIGuess & Yokai Dreams 
Mastered by: JoshIGuess 
Artwork by: Kurama SD

[Intro: Kurama SD]
(Back off)
Life brings hell 
In the worst ways
Life is pain
(Life is pain)

[Verse 1: Kurama SD]
I walk through the burning path
Feels like broken glass
Every step is full of wrath 
The scars are still on my skin
From when you sunk your teeth in
Still I moved on though I'm bleeding 
at least I'm fucking breathing 
Everything is burning to pieces 

[Pre-Chorus: ]
Burning trees 
And Oranges leaves
Maybe I just need to 

[Chorus: Yokai Dreams]
back off
i need to back off
from fighting battles i can't win
stand off
i need to stand tall
i'm fighting battles deep within
(deep within)

[Bridge: Kurama SD]
Fighting battles 
Its a handful
I'll mange somehow 
(Somehow)

[Verse 2: Kurama SD]
Seeing red everywhere 
Nothing left here but pain to share
U stare in my eyes 
I can't help but glare 
Flames burn on
I can hardly bare 
All this pain

[Pre-Chorus: Kurama SD]
Burning trees 
And Oranges leaves
Maybe I just need to 

[Chorus: Yokai Dreams]
back off
i need to back off
from fighting battles i can't win
stand off
i need to stand tall
i'm fighting battles deep within
(Deep within)

[Verse 3: Yokai Dreams] 
act right
if i could act right
i wouldn't be in this situation
for now i need to back off
i need to back off
i think the battle's about to begin
about to begin

[Outro: Kurama SD]
I'll be right 
There

Battles I Can't Win w/ Yokai Dreams (Prod. grayskies)

@55depths
@leftunconscious-xo

background vocals by leftunconscious-xo

i'll be there soon.

lyrics:
"hi, it's me.
um, i'm just calling to see
what time you're picking me up
this morning.
um, so just give me a call"

i wrote you a letter
attached to my sweater
and babe it gets better
i thought you should know
i'm trying my best
if love were a test
i'd study for you
with notes on my chest

and give me a reason
to wait through the season
i'm tired of waiting
i'm falling apart
and give me a reason
to stop all the bleeding
i've slowly been fading
no love in my heart

it's never the same
cause things always change
the seasons will know
just how i feel

and give me a reason
to wait through the season
i'm tired of waiting
i'm falling apart
and give me a reason
to stop all the bleeding
i've slowly been fading
no love in my heart

seasons w/ leftunconscious

featuring & engineered by @mjmadeit
produced by @fantom-instrumentals aka @fantommuzik

(Intro)
Tell me what's on your mind?
I know what's on mine
You and me tonight

I just wanna hold you tight
Make you mine
All the time

(Chorus)
I don't wanna fuck around too much and leave you down and out again
I know your heart is set somewhere and i'm just fighting to get in
I know I treated you better without no one else
You know I love you so much even by myself

(JoshIGuess Verse)
And I said why'd you do me like that?
Arguments the only time you hit me right back
I'm sorry I'm not around I've been getting sidetracked
I've gotten comfortable with life while you still feeling attached

I want a simple life not no complications
Wonder if I'll ever last forever dating
I've been tryna work out I've been staying patient
But it's tough knowing things you did were blatant

(Chorus 2)
I don't wanna fuck around too much and leave you down and out again
I know your heart is set somewhere and i'm just fighting to get in
I know I treated you better without no one else
You know I love you so much even by myself

lyric video

Myself w/ NightDreams (Fantom)

forget

@55depths
@silentcxbin
@failure404
produced by me.
EP art by cxbin!

off of the COGNIZANT EP with silentcxbin!

lyrics:
(dth)
you think you know me
but you knew me
face it
while i'm lost in the darkness
and tracing my own chalk outline on the pavement
you must be dreaming
to think
that i'll take this
while i listen to you
exposing the truth in your own self hatred

is this what you want to be when i come back?
things have been tough here too
and you know that
i know you know that
is this what you want to be when i come back?
things have been tough here too
and you know that
i know you know that

(epitomeoffailure)
i know you know that i can't stay
these racing thoughts have been
plaguing my brain
oh how i wish things would
stay the same
now i'm in pain
i have seen better days
i remember when things were simple
now every day just feels like a struggle
to know my place
and where i belong
when half the time
i don't know what's going on

(cxbin)
if i fall will i land?
well take me back to eden
place your bet
draw your hand
but still there never even

okay ya your walking now
okay ill just go on bout
don't wanna sit and pout now
don't wanna be around now

sell my soul
the scripture already written
don't think twice
but maybe i should listen
fucked up now
can't get out the kitchen
shoot at me 
got plenty ammunition
unload rounds in me
in my chest
keeps me down
from doing my best
i'm a stupid fuck
its all in my head
well that's what you wanted right?

(dth)
is this what you want to be when i come back?
things have been tough here too
and you know that
i know you know that
is this what you want to be when i come back?
things have been tough here too
and you know that
i know you know that

tough w/ epitomeoffailure and silentcxbin

crystal clear [kuromee + junoes]

prod by pablo worldwide + jolst
mix & master by @silentcxbin

###LYRICS###
life goes on
no time to be sad 
bite my tongue 
fuck that
no time to be mad 
and you always have a issue 
I could see it in your face 
wtf you hating cabin for ?
cause you don’t feel the same ?
have you laid in the grass 
did the Trees feel safe 
do you have some where 
to call home ?
are you feeling grey? 
have you seen the sunshine 
do it even feel the same 
I just sit in a shame 
while my body rot decay

you a lame get up out my face 
Worried bout my payment 
I just hit the bank 
I leveled up like everyday since
hell rain down, pussy boy 
I’m already aimed in 
1v1 when I’m alone 
I’ll leave ya brain dead,

I fuck it up 
could come in clutch 
if you need me
I’m tryna fly down to LA 
for da weekend 
we know he soft 
he not hard 
he act like cement,

He DOA 
I leave his body 
on the pavement 

new AIM 
just to walk up 
an then spray it 
woke up with a vendetta
on my note list 
I hate going out in public 
cause they’ll notice 
why am I so fucking anxious 
can’t hold it

a thermal scope 
on a SIG
Ima hunt for gold
I catch you walking 
in the road
you getting domed
you all alone
bitch I treat that laser 
like my arm
you ain't making it home
you MIA all along

life goes on
no time to be sad 
bite my tongue 
fuck that
no time to be mad 
and you always have a issue 
I could see it in your face 
wtf you hating cabin for ?
cause you don’t feel the same ?
have you laid in the grass 
did the Trees feel safe 
do you have some where 
to call home ?
are you feeling grey? 
have you seen the sunshine 
do it even feel the same 
I just sit in a shame 
while my body rot decay

la vie suit son court

life goes on (pablo worldwide + jolst)

Inside My Head #2

-X- ZERO RITUAL -X- DROWNING JUST TO BREATHE -X-

I'm a musician that makes All kinds of music about both my life and issues I wanna talk about
If you wanna hear my new music I changed accounts here's the link https://soundcloud.com/reapers-shadow

Battles I Can't Win w/ Yokai Dreams (Prod. grayskies)

Kurama SD (New account in bio)