i can really feel yout emotions bro this is fire

You're always killing it man, I am proud of you

This is my second official album called "Why Do I Even Try" I have been making this album since late march of 2022 

This was an ambitious project making it a mostly collab album with artists like Yokai Dreams, epitomeoffailure, & emptychest being bigger artists and The other artists are small or close friends of mine I'm glad we all could work together to make this album possible you all are amazing musicians and friends 

As for what this album is about it is about my insecurities, struggles, emotions, and life this year has been full of many ups and downs and music is the way I cope with it all although I think sometimes I should try to figure myself out more and try improving my life I've started the path to success whether it's through music or a job I want to succeed and be happy with my life I don't care about being famous all I want is good friends and family and to do what I love 

And one final thing Shoutout to all the producers as well they all are amazing at what they do

Why Do I Even Try

Written by: Kurama SD, JoshIGuess, & JustANPC
Produced by: Bluewolf
Mixed & Mastered by: JoshIGuess
Artwork by: TheDinkMaster

Lyrics:
[Intro]
Moving forward
That's a statement I never thought I'd make
I never thought I could move forward from all
this bullshit but, I'm finding a way how to I guess
Thank you everyone who's been by my side
I appreciate all of you

[Verse]
Back here with another song
I know it hasn’t been long
They ask me what’s been wrong
I've just been headstrong
To get along

I moved on from her
she was just a blur
Guess my modesty got the best of me
Now she has the rest of me
Thinking about everything I had left to see
All the others I’ve left behind
I wish some were still mine
But the love felt for you was all mine
So I say goodbye for the last time
the love felt for you was all mine
So I say goodbye for the last time
say goodbye for the last time 
Say goodbye for the last time 
the last time 

[Hook]
Moving forward is so hard
When all you felt were glass shards
Piercing right through you like a dart
But I push through with my heart
x2

[Verse 2]
I’ve been reminiscing about the past
Never thought these feelings would last
Time always moved too fast
Everyone around me is full of wrath
No more time for arts and crafts
You gotta stay strong like brass
No clue if I’ll pass the test
What I’ll do is get some rest
Even if I’m stressed
I’ll do my best
Said I would confess
But here I am sitting at this desk
I still detest myself
Even if I try my best I'll never be my best at this

[Pre-chorus]
Do my best
Do my best
Even if I'm stressed
I'll do my best 
Even if I'm stressed 
Do my best even if I'm stressed 

[Hook]
Moving forward is so hard
When all you felt were glass shards
Piercing right through you like a dart
But I push through with my heart
x2

Moving Forward w/ JoshIGuess (Prod. Bluewolf)

GET ONE🏁 by. 1800gs

IDK (p. saint mike x djkhaledson)

since it got removed for no reason ill reupload it without monetization lmao

fading away ft. cam szn (prod. H3 Music)

Pleasure (Slowed Vzn)

Visual: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ryKXD6O2Q3Q
Written by: Kurama SD
Produced by: afterlife & 2001
Mixed & Mastered by: JoshIGuess
Artwork from: Devilman Crybaby (Anime)

Lyrics:
[Chorus]
Life brings hell
I'm feeling it though
Fell right through
I Know the truth
Looking in your eyes
Everything will be alright
As long as we stay alive
Hell with them x4
x2

[Verse]
I'll go berserk in the sewer
Nobody wants to die here
This situation is dire
I'm a liar
Look up and see burning trees
With orange leaves and a red sky
Scared I might die
See weird creatures start to fly
I Start to hear distant screams and cries 
Distant screams and cries
Screams and cries 
Screams and cries 
(Scream)
Trying to find what works
But I will always fall in a ditch of course
Don't wanna be like this
Don't wanna feel like this
But it is just hell
So I'm feeling it

[Bridge]
Falling down into hell
Falling down to hell
Falling down in a well
Falling down in a well
Feels like a cell
Falling down into hell
Feels like a cell

[Chorus]
Life brings hell
I'm feeling it though
Fell right through
I Know the truth
Looking in your eyes
Everything will be alright
As long as we stay alive
Hell with them x4
x2

Hell (Prod. afterlife & 2001)

Dear GOD

check out my instagram @cokeoffacroc
check out selo on youtube @https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCA_D0LWxs5aVMBsmJRcPMXg

GRAVE ft. selo (prod by. puhf)

(Lyrics)
 
cut down, cut loose I'm nothing but a bad news to you and i just fucking breakdown suicide and everytime she looking at me i wanna die 

we're going out and you treat me like I'm trash and I'm asking why and the way you fucking answer you don't even try i don't wanna wake up and i just drown wanna drown 

let me drown let me rot going down let me rot nothing's the same without you

and you talk too much put that shit on fucking dnd blow it up like that creepy with the tnt fuck it up you're no fun say it to my dead face you dead weight space 

cut down, cut loose I'm nothing but a bad news to you and i just fucking breakdown suicide and everytime she looking at me i wanna die x2

nothing but bad news (johnnyfriend)

Featuring: @failure404
Written by: Kurama SD & epitomeoffailure 
Produced by: @sorrow_bringer
Mixed by: JoshIGuess & epitomeoffailure
Mastered by: JoshIGuess 
Artwork from: Horimiya (Anime)

[Chorus: Kurama SD]
I don't need you
I don't want you
I don't care
It's not fair

[Post-Chorus: Kurama SD]
Give me a time
Give me a sign
Give me a rhyme
Give me some time
Give me a rhyme
Give me a sign

[Verse 1: Kurama SD]
Fuck I'm so pissed at you
I don't know what to do
I can't make no fucking stacks
Cause I'm broke as a bitch
I can't get what I want anymore ya ya ya

[Interlude: Kurama SD]
Someday's I just don't know where I belong in this fucking world
Because everybody fucking makes me feel like shit
I get angry, I get pissed
I don't know where I'm supposed to be
What I'm supposed to do
I guess that's all

[Chorus 2: epitomeoffailure]
walking through the forest
i’m not sure where i live
see the trees before us
reflecting from your iris
it’s so clear to me
that you don’t know where we’re going
cause you lie (you lie)

[Post-Chorus: epitomeoffailure]
and that’s fine
cause when i look into your eyes
i know (i know)
that you’ve been wasting my time

[Verse 2: epitomeoffailure]
nothing stays the same
and i already knew that
I've always been blamed
for problems on top of your back
but this is where it ends
you are not my friend
you are not my friend

It's Not Fair w/ epitomeoffailure (Prod. sorrow bringer)

Featuring: @nokerbforever
Written by: Kurama SD & NOKERB
Produced by: jolst & dercept 
Mixed by: JoshIGuess & NOKERB
Mastered by: NOKERB
Artwork by: Kurama SD

[Intro: Kurama SD]
Some days I feel like a ghost
Feel like a ghost 
Going crazy in the back of the class 
I never thought anything 
You said was true 
So what the fuck dude 
True 

[Chorus: NOKERB]
Cuz i know that she doesn't move on,
Doesn't move on yeah she doesn't do that, 
And she wants to drag me down with her 
Yeah she doesn't go, 
She always looks into one direction 
Is it just her ghost who talks to me?
x2 

[Verse: Kurama SD]
I fucked up 
I know I did
At least I didn't hide it 
I'm still a letdown 
I'm still a letdown 

Thought I was cool
But I always lose 
Nobody cares 
Who I am 
(WHO I AM) 

[Chorus: NOKERB]
Cuz i know that she doesn't move on,
Doesn't move on yeah she doesn't do that, 
And she wants to drag me down with her 
Yeah she doesn't go, 
She always looks into one direction 
Is it just her ghost who talks to me?
x2 

[Outro: Kurama SD]
Think I know everything 
But I know nothing 
So I fade away

GHOST w/ NOKERB (Prod. jolst & dercept)

Featuring: @yokaidreams 
Written by: Kurama SD & Yokai Dreams
Produced by: grayskies 
Mixed by: JoshIGuess & Yokai Dreams 
Mastered by: JoshIGuess 
Artwork by: Kurama SD

[Intro: Kurama SD]
(Back off)
Life brings hell 
In the worst ways
Life is pain
(Life is pain)

[Verse 1: Kurama SD]
I walk through the burning path
Feels like broken glass
Every step is full of wrath 
The scars are still on my skin
From when you sunk your teeth in
Still I moved on though I'm bleeding 
at least I'm fucking breathing 
Everything is burning to pieces 

[Pre-Chorus: ]
Burning trees 
And Oranges leaves
Maybe I just need to 

[Chorus: Yokai Dreams]
back off
i need to back off
from fighting battles i can't win
stand off
i need to stand tall
i'm fighting battles deep within
(deep within)

[Bridge: Kurama SD]
Fighting battles 
Its a handful
I'll mange somehow 
(Somehow)

[Verse 2: Kurama SD]
Seeing red everywhere 
Nothing left here but pain to share
U stare in my eyes 
I can't help but glare 
Flames burn on
I can hardly bare 
All this pain

[Pre-Chorus: Kurama SD]
Burning trees 
And Oranges leaves
Maybe I just need to 

[Chorus: Yokai Dreams]
back off
i need to back off
from fighting battles i can't win
stand off
i need to stand tall
i'm fighting battles deep within
(Deep within)

[Verse 3: Yokai Dreams] 
act right
if i could act right
i wouldn't be in this situation
for now i need to back off
i need to back off
i think the battle's about to begin
about to begin

[Outro: Kurama SD]
I'll be right 
There

Battles I Can't Win w/ Yokai Dreams (Prod. grayskies)

Written by: Kurama SD
Produced by: afterlife & irby
Mixed & Mastered by: JoshIGuess 
Artwork by: Kurama SD

[Chorus]
August gracing
I don't know why u are hating
I'm so often breaking
Your love is fading
This shit got me pacing
Got me pacing

[Verse]
Fucked up on the interstate
I can't escape
From this place
Always on the high way
Pulled up on the drive way
To see my family

[Pre-Chorus]
Family
Last August
(Août dernier)
X2

[Chorus]
August gracing
I don't know why u are hating
I'm so often breaking
Your love is fading
This shit got me pacing
Got me pacing

[Bridge]
Dealing with a lot of shit rn
I can't wear no crown
I can't be what you need
I can't find anything
To help me, to save me
From this shit

[Chorus]
August gracing
I don't know why u are hating
I'm so often breaking
Your love is fading
This shit got me pacing
Got me pacing

August (Prod. afterlife & irby)

Alt-R&B meets Lo-Fi confession.
He told me to be soft — then blamed me for breaking.
This is what it sounds like when truth gets left on read.

808s breathe heavy.
Rhodes weep.
I don’t raise my voice — I bleed in silence.

#AltRNB #LoFiSoul #QueerHeartbreak #SoftBoyEnergy #FalsettoWounds #YouSaid #UrbanBallad #808Confessions #RNBWithScars

You Said

Falling4You [Prod. mollyrock]

I'm a musician that makes All kinds of music about both my life and issues I wanna talk about
If you wanna hear my new music I changed accounts here's the link https://soundcloud.com/reapers-shadow

Hell (Prod. afterlife & 2001)

Kurama SD (New account in bio)

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