This is my second official album called "Why Do I Even Try" I have been making this album since late march of 2022 

This was an ambitious project making it a mostly collab album with artists like Yokai Dreams, epitomeoffailure, & emptychest being bigger artists and The other artists are small or close friends of mine I'm glad we all could work together to make this album possible you all are amazing musicians and friends 

As for what this album is about it is about my insecurities, struggles, emotions, and life this year has been full of many ups and downs and music is the way I cope with it all although I think sometimes I should try to figure myself out more and try improving my life I've started the path to success whether it's through music or a job I want to succeed and be happy with my life I don't care about being famous all I want is good friends and family and to do what I love 

And one final thing Shoutout to all the producers as well they all are amazing at what they do

Why Do I Even Try

Visual: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ryKXD6O2Q3Q
Written by: Kurama SD
Produced by: afterlife & 2001
Mixed & Mastered by: JoshIGuess
Artwork from: Devilman Crybaby (Anime)

Lyrics:
[Chorus]
Life brings hell
I'm feeling it though
Fell right through
I Know the truth
Looking in your eyes
Everything will be alright
As long as we stay alive
Hell with them x4
x2

[Verse]
I'll go berserk in the sewer
Nobody wants to die here
This situation is dire
I'm a liar
Look up and see burning trees
With orange leaves and a red sky
Scared I might die
See weird creatures start to fly
I Start to hear distant screams and cries 
Distant screams and cries
Screams and cries 
Screams and cries 
(Scream)
Trying to find what works
But I will always fall in a ditch of course
Don't wanna be like this
Don't wanna feel like this
But it is just hell
So I'm feeling it

[Bridge]
Falling down into hell
Falling down to hell
Falling down in a well
Falling down in a well
Feels like a cell
Falling down into hell
Feels like a cell

[Chorus]
Life brings hell
I'm feeling it though
Fell right through
I Know the truth
Looking in your eyes
Everything will be alright
As long as we stay alive
Hell with them x4
x2

Hell (Prod. afterlife & 2001)

Featuring: @emptychest
Written by: Kurama SD & emptychest
Produced by: jabarionthebeat x red x ramo
Mixed by: JoshIGuess & emptychest
Mastered by: JoshIGuess
Artwork by: Kurama SD

[Intro]
gotta feel something big
Your allowed not to stay
But the boredom we need all the passion today
If you say it is alright then we all would be fine
Can you read through the words that I'm trying to see

[Verse 1: Kurama SD]
Falling down again
I'm losing it
You're not my friend
So don't act like you are
Shoved a knife in my back
Now I can't relax
All the shit I saw from my past
My life flashes
And It all crashes
Time passes
Now I am bleeding on the floor
Thinking all the heights I'll never soar
All the blood I now pour
That's how you left me on the floor
Now I'm dying on the floor
FUCK YOU

[Bridge: Kurama SD]
I just can't take it
No more
No more
You left me
Dying on the floor again
I just can't blend in
I just can't be spending another minute
In this time in this grind
I don't wanna die

[Chorus: Kurama SD]
Losing grip
Throwing a fit
All you do is bitch
Why do you always snitch
When the light goes out you switch

Iced hearts
Break apart
I don't feel a spark
Still wanna restart
Because of the past
You still haunt

[Interlude: Kurama SD]
you know you just get to that fucking point
In your life where
You don't care anymore
You don't care what people do
You don't care what people say
You just wanna be yourself
You just wanna fucking escape
From everyones fucking judgement
And I guess that's at the point I'm at

[Verse 2: emptychest]
u don't know shit about me
so don't say shit about me
in a world so low that no one even smiles
son hit the road and sold his soul a while back
and i ain't been alright since that
can u tell me how it went for we chilled all summer
i was posted up at your house said call my mother
tell her i wont be home tll the next fuckin summer and i'm sorry
gotta feel somethin better
gotta be someone better
its really hard not to copy someone else
cause i don't know myself at all
what do you want from me
could i ever fuckin be
anything but in my head
and have any thought but
"am i dead?"
the past two days have been absolutely shit and i know why
its my fault
yeah i gotta stay for him
but realistically
i don't know how much more i can take

[Chorus: Kurama SD]
Losing grip
Throwing a fit
All you do is bitch
Why do you always snitch
When the light goes out you switch

Iced hearts
Break apart
I don't feel a spark
Still wanna restart
Because of the past
You still haunt

Iced Hearts w/ emptychest (Prod. jabarionthebeat x red x ramo)

Featuring: @failure404
Written by: Kurama SD & epitomeoffailure 
Produced by: @sorrow_bringer
Mixed by: JoshIGuess & epitomeoffailure
Mastered by: JoshIGuess 
Artwork from: Horimiya (Anime)

[Chorus: Kurama SD]
I don't need you
I don't want you
I don't care
It's not fair

[Post-Chorus: Kurama SD]
Give me a time
Give me a sign
Give me a rhyme
Give me some time
Give me a rhyme
Give me a sign

[Verse 1: Kurama SD]
Fuck I'm so pissed at you
I don't know what to do
I can't make no fucking stacks
Cause I'm broke as a bitch
I can't get what I want anymore ya ya ya

[Interlude: Kurama SD]
Someday's I just don't know where I belong in this fucking world
Because everybody fucking makes me feel like shit
I get angry, I get pissed
I don't know where I'm supposed to be
What I'm supposed to do
I guess that's all

[Chorus 2: epitomeoffailure]
walking through the forest
i’m not sure where i live
see the trees before us
reflecting from your iris
it’s so clear to me
that you don’t know where we’re going
cause you lie (you lie)

[Post-Chorus: epitomeoffailure]
and that’s fine
cause when i look into your eyes
i know (i know)
that you’ve been wasting my time

[Verse 2: epitomeoffailure]
nothing stays the same
and i already knew that
I've always been blamed
for problems on top of your back
but this is where it ends
you are not my friend
you are not my friend

It's Not Fair w/ epitomeoffailure (Prod. sorrow bringer)

Featuring: @nokerbforever
Written by: Kurama SD & NOKERB
Produced by: jolst & dercept 
Mixed by: JoshIGuess & NOKERB
Mastered by: NOKERB
Artwork by: Kurama SD

[Intro: Kurama SD]
Some days I feel like a ghost
Feel like a ghost 
Going crazy in the back of the class 
I never thought anything 
You said was true 
So what the fuck dude 
True 

[Chorus: NOKERB]
Cuz i know that she doesn't move on,
Doesn't move on yeah she doesn't do that, 
And she wants to drag me down with her 
Yeah she doesn't go, 
She always looks into one direction 
Is it just her ghost who talks to me?
x2 

[Verse: Kurama SD]
I fucked up 
I know I did
At least I didn't hide it 
I'm still a letdown 
I'm still a letdown 

Thought I was cool
But I always lose 
Nobody cares 
Who I am 
(WHO I AM) 

[Chorus: NOKERB]
Cuz i know that she doesn't move on,
Doesn't move on yeah she doesn't do that, 
And she wants to drag me down with her 
Yeah she doesn't go, 
She always looks into one direction 
Is it just her ghost who talks to me?
x2 

[Outro: Kurama SD]
Think I know everything 
But I know nothing 
So I fade away

GHOST w/ NOKERB (Prod. jolst & dercept)

Featuring: @yokaidreams 
Written by: Kurama SD & Yokai Dreams
Produced by: grayskies 
Mixed by: JoshIGuess & Yokai Dreams 
Mastered by: JoshIGuess 
Artwork by: Kurama SD

[Intro: Kurama SD]
(Back off)
Life brings hell 
In the worst ways
Life is pain
(Life is pain)

[Verse 1: Kurama SD]
I walk through the burning path
Feels like broken glass
Every step is full of wrath 
The scars are still on my skin
From when you sunk your teeth in
Still I moved on though I'm bleeding 
at least I'm fucking breathing 
Everything is burning to pieces 

[Pre-Chorus: ]
Burning trees 
And Oranges leaves
Maybe I just need to 

[Chorus: Yokai Dreams]
back off
i need to back off
from fighting battles i can't win
stand off
i need to stand tall
i'm fighting battles deep within
(deep within)

[Bridge: Kurama SD]
Fighting battles 
Its a handful
I'll mange somehow 
(Somehow)

[Verse 2: Kurama SD]
Seeing red everywhere 
Nothing left here but pain to share
U stare in my eyes 
I can't help but glare 
Flames burn on
I can hardly bare 
All this pain

[Pre-Chorus: Kurama SD]
Burning trees 
And Oranges leaves
Maybe I just need to 

[Chorus: Yokai Dreams]
back off
i need to back off
from fighting battles i can't win
stand off
i need to stand tall
i'm fighting battles deep within
(Deep within)

[Verse 3: Yokai Dreams] 
act right
if i could act right
i wouldn't be in this situation
for now i need to back off
i need to back off
i think the battle's about to begin
about to begin

[Outro: Kurama SD]
I'll be right 
There

Battles I Can't Win w/ Yokai Dreams (Prod. grayskies)

Written by: Kurama SD
Produced by: afterlife & irby
Mixed & Mastered by: JoshIGuess 
Artwork by: Kurama SD

[Chorus]
August gracing
I don't know why u are hating
I'm so often breaking
Your love is fading
This shit got me pacing
Got me pacing

[Verse]
Fucked up on the interstate
I can't escape
From this place
Always on the high way
Pulled up on the drive way
To see my family

[Pre-Chorus]
Family
Last August
(Août dernier)
X2

[Chorus]
August gracing
I don't know why u are hating
I'm so often breaking
Your love is fading
This shit got me pacing
Got me pacing

[Bridge]
Dealing with a lot of shit rn
I can't wear no crown
I can't be what you need
I can't find anything
To help me, to save me
From this shit

[Chorus]
August gracing
I don't know why u are hating
I'm so often breaking
Your love is fading
This shit got me pacing
Got me pacing

August (Prod. afterlife & irby)

Bob's Bazaar Bizarre prod by ERROR.MP3

9TAILS - arctic eyes (cover)

(prod. jolst)
feat @notcursed

(vacant)
i never thought id be away from you
your miles away
id drop everything for you
to see your face
id never be late
never be a day
where i dont fall back inlove with you

you ease my pain
my panic attacks they go away
just stay
dont have to be sad again
when your away
i need you in the same place

just stay
just stay
just stay

we can stare at the stars
even when we're apart
you know its just us
my heads been at war
let me pull you close
for this noise to stop
coz ive been hurt myself
paranoid its hell
and i never needed no help
coz your what helps
i feel so selfish

i never thought id be away from you
your miles away
id drop everything for you
to see your face
id never be late
never be a day
where i dont fall back inlove with you 

you ease my pain
my panic attacks they go away
just stay
dont have to be sad again
when your away
i need you in the same place

just stay
just stay
just stay

i never thought id be away from you
your miles away
id drop everything for you
to see your face
id never be late
never be a day
where i dont fall back inlove with you

(not cursed)

Wish i could stay
And even though we’re miles away
I miss the days
You helped me through your pain
But now i’m too far out
Baby don't you even doubt
I still want you forever
I could never be without
Missing the way, you smile at my face
Brighten up my day, but now i have to wait
To see you, counting down the days till it'll be true
I’m waiting too long
Being away from you for this long, it feels so wrong
By my side is where you should be, that's where you belong
Need you everyday
I’m thinking of ways, to reach you

(vacant)
i never thought id be away from you
your miles away
id drop everything for you
to see your face
id never be late
never be a day
where i dont fall back inlove with you

stay (w/ notcursed) (jolst)

lyricz
Glass half full, ive been waiting on the plus side
We aint even half way but damn its been rough ride
With you til the end until you break our trust tie
I gotta make the first move? Must I?

Confidence aint the highest
But boy im feeling the flyest
Best fit here, these motherfuckers aint trying
Designer mixed with the thrift find, double downed to the riptide,
Boy you falling on slipslide, rearrange ur thoughts see the flipside
With a womens 19th century watch see my wrist shrine
You might think u fly, but u aint coming close this time

Running through a field, saddle me up a horse
I be at max caliber srt4 of course
Or a dodge neon, i dont want a porsche
My drip cause a flood, yeah u might an oar

Glass half full, ive been waiting on the plus side
We aint even half way but damn its been rough ride
With you til the end until you break our trust tie
I gotta make the first move? Must I?

GLASSHALFFULL [prod.  ETERNETY x inuyasha]

prod. @alivetonight

amazing prod and vocalist <3

lyrics: (shoutout to @kurama_sd for putting my lyrics in the description)

[Verse]
This isn't what I signed up for 
I act like I'm fine 
But inside I'm losing my mind
Hello there
I'm a lonely soul 
With no where to go
I don't know my own future 
What am I doing here I don't know 
I thought I had everything I want
But I still feel empty 
I still feel sad 
I try to rest at night 
But I fail at like everything I do
And I just can't get out of my head 
Not even for one moment 
(Not even for one moment)

[Outro]
And No one knows 
and no one knows 
and no one will ever know 
All I have is my songs
(All i have is my song-)

this isn't what i signed up for :( (prod. alivetonight)

(prod. michael harrison)

am i the only whos touching you
am i the only whos fucking you
hard to believe the truth from the lies
when all i wanna do is love you

did you fabricate the truth to save me
lying to my face coz this aint what i need 
told me to be okay
im just delusional i know bae

im trying to be okay
and ive been fighting for so long
for so long
for so long
for so long

standing there im vacant
an empty shell a hollow soul
hate myself its dangerous
coz i can end it all i know
and i think is better than me
give u everything u seeking
do you think bout me
when your down on your knees
i know your not praying
giving what you gave to me
i hate to say it 

all these thoughts in my head
who am i to blame
i keep playing these games
over and over again

and can you see me love
coz i want us
overthink is tough
oh i cant stop

for so long
for so long
for so long
for so long x2

compromised

Connections v2 w/ HeyLee Manzeron (prod teddyboi)

Gamma Ray - HeyLee Manzeron (Prod. Clav) PHEONIX COMPETITION

I'm a musician that makes All kinds of music about both my life and issues I wanna talk about
If you wanna hear my new music I changed accounts here's the link https://soundcloud.com/reapers-shadow

Iced Hearts w/ emptychest (Prod. jabarionthebeat x red x ramo)

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