Can hear some improvement in your new tracks keep it up ;D

This is my second official album called "Why Do I Even Try" I have been making this album since late march of 2022 

This was an ambitious project making it a mostly collab album with artists like Yokai Dreams, epitomeoffailure, & emptychest being bigger artists and The other artists are small or close friends of mine I'm glad we all could work together to make this album possible you all are amazing musicians and friends 

As for what this album is about it is about my insecurities, struggles, emotions, and life this year has been full of many ups and downs and music is the way I cope with it all although I think sometimes I should try to figure myself out more and try improving my life I've started the path to success whether it's through music or a job I want to succeed and be happy with my life I don't care about being famous all I want is good friends and family and to do what I love 

And one final thing Shoutout to all the producers as well they all are amazing at what they do

Why Do I Even Try

Visual: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ryKXD6O2Q3Q
Written by: Kurama SD
Produced by: afterlife & 2001
Mixed & Mastered by: JoshIGuess
Artwork from: Devilman Crybaby (Anime)

Lyrics:
[Chorus]
Life brings hell
I'm feeling it though
Fell right through
I Know the truth
Looking in your eyes
Everything will be alright
As long as we stay alive
Hell with them x4
x2

[Verse]
I'll go berserk in the sewer
Nobody wants to die here
This situation is dire
I'm a liar
Look up and see burning trees
With orange leaves and a red sky
Scared I might die
See weird creatures start to fly
I Start to hear distant screams and cries 
Distant screams and cries
Screams and cries 
Screams and cries 
(Scream)
Trying to find what works
But I will always fall in a ditch of course
Don't wanna be like this
Don't wanna feel like this
But it is just hell
So I'm feeling it

[Bridge]
Falling down into hell
Falling down to hell
Falling down in a well
Falling down in a well
Feels like a cell
Falling down into hell
Feels like a cell

[Chorus]
Life brings hell
I'm feeling it though
Fell right through
I Know the truth
Looking in your eyes
Everything will be alright
As long as we stay alive
Hell with them x4
x2

Hell (Prod. afterlife & 2001)

lyrics:
I could’ve called you, even if i would
I would’ve had you, it would backfire
Nothing will make sense, long as i live
Getting little tired, imma head home
Feeling so stressed out, brain is on fire
Where's the “love me”, where is that heart
Losing emotion, breaking like glass
And i’m so broken, nothing to fix

Too late to stop me, even if i could
I would’ve loved me, bet you never would
Dousing the fire, with the kerosine
All that is trusting, burns away to ash
I don’t wanna love you, i can’t help it
You were a mind freak, playing these games
It was so trusting, knowing it’s a lie
And i’ll just sleep now, in my coffin

mindfreak. [+ 02ashes]

Featuring: @failure404
Written by: Kurama SD & epitomeoffailure 
Produced by: @sorrow_bringer
Mixed by: JoshIGuess & epitomeoffailure
Mastered by: JoshIGuess 
Artwork from: Horimiya (Anime)

[Chorus: Kurama SD]
I don't need you
I don't want you
I don't care
It's not fair

[Post-Chorus: Kurama SD]
Give me a time
Give me a sign
Give me a rhyme
Give me some time
Give me a rhyme
Give me a sign

[Verse 1: Kurama SD]
Fuck I'm so pissed at you
I don't know what to do
I can't make no fucking stacks
Cause I'm broke as a bitch
I can't get what I want anymore ya ya ya

[Interlude: Kurama SD]
Someday's I just don't know where I belong in this fucking world
Because everybody fucking makes me feel like shit
I get angry, I get pissed
I don't know where I'm supposed to be
What I'm supposed to do
I guess that's all

[Chorus 2: epitomeoffailure]
walking through the forest
i’m not sure where i live
see the trees before us
reflecting from your iris
it’s so clear to me
that you don’t know where we’re going
cause you lie (you lie)

[Post-Chorus: epitomeoffailure]
and that’s fine
cause when i look into your eyes
i know (i know)
that you’ve been wasting my time

[Verse 2: epitomeoffailure]
nothing stays the same
and i already knew that
I've always been blamed
for problems on top of your back
but this is where it ends
you are not my friend
you are not my friend

It's Not Fair w/ epitomeoffailure (Prod. sorrow bringer)

Featuring: @nokerbforever
Written by: Kurama SD & NOKERB
Produced by: jolst & dercept 
Mixed by: JoshIGuess & NOKERB
Mastered by: NOKERB
Artwork by: Kurama SD

[Intro: Kurama SD]
Some days I feel like a ghost
Feel like a ghost 
Going crazy in the back of the class 
I never thought anything 
You said was true 
So what the fuck dude 
True 

[Chorus: NOKERB]
Cuz i know that she doesn't move on,
Doesn't move on yeah she doesn't do that, 
And she wants to drag me down with her 
Yeah she doesn't go, 
She always looks into one direction 
Is it just her ghost who talks to me?
x2 

[Verse: Kurama SD]
I fucked up 
I know I did
At least I didn't hide it 
I'm still a letdown 
I'm still a letdown 

Thought I was cool
But I always lose 
Nobody cares 
Who I am 
(WHO I AM) 

[Chorus: NOKERB]
Cuz i know that she doesn't move on,
Doesn't move on yeah she doesn't do that, 
And she wants to drag me down with her 
Yeah she doesn't go, 
She always looks into one direction 
Is it just her ghost who talks to me?
x2 

[Outro: Kurama SD]
Think I know everything 
But I know nothing 
So I fade away

GHOST w/ NOKERB (Prod. jolst & dercept)

ME (Feat. HBK PAT)

Featuring: @yokaidreams 
Written by: Kurama SD & Yokai Dreams
Produced by: grayskies 
Mixed by: JoshIGuess & Yokai Dreams 
Mastered by: JoshIGuess 
Artwork by: Kurama SD

[Intro: Kurama SD]
(Back off)
Life brings hell 
In the worst ways
Life is pain
(Life is pain)

[Verse 1: Kurama SD]
I walk through the burning path
Feels like broken glass
Every step is full of wrath 
The scars are still on my skin
From when you sunk your teeth in
Still I moved on though I'm bleeding 
at least I'm fucking breathing 
Everything is burning to pieces 

[Pre-Chorus: ]
Burning trees 
And Oranges leaves
Maybe I just need to 

[Chorus: Yokai Dreams]
back off
i need to back off
from fighting battles i can't win
stand off
i need to stand tall
i'm fighting battles deep within
(deep within)

[Bridge: Kurama SD]
Fighting battles 
Its a handful
I'll mange somehow 
(Somehow)

[Verse 2: Kurama SD]
Seeing red everywhere 
Nothing left here but pain to share
U stare in my eyes 
I can't help but glare 
Flames burn on
I can hardly bare 
All this pain

[Pre-Chorus: Kurama SD]
Burning trees 
And Oranges leaves
Maybe I just need to 

[Chorus: Yokai Dreams]
back off
i need to back off
from fighting battles i can't win
stand off
i need to stand tall
i'm fighting battles deep within
(Deep within)

[Verse 3: Yokai Dreams] 
act right
if i could act right
i wouldn't be in this situation
for now i need to back off
i need to back off
i think the battle's about to begin
about to begin

[Outro: Kurama SD]
I'll be right 
There

Battles I Can't Win w/ Yokai Dreams (Prod. grayskies)

lyrics:
I don’t wanna say i miss you
I don’t wanna say that i love you
Don’t take my words to feel
Just know my pain is real

My life’s an open reel
And my heart’s blue and teal
Collecting scars to feel
Tell me now, am i real?

Everything else aside from me
Has been a drag for all to see
Nothing else here for sympathy
Why am i living in a tragedy
Cold shoulders everywhere i go
Opened my eyes to see you though
Looking at me to overthrow
There was no blue-ish overglow

I don’t wanna say i miss you
I don’t wanna say that i love you
Don’t take my words to feel
Just know my pain is real

My life’s an open reel
And my heart’s blue and teal
Collecting scars to feel
Tell me now, am i real?

Clawing my way to fantasy
Wanting to be free from misery
I don’t like you missing me
Why won’t you just leave me be

kaleidoscope.

follow me to the edge of the world. [+ jolst x punk]

[LYRICS]
evilmiku:
all of the things that you said
lost memories in my bed
i don’t want to be your friend
is this the way that it ends

drowning i'm counting my days
smoking i'm toking away 
crying i'm lying in pain 
break me and make me insane
I've been burning these bridges 
I've been missing your kisses
now you're none of my business 
will you call me next christmas

nokerbforever:
baby yeah my hope's lost
and now im broken
miku smoked too much
and now he's choking
always feeling like im left out
cause of stupid memories
it's because u couldn't see
yeah u never see..
it got so bad that i cannot see u
got these scars on me
they're there for a reason
empty bottles around me
i'll open the next one
cigarettes were the only thing
that she really liked..
why didn't she like me?
yeah she told me
all these things on me
but she's not here
yeah no one's fucking like her
''i don't want him to come back''
and i don't wanna see u
baby tell me what u really want
please stay by my side
yeah i think it's out
yeah i think it's out 

evilmiku:
drowning i'm counting my days
smoking i'm toking away 
crying i'm lying in pain 
break me and make me insane
I've been burning these bridges 
I've been missing your kisses
now you're none of my business 
will you call me next christmas

Lost Memories

Lost Memories w/ NOKERB [prod. flower x 5head]

Written by: Kurama SD
Produced by: afterlife & irby
Mixed & Mastered by: JoshIGuess 
Artwork by: Kurama SD

[Chorus]
August gracing
I don't know why u are hating
I'm so often breaking
Your love is fading
This shit got me pacing
Got me pacing

[Verse]
Fucked up on the interstate
I can't escape
From this place
Always on the high way
Pulled up on the drive way
To see my family

[Pre-Chorus]
Family
Last August
(Août dernier)
X2

[Chorus]
August gracing
I don't know why u are hating
I'm so often breaking
Your love is fading
This shit got me pacing
Got me pacing

[Bridge]
Dealing with a lot of shit rn
I can't wear no crown
I can't be what you need
I can't find anything
To help me, to save me
From this shit

[Chorus]
August gracing
I don't know why u are hating
I'm so often breaking
Your love is fading
This shit got me pacing
Got me pacing

August (Prod. afterlife & irby)

Music Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fblB2JBzh_I
Written by: Kurama SD
Produced by: Boyfifty
Mixed by: JoshIGuess & angelsofsorrows 
Mastered by: angelsofsorrows 
Artwork link: https://www.wallpaperflare.com/re-zero-emilia-halloween-2016-cape-witch-witch-s-broom-wallpaper-palcd

Lyrics:
[Intro]
I guess you're gone 
It's my fault in the first place
For thinking somebody would stay around
But that was just high school I guess 
Just people always leaving me for 
Someone that was better 

[Chorus]
I feel so empty 
I feel kinda safe
Somebody come get me 
I feel kinda safe

[Verse 1]
I never thought I would lose myself 
I don't want no fucking wealth 
I loved u that's how I felt 
But I know nothing about u
Wish I wasn't too 
Hung up on the past 
Time moving fast 
I just might crash 
might crash

[Reserved Bridge]

[Chorus]
I feel so empty 
I feel kinda safe
Somebody come get me 
I feel kinda safe

[Verse 2]
Taking breaks all the time 
To ease my mind 
Losing sunshine 
I don't mind the rain
Cause each day is just the same
I decay in my room 
It sucks but its true
Just don't lose 
Just don't consume nothing bad
Nothing bad 

[Bridge]
I reminisce on 
The times we had
Wonder what's new with you

[Outro]
I miss you still 
I wish you were
by my side 
by my side

Hung Up On The Past (Prod. Boyfifty)

Autumn (Jolst) Ft. silentcxbin remix

Prod @horoshavibes & @kingtheta
Featuring @1endie
Mastered by Bryan Shortell @shordeli

LYRICS
I'm a recluse
I've been spending too much time inside my bedroom
Ask me and I'll say I'm fine but that is not true
I'm staying quarantined from everyone who cares for me
 
'Cause they could never really get it
I'm not shy
I'm just staying independent
I have trouble letting people in
Ask me what's my problem
Where do I begin
 
I'm a recluse
I've been spending too much time inside my bedroom
Ask me and I'll say I'm fine but that is not true
I won't even try to hide that I don't want to socialize
'Cause I'm a wreck
I'm a recluse
 
Three days in the same shirt
What's the point of waking up if I don't gotta work
Check my phone
No missed calls
At this point I'm convinced
No one'd miss me at all
 
(Endie)
I love and hate my youth for someone like you
And you know that I don't write
My feelings for you in a notebook
A journal
Trying not to fall for
Someone like you
‘Cause you’re all I know
And you're all I want

Listen on Spotify!

Recluse w/ Endie (Prod. Horosha & King Theta)

Trouble In The Flesh

Complete Her

MAKEITRIGHT

I'm a musician that makes All kinds of music about both my life and issues I wanna talk about
If you wanna hear my new music I changed accounts here's the link https://soundcloud.com/reapers-shadow

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