always strive to be better. don't do it for others, do it for yourself, because at the end of the day. when they're gone, and you're the only one left, it's up to you if you want to keep fighting.

Queen Of The King Sized Bed (Prod. by Taha)

not a perfect man. no one is. so much goes on when no one can see.

Links to Sake
https://www.instagram.com/sakebythewater/             https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCmURffc77e_LHErF_smQHxw/featured

(Lyrics)
I look at me no masterpiece
I think myself as trash at least
If there is more
Then let it show
I have to want it
Cant be broke 
Something else just has my brain
A downgrade from my old embrace
No resting for a killer now
One cut from me will put me down

There's a version of me
That I think that I cant let out
I'm more suited for a war that doesn't have funny crowds
So what am i supposed to do 
When I cant even shout
The only thing I do is close my door

(Hook)
So here I am again
Lonely soul and I lost all of my friends
We're they even right for me
I'll never know
I like to think they helped me grow
And I hope that they're doing better now
Even the one that was a fucking clown
I got the fuck up outta town

Spread blasphemy then ask for me
Butt end of a joke I see
Cant fess up to things that hurt
Play the victim and make it worse
Like I asked for this
Better yet don't ask for shit
I hide behind my bitterness
That's why I wrote those words

Before I had to listen to the things
They had to share
But lately I've been thinking
That I do not really care
And maybe I should try to
Cause the person is so close
Saw me as a child 
But has failed to see my growth

So I've been searching for my worth
Sometimes I believe that I'm dirt
But maybe that's a good thing
Since my god had made me from the earth
And if I were to die
I might go back inside
To the place where I was made from scratch
I'm sure I'll feel alive

(Outro)
So here I am again
Found a soul and I gained a friend
Will I be the one for them
I'd like to know
But I'm thinking that I've learned to grow
No more acting for the show
Grab my darling here we go
Get the fuck up outta town

I think we'll be alright
As long as we still strive
Make the most out of our downfalls
And never deal with withdrawals
I wont just close my door
I want to feel some more
Get closer than before
I just want to be better

Closed Doors (Prod. By  Sake by the Water)

some things don't happen when you want them to. sometimes you make big mistakes. get over it, move on, and do better cause life isn't about focusing on one thing.

Xavier: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCrIZX6MSaUgyxzr27loJkDw

Lyrics:
Wish I did things a little differently
Got my regrets there a piece of me
Now I'm sitting in my dirt
Looking up a people questioning my worth
I'm so plain 
Think I might've lost my brain
I'm so lame
Would you wanna call my name?

Chilling with a lump in my throat
Calling for a bitch that wanna take my poke
Maybe I don't feel that bad
Or maybe I'm more confident when I'm sad
I'll come through
If I like you its times two
Maybe times four if the feeling is more
But I doubt that
Sorry but I tend to get bored
Cause I'm in love with a girl
But we don't talk anymore
It's so shitty 
But I don't need your pitty
Cause I'm still trash
And I mad you feel bad
And I know it 
Yeah I know it
And I'm sorry
I'm so sorry

I wanted this time to be different
I honestly hoped I had changed
She's killing me slowly
I'm feeling so lonely
And now I'm just stuck with the pain
I'm sad
You're sad right
You're glad
For this night
You knew that we weren't something
But you let me stay through that night
I'm mad, for my life
I know, we weren't fine
You held me closely
Then you told me that I would be alright

There's something (x4)
There's something you wanted to say
I'm running (x3)
I'm running cause I just didn't wanna face

That fact that I didn't feel shit
For me or for my close friends
Sitting back feeling dead at my desk
sixteen, why the fuck am I depressed
I was the bad guy
That's why
Loved too hard
And then died met again with a broken heart
I'm so selfish 
I just wanted the love
But it seems to fade when I'm smoking some bud
Now I hate this
Nothing ever seems fun
Except looking at the barrel of a loaded gun
Now 21
Thinking that I found my world
Loves the way I sing even loves my curls
Blessing or a dream it don't matter to me
Cause I'm already addicted like some nicotene
Still sad
But I started being glad
Of everthing that I'll have and what I've had
I'm at peace
Thinking that I'll still be me
When I'm finished with my life and my destiny
It's all real
It's not done yet so I'll chill
Whats coming next I don't...

Some Times Aren't The Right Time (Prod. by Xavier) (2020)

push yourself to be faster than your past

check out pandrs https://www.youtube.com/c/pandrs

Fast Enough (prod. pandrs)(2019)

when you try to mask your depression in a bubbly trap beat :)

Check out Kaktus please. https://www.youtube.com/@kaktus1771/featured

Pastel Introvert (Prod by Kaktus)(2017)

Music is my only way to vent. Nobody really gets it. Lyrics down below.

Check out wetgropes
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sfm2Mj5a-aw&t=55s

Lyrics:
Imma a free trial
If ya need hug
Hit me speed dial
Low on funds 
But we kick it in style
Give my love 
Only for a short while
I wont budge 
When you say I'm sorry
I wont budge 
If you miss my party

Just make sure
That you cancel
The due date
If you don't want this
For the long way

I got issues
Yeah I know it
Darling I'll miss you
I won't show it
How can I fix you
When I'm broken
Now I'm lost
On the interstate

And I need you
Yeah I know it
How do I please you
When I'm hurting
Thinking I'm see through
I'm worthless
Lose my mind
In another place

I'm so down
Baby I'm bound
Will you feel me now
Or are we falling apart

Cause I'm doing what I can
Can't you see that I try
Only wanna hold your hand
When we rise to the sky
Tried to be a different man
Be the love of her life
Should've stayed the way I was
Am I starting the fight?
I ain't blaming anybody
It's fault of our youth
I want forever
But a trials all I get 
What's the use?
Getting sad
Didn't last
Why do I always lose?

Imma a free trial
If ya need hug
Hit me speed dial
Low funds yeah
But we kick it in style
Give my love 
Only for a short while
I wont budge 
When you say I'm sorry
I wont budge 
If you miss my party

Just make sure
That you cancel
The due date
If you don't want this
For the long way

I got issues
Yeah I know it
Darling I'll miss you
I won't show it
How can I fix you
When I'm broken
Now I'm lost
On the interstate

And I need you
Yeah I know it
How do I please you
When I'm hurting
Thinking I'm see through
I'm worthless
Lose my mind
In another place

free trial (prod. by wetgropes)

i hope i can show you, it took losing you to understand.

https://www.youtube.com/@nowherevalley

Wake up every night
Terrified if you’re not there
I don’t wanna hide
Recently I’ve felt so bare

I know it’s all my fault 
But I just wanna talk
To hear your voice again
It won’t make amends
Maybe I’m just selfish 
Lost myself
I became helpless 
Pain has made me born again 
Throw my fear into the wind

Darling, darling I know
You went through it alone
You can cry on me now
Cause I see where I went wrong

Darling pick up your crown
Put on your favorite gown
You can show me around
To your favorite places

Somethings in the air
A feeling of despair
That can only be fixed
When run my fingers through your hair

I should pray again
Heal my soul
No play pretend 
I truly want to make it okay
I truly want to see you always
I’m the who pushed you away
I can admit that now 
But things will never be the same
But girl I swear I’ll hold

Yeah I swear I’ll hold you down
Wanna hold you close right now

Went Wrong (prod. by  Nowhere Valley)

how do you get to know a stranger based on dirty rumors?

go check out wetgropes
www.youtube.com/@wetgropes

(Lyrics)
What's my deal
Guess I'm mad
Don't know why
Where's my dad
He's an ass
It's what they say
I guess they're right
But cant he change?
Many years I've been told
All the transgressions
Of old
Manipulate
Fill the plate
And make me feel like I belong
Make me feel like I belong

They tell me how
I don't make sense
I'm too young to give a shit
I guess I was
But now I'm sad
I feel it all
Rush from my past
I know I should
Get over it
But when I do
I feel like shit

Cause damages
I didn't know
Like to rise
Put on a show
A memory
A tragic game
Will I win
Or give my name
I don't know
I won't know
Where to go

And I've been holding tight
Knowing that my brain just isn't right
Walking for mile might change my mind
But when I get back home I feel the fight
Rushing to my core
I guess I'm getting bored of all of this
Rushing to my core
I guess I'm just supposed to live with this

Too Young To Care (Prod. by wetgropes)

Trillions of decisions. Only one life.

Check out the wonderful person who helped made this song possible
https://www.youtube.com/@rafayel.wav1

Lyric video here.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=se6jWEsRm5A

New Roads (Prod. by rafayelwav)

I played and recorded the drums for this album before I wrote any of the music or words.

A Dream Of Rachael

Atlas - Facade

Just doing me or whatever
 

@BleachMafia 
(Join our Discord and say hi. https://discord.gg/rk8xVMZ)

Cool Kids Clubs
@sojucollective

Went Wrong (prod. by Nowhere Valley)

Kuzu Mellow

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