these colors of fuckery

lyrics:
im done with this shit
im done with this shit
i wish i dont exist
thoughts in my brain makes it go quick

tell me that you dont know
tell me that you love me
tell me all these lies so i can feel happy
tell me that im ignorant sad i feel
tell me all my faults
sadness keeps me sad

sadness in my head i feel,
you dont feel like anything
why dont you just leave me
im done with it

im fucked up now
fucked now
i cant change the things that make me who i am

i am a failure yeah i know
baby i tried so hard not to care about you

tell me that you dont know
tell me that you love me
tell me all these lies so i can feel happy
tell me that im ignorant sad i feel
tell me all my faults
sadness keeps me sad

when will i be better (im a mess)

prod KA$TRO

lyrics
wakin up
another day
suicidal
voices inside my head
and then she told me it was final
when im in coma
let me die hooked on the vitals
i been drinkin to much
i know that im in denial
i been fakin smiles
how you never seen my fuckin face
i dont give attention
im afraid of all the pain
everytime i see her
why my heartbeat skip a pace
im so broken
im afraid to let her fuckin stay
and its all the past
that fucks me up
i really hate my brain
if i wasnt such a bitch
id take my life today

denial (Prod. KA$TRO)

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drugs in my mind

lyrics:
i cant feel a thing in my head
its going down
i cant feel a thing
come around come around
everyday i feel its the same
these sad thoughts, plague my mind will it ever go away

i dont know if i can feel this any fucking more
i dont wanna go any further fucking more

its all in my head
go away, go away,
go away, its all in my head

go away, go away
go away, its all in my head

i cant feel a thing im stuck inside my fucking head
i dont know why i must be like this, why i must be like this
dont leave me, i cant handle this

its all in my head

(dielusions instrumental)

(whisper lies vocals)
im turning off my brain, lay
im terminally inept, stay
heavy rain, pain
its the way you looked, at me
this water hates my skin
theres no crying anymore
this water hits my skin
theres no crying anymore

what a waste of life
all this time spent avoiding fights
you stand, this shit, unfair

my head is full of sand
and my mouths full of water
and i tried to use all my energy to understand
i lay in dismay with all the memories
that you have left with me

(whisper lies instrumental part)

heavy rain (w/ @dielusions)

I'dRatherBeDead

LYRICS:

Blurred faces,
Heart racing,
Am I dreaming, 
Tunnel vision,

Lucid,
Lunacy,
Parallel reality,
Stones in my lungs,
Static all over my flesh,

Too loud,
Too loud,
It's screaming in my face,
It's popping my safe space,
Too loud,
It's way too loud,
Screaming in my face,
It's popping my safe space,
It's all right,
It's all right,
I'm alright,
I'm alright,

Thank you I'm alright,
Please leave,
Deattach,
Hide away,
I'm alright,
I'll see you soon again,
Soon you'll be back again,
I know you'll be back again,
I know you'll be back again.

TEMPORAL DEATH (prod. Biv)

Rain tapping on a window
Checking up on me
I'm lost in the greys though
Skies mixing with the shallow waters
All so bland when it shatters

Playing hide and seek
Hide and seek
Counting hopes every week
Playing hide and seek
Hide and seek
Till I no longer breathe

From patterned up 
Heavy storms
Light moving slow 
Forming inner hope
Breeze running across my cheek

Playing hide and seek
Hide and seek
Counting hopes every week
Playing hide and seek
Hide and seek
Till I no longer breathe

when will i be better (im a mess)

lava.christian

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