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MUgoods

sink into dreamless sleep
open wounds and bleed
my sweetheart, i see
my satan, take me
it’s been so long
i need ur love
hurt me, if u want 
hurt me, it’s all i want 

a dog in my bed
be my only friend 
a world in my head
it’ll happen again 

take me into my hell 
don’t blame urself 
this fake love won’t help 
i’ll call samael
it’s been so long
i don’t need anyone
hurt me if u want
i love u, my black sun 

my reflection is only blood
paint my teeth black and break my ribs 
my black sun

Blue Nightmare / Black Sun

creature in my room

i won't stay out

The first single for the upcoming ten year anniversary release 'Ten Years More.' 

Banjohmin - Vocals, Lyrics
John - Art, Vocals, Music, Mixing, Lyrics

Lyrics:
John:
You're the worst Kennedy
I know all about your devilry
I'm gonna make you fuckin' pay
I wanna see all those X-Rays

You can't drive over a bridge
You can't drive at all, actually
Four wheeled tyranny
On a poor bride-to-be

Where'd you go?
Who'd you see?
When she was dyin' in the sea

Why burn the copies?
Who owns those bodies?
When she was cryin' for mommy

You're a sexually repressed asshole reeking of alcohol
It's all in the files hidden deep in those vaults
But I'm breaking in to snatch them all
I'll steal your lunch money and push your face in the asphalt 

Where'd you bury those kids?
You're a devil inside and I know what you did
I'm gonna rip open the lid
I'mma upload all those snuff films 

Who owns that red dress?
I do now
Who is your mistress?
I am now

Give me your address
I want to assess
The little girl dresses
Of which you possess

I know what you've done, Ted Kennedy
You've gone and commited a serious felony
You died and flew away
But I'm coming to get you anyway

Banjohmin:
Why’d you survive but your bros fell? 
You ground down your buck teeth! 
Judas, what the fuck’s you’re A/S/L? 
You’re an elite! 
Are those the gnashing gates of hell? 
I hear you used to give a great speech!  
How does it feel to be a leech? 
Oh Ted Kennedy, was it just a rumour? 
Did you kill yourself out of shame 
Or did you really die of a brain tumour? 
Did you sell your soul for money and fame?

John:
I know what you've done, Ted Kennedy
You've gone and commited a serious felony
You died and flew away
But I'm coming to get you anyway

Where'd your step-child go?
How'd you stoop so low?
What's the price to pay
When you killed J.F.K.?

The Ted Kennedy Confessional

Dissociate

From My Bedroom Window:

The stars are all falling along to the beat 
And I'm coming tumbling after
It's getting dark in here, too dark to see 
The room's turning faster, and faster it goes
I close my eyes and I'm already lost
As I turn to run the door comes to a close
I try to leave but exit is locked
I've swallowed the key
I've sealed myself in
The window was barred
But in that moment

I watched the sunrise
Over the October skyline
From my bedroom window
I saw skyscrapers outlined
Like a silhouette shadow
Against the rays of sunshine
From my prison window
Where I spend most of my time

The night sky is falling along to the beat 
And I'm coming tumbling after her
It's getting dark in here, too dark to sleep
The room's turning faster and faster
And faster, and faster it goes

I watched the sunrise
Over the October skyline
From my bedroom window
I saw skyscrapers outlined
Like a silhouette shadow
Against the rays of sunshine
From my prison window
Where I spend most of my time
Where I spend so much time

I sing along to the song that I hear
But here it's so eerily silent
Outside the picture is coming in clear
The colors so beautifully vibrant

Wash

From My Bedroom Window

Looking back at those years that passed
All the weeps and cheers I had
I still feel I don't belong
Now I know I got something else inside my head
When the air is so hard to breath
And the mind fades away to a place of its own
When I hear it whispers in the rain
Calling me, yet again

After all this time
I left the world behind
It did not matter how I tried, and tried
Just hold my hand
Into a simple life
Where nothing matters, but you and I

As our hearts are chained to rust
From this cycle of our lives
It feels like just waiting for the next step
A waiting room all over again
Will changing my myself change it all
And the mind fades away to a place of its own
When I hear it whispers in the rain
Calling me, yet again

After all this time
I left the world behind
It did not matter how I tried, and tried
Just hold my hand
Into a simple life
Where nothing matters, but you and I
Just hold my hand
To a simple life

After all this time
I left the world behind
It did not matter how I tried, and tried
Just hold my hand
Into a simple life
Where nothing matters, but you and I
But you and I

Hold My Hand; And Never Let Go [Demo]

She Loves Me

reasons - i burn koolaid

My skin's sore, and so old
Polar bear ate my son
The garden that I grew has all burned
And I feel just at home in the ash, miserable

No more stars to fill my bedroom
I could curl up and try
Ribs feel cracked and spreading outward
Your spirits helped me to drown

Place your heel onto my sternum
I feel loved when I'm alone 
Send a postcard through the river
Watch the ink bleed away

Won't feel important tonight
But tomorrow I'll shine
All that dirt out  in the warm sun
I'm worn out being on my mind

I'm selling blood out in the city
everyone's buying too much
I don't wanna go home now
I just want to recharge

I just wanna go home
I'm not having much fun

frayed wire

what gives

solo project

one eye is shut and the other one's completely crushed

frayed wire

Lazy Eyelids