ive become aquainted well with the morning sun
well maybe all of this aint quite so bad
glancing at your sleeping face makes me feel so excited
about whats next to come past these fleeting moments

is this what you felt?
is this what you felt?
is this what you felt when you gushed about
watching clouds go by before the first train in the morning

take me by the hand

take me by the hand (2021 demo)

dissolve

working on the muddiness

Sometimes I look at the garden I let burn
And wonder if I let those flowers bloom again
Would they spread love or ache in my rough hands
Or take the petals up to into the hills and spread 
the love across a mountain lake

Love left me in an eggshell
Love left me with no way back home 
Wandering through the woods alone  

it takes so long when you're left waiting for the end, when it's all that's left
I remember that new years I thought I'd finally figured you out
 
The hive is dead and still the buzz goes on and on
Love lives in a waspnest
Soft and sweet
gnawing in my chest
digging through the night for a body I cannot find again

The hive is dead and still your buzz goes on and on
Love lives in a waspnest
Soft and sweet
Ashen clots to stay this hurt inside my chest
Love lives in a waspnest 

I don't want to stay
Digging the same grave   
Pulsing in my chest
Buzzing in my ears
The wasps now begin
To come up from my skin

I never thought I'd find myself there, in the woods with nothing but a coarse string to bribe me back home
I wandered in the woods for years until I found them, their own string trailing behind them, just as lost, but eyes equally determined.
The following months there was some odd comfort, though our strings gathered and no longer pointed home, that was somehow okay, to wander aimlessly.
Their strings were tattered, chewed by moths, knotted, breathing, and fucking buzzing something like a wasp nest, frayed yet freakishly beautiful 
And as soon as it began it was over, again the woods had become a lonely place

love lives in a waspnest

Love Lives In A Waspnest

Im Not Sorry

pink tape around my red dress
make me feel like a spring cherry , darling
got me wonderin oh what’s next ?
kiss my lips , pop me like a cherry , darling

put on my favorite song
get up & sing along
dont make me do it alone

love me like summer’s gone
once more now make it strong
cuz when the moon sets ur on ur own

pink tape around my red dress
got me wonderin oh what’s next ?

love lace all around my neck
paint me like im your masterpiece 
dont stop til we’re near the end
speak now or forever hold your peace

pink tape around my red dress
make me feel like a spring cherry , darling
got me wonderin oh what’s next ?
kiss my lips , pop me like a cherry , darling

PINK TAPE [apt9 + mvc b]

steps in the forest
this pain is abhorrent
climbing down the ladder
with a crucifix before it

my heart’s not the purest
its just so discordant
attracted it to you
my entire being is in orbit

pull me in , im about to crash
how much longer can what we have last ?

my fuel reserves are beyond depleting
im not sure how much longer my heart can go on beating

steps in the forest
this pain is abhorrent
climbing down the ladder
with a crucifix before it

my heart’s not the purest
its just so discordant
attracted it to you
my entire being is in orbit

steps [apt9 + mvc b]

so afraid, to lose sight of the ground
sense unbound, something that can't be brought back down
so afraid, never coming down, with no sound
losing breath, no words are left for us here

you've stretched time too thin
you're returning to worlds within

joined to this dream, held underneath
the world at your feet
so divine so true, you've fallen through
all the rest has been forgotten to be retold
some place where nothing grows
the feelings left from our souls

but nothings set in stone
nothing is lost, nothing is unknown
we're never alone

buying lacoste shirts

acapella is me covering whispering glades by nicole dollanganger. remix by nasian

whispering glades acapella nasian remix

leave it all behind
strive for another life
do you really want to know the price?

dreams dust evaporating from your soul
turn away from all that take you back
self intact

dreams dust evaporates away
fractured memory contorts your face

Love Lives In A Waspnest

Lazy Eyelids