finally trying out my yamaha 4-track, covered a teen suicide song

https://teensuicide.bandcamp.com/album/waste-yrself

we found two dead swans and filled their bodies with flowers (teen suicide) (4-track demo)

lyrics: 
we were at a gas station when you told me you were dead inside your head
and I cried every single night after that
last night I was up overthinking again
about that thing I did a couple months back

now it's raining at the gas station where we met
there are still ghosts inside my head
and I can feel my limbs slowly breaking down
and my heart, deeply fall apart

so I'm sorry for the times I didn't grow up for you
I still wish you'd feel the same (about me)
two years in and I'm still a fucking mess
but I could tell what was good for me in the end

and I cry because I can't breathe when I'm without you

we were at a gas station when you told me you were dead inside your head
and your ghost is still inside my head

ghosts inside my head (gas station)

crouch

bike

train

untitled

i think a 
little bit too much,
i know
i havent been the best.

but ill try
to cure
the demons in my brain

and im tired
cause everydays the same


sometimes 
i feel like im no good

and your heart
i wish i understood

and my dreams
always follow me around

so i try
to block out all the sounds

night saudade 02 - girl

sitting at home having conversations with the moon
but it doesn't talk back to me, i wish it was you 
everything is so quiet, everything's in the air 
i wish you'd blow over, like wind through my hair 

sometimes i wish you were the moon 
so i could look up to you 

i wish i could pull you like the moon pulls the tide 
soak me in silver, make love in the white light 
throw me in your stormy night 
and i'll become your peace of mind. 



i wish you were the moon

i was distracted
barely reacting to the way you said my name
lost in my head and
being held captive in your arms don’t feel the same

maybe i’m the one to blame

hands are all blistered
wrapping your fingers too tight hoping that i’d stay
the air’s getting thinner
baby it lingers, i can’t breathe from it these days

maybe i’m the one to blame
  
and i had a dream about it
where i felt better about it
didn’t mean to leave you stranded
but i feel myself crash landing

crash landing

crash landing (demo)

You said how does it feel to be above the open world
I said it always feels like the end when ever I decide to fly
I've taken time to realize why
I'd rather die then to be like them
Unaware of what controls the subconscious mind
I'd rather run then to live a lie
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Why is it that all of you always want what you cant have
Do you ever think about whats behind the dreaded fall
I know but I wont say 
You'll have to find out your own way 
I've been forced to take space that I thought I wouldn't need
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But now I've been able to see the shattered crystals that lay beneath my feat
The cuts are deep but they'll heal quick and they'll scare clean
I could be everything
I'm just still patiently waiting for the switch to click in my mind
But for now I'll be fine

crash landing (demo)

lemmy alone