this i so real i can feel the devil coming inside me

produced and mixed by me
mastered by cubox
featuring @717na

Hard to feel the ache when the heart goes numb
Stare goes blank, no I'm never having fun
Been detached from my old self
Staring at the ceiling fighting lethargy with no help
Wasting my time, who am I gon' tell
Oh well, I'm wasted on my mattress
Won't go turn the lights on, I'm too lazy and distracted
Thinking 'bout my former self, that guy is such a has-been
I ain't tryna learn today, let's form another habit
I was talking big talk, now I'm here
My mental is sick God, are you near
I really need to hear you, please give me a clear view
Demons in the mirror might be closer than appear to
All your solutions are in vain
What's the root of my stagnation, every day's the same
Say something useful or get out my face
Think I'll medicate before I get the chance to blow out my brains

I won't go outside because I'm feeling too bad
How the hell I go from riches to rags
Everybody runs their mouth but they will not understand
I'm so tired of being used and distressed
What is there to gain from this life of uneventfulness
Used to think I'd graduate and live my life in excellence
They all used to be so proud but now I'm living check to check
Looking back on me and I can barely see resemblance
I'm so jaded, I'm so faded
I'm so jaded, ain't worth saving
I'm so jaded, ain't worth saving
Ain't worth saving

I'm so jaded, do you know what you put me through
Yeah you got me messed up, I can't look at you
Yeah you turned me to a douchebag acting rude
Now I feel a little better 'cause I got these trues
In my truey jeans I see the way you look at me
Why you hate me I don't know it's a mystery
No I can't stand the way you look at me
No I can't stand the way you look at me
Look away
I don't need you I'm a different beast today
Look away
You still hate me, girl, I see it in your face
Look away
I'm so fed up with your bs and your ways
Look away
Look away

Affirmations don't do jack for me I just want an escape
It's so hard to make my peace with the ways that things have changed
I can't see why you would love me in my times of disarray
Trauma bonding with my secrets, think I'll take this to my grave
Hand to my stomach I'm heaving
Sift through these thoughts of confusion for reasons
I'll just embody my weakness
Try pull me out, but I'm already sinking
Try pull me out
All my ambitions are fleeting
I'm so jaded
Give me a sign to believe in

VIAL OF TEARS

JADED (ft. 717na)

JADED (ft. 717na) [PROD. CVONS]

i love sigil sacrifices <3
featuring: @scumlol
cover by @ruhronan on instagram
lyrics coming soon!

sigil sacrifice! ft. scumlol [prod. yungspoiler]

AH SHIT, YOU LOSE! (PROD. MUD)

prod https://soundcloud.com/sorrow_bringer

LYRICS: I love bad bitches that's my fuckin problem
And yeah I like to fuck I got a fuckin problem
I love bad bitches that's my fuckin problem
And yeah I like to fuck I got a fuckin problem
I love bad bitches that's my fuckin problem
And yeah I like to fuck I got a fuckin problem
If finding somebody real is your fuckin problem
Bring ya girls to the crib maybe we can solve it
Hold up bitches simmer down
Takin' hella long bitch give it to me now
Make that thing pop like a semi or a nine
Oh baby like it raw with a shimmy shimmy ya
Huh, ASAP get like me
Never met a motherfucker fresh like me
All these motherfuckers wanna dress like me
Put the chrome to your dome make you sweat like Keith
Cause I'm the nigga, the nigga nigga
Like how you figure?
Getting figures and fuckin bitches
She rollin' swishers for her bitches
I bought my niggas they getting bent up off the liquor
She love my licorice, I let her lick it
They say money make a nigga act nigger-ish
But at least a nigga nigga rich
I be fuckin' broads like I be fuckin' bored
Turn a dyke bitch out have her fuckin' boys
Beast
I love bad bitches that's my fuckin problem
And yeah I like to fuck I got a fuckin problem
I love bad bitches that's my fuckin problem
And yeah I like to fuck I got a fuckin problem
I love bad bitches that's my fuckin problem
And yeah I like to fuck I got a fuckin problem
If finding somebody real is your fuckin problem
Bring ya girls to the crib maybe we can solve it
I know you love it when this beat is on
Make you think about all of the niggas you've been leading on
Make me think about all of the rappers I've been feeding on
Got a feeling that's the same dudes that we speakin' on, oh word?
You ain't heard my album? Who you sleepin' on?
You should print the lyrics out and have a fucking read-along
Ain't a fucking sing-along unless you brought the weed along
Then ju- (okay, okay, okay...)
Then just drop down and get yo' eagle on
Or we can stare up at the stars and put The Beatles on
All that shit you talkin' bout is not up for discussion
I will pay to make it bigger, I don't pay for no reduction
If it's comin' from a nigga I don't know, then I don't trust it
If you comin' for my head, then motherfucker get to bustin'
Yes Lord, I don't really say this often
But this long dick nigga ain't for the long talkin
I beast
I love bad bitches that's my fuckin problem
And yeah I like to fuck I got a fuckin problem
I love bad bitches that's my fuckin problem
And yeah I like to fuck I got a fuckin problem
I love bad bitches that's my fuckin problem
And yeah I like to fuck I got a fuckin problem
If finding somebody real is your fuckin problem
Bring ya girls to the crib maybe we can solve it
Yeah ho this the finale
My pep talk turn into a pep rally
Say she's from the hood but she live inside in the valley now
Vacate in Atlanta, then she going back to Cali
Got your girl on my line, world on my line
The irony I fuck 'em at the same damn time
She eyeing me like a nigga don't exist
Girl, I know you want this dick
Girl, I'm Kendrick Lamar
Aka Benz is to me just a car
That mean your friends need to be up to a par
See my standards are pampered by threesomes tomorrow
Kill 'em all dead bodies in the hallway
Don't get involved listen what the crystal ball say
Halle Berry, hallelujah
Holla back i'll do ya
Beast
I love bad bitches that's my fuckin problem
And yeah I like to fuck I got a fuckin problem
I love bad bitches that's my fuckin problem
And yeah I like to fuck I got a fuckin problem
I love bad bitches that's my fuckin problem
And yeah I like to fuck I got a fuckin problem
If finding somebody real is your fuckin problem
Bring ya girls to the crib maybe we can solve it

Deleted Account (Prod. Sorrow Bringer)

PROD: https://www.youtube.com/@prod.zupehr

MIXED BY: itsaedanhill x myself

LYRICS: https://genius.com/Xdium-devil-inside-lyrics

COVERART: (IG @itsaedanhill)

$KUM Inc.; ℗ 2023 $KUM Records, a division of AKIRA Recordings, Inc.

Devil Inside [Prod. Zupher]

PROD: https://www.youtube.com/@tennistheplayer

MIXED BY: itsaedanhill x myself

LYRICS: https://genius.com/Xdium-come-over-lyrics

COVERART: (IG @itsaedanhill)

$KUM Inc.; ℗ 2023 $KUM Records, a division of AKIRA Recordings, Inc

Come Over (Ft. itsaedanhill) [Prod. Tennis Player]

PROD: https://www.youtube.com/@blakkgr1mm

MIXED BY: itsaedanhill x myself

LYRICS: https://genius.com/Xdium-point-out-constellations-outro-lyrics

COVERART: (IG @itsaedanhill)

$KUM Inc.; ℗ 2023 $KUM Records, a division of AKIRA Recordings, Inc

Devil Inside [Prod. Zupher]

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