All i wanted was 4 sum1 to hold me ❤️‍🩹

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Repetition (ft. romeo!)

Goblin Kid

The Tale of the Goblin Kid

By @carlby
Featuring @kanashisadface
Produced by @sorrow_bringer
Engineering & additional vocals by @horoshavibes

LYRICS
I can do this on my own
I don't need your influence
Got me feeling so low
Damn you really put me through it
I'm off the meds now
But I'm on the mend now
Figuring myself out
I dont fuck with self doubt

I'm on my way up
Standing on my own feet
I don't need no crutch to lean on
I should've known better than to fold under pressure
Knowing full well that I can't rely on these drugs forever

But I just wanna feel better
I just wanna feel something other than this emptiness

(Kanashi)
I just wanna feel a little bit better
Take another hit
My eyes go a little bit redder
I'm so sick of all the lies they feed me
Emptiness is not a substitute for how I'm feeling

They shove these pills right down my throat
Will they ever work
Nobody fucking knows
And I swear they just want to control me
This little tiny bottle got me feeling like a zombie

Carlby - Crutch w/ Kanashi (Prod. sorrow bringer)

[hero]

I COULD SEE THE SUBSTANCES THAT SCHOLARS NEVER COULD
AND I COULD FEEL THE SIDE OF HER THAT NO ONE UNDERSTOOD
and it ended in
blood
on the floors on the walls
bodies strewn in the hall
and i swear they weren’t there before
motels and hostels
with residues been charred off
at night i keep my shirt off
i’m not worried bout the bed bugs in the safezone
shit’s a no go
i dont wanna leave i just got here front the slow pokes
i feel them right behind me with their logos
tryna advertise in every place they control
she lashed out i felt flashbacks
she wont open my snapchat
i’m tryna choose my casket
she came back to jus backstab
I didn’t come to get laughed at
i got morals and a format
for this shit talk that i hash out
i’m sorry did i scream too loud

[yokai dreams]

Woahhh
I can feel the blood flowing from my heart as you clawed it out
Woah I can't stand this doubt

That gun shot called sirens
To where you had me dying
My friends say that I'm lying
You can't blame me for not trying
I picked up most pieces
But the last ain't been found
Got shit that I've lived thru
So I'm sorry if I scream a bit loud

[hero] (sewerperson - comet 2 outro)

till then
im sitting on the comets
im way up here
i just got the news and i was brought to tears
feeling on my body she gon raise my hairs
honestly im scared but im guessing
till then
im sitting on the comets
im way too high
friday night was crazy think i almost died
baby take my hand ill let u touch the sky
when im on the comets i come to life

blood vessels (ft. yokai dreams) (jolst)

self produced
follow decks: @decksmusic
cover art taken by decks
lyrics

getting back to my feet standing up again
guess i wasnt ready for the fight that u brought again
said i was the one that u want can u want again
im been trying hard but im ending up distraught again
guess i wasnt ready for the battle to be fought again
guess im just relearning all the lessons ive been taught again
i can only take so much that ur throwing at me
when ur angry it feels like 100 degrees

decks:
when ur mad no i can’t take the heat
i just back down fallin onto my knees
i dont wanna be a problem babe im beggin please
im retracing all my steps and now its hard to breathe

so i fucked up
pass time cuz im done up
second chances arent free but i could earn em
suns up
wake up early cuz the funs up
out of time baby im not what u wantttt

100 degrees w/ decks

for you <3

you drive me fucking crazy
cant see, my vision hazy
malfunction in this function
you’re heroin for me baby
break mirrors when i pass by
cut with the shards
on standby
smear my face on the pavement
a hopeless romantic? maybe.. 
baby (x3)
you’re all the drugs i could ever need
but im a bad addict and a fuckin fein
you showed me all the things that i could never see
you’ll never understand what you mean to me
i thought i was incapable of loving
because of you i finally feel something

a hopeless romantic.

And baby
Please come back
And I beg you
I know I been replaced with someone else
With someone else x2
And I know I'm the one who to you to let go
And all the memories that we had
I sware to God if I could take you back
And I know that we drifted away
And I will try again 
We your friends
Tell me that I wasn't enough
I can pretend 
That I'm will be ok
I was so caught up
And wanna be alone
That I made excuses
Why I left
And I know i was wrong
But im am sorry
And I know it will never be the same again
I'm sorry I wasted all your time
And what can I do to make things right 
I dont think yoy know me well
I don't think I know myself
I smile when the cameras out
But honestly that's someone else
I
Don't know
That I'm
Falling behind
And I miss everyone now
Just to see
You moved on
I promise I'll be fine

Butterflies to Spiders

Everglades feat. destroythatwall (prod. branwen)

[Verse 1]
I've been waiting for something or someone to save me from this
I can't act like I'm fine when I'm not anymore and it hurts
Sleep, wake, repeat
And I'm underneath
Reaching out for a hand 'cause the hurt makes it harder to be
Breathing out as I watch every season go by in complete
Sleep, wake, repeat
And I'm underneath

[Chorus]
So watch me break
I'm barely breathing
I'm wide awake
And you're still sleeping (Ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh)
'Cause all this weight
I'm bruised and beaten
You watch me break
You're barely bleeding

[Verse 2]
Searching for a god or something that is bigger than me so I wait
Reaching up at the sky sending prayers that I know won't be met
Sleep, wake, repeat
And I'm underneath

[Chorus]
So watch me break
I'm barely breathing
I'm wide awake
And you're still sleeping (Ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh)
'Cause all this weight
I'm bruised and beaten
You watch me break
You're barely bleeding

[Bridge]
And it's too late for you to save me
Your words cut like razor blades

[Chorus]
So watch me break
I'm barely breathing
I'm wide awake
And you're still sleeping (Ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh)
'Cause all this weight
I'm bruised and beaten
You watch me break
You're barely bleeding

barely bleeding

@noxious-nights - 1st
@navyxower - 2nd
@yoimn3ver - 3rd
@soulfadexo - 4th
@emptychest - 5th

(noxiousnights)
I lost it all 
But I act like i'm okay
Even life is dying
So how am I still there ?
I take control
I can't put up with that shit
I'll be doing my best
Lately that's how I live
If you believe what i say then you got it all wrong
Only truth that i talk is written in those damn songs
She's been coughing like she's dying when she hits the bong
I'm playing with her hair and i help her staying strong
No, I promise saying how i fucking feel never helped me at all
I have this burning pain so i'm never feelin cold
I gotta move up North, all year long i wanna be in the snow
my body's gonna rot, will my story be told?

(NAVYXOWER)
blatantly, suffering, daily
WAKING UP, TO DREAMS THAT FUCKIN SCARE ME
holding on to you can fuckin save me
MAKING UP UR MIND, I NEED SOME HELP PLEASE!

i just wanna do, somethin right in my life
dont want no broken dreams, just keep my memories in line!
CONTEMPLATING LIFE
MY VISIONS GONNA DIE
DONT LET GO OF MY HEART
DYING RIGHT INSIDE

(teddyboi)
i got scars on my arms, i got scars on my thighs
people call it a nightmare, i call it my life
ptsd and substances, they coincide
i met the devil, he told me go inside
he put me in a chair, and said "this fuckers gotta die"

im not good at answering texts
tell me you love me, i leave you on read
plug tells me these are strong
tell me when i should care
id rather be high & dead
than comprehend that you were there
its all abt the music
aint nobody care

(soulfade)
Snow White ate a poison apple
Losing all at a downfall
Not fair for losing control
Might be just a “be all, end all”
Like lost babes in the woods
Pale wolves come rushing on in
I know what could’ve gone worse
Time is strange, but I know it’ll last

(emptychest)
what else is there 2 say? 
im okay
u still stalk my stories every damn day
ay taking hits
take a hint, take a hint
youre acidic
i love the way the smoke burns in my throat
i love the way it hurts and the way i ignore it, ignore it 
do you like how i hurt? do you like how i hurt? yeah.
does he like how i try? does he like how i try? no..

Shattered Dreams w/ noxiousnights, NAVYXOWER, teddyboi, soulfade & emptychest [+ sogimura]

A confessional hip-hop story told in 432 Hz — raw, emotional, and soul-heavy. Soul on Lease follows a rapper’s rise from hunger to fame, the deal that cost him his peace, and the fight to take his spirit back. Boom-bap drums, gospel undertones, and a haunting analog warmth drive the pain, pride, and redemption.
Listen with headphones and feel every heartbeat in 432 Hz. #rap #r&b

Soul on Lease

ALL OF THESE SONGS

Track 2

[verse 1]
i'm losing it, running out of time
i'm snoozing but I should be out grinding
reminded
that all that I want from life is you
lately been distant to tell the truth
you knew

[bridge]
like where did you go, what did I say
need to get you before you run away
I say her name

[verse 2]
ohh I know that, you can't go back
I want you till we grow old 
pack up our stuff and move it out
I guess that i found happiness in you cause I am reminiscing 

[outro]
one life that I have won't waste that shit
stop fucking around and just commit
that's it

what did i say [prod. GRAVE5]

Check Out The Producer:
Soundcloud: @blade_901
Insta: www.instagram.com/_blade901/
Twitter: twitter.com/blade901
Youtube: www.youtube.com/user/CometsWay


Lyrics
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I've been falling apart
I've been falling apart
Why does no one come back and ask if I'm okay?
I've been falling apart
I've been in the dark
Why does no one run away, away from the pain?

Keep me in the darkness, I've been fucking heartless
I'm a fucking monster, I can feel it in my veins
Ain't nobody like a fuck up
Fucked up, the ones who's drugged up
No love, he's getting no love
So they keep me in my...

I've been falling apart
I've been falling apart
Why does no one come back and ask if I'm okay?
I've been falling apart
I've been in the dark
Why does no one run away, away from the pain?

Yeah, keep me in the darkness, I've been fucking heartless
I'm a fucking monster, I can feel it in my veins
Ain't nobody like a fuck up
Fucked up, the ones who's drugged up
No love, he's getting no love
So they keep me in my cage, woah

Oh, I've been falling into the abyss
The abyss
The abyss
The abyss
I've been counting just please don't miss
Don't miss
Don't miss
Don't miss
I've been drowning in fake bliss
In bliss
In bliss
Fake bliss

I've been falling apart
I've been falling apart
Why does no one come back and ask if I'm okay?
I've been falling apart
I've been in the dark
Why does no one run away, away from the pain?

Yeah, keep me in the darkness, I've been fucking heartless
I'm a fucking monster, I can feel it in my veins
Ain't nobody like a fuck up
Fucked up, the ones who's drugged up
No love, he's getting no love
So they keep me in my cage, woah

Fuck Up [Prod. Blade901]

i think that its time to change my ways.........

Everglades feat. destroythatwall (prod. branwen)

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