antiBlacknesss is triggering as FUCK. iii don’t care how many times iii see it iii don’t care if iii “theoretically” know it “exists”. FUCK. These are peoples lives. These are miii peoples lives. Why are we constantliii put in positions to suffer and be mistreated where ever we go/were taking/are taken in the world.😤 iii can kno the “theory” and “history” behind antiBlackness and guess what... it still will effect me... it still will push me to the edge, because knowledge is power and iii BE one powerFULL blx grl who sees and had seen since shx was born her people, her family, herself be used/abused/mistreated/worthless because they are Black. smh. This shit/ship BE personal. and im done acting like its not. so uuu better respect miii and my name and ask me how you can address me. cause iii will react to abuse and mistreatment…

anger is a powerful emotion. AND it can be unstable … iii am tryIN to find stabilitiii in my blx RAGE. iii do not want to reproduce cycles of harm by my own behavior. iii am a child (ọmọ) AND iii am an extension of god (olú) — MODIMO…

iii used to think politeness would save me. because iii knew and was shown repeatedly that as a blx grl iii was not safe. so iii swallowed my pride in an attempt to save my life. 

those are not conditions iii can hold my life or my self to anymore. iii have bottled so much in, generationally, ancestrally, geographically, personally and it’s time for me to live my own life in my truth in order to thrive and NOT end my self to protect others from “me”. fuck that. so, again. the person you thought you knew never existed. let me transition in peace. and if you come for me, iii have no issue callIN you out cause iii be light/lite ooo

ask me what iii want you to address me at and listen to what iii tell you. if you don’t know call me by the initials my parents gave me — ọrB — (ball of light/lite) because iii am a healin blx grl who has suffered so much abuse from people who didn’t know me and from people iii thought cared for me. iii am angry. AND iii want blood. so iii am gonna do my best to protect my peace so as not to BLOW up and harm others.

uplift...lesedi...iii BE lite ooo

a (lil blx grl/growIN blx womxn) in search of the blx ecstatic in all of its revived spaces and places... 
a worshipper of blx sound...
a diviner of blx possibilitiii...
a site/sight/cite 
to bear
i/we...

uplift...lesedi...iii BE lite ooo

ọrB (balloflite)