Merry Christmas!☆ * ❄️💝
prod @y4ndere

and i swear my heart is getting colder
so im searching for the warm, dont get it frozen
but- why u were the one that made me hopeless
u were the closest one... im swear that im trying!!!
and- why i cannot be enough
always do my best i cannot make it right
i thought u were the one but u just broke the trust
deep inside my heart i think im too attached...

let my tears on the floor, let em all out loud
and my tears are so cold i really wonder why
is it really my fault? i really wonder how
losing all of control watch me fall to the ground

let my tears on the floor, let em all out loud
and my tears are so cold i really wonder why
is it really my fault? i really wonder how
losing all of control watch me fall to the ground

i really miss the older times 
when we were close to shining stars
and- it really piss me off i miss u uhh
so please dont gooo~
i really wish i knew whats next
we cry and lie its all a mess
where do i go? im losing sense
the wounds cant heal
will i ever understand this?

tears

tears (yandere)

@lileffort

whatever goes wrong 
I want you to know 
That it’s not your fault, 
that it’s not your fault 
blame it all on me
Take it all from me 
I don’t deserve you 
I don’t deserve your love 

2x
Your my home, your my safety
Think of all the times that you saved me 
Think of all the love that you gave me 
Your my safety baby your my safety 

If I had one wish before I turn to dust 
I’d ask you to go dance with for one last time, for one last time 
cuz every second feels like heaven when I hold on to you 
Trust me I’m not acting, you can’t imagine 
How you make my heart move

safety「lileffort」

prod @odel007
w/ @385u2

[mei]
you cant keep the promise
you said that u promise me
and i hope that ull keep our secrets
what are we hoping for?
for the better i guess
but its all a mess
so i could just run away
so you wont see me
i could fly to the outer space
to outer space!
u told me u would never change
turn that love to hate
and then i take the blame from u
and i couldve never love but u
it was the times that i never trust but u
and i did it all for u
but i knew i wasnt ever enough for u T-T

[utumiyqcom]
君と添い遂げることはなかった
これは終わり、エンドロール流れるの
君が呪いみたいな声で
耳元で囁く「弱いね」
この呪縛は覚めないままね
(so i could just run away
so you wont see me)
フラッシュバック記憶と戦うの
(i could fly to the outer space
to outer space!)
秘め事仕舞っておいていたのはあたしだけだったんだ
余命も短い関係も最初から無かったことにしよう
「例えば君が言う事
何もないって思うことにするよ」
「そうしたら未来も変れるかな」

promise

promise w/ utumiyqcom (odel)

Produced by kuudere & Sg Lily

@sglily
@lilkuudere

was it all bc of me? (ft. sg lily)

instagram.com/melodramalovestory
@coldspades
@angelicxmei
@ihateukidu

(may)
ive been reaching out for u
but its not getting better dont know what to do 
ur my warmth js like a sweater 
hope we see it thru
i cant seem to forget her 
be there in any weather 
it was something we could never be

echoes of our love 
although its the past js kno i tried my best for u for u
and do u 
even think about me now that its all gone

twist me break me into pieces 
dont understand why i cant get the meaning
i was always searching for a new connection
i found that within u but u left me abandoned

(coldspades)
i feel so broken down
i feel so hopeless now
dont wanna hear a sound
can you please get me out
tell me if you need me if its vital
i dont wanna see i'll keep my eyes closed
lately it feels like im going psycho
i cant seem to change stuck in a cycle 

(mei)
and i just be falling down the spiral
love u but we always seem to fight uhh
and its always been a struggle
always been a mess
put my feelings in the bottle
i should take a step back
cuz we are far away
why u always say its okay
but its not okay
its to the point when its hurting me 
like everyday
always acting like 
u dont see me struggling

echoes of our love +coldspades & angelicxmei (kidu)

@owtiss
@angelicxmei
@yashio20k

instagram.com/owtiss1/
instagram.com/angelicxmei/
instagram.com/yashio20k/

[@owtiss]
i think u just wna be urself
i wish i could get u out this hell
i cant take to know that ur not well
i cant do it all by myself
i think u just wna be urself
i wish i could get u out this hell
i cant take to know that ur not well
i cant do it all by myself

[@angelicxmei]
u told me that u need to get right
oh no, that meant that sth bad might happen
ure putting all my shit in bad light
like, am i really the bad guy?
at first i thought that we were meant to be
but now im crying loud
im wiping all my tears
i dont even have words for u to say
i just really wish that u couldve stay w me

uuuh all the shit i couldve done but im not enough
all the shit i couldve change but im not enough
ure just messing with my brain and its never fun

be urself w/ angelicxmei (yashio)

memory bag ft tarozan (recyclebin&Shinju)

@yuri_oyasumi
@cloudbxy1

[coldspades]
思い出せなくて
君がなぜ泣いて
花がまた咲いて
春の中で
君をまた抱いて
夢の中で

思い出して君の夢を
君だけのための心
いつでもそばにいてよ
君が諦めたい時も

ここにいるのは誰か
鏡を見てもわかんね
君が全て忘れても
この気持ちだけを残して

[yuri_oyasumi]
空白を埋める約束を
栞に挟んだ 想いも
荒んでいく毎日
現実とは乖離
反射した光がただ眩しくて

I want to leave faraway
終着点突破して
2人で見た夢
永遠に仕舞い込んで
靡く風どこまでも連れ去って
モノクロ視界が滲み出す前に

[coldspades]
泣かないで
忘れないで
そばにいて
君のため歌って

venomous

kuudere

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