produced by @kggn

[nurse]
i dont like the way u act
the way u stab my back
u keep me off the track
but honestly im alright
dont want u to call back
cuz everytime i throwback
deep inside i fall down
to the ground

u said that it always be aight
but i dont trust u now
deep inside my issues
i dont know where im at
stab me in the back
i know u been playing games
my dress is bloodstained
i dont know if im the same

tears down to the ground
i know that is awful
hide myself 
put my feelings in the bootle
u knew u had my trust
and u broke it like a waffle
tears to the ground
just shoot me wit ur rifle

idle
i rather stay idle
heavy heart it is made of iron
rewind time never ending spiral
wish i could smile more
but things just toring me up

i think i need a rest
cuz i been tired of doing my best
dont wanna see ur face
cuz i been tied im feeling stressed
i wanna change my fate
everytime i jus be leaving a mess
i think i still regret
everything we did in the past

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honestly (kuru)

@i9bonsai
@y4ndere
lyrics
Tell me it's gonna be alright (Alright)
Let me trust my heart let me trust my soul
Gotta thing for you can't you see (Can't you see)
Let my guard down once now I can't feel safe 

I just wanna feel safe I just wanna feel safe
I wanna fall in love
I wanna feel safe I wanna feel safe
Let my guard down (Down) (Down) (Down) (Down) 

I wrote my feelings in a song now, I wanna let it go!
Held your hand in the snow now, I really wanna know!
Do you think of me cause I think of you
Everytime I sleep I dream of you...

When I wake up I feel alone
Have my friends by my side but I still feel alone
When you want something, you can't have
Hold in your tears and just laugh

I don't wanna talk and I don't need more...
Ima go a newpath and close that door
You don't really kno what I got in store
In store for myself Ima need that
Oo do you really kno
Oo yh I jus gta go
I've been down down this road before
You got me got me so damn torn

Wait I don't wanna risk that
I don't even know how I can get back
Maybe the first time but its last
Hope I don't see you down this path...

I don't wanna talk and I don't wanna run
Do i got more love? I got no more love
Pack my bags its the same same stuff
Leave me right out leave me out to rust
What's that's what this what's this all?
You jus wanna see me fall, please don't please don't call
Go to waste yh all in all

all alone w/ i9bonsai (yandere)

prod @winter

[nurse]
i really dont want u to go...
id rather listen to your lies...

but does it matter
now u let me go
left memories up to shatter
u know that i struggle
my heart is fragile
because u hurt me
it turned me to shadow

i really dont want u to go!
(ill hold your heart 
while you hurt my soul) 
id rather listen to your lies!
(and stare at your eyes
while youre stabbing my back)

i really wanted to be yours
ive wanted to be close
even if youre the one 
that hurts the most
keep on trying my best
i only make it worse
nothing ever makes sense
i guess im gonna fall

ill be on my own
i gotta move on
i cant let it go

i carry burden 
deep inside my soul
i dont feel like
getting further
dont get me bothered
it doesnt matter
im so unhealthy
cant break the pattern

attached (winter)

@cloudbxy1
@spiritblossom

please just tell me girl, is this what u wanted?
cant get u out my head, it just feels like ive been haunted
this isnt good for us, so maybe we should stop it
u went and broke my trust, now we cannot be bonded

u left me alone, how could u do this to me?
ive been so lost, this feeling’s not new to me
if i had one wish u would be all that i need
thinking too much, another night i cant sleep

vision blurry, ive been losing focus
how long do i have to wait for u to notice?
every day feels like it only lasts a moment
it doesnt matter if i try it all feels hopeless

so u dont have to tell me
u make me complete but i know that its not healthy
u dont have to try, cause nobody can help me
everything is suffocating i just wish i could be set free

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haunted (cloudbxy & spirit)

Molly In My Room (prod. crescent, yandere)

Maybe I should kill myself?

Tell me why should I fall in love?
Oh I'm trying but I keep fucking up
All these signs that say you're not the one
Every day's a toll on my body
Zero reasons why you can't call me
Looking up at the city as fluorescents fall
I'm so sorry that I'm the one you're waiting for

My life is coming down
Oh please say you love me now
It's not true
You're confused

Let me bleed
Let me bleed till I can't breathe
All I need is you and me
You're a dream that I can't reach
Everything is not what it seems

When you speak it cuts me deep
Feel you breathe all on me
Wish I could leave this fucking misery

Man what the fuck is wrong with me?

Are you tryna move on with your life?
I see pieces of you in their eyes
Tell me do I sometimes show up in your mind?

If I could choose between reality and in my dreams
Ide choose my dreams
I'm about to lose the rest of my sanity for you
For you

Let me bleed
Let me bleed till I can't breathe
All I need is you and me
You're a dream that I can't reach
Everything is not what it seems

When you speak it cuts me deep
Feel you breathe all on me
Wish I could leave this fucking misery

Man what the fuck is wrong with me?

Let Me Bleed

prod and mastered by @decago
cover art by me

If you don’t wanna talk about it
I will leave you there
No need to rush anything
We can use some help
Baby when you’re next to me
You put me in heaven
雪の中君が僕を導いてる
You think I am something special?
Crying to a wall. Maybe I’m just mental
Drowning in my bed. They just want me dead cuz
I just mess shit up I just gotta lay low

Girl don’t worry about me. I will be there fine
なんかいつも独りでいれない
流れる時置き去りの毎日
I’m right here now can you come find

When she talk to me feel like I ain’t need nun
Come close to me 温もりを知った
いつか最後に、全て全部言って
Like I used to be 他は静かでいて

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Be There [decago]

@lileffort

whatever goes wrong 
I want you to know 
That it’s not your fault, 
that it’s not your fault 
blame it all on me
Take it all from me 
I don’t deserve you 
I don’t deserve your love 

2x
Your my home, your my safety
Think of all the times that you saved me 
Think of all the love that you gave me 
Your my safety baby your my safety 

If I had one wish before I turn to dust 
I’d ask you to go dance with for one last time, for one last time 
cuz every second feels like heaven when I hold on to you 
Trust me I’m not acting, you can’t imagine 
How you make my heart move

safety「lileffort」

Produced by kuudere & Sg Lily

@sglily
@lilkuudere

was it all bc of me? (ft. sg lily)

all black everything around me
sitting here in silence
put the cameras down please
be careful people die here
meaning of a short life
try not to avoid
the people
that surround you

im better now
maybe im just gettin out the house
i been getting down
but lately i been tryna make it out
can you hold me down
i just need something to hold on to
i just someone to come home to
make something out of this 

when im by your side
i evaporate
i get butterflies
when i look at ur face
we dont have to lie
dont let it dissipate
promise we’ll be fine
i know that this is fate

i hope we can make this worth
for moments that we had
every day is taken for granted
have you noticed all the things that we have
that we haveeee
i know that u want this to last
and ill always take you back
cherishing every day we have  

all black everything around me
sitting here in silence
put the cameras down please
be careful people die here
meaning of a short life
try not to avoid
the people
that surround you

we could watch the stars from inside the glass castle 
i felt your touch on my hand, then i felt it in my heart
we could do whatever we want to 
only thing that matters is that we’re together 

where u wanna go, i’ll  follow you 
whatever you need i’ll be there for you 
i'm just one text away, i'm just one call away 
i know you don’t feel like yourself, just know its gon b ok,

in the end I know
i’ve been there before 
and I made it out 
baby tell me now 
what you’re waiting for 
i’ll go with you if you want 

we could watch the stars from inside the glass castle 
i felt your touch on my hand, then i felt it in my heart
we could do whatever we want to 
only thing that matters is that we’re together

glass castle 2 +senses (yandere)

@resolve1k

i feel so lost right now i just dont know where to go
ask if ive been alright but i dont know anymore
i cant trust you anymore cause you left me in the cold
everybody say they love me but i still feel alone

i cant feel this moment
i just feel so broken
i wont try its hopeless
you’re my only solace
wasted my time
on your empty lies
i just cant seem to cry
dont tell me that its fine
honestly i dont know why

i can barely breathe
i can barely sleep
dont wanna see the future if its not with you and me
dont know what you want
dont know what you need
every time i try it just ends up where i bleed

was it all bc of me? (ft. sg lily)

kuudere

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