all these highs be weary 
they take my friends and bury 
but dont be scared theres much more room inside this cemetery
all these stories cautionary
like take your life compare me 
take the parts you dont like then 
in your life be different than me 
nothing could have prepared me 
none
but i knew the whole time what would happen 
it just hits different when youre really in it heavy 
my skin is slipping off me
just leave me where you find me  
im in the woods trainspotting through the poison ivy 
i left that all behind me
still feel it close beside me 
i dont know what to do with myself when i sit still and silent
i find myself in situations i hope dont get violent 
i trip myself up thinking someones intentions are sideways
ive just been done so badly
you dont know the slightest
all these things that i done seen i keep em in my eyelids 
all this time that ive spent looking youd think that id find it 	  
and i try the millionth i dont know why 
repeat

tombstone carousel (prod. sorrow bringer)

drk knight

blessed are the forgetful

produced by @notmorgn
with @cpt_sad and @guccihighwaters

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in the wind (w/ yesterday and guccihighwaters)

Special thanks to https://www.instagram.com/fallingap.art/ for the artwork on this <3
https://twitter.com/sayygoodbyye
https://soundcloud.com/goodbyye

Lyrics:
Fuck you I'm just so mad
Got me feeling so sad
Think about the times we had
Why'd you have to leave like that
Left me all alone in fact
I been lonely holding back
Tears in my eyes looking past
Wishing that this could've last

Writing this letter so I could say
Dearest friend I hope you'll be okay
Think about you each and every day
I'm still wishing that you could've stayed
Want you to know that I'm broken
Hear the words that were never spoken
I was fine until I was awoken
A heart is so fragile when it's stolen

Fuck you I'm just so mad
Got me feeling so sad
Think about the times we had
Why'd you have to leave like that
Left me all alone in fact
I been lonely holding back
Tears in my eyes looking past
Wishing that this could've last

So I'll write this note and then I'll burn it
Let the smoke carry up the words and turn it
To a message from below so you learn it
Thought I wanted death before but now I yearn it
I know you want to go
Please stay I'll be alone
If you leave from this home
Don't go out in the cold

Don't go out in the snow

Please don't leave me alone

I don't want you to go

Please don't leave me alone

why'd you have to go

produced by @prodreaper
mixed by @nick-grivell

i break fast, move slow
don’t ask, they all know
their fake laughs, won’t change
walk past, no names
blades and, roses
my heart stays, frozen
i lay back, breathe deep
i flip through my TV.

i hate the way the wind still howls
through the leaves outside my window
don’t breathe your insecurities
i miss the way you smile through the pain
inside your photos
you haunt my dreams

watch the raindrops rolling off the tattoos
on your shoulder
since you left me I’ve grown colder
breathing heavy like theirs boulders on my chest

its real
but all of the rest 
don’t care how you feel
so i think its best
this blood I’ve spilled still goes to waste

i get that membrance of your face
while I’m walking in the downpour of this rain
outside your place, I’m breathing your name

i hate the way the wind still howls
through the leaves outside my window
don’t breathe your insecurities

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Blades & Roses -(prod. reaper)

fucking call me or something

Produced and performed by king theta
Vocal mix and master by IOF https://soundcloud.com/iofmusic
Art by Love, Max https://twitter.com/lovemaxofficial

Lyrics:
I
I just wanna feel like I could fly
Give me anything that gets me high
I need you in my life cause
Shit's gonna cave in soon
Why?
Why you gotta say that I'm lyin
I swear to fuckin God I'm doin fine
The power's all mine but
Shit's gonna cave in soon

I need to fill the void in my heart
Baby, tell me Ima be a star
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?
I need to turn pain into art
Hate me, so I can stay in the dark
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?

I got everything that I thought I wanted
But it didn't work

She said "lose
The fake personality you use"
Spent too many nights pourin Goose
So easy justifying getting loose
Attention is distraction from the noose
Sorry, not sorry for my ego
The king threw the old me out the window
I know there's no way home

I need to fill the void in my heart
Baby, tell me Ima be a star
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?
I need to turn pain into art
Hate me, so I can stay in the dark
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?

Keep fillin me up
With your love and affection
And I'll spill it right out
Call it self-protection

I need to fill the void in my heart
Baby, tell me Ima be a star
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?
I need to turn pain into art
Hate me, so I can stay in the dark
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?

Wish I Could Start Over

@mewsyc
@producedbyaidan
@guccihighwaters

yeah im just ur boy toy
fillin up some free time
take me when u wanna
then leave me here to die
i'll keep it to myself now
got me feelin left out
u talk a lot shit like u dont got a lot to hide

numb to the core
yeah, i kill that pain
with a bottle of liqoure
feel it runnin thru my veins
when im not high
or preoccupied
i got thorns in my heart
and a storm roarin in my mind

whats inside my cup
blindsides my brain
so i hide my face
in an act of shame
and hope to dissapear
in a perminant way
u watch me fade to black
u'd love to watch my pain

and u know
who to call
ill b there
after all
and i know
when i fall
u wont care
afterall,

yeah im just ur boy toy
fillin up some free time
take me when u wanna
then leave me here to die
i'll keep it to myself now
got me feelin left out
u talk a lot shit like u dont got a lot to hide

numb to the core
yeah, i kill that pain
with a bottle of liqoure
feel it runnin thru my veins
when im not high
or preoccupied
i got thorns in my heart
and a storm roarin in my mind

yeah, im just a waste
i dont got that much to offer
im selfish and conceeded 
but always put my all
into everyone and everything
then watch it as it falls
let it crumble to my feet
just like everything ive ever loved

yeah, im just ur boy toy
fillin up some free time
take me when u wanna
then leave me here to die
i always knew the truth
u aint even gotta lie
ur the best thing
but im just another guy

im ur puppet and u play me like a game
text from my ex, yeah she never felt the same
use me on a rainy day
abuse me til i cant even think
that picuture that we took
i always kept it safe
id put it in my pocket just so i could see ur face
when i was out of town
u always kept me with u
never told u bout all the times when i would miss u

yeah, im just ur boy toy
fillin up some free time
take me when u wanna
then leave me here to die
i always knew the truth
u aint even gotta lie
ur the best thing
but im just another guy

Follow me <3

boy toy (ft. guccihighwaters) [prod. mewsyc & aidan]

prod me <3

(chorus)
my phone is dead don't text me
should've known you'd break my heart right when you met me
now i'm over it
now i'm used to this
feel like gucci bitch
yeah i'm so sick of this

(verse)
i drop bars like nukes
drop bombs like its m dub 2
bitch who the fuck are you?
cause i don't got a clue

i can't get to trippin over bitches like you

ima write all night till my hands get tired
like she's a liar i can't believe i liked her
i need a lighter, i need a drink
i don't need the alcohol but i don't wanna think

(chorus)
my phone is dead don't text me
should've known you'd break my heart right when you met me
now i'm over it
now i'm used to this
feel like gucci bitch
yeah i'm so sick of this

(verse)
i smoke now, i get high
i get wasted, to get by
i'm so fucked up, i still cry
i don't miss you tho i guess i'm alright

at least the drugs work
at least my songs bang
at least my moms good
at least her rents paid

at least my love life, isn't sideways
my hearts broken but my phones on vibrate

(chorus)
my phone is dead don't text me
should've known you'd break my heart right when you met me
now i'm over it
now i'm used to this
feel like gucci bitch
yeah i'm so sick of this x2

(outro)
phone died, feelings died like myspace
hundred texts no reply no time mate
are you good nate? lie and say i'm great
but fuck that i wanna die like everyday

don't text me

No Strings on Me (prod. 4evrgone x caspr)

shout out @demxntia for hopping on this and making it pretty and @wavewalk for making such a sick unique beat go follow them

Sui:

sick of floating here being stagnant in life know this aint right
but everytime a good thing happens 
storms come in and wash progression all away 
good things come along but they dont ever stay
no~~
days dont ever last, curb with broken glass 
sitting there watch the mf cars pass
never show 
anymore emotion feel like going over board like
carry us away, lost my way at night 
flowing down the undertow again
caught up in the fucking cyclone 
waves will crash and pull, leave me on my own
Ill sink with this mf ship never making it back to shore

Dem: 
I don't give a fuck anymore
go to war with myself at the core
you know i felt this way before
everything i used to love feels like chores
i don't know~
which way i should go~
i hope there's room to grow~
i hate feeling so, low~
oo~ oooo~ ye
oo~ where do i go, cause i just dont know

Bofa:

Drowning to my sorrow, keep that to myself
You can save yer rescue, i don't need yer help x2
NO
days dont ever last, curb with broken glass 
sitting there watch the mf cars pass
never show 
anymore emotion feel like going over board like
carry us away, lost my way at night 
flowing down the undertow again
caught up in the fucking cyclone 
waves will crash and pull, leave me on my own
Ill sink with this mf ship never making it back to shore

don't text me

sadeyes