@guardinmusic
Prod by: @sinxi x Tagliatore

lyrics-

yung van-
I ain’t felt love since I was a kid
Yeah, you told me that you love me but you never did
I’ve got mines around my heart but you didn’t set them off
I guess what I’m tryna say is it’s all my fault, yeah
I ain’t felt love since I was a kid
Yeah, you told me that you love me but you never did
I’ve got mines around my heart but you didn’t set them off
I guess what I’m tryna say is it’s all my fault
Not a nice guy, but I act like one
No matter what I do I always hurt someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one
No matter what I do I always fuck this up
I don’t think I’ll ever really love someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one
guardin-

Yeah I got an ice heart
Fuck all your feelings I’ll tear them apart
What nice start
I’m unaware that I do this I’m sorry sweet heart
I’m a boggart
Keep to myself up until I depart
Can I restart?
I only see dark at the end of the tunnel

And I cannot focus on all these fucking emotions
They constantly go unspoken, for I do fear being open
And I can feel my throat closing
As my heart starts decomposing
A Hollow being just floating
As my demise is approaching us

yung van - 
Not a nice guy, but I act like one
No matter what I do I always hurt someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one
No matter what I do I always fuck this up
I don’t think I’ll ever really love someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one

I’ve been in my bedroom for 8 days
I don’t wanna text you I’m afraid
You don’t wanna love me, that’s okay
I don’t even love myself to this day
I’ve been in my bedroom for 8 days
I don’t wanna text you I’m afraid, yeah
You don’t wanna love me, that’s okay
I don’t even love myself to this day

I ain’t ever love since I was a kid
Yeah you told me that you love me but you never did
I’ve got mines around my heart but you didn’t set them off
I guess what I’m tryna say is it’s all my fault
Not a nice guy, but I act like one
No matter what I do I always hurt someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one

Goblin Kid

Something’s in the Way

VInyl & CD pre-sales

scumbag

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fuck my life
fuck my health
you don't care so i'll go fuck myself
fuck this job
fuck this car
every song that i write just coexists with a scar
and i've got paragraphs about the shit that i will never say
cause it'll kill you just to hear me whine and bitch all fucking day
maybe the grass is green in other states where i choose to reside
maybe a glimpse of light will formulate and catch my fucking eye
and maybe you'll hear this when you check my page and ask if i'm alright
cause i've been afraid of all the darkest places lying in my mind

i will convince myself i'm dying but then act like i'm just fine
my mind's a scary fucking place and i can't fix it while i drive
but my car is lucy in the sky with diamonds going sixty five
and you're just a pot hole maybe yoko ono screaming by my side
is this the end of things i'm strumming strings just trying to decide
cause i am afraid of me so save me please i beg you just to try
i'm losing my purpose lifes a circus they said please enjoy the ride
my seatbelt is broken eyes wide open as my body starts to slide

if i escape the wreck i'll disconnect from everyone online
i'll pack my belongings i've been longing for this moment my whole life
i'll disappear for months no mentions of my status or a clue
i'm fine don't you worry there's no hurry to return to what i knew
it's hard to calculate these conversations if i'm being truth
-ful i wanna congregate all that relate to everything i spew
in midst of my disconnect i'll stay in check & keep in touch with few
as long as i'm open im just hoping that it's something i'll get through 

cause i'm a fucking wreck
oh what the heck
why do i even try
i lie in the grass
high off my ass
& watch the clouds just pass on by
if life has a purpose
i am nervous
to unravel what is mine
i'll trip & i'll travel
down the rabbit hole
& ditch my bags inside

ditch

Тихими шагами

feature: @guccihighwaters

lyrics:

(softheart)
why would i trust in anything
i dont feel the love it dont mean a thing
feels so good then it really sting
i dont really talk but i really sing 
she got me thinking like
oo she had me
cut me off so bad
leave me messed up in my head
only miss us when were bad
i be in my room smoking loud sitting silent
you should be adressed as your highness
i swear every time we touch just mitus
im just roaming through the ridges of your irus
violence got your eyelids looking violet
promise ill get rid of him ill leave him where i find him
i be with the blinds dimmed hidin
vibin

unimpressed and always bored
it aint here yet so i'll wait for it
im depressed and always stoned
im always stressed i can't control it 
uninterested always alone
fire in my chest and my heart cold
bedroom unkept ash all over my floor
i got kush in my breath merijuana my decor


(gucci)
oh
i’m all alone my phone dead
i got thoughts of the end 
and my eyes sell a forfeit
thoughts of brain matter
stain my mattress
thoughts you drown me
like a baptist

girl im sorry
oh yeah im sorry
im not the one you love
i’d be the one to fuck you 
then ignore you
for a month

girl im sorry
oh yeah im sorry
im not the one you love
i’d be the one to fuck you 
then ignore you
for a month

(softheart)
yeah and im just an outcast 
only fit in with the skyline 
cause im always lighting up
never really gets me numb enough
sorry i wasnt the one you loved

(gucci&softheart)
girl im sorry
oh yeah im sorry
im not the one you love
i’d be the one to fuck you 
then ignore you
for a month

i'm not the one you love (feat. guccihighwaters)

sometimes things just dont work out,
if you wanted me to stay you should know now,
you can tell me anything that you dont doubt,
Park Jefferson in the air while we roll out

cool breeze in her hair got my heart warm,
orange leaves in the air got me lovelorn,
cold fights on the phone make a big storm,
guess ill leave, wanna stay, got my heart torn

when i wake up my bed too big,
sleep in the hole in the grave i dig,
i walk away like i know you did,
turned my back the same time that you hid

some day when we're both alone and lonely,
some day when i want you back to hold me,
think back on all of the things you told me,
miss you feeling like you were my only

Im sorry i ran away
Im sorry i couldnt stay
Im breaking down every day
I know its better this way

can you feel this pain inside
broke inside got me out of my mind
all these days pass by i cry
wanna go back, do it right this time

i been down im so broken
cant stand my hearts been stolen
the way our lives been woven
just makes me sad im frozen

i tried to sleep away my feelings im still sad
i tried to get all of this weight up off my back
i tried to numb all the emotions that i had
i cried and laid in bed for weeks i still feel bad

Im sorry i ran away
Im sorry i couldnt stay
Im breaking down every day
I know its better this way

runaway (prod adjustisac)

lyrics: https://genius.com/Softheart-beautiful-lyricsl

guitar loop by shiki
extra loop by Dm808god

Beautiful

music video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OkrzFmxBHVM

prod lee

i know when i write this you won't like it yeah i'm sad
wishin you would smile when your hearts under attack
yeah i'm breathin really heavy baby please don't turn your back
i be talkin out our problems while you miss your mom and dad

you miss em bad too, tell me when i ask you
love your authenticity you're pretty but you're sad too
and you know i'll always love you even if i don't have to
baby you're my everything i'm sorry for my bad mood

baby girl i trust you more than i can put in words
i'd be happy to help you if you would tell me when it hurts
you be cryin every night its not depression its a curse
you're the girl that i've been fightn for but you think you're the worst

it's like every time i look into your eyes i swear
nothin in the world could ever compare
no,

when i fell for you i dove
finally i'm happy honestly i lost hope

do you feel your heart sink when you think of my face
does it help you fall asleep or does it keep you awake
do you see me in your dreams, do i haunt you in your sleep
do you wish that i was someone else you wanted me to be

i can't take it all the pressure on my back
wishin i was different we both blame it on my past
i can't even act right, i don't ever sleep
wishin i was everything you wanted me to be

no i can't take this i've been breakin
you stay on my mind
half the time i write about you
i don't wanna try

it's like every time i look into your eyes i swear
nothin in the world could ever compare
no,

when i fell for you i dove
finally i'm happy honestly i lost hope

i can't even take it all i ever do is stress out
feelin like i'm light its like i never put the pen down
and murder every line every time i'm a threat bro
killin every track like i got a fuckin deathnote

pretty sad (prod. lee)

prod. pink

lyrics:
Let's pretend that I'm alright
I'm anxious little psychopathic fuck
can't sleep at night
all alone the thoughts they've grown
and I ain't putting up no fight
can't conduce the fucking truth up out your mouth but that's alright
~
can't control but my mind grip
gotta let it go the thoughts they flow
ain't gotta fucking trip
lifes a puzzle, mind is muddled
clear it up, I kiss your lips
grip your hips
biting on your neck until you fucking drip

like a puddle, we cuddle until the sundown
ride my shuttle rebuttal, we smoke and comedown
I'm so faded, I'm crossed
intoxicated I'm lost
inebriated what cost?
I'm feeling run down

been stuck in head sometimes
don't leave me for dead, i'm blind
in due time i will find
that, it don't matter what you wanna do
just put you're all into
focus you're mind and I swear you will get it
don't stress the small, stand up tall pay attention
sure you fall, but will you get up? redemption

Let's pretend that I'm alright
I'm anxious little psychopathic fuck
can't sleep at night
all alone the thoughts they've grown
and I ain't putting up no fight
can't conduce the fucking truth up out your mouth but that's alright
~
can't control but my mind grip
gotta let it go the thoughts they flow
ain't gotta fucking trip
lifes a puzzle, mind is muddled
clear it up, I kiss your lips
grip your hips
biting on your neck until you fucking drip

like a puddle, we cuddle until the sundown
ride my shuttle rebuttal, we smoke and comedown
I'm so faded, I'm crossed
intoxicated I'm lost
inebriated what cost?
I'm feeling run down

PanicAttack! [prod. pink]

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baby maybe
i could come thru in the morning
i don't care if it is still raining & pouring
outside your window the world is still tossing & turning
rain turns to sunshine this is a cycle i'm learning

fear
the keeper instilled in my mind
i've been escaping erasing the parts of my brain that don't ever comply
oh dear
i hope you that you know that i've tried
but terror is making a mess if i do just confess i know all of it's lies

why do i 
feed the parts inside of me
that absolutely mortify & choke me till i cannot breathe
do you feel
better when you're sound asleep
or do the thoughts inside of you just come to life inside a dream

truth be told
i've lost all hope
my mind has gone insane
maybe i'm addicted to the dark parts of my brain
you & i have different eyes no we are not the same
i could be the moth and baby you could be the flame

⛈️

someday 2

prod me ,,

lyrics:

I dont wanna talk, I dont wanna get outta bed I dont wanna walk,
I jus wanna leave here nothin even matters
I already accomplished all my goals and I jus sat there
I dont rly see what u see in me cus ik in my head ur an enemy
I dont feel okay I dont feel like me
I would take on all the pain if it meant I could be here

its hard to explain jus how I feel
okay im pissed off but that shit aint real
I can see thru all the fake shit in my head
but sumtimes it makes me feel like im fuckin...
dead, jus got outta bed
finally got up and now im headed to the shower
wash away my problems but I cant cus this disaster is never gonna end I cant wait for the after, life sucks ik.
I cant catch a break I swear im always on my toes
I try to use my energy I try to give the most
I swear that ima be like this until Im comatose

I dont care what u think of me
I fall down the same path everyday
fighting my problems is tiring
I fight myself jus to get sum sleep x3

pretty sad (prod. lee)

sadeyes