another one ready in the chamber after this, I'm excited to finally have some things ready to roll out, keep your ears peeled next week. hope u enjoy! :)

visual artist-- https://www.instagram.com/maepetals/
producer-- https://www.youtube.com/c/tilakontape

Maeday [prod. Tilak]

I Can't Love

shawdy wanna love me till my heart stops
blow up on the track like i'm a pop rock
i just made a number off a feature
ima keep on rockin crystal clear

let me rot, decaying or not
ill still make the bops make you scream till you drop
smoke till you cough, drink till your soft
you cry in your bed cause your ex did you wrong

smokin allot i been puffin that potent all day till  i drop
i don't care about you or the the things that you cop
i been locked in my room everyday makin bops

one thing is clear i've always been the same
never changin rearranging all the people out of frame
wanna talk about the money always focused on the fame
kinda funny how they treat me differently its fuckin lame

bright pink tee tans jeans same me
bright blue eyes you'll never see x2

shawdy wanna love me till my heart stops
blow up on the track like i'm a pop rock
i just made a number off a feature
ima keep on rockin crystal clear

let me rot, decaying or not
ill still make the bops make you scream till you drop
smoke till you cough, drink till your soft
you cry in your bed cause your ex did you wrong x2

bright pink tee tan jeans same me, bright blue eyes you'll never see again

crystal clear! w/ guardin (prod. ugly zucc x pinknokia)

cet album est pour toi

i think its crazy how it came to be, 
i'm really good at makin people run away from me
before i tell you what you mean to me
understand i'm brokenhearted but your love could be my remedy so

take my hand we can fly away,
we can kiss and hug and fuck to take the pain away

take the pain away
take the pain away
take the pain away
take the pain away
(the pain away)

i been fallin, for you girl,
you could be my girl my world
i been fallin, for you girl
you could be my girl my world (x2)

tell me that you love me baby please
i will drive to california just to set your mind at ease
i will love you like there's no one left to please
let me run you outta breath i want your tongue apon my teeth
(i swear to god)

i think its crazy how it came to be, 
i'm really good at makin people run away from me
before i tell you what you mean to me
understand i'm brokenhearted but your love could be my remedy so

take my hand we can fly away,
we can kiss and hug and fuck to take the pain away

take the pain away
take the pain away
take the pain away
take the pain away
(the pain away)

i been fallin, for you girl,
you could be my girl my world
i been fallin, for you girl
you could be my girl my world (x2)

wrote you a song

wrote you a song (p. ocean)

cet album est pour toi

life is so hard, i won't go far
i always sleep right through all my alarms
i can't wake up, help me i'm stuck
most of my friends prolly don't give a fuck, no

help me, i can't breathe
help me, i can't, i can't breathe

suffocation

suffocation (interlude) (p. misery)

i hope everyone's having a good day.

I have been desperately searching for clarity
but lately I cannot see much of anything
and it's been scaring me..

wake me up when I'm better please

I have been chasing my dreams like they're all that I got
so I don't think of all that I've lost
shit, I've lost nearly everything

momma said it gets better
she said it gets better
please, give it some time
I promise son you gonna shine

but when I look into her eyes
all I see is her pain
but somehow she's still okay

don't know what to say
I guess I feel guilty
i caused of a lot of it
and that shit kills me

my soul is filthy
emotions are crippling
broken within
don't know if you could fix me

I'm way past hoping and wishing

and I don't know
what to do with my self
think I'm falling apart

and I'm so scared 
to try and love someone else
cause there's no love
for myself in my heart

I'm just feeling overwhelmed
driving home late at night in my car
cause I know that I made this hell
I may run but I wont get too far

I won't get too far

clarity

guitar by noah walker

heavily influenced by daughter and ex:re, please check them out

Only Almost

Timeout

produced by @lilsadeyes and @nversad

i was yours, you were mine
i should've known i was wasting your time
i couldn't grow, i wanted to die
now when ever you text me i can't reply

so i guess i'll go get stoned
and wonder why you haven't come back home

i wanna give myself stick n pokes
i wanna laugh so hard i lose my throat

and now i've someone that truly fucking cares
doesn't look the other way when i'm alone or in despair
doesn't act like i'm the reason that my parents wouldn't cope
with the fact that i'm a loser so they left me on my own

she won't leave me in the smoke
when i'm sad alone or broke
she gon keep me on my toes
she gon hold me hella close

she gon be there in the end
when i'm lyin in my bed
she gon tell me how she love me
she could never play pretend

i was yours, you were mine
i should've known i was wasting your time
i couldn't grow, i wanted to die
now when ever you text me i can't reply

so i guess i'll go get stoned
and wonder why you haven't come back home

i wanna give myself stick n pokes
i wanna laugh so hard i lose my throat

and my heart fuckin' bursts
when i'm lookin' at her
she's the one that i need
she's the one i deserve

she's the reason i breathe
she's the reason i heal
she's the one that i want
and that's just how i feel

stick n pokes

Produced by @taxpurposes

Lyrics:

I'm a fan of how she only wears Vans and Adidas
Get it when I can understand you don't need us
Tell me when I land no hands when I risk this 
She could go pro think her head does flip tricks
I'm a fan of how she only wears Vans and Adidas
Get it when I can understand you don't need us
Tell me when I land no hands when I risk this 
She could go pro think her head does flip tricks


Think her head does flip tricks
We been going through it now I'm caught up in the mix with
All of her bad intentions and all of her other mentions
Okay, no way treat me like a head space 
That you only get in when you go and think of my face
Latest, greatest doesn't know your playlist 
Can I hit shuffle or turn back all our pages
Can I turn back all our pages
She could go pro think her head does flip tricks 

I'm a fan of how she only wears Vans and Adidas
Get it when I can understand you don't need us
Tell me when I land no hands when I risk this 
She could go pro think her head does flip tricks

Please don't bring us up oh no
Hourglass body look like she from Soho
I can't replace you with no one
Guess I'll just wait till the day comes
Wish I could just remove this news inside my head of you now
Front page can't say you're not it
When it comes to what I wanted
Wish I could just remove this news inside my head of you now
Front page can't say you're not it
When it comes to what I wanted

I'm a fan of how she only wears Vans and Adidas
Get it when I can understand you don't need us
Tell me when I land no hands when I risk this 
She could go pro think her head does flip tricks
Can I turn back all our pages?

Spotify

She Only Wears Vans (prod. taxpurposes)

s/o https://soundcloud.com/jolst for the fye beet

lyrics:
i won't ever find myself i swear,
i get so mad i can't do shit but stare,
i look in the mirror and get so insecure,
im not sure who i am anymore. x2

i get so pissed and i hate it, i know im not me jus say it.
my posture sucks and im breaking my back just to stand, but i won't say shit.
everybody use my energy like im a fuckin phone
they like "kais is fuckin stupid god i bet he'll never know" 
yeah i notice, its hard to know shit 
i don't really talk to them because im too damn focused.

too damn focused on dreams that i have you should know this,
if i ever give this up because some bullshit in my head i'll regret till i die, i'll regret it till im dead.
shit don't make sense
how am i supposed to get this off my chest?
i been tryin my best
they're not impressed
how am i supposed to feel when i can't rest?

i won't ever find myself i swear,
i get so mad i can't do shit but stare,
i look in the mirror and get so insecure,
im not sure who i am anymore.