secret (ft. skele, sendflowrs, shinju)

(casperrr)
look at the place im in 
notice the pain i feel 
sometimes i wish u were here
so i could have u close 2 me 

look at the way i live
notice the way i bleed
i hide my scars under   sleeves
but i always have blades close 2 me

(self harming i'm addicted to pain
blood flowing down the drain 
u fucked up my whole brain 
cause i still want u to have my last name)~

(skele)
what does it feel like to wake up with closure
drinking alone i've been drunk since october
hoping for change told my mom i'd get sober
blood from my veins ill bleed till it's over
and im so scared that i cant fix the breaks u made
and it's not fair cause i'd be fine if u just stayed
sometimes i wish u were just so i could get sum fucking sleep
sometimes i wish u were baby you are everything i need

(casperrr)
look at the place im in 
notice the pain i feel 
sometimes i wish u were here
so i could have u close 2 me 

look at the way i live
notice the way i bleed
i hide my scars under   sleeves
but i always have blades close 2 me (2x)

look at the place i'm in w/skele (pekarot)

promise you won't leave

prod: https://soundcloud.com/eric-godlow
master: https://soundcloud.com/vito2300

i got a bottle in my hand right now
i still think i'll make it out somehow
it goes down
inside our house
but i don't really wanna fight right now
i know i'm always on the road right now
it's too loud
inside our house

making sure my heart beats
slow 
the minute i let go 
it'll turn my heart cold
so put your arms around me 
and please don't let go 
until my eyes close 
baby look look at the snow 
and promise you won't leave

i think i broke this time
a little too much for you to come n fix
i think i fucked it up this time
but it's all my fault i did 

i heard you were on the phone 
that one painful look in your eyes
you were telling your mom it's been hard
but he always get's better
he said it'd be fine
i've been relapsing in my dreams 
take a minute to guess what that means
curl up n shake under covers
making sure my heart beats

video out now

the minute i let go (prod. eric godlow)

i want you to see me like i'm nothing more than flesh 

w/ @heylog

prod: https://soundcloud.com/eric-godlow
master: https://soundcloud.com/ezraspandora 

looking back baby,
i already was hollow
toss it back 
way too fast 
till i get through the bottle
i don't wanna leave this club
i just wanna drink 
until i throw it all up
(lock me up)
want you to squeeze until i'm leaking out blood
i wanna see just how it feels to go numb
i wanna feel it on the tip of my tongue
let's fuck it up until we're going out bad 
let's break it all apart until there's nothing fucking left
cause i want you to see me like i'm nothing more than flesh 
and i want you to tell me i'm a waste of fucking breath
oh i'm terrible 
i'm the reason you're falling 
unbearable 
i'm the bones in your closet
i still just wanna see you get out 
there's nothing left for me to be now

damn it all 
pray for what 
there's nobody there
(i'm too far gone)
tell me why 
i wanted you then 
i want you now

heylog:
i'm chillin at a party, why'd i decide to go out
wish i just stayed home but i been stuck inside my house
i don't even care, i'd much rather be sober
she hung around the bottles and i could tell it broke her
i'm glad i can't relate cause i've never had that problem
you told me i'm rude for that but hey, i'm being honest
i would never lie to you, just want you to stop it
i could up and go, i've got plenty of options
quit talking, ur just holding me back
it's safe to say, tonight ur getting trashed
take a second to breathe, ik ur sad
you don't have to drink it away, could you relax
she phones her girls for a ride at 3am
can't even walk to her room, she needs a hand
throwing up all the time, she's used to it
friday night rolls around and repeat it

tip of my tongue (w/ heylog) (prod. eric godlow)

look what you've done to me

prod. acey
master: @vito2300

sometimes i don't know who i am
look in the mirror
i don't see me there
that's a monster
and he looks somber
but he just killed a man

well lesson learned
i won't get my hopes up
i won't care if you show up
show up
won't be here when the sun comes
the sun comes out

sobered up
missing the way out
locked in
i need to calm down
i can't calm down
in a cold house
i hear every sound

if i was perfect why were you fucking him
tell me what he had i couldn't do better than
n i saw it
you're sobbing
i put the knife in him

i'm numb to the bloodshed
good at destroying
and i'm home when
i'm hearing voices
and in the morning
i'll be what you need
look what you've done to me
look what you've done to me
look what you've done to me

i've had enough for now

home

home (prod. acey)

until i see the moon 

prod me 
master: @vito2300

so long 
i’ll wait right here for you 
until i see the moon 
i won’t move
i cried 
this happens every time 
tell me you’ll be alright 
make sure that you don’t die

i’ll stay right here
right by the phone 
until it comes clear 
until you come home 
and pin me right on the wall 
if that’s enough for you to stay here at all 
i’ll be good for you 
just like in that song 
that i wrote you last fall 

just give me like 
five more minutes 
baby and then i’ll be finished 
there’s no one to hold 
i miss you, it’s cold 

so long
i’ll wait right here for you 
until i see the moon 
i won’t move

cold

cold (prod. skele)

just to see you alive 

prod: @jolst
master: @vito2300

please don’t push me aside 
i’ve given my life up 
just to see you alive 
it’s everything i want 
to be good in your eyes 

it doesn’t really get better 
that’s the lesson i learned 
now i wait for the day 
that i turn one with the earth 

i just love to sit and watch it burnout 
i’ve been sleeping with the bodies in the fallout 
i know i’ll die if i ever let my guard down 
there’s a creature waiting by 
to take my heart out 

please don’t push me aside 
i’ve given my life up 
just to see you alive 
it’s everything i want 
to be good in your eyes 
(i’ve given my life up 
just to see you alive 
it’s everything i want 
it’s everything i)

tell me is it wrong 
i just love it how it hurts 
darling is it wrong 
how i'm wishing for the worst 
baby in the end i’m just a body 
did you know 
that you’ve been sleeping with a zombie?

aside

aside (prod. jolst)

just like you promised 

prod: https://soundcloud.com/youngburial https://soundcloud.com/anxietyattackss
master: @vito2300

put me through the pain 
just keep talking to me 
just like you promised 
i wanna watch while you leave 
put me through the shame 
all this crying to me 
won’t make you honest 
i can’t be what you need 

every night it’s silence 
i always dream i’m dying 
i wake up before the knife hits 
you used to hold me till my tears quit 
now you’re there watching as my skin rips 
helping hide the evidence 
cleaning up so elegant 
like it’s so lovely how your day went 

look in my eyes, for once 
i want you to tell me i’m never enough 
throw me on the bed so rough 
bite through my neck till i’m covered in blood 
want you to hold me down 
cover my mouth till i can’t make a sound 
want you to hold me tight 
and give me some scars to remember you by 

just keep talking to me 
just like you promised 
(just like you promised, you promised)
all this crying to me 
won’t make you honest
(you promised, you promised)

put me through the pain 
just keep talking to me 
just like you promised 
i wanna watch while you leave 
put me through the shame 
all this crying to me 
won’t make you honest 
i can’t be what you need

pain

pain (prod. fats'e & anxiety attacks!)

i'll make you my only purpose

prod. acey 
master: @vito2300

cut me open
let me feel you
ripping up my skin
i’m a masochist at best
i let you come right in 
pulling out my heart
(i let it happen)
lying in the dark
(i heard you laughing)
chain me up so tight 
that i can’t feel my wrists 
and let me stare at you 
in anguish 
losing oxygen 
i’ll treat you like a god 
just let me worship 
leaking blood out at the sermon 
put me down right on my knees
and i’ll be good for you for certain 
let me prove to you i’m worth it 
i’ll make you my only purpose 
i’ll be waiting till the winter ends 
just let me be of service 
look at me now 
i’m fucking collapsing 
i don’t wanna feel fucking anything 
every time i dream i’m fucking relapsing 
sipping it straight fucking kerosense 
look at me now 
i’m fucking collapsing 
i don’t wanna feel fucking anything 
every time i dream i’m fucking relapsing 
sipping it straight fucking kerosense 
(let me be that once, once
and let me feel your touch
and let me be your crutch, crutch
until you’ve had enough)

sermon

sermon (prod. acey)

there's no love in those eyes of yours

prod: acey & @vito2300
master: @vito2300 & https://soundcloud.com/diskrypt

can we talk for a second 
i can't breathe when i'm next to you
stop for a second 
reassess what's gotten into you
tell me why i'm looking at a monster
a monster
i feel like a lamb sent to the slaughter 
the slaughter 

i suppose it's unavoidable
you were sent to kill me off 
so make it horrible
want you to cut around my neck 
like i'm deplorable
and i'll sit pretty for you 
rotting under soil 
oh i just give it up right 
i'm so easy don't lie
there's no love in those eyes of yours
oh i'm just wasting my life 
and it's just about time 
i'm just waiting to die
for sure

don't wanna tell you that i like it 
all the blood's got me excited
and if you wanna put me down 
i wouldn't mind it
you can treat me like a dog 
i love the violence
you can tell me what to say 
and i'll recite it 

if i'm the puppet 
you're the hand 
so pull the strings up
do you what you want 
i'll understand 
you're such a demon
(x2)

if i'm the puppet
you're the hand 
so pull the strings up 
do what you want 
i'll understand
you're such a demon
it's so hard for me to talk 
i can't speak up
if i don't see you at the end 
i love you so much

puppet

puppet (prod. acey & vito)

hold me like this one will be the last time 

prod: michael harrison and gavin hadley 
master: @onlyfriendyeah

i took a trip out to vegas 
and you had lost your wallet 
i think we both tried to save it 
i think i knew i can't stop it 
cause baby we were breaking 
so many cracks spread without 
and by the time that it had split 
we had planned out a house 

i can't love you enough 
i'll try my best till it's done
baby you're all that i want 
i wish you'd tell me that once

i'd give up everything i have to fix the things ruined
but i just can't make myself put my heart through it 

i don't want it to stop 
i can't feel it all 
i don't want you gone 
i ran right through the wall

tell me everything
you want it too
i can't be your rendezvous
even if i tried 
i couldn't even if i wanted to
i always lose 
it's the truth 

i don't think that we can try again
now there's no me without you 
and baby i know that you lied again 
cause that's just what we do 
tell me that everything will be alright 
hold me like this one will be the last time 
kiss me so softly, i'll cry the whole night
grab on my body and look in my eyes 
look in my eyes

i can't love you enough 
i'll try my best till it's done 
(did i say too much, did i say too much?)
baby you're all that i want 
i wish you'd tell me that once

aside (prod. jolst)

skele

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