Name: helpless (lïllulu’s part)[DEMO] by lïllulu蓮
Duration: 2 min 14 s
Description: Instrumental from H1S OWN WORLD! There’s also another vocalist who is on this track right now I’m only posting my part of it!

eefen - Yaa

big thanks to @sinxi for jumping on the song with me 
Prod me

grasior - 
who would you lie for when every single day just feels like a chore
nothing ever goes the way you want it too
so you bring it too war 

maybe lifes better alone
all this peace n quiet never hurt your soul
does the past always bring you home

i know deep inside your scared
the abyss never felt this eerie
its so dark i can barely stare
why it all so become dreary 

just behind feeling perfect
friends dont think your worth it
telling you to stay the same

makin you think that your crazy
sitting feeling lazy
laying in the inbetween

though i dont want to take you out
everything you do just drowns it out
do you feel it all again or
is it better with a way home
you never see a way
just for what ive done too
oh i dont wanna see you go away
when you take me out away

sinxi -
uv given your attention
mustang in your driveway waiting for ya
don’t wanna be pretentious 
but the way that your moving got me oh yeah 

i’ve been gone for hours 
and your friends text your phone like we’re outta here 
but i don’t wanna leave yet 
so i’ll stay here fixated on the same shit 

that you told me a month ago 
i can’t let it 
go yet u said that ur comfortable 
with being here and i don’t wanna lie 

i don’t understand your parables 
your a demon in plain disguise 
so i’ll tell u here in some syllables 
i don’t care right now if we just die 

you know that we’ll be fine 
my heart just straight declined
let me just close my eyes 
take me to the other side
i know you hate me 
but just let me back inside
don’t be so heartless 
let’s just give it another try
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flower petals ✾

again w/sinxi

releases on all plats: 03/08/25

edit: IVE REUPLOADED THIS IWTH A DIFFERENT MIX LIKE 5 TIMES IM DONE WITH IT. NO MORE.

i say "emfl" a lot (end my femcel life) and i said it today and thought WOW! that would be a GREAT song! so i made this
also little story before the lyrics:

BUT GOOD FOR THEM I LOVE LVOE AND IM HAPPY WHEN PEOPEL ARE HAPPY TOGETHER!! :D it makes me feel hopeful!! :DD a little !! :D sometimes !!! :D also the term femcel is not that serious here pls don't come in my comments complaining if u do ur a pussy 

ああ

just another day in my FEMCEL life

(living in a lie)

just another day in my fucking femcel life
and i need a fucking boyfriend
just to keep myself alive
wanna cut my wrists and slice
me to bits
cus i’ve never even held hands 
just said love you on a screen
are you a real human being?

got that captcha
could you capture
this moment permanently 

tell me that you’ll never leave
i can show you everything
i could be all you would need
and when you finally get tired
you can just leave me on seen 

they say i got daddy issues
need someone to hold me
wonder if you knew what i had been through
would you be kinder and see
that i don’t mean no harm
 
i’m sorry all i do’s fuck up
i’m a suicidal loser
and i don’t deserve your love

you can leak the things i say and show
and when i make my plan and end up 
inside of the hospital
break up with me cus it’s good for my own mental health
cus i need some fucking help
cus i cry and beg for you to stay
and promise that ill never make
your life more shit
promise ill fix
every mistake
ive ever made

no matter what it takes…
i just want our perfect future
with our own beautiful daughter 
and youll love her as her father
we can smile and ill make sure
that her life is happy
she won’t ever hurt

just another day in my fucking femcel life
and i need a fucking boyfriend
just to keep myself alive
wanna cut my wrists and die 
tell me why i even try
tell me why i can’t just give up loving — living in a lie.

just another day in my fucking femcel life
and i need a fucking boyfriend
just to keep myself alive
wanna cut my wrists and die 
tell me why i even try
tell me why i can’t just give up loving — living in a lie.

i know i have issues
but i forgive all of yours
i try to show that i love you
but i only end up worse

tried to help through every struggle
even when you broke my trust
told you “please don’t make that promise”
cus you broke it, my heart, crushed.

so it’s— 
just another day in my fucking femcel life
and i need a fucking boyfriend
just to keep myself alive
wanna cut my wrists and die 
tell me why i even try
tell me why i can’t just give up loving — living in a lie.

living in a lie…

my femcel life. (ilybeam)

song I made back in august but finally decided to post <3 more coming soon 

prod: luvnote

lyrics: 
I can’t hold it in
Yea I’ll let it out
always cuts me up
So I throw it out
Should I be sorry 
For the things I do? 
When I can’t get ahold of you?

I’m breaking by the minute
Its alright yea im deep in it
I’d explain just how I feel 
But you know it feels too real
Please just let me in
So I’ll show you out 
And I’ll break the door 
Then I’ll shove u out
It’s not hard to get under my skin
I know my patience is way too thin 

Woke up late from a bad bad dream
And ur on my lips and u taste so sweet
And I want you when ur on my mind
But I hate you what a waste of time

I know it’s not true the things you say 
Cuz you act so different every day 
Ur love note it’s on my bed
I read it all over again 
I know it’s time to burn this love 
I’ll purge it out and throw it up 
It doesn’t mean that much to me
You always ruin everything

wounded

$ixhills

Instrumental from H1S OWN WORLD! There’s also another vocalist who is on this track right now I’m only posting my part of it!

helpless (lïllulu’s part)[DEMO]

kevinhilfiger - i already know RE-remix + k3lyxoxx p4rkr boofbby #nitecore1111

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talkin all dat shit u still broke boy 




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Spotify link:

https://open.spotify.com/track/2eD6tZGUhSy14ZtbHhabh7?si=yPZfMupXQjeZntNSJ7FFCA

BROKE BOY! ft. i9bonsai (PROD. DEAD*AT*18)

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helpline [soju]

prod. mutru
i havent had wifi for like a week now >:(

LYRICS:
i-i want u 2 die
i want u 2 die
i jus wnt 2 dieeee
i-i want u 2 die

wake up everyday n u try
working everyday of ur life
hollow eyes under ur disguise (u dont wna go)
the way i see thru u jus fine (its been pretty clear)
the pearl that is inside ur mind
hollow eyes under ur disguise (u dont wna go)
the way i see thru u jus fine (its been pretty clear)
the pearl that is inside ur mind

(2x)
i-i want u 2 die
i want u 2 die
i jus wnt 2 dieeee
i-i want u 2 die

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euthanasia (mutru)

I じ make か Hypnotic ん Surrealist に vibes 囚 reflective とof らmy わ Dreams れ & て my い Nightmares る 🌙 
囚
時
間
🎼🎵🎶
#Digicore
#hyperALT
#DREAMPOP
#indiePOP
#AltPOP
#FuturePop
#hyperpopEVOLVED
∩^ω^∩
♓️⚧♓️⚧♓️
[all music and production by myself unless stated otherwise in the description &/or name]

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