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lil lotus

all i ever wanted

That's my shit nigga.V2

spring cleanin

castles w/ lil tracy (prod. nedarb)

produced by abe gardé 
first vocals written, performed by abe gardé
second vocals written, performed by nineishuman

abe gardé & nineishuman - prove

I've got a lot of fear for the day that we'll be dead (prod. tothegood)

stream/buy

mis.u

nedarb - ocean view [prod. nedarb]

trying to stay clear
of anything
from ruining
whats in my brain

fighting off the words
i cannot speak
for you and me
please cant you see

when you asked if
i was the same   
i looked at you
from my point of view

sunk down low
i mustve shown 
in subtle tones
im overgrown

if you only want
whats best for me
go away 
very far away 
and fucking stay

dead weight
dragging me
from my feet
pulled underneath

if i got
what i wanted
you wouldnt want me
at all


with no luck (prod omenXIII)

Lil Peep - Hair Dye (prod. Horse Head x Lederrick)

Visual: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KpCIxZbzcIk

Lyrics: Gas trapped in my gucci book bag
Gotta toss a new pack

We evaporate the gas
Empty all these greens bags

Count this gwaup i never had
Fucking hoes i never had

Give her dick she never had
Leave my kids on her back


Xanz in—lean x2
Purple in my spleen x2

Color blind but i , see green
Leanx4

I only drink prometha—zine

give her dick  to make her scream

Fuck my lungs up with trees
Move more leaves than the breeze

Look at u like fuck u mean
Its a go to fuck her team

On her face like mayballine
Let her eat my fuckin meat

Gimme face until i skeet
Hell nahbitch i wont repeat

Fuck on camera 
let it leak

Let them other hoes peep
Oh was that view just meant for me?

Bitch please
Help me count

Cash trapped in my gucci book bag
Gotta toss a new pack

We evaporate the gas
Empty all these greens bags

Count this gwaup i never had
Fucking hoes i never had

Give her dick she never had
Leave my kids on her back

Xanz in—lean x2

Kids- all- Over- her-back

xansinmylean <3

(prod. killedmyself)
Vocals me & @fats_e
Produced by @killedmyself

deadbeatteen - I knew this was coming w/ Fats'e (prod. killedmyself)

i wanted to cry, i wanted to die.

Prod:
https://soundcloud.com/fats_e
https://soundcloud.com/keeper92

MERCH: http://lilxlotus.storenvy.com/products/18507607-lil-lotus-noose-longsleeve

I can't do this (Prod. fats'e x keeper)

prod: https://soundcloud.com/ihateshinigami

MERCH: http://lilxlotus.storenvy.com/products/18507607-lil-lotus-noose-longsleeve

Kiss my eyelids (prod. Shinigami)

Gustav Ahr's Album

giving girls cocaine w/ lil tracy (prod. horsehead)

SINGLE OFF THE ALBUM
'BITTER BLUE'

prod: https://soundcloud.com/nothingnowheremusic

MERCH: http://lilxlotus.storenvy.com/products/18507607-lil-lotus-noose-longsleeve

And for the first time
Im feeling closer to closure
I Feel the storm blowing over,
like i can close my eyes tonight

And i can see it in your eyes
(Let go)
A whisper in the night
(Run home)
Run home, Run home

And thought i was right for too long
Now its time to face it
I can feel it inside of my bones
And its so hard to shake it
And for the first time
Im feeling closer to closure
I Feel the storm blowing over,
like i can close my eyes tonight

And i can see it in your eyes
(Let go)
A whisper in the night
(Run home)
Run home, Run home

Run Home (Prod. nothing,nowhere.)

all i ever wanted was you

im feeling sick when im not with you

all i ever wanted you 

all i ever dream of is you

Im Feeling Sick When Im Not With You      prod greaf

You did me dirty my love </3

waterfalls was here

Love Scars/You hurt me [Produced by: Elliott Trent] </3

'Bitter Blue '
coming soon...

Prod:
@93feetofsmoke

MERCH: http://lilxlotus.storenvy.com/products/18507607-lil-lotus-noose-longsleeve

And i still remember 
Your hands in my hair
And the fireplace in December
And time's forever changing
But i still feel the same for you
I just wish you felt the same way too

I don't wanna waste you time 
And i know you have a better life
But it's stuck inside my head 
And i don't wanna leave my bed

So just tell me you want me 
Tell me you need me
Tell me you'll come back
And you're never leaving

I was eighteen when you loved me
And now i know I'm twenty-something
But I'm still hoping that you'd come home
And tell me everywhere that you've gone

eighteen (prod. 93FEETOFSMOKE)

THATSME

Never Take One

beatstars.com/tothegood - beats

tothegood - "out of mind"
released on 27.05.2017
@lilxlotus @youngburial
free download: bit.ly/2qt1NyR
bandcamp: bit.ly/2qZktJW
spoti.fi/2Bpo07A
apple.co/2Ab3U3e

lyrics:

LIL LOTUS 

I was 17 i lost you in silence
Tried to hide all my pain with violence
Traded all of my scars for tattoos 
Now everything i do just reminds me of you

I dont want you to see this
Maybe i miss you too much
I scream in my sleep
Do you hear me 
Or am i not screaming enough
Id give anything just to hear your heart beat and bring you back to life  
You have a grandson
He look just like you
I tell him all the time

I was 17 i lost you in silence
Tried to hide all my pain with violence
Traded all of my scars for tattoos 
Now everything i do just reminds me of you

fats'e

I know your just testing me 
I miss the way you would sit right next to me
And make up stories 
To pass the time 

I guess this is how it's supposed to be
Blood shot eyes keep me company
I want out
Of my head sometimes. 

This is how it's supposed to be.

out of mind

spotify

in silence (feat. LIL LOTUS & fats'e)

Lotus killed it , check out his music <3
https://m.soundcloud.com/lilxlotus/sets

'We may never meet again , but we'll never forget eachother' 

Artwork by @Evanxflow
Mixed and mastered by Ronnie Scocozza

@yungscuffonline - Getting Worse ft. Lil Lotus (Prod. Zippy)

so long, goodbye (ft. Lil Lotus)

@graveyardwraith
no samples.


DEADBEATTEEN
cuz I’ve been thinking since your birthday 
I would regret it till I die
How could I ever be selfish
how could I ever fuckin lie to you
But thats just how the dice rolls
you get what you want 
When your heart tells you so
I know that shit sucks 
Man I been so cold
Flexing on these hoes
Like my wrist so froze
Cause I’ve been sitting in my backyard
Smokin on this cigarette 
Tryna play my guitar
Tryna cure my broken heart
i tie the rope tight
Think about you in my life

WRAITH
I’ve been doing okay 
Well I’m trying
Glad you didn’t stay
Posting bout me again
Now I’m crying
Tears won’t ever be the same
Moving at a fast pace 
Can’t stay in Frame
Moving at a fast pace
just incase you aint over me When you should be
Moving at a fast pace so you can’t keep up with me 
Moving at a fast pace so you can stay away
(So you stay away)

cabin fever ft. wraith (acoustic)

MERCH:
https://lilxlotus.storenvy.com

Prod:
@jakemarkow
twitter.com/jakemarkow

Art:
twitter.com/disintegr8tion
www.instagram.com/filthy.hands/

MISSED UR CALL (Prod. JakeMarkow x Lil Lotus) MERCH DROP<3

new album 'nosebleeder' (deluxe) out now on Epitaph Records. lillotus.ffm.to/nosebleederdlx