S/O @TOTHEGOOD

im so sorry
about your body
you know i'd do anything
to keep you here with me
i fucking love how
you taught me these things
i know just breathe in
let life be and
i fucking wish that 
we could live forever
i know that somehow
we have always been together
when your beside me
is when i see clear
you'll always be here 
even in the air

id do anything to keep you here w/ tothegood

I've got a lot of fear for the day that we'll be dead (prod. tothegood)

Gallows

Go Back(ft. YungJZAisDead & Adharmasatru)

'Bitter Blue '
coming soon...

Prod:
@93feetofsmoke

MERCH: http://lilxlotus.storenvy.com/products/18507607-lil-lotus-noose-longsleeve

And i still remember 
Your hands in my hair
And the fireplace in December
And time's forever changing
But i still feel the same for you
I just wish you felt the same way too

I don't wanna waste you time 
And i know you have a better life
But it's stuck inside my head 
And i don't wanna leave my bed

So just tell me you want me 
Tell me you need me
Tell me you'll come back
And you're never leaving

I was eighteen when you loved me
And now i know I'm twenty-something
But I'm still hoping that you'd come home
And tell me everywhere that you've gone

eighteen (prod. 93FEETOFSMOKE)

old song by me and https://soundcloud.com/danieldowning-1

am i too close 
too see the bigger things
is it just all in my head
because i know that theres a part of me
that toss and turns in your bed all night

you're the cigarette smoke
thats stuck in my clothes
id take you with me
and id take you home
don't go don't go

if this is what you want i guess you've got it figured out 
you got it figured out
i guess you got this figured out

Take u With Me

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/jakemarkow
Art. https://twitter.com/disintegr8tion
Mix&Master. https://soundcloud.com/ihateshinigami

she be gettin mad
told me kill myself 
but iont want
i want money in my hands 
baby u can leave 
but ima count up 

u could be in magazines
girl its easy 
if you want a diamond ring
baby please me 
iont even need a team
and they still see me
one day ima have my name on the TV

iont wanna die rn
i wanna feel alive some how 
money in the air fall down
i cant even care rn

i dont wanna die rn (prod. Jake Markow)

Ur Dad Has A Gun w/ Shinigami (Prod. Shinigami)

no samples

[lyrics]
is it I think too much
or are we chasing after
a ghost of what once was

I can't tell the difference

is it you care too much
or am I holding our past
like a knife against my tongue

I can't tell the difference

would it be enough
if we were loaded and fucked up
house out in the hills

I wouldn't bet on it

we could be more lost
car roofs, wet shoes
cashed out in an friend's garage

but one time's enough

Will it ever be enough
I hate fucking being numb
sorry that I love these drugs
do you think my head is fucked

Will it ever be enough
I hate fucking being numb
sorry that I love these drugs
do you think my head is fucked

i hate fucking being numb

idek

featuring @convolk
produced by @wtchcrft2

no emotion w/ convolk (wtchcrft)

visual: https://youtu.be/Ao86BXeI0Mc

I think that I’ve found
Nothing changes
But the view out our window
Looking perfect retrospect
But we both know
That’s just how it goes

Stop calling me at 6 in the morning
I don’t wanna see ur name
on my home screen
When it’s all said and done
It’s worth nothing
No one cares
about a thing but themselves
include me too
I wanna be numb too
I don’t wanna love you
Anymore

Anymore anymore anymore
I don’t wanna care anymore
I’m such a bore
I’ve got no cure for this head
On my shoulders

Stop telling me
Stop telling me nothing
Stop telling me
Stop telling me nothing
x2

I don’t care anymore

stop telling me nothing (video in desc)

new album 'nosebleeder' (deluxe) out now on Epitaph Records. lillotus.ffm.to/nosebleederdlx

Take u With Me

LIL LOTUS