I really needed a new song of yours ♡‿♡

no one's understanding

prod deadfish <3

socials:
https://www.instagram.com/deadfishig

lyrics:

I need therapy
I am going numb
could you look at me
and maybe dm me from time to time

I don't think I'll be okay
I think it's needless to say
that I need someone to stay
is it bad that I'm afraid

I never wanted
to end up like that
alone and aching 
with no one to talk about stuff
that troubles me and I can't
deal it with on my own
I've been to therapy
didn't listen now I'm at the start

I never wanted to feel like a burden oh no
so sick of hearing that I'm better off dead
Don't need your pity, no
I Don't want any meds
I know I'm god damn numb
but pills just won't help

I need therapy
I am going numb
could you look at me
and maybe dm me from time to time

I don't think I'll be okay
I think it's needless to say
that I need someone to stay
is it bad that I'm afraid
x2

Afraid

Buried Alive

with @tnvr555 
please check him out :) he's a great friend of mine that mixes and works on almost all of my songs, insanely talented

// tnvr 
snowfall sweetness, baby you could feel it 
summertime sadnesss, don't need no reason 
waste my time, if it makes you feel so alive 
heads in a panic, man i'm independent 
wait just wait, hold up wait a minute (why?)
not ready for the real world (oh, ok)
it's what you never say 
the facade you think you play
be careful what you wish for cus karma gets you back 

sometimes, you're on my mind
and when you're on my mind, i wanna die 
yeah
sometimes, you're on my mind
and when you're on my mind, i wanna die 

throw your holy water at me 
got some ghosts around the block that wanna see me bleed
i'm not, not who i thought i would be 
but at least i'm not you 
na na na na na 
na na na na na 

// geist 
at least i’m not you 
pulled up on the track and now your tongues glued 
throw holy water at me 
can’t burn my devils you’ll see
now it’s all blue 
scared to leave my house cause well you’re all ghouls 
come on, oh baby let’s bleed 
just pull the trigger on me 

liar, you’re a sinner  
so tired my eyes are hindered 
but i’ll still see you in my dreams
and i’m a fire in the center
burnt out i can’t remember my name 
oh woahhhh oh oh…

// tnvr & geist 
(i can’t go another night without sleeping)

snowfall sweetness, baby you could feel it 
summertime sadnesss, don't need no reason 
waste my time, if it makes you feel so alive 
heads in a panic, man i'm independent 
wait just wait, hold up wait a minute (why?)
not ready for the real world (oh, ok)
it's what you never say 
the facade you think you play 
be careful what you wish for cus karma gets you back 

karma gets you back
karma gets you back

spotify

panic w/ tnvr [prod. tnvr]

Well the world don't seem so small
When you're so far away from me
Tried to call you late last night 
But I hung up before the second ring 
Tried to follow my heart
But I would rather just fucking scream
Nothing makes no fucking sense
I need to wake up from this dream 

But I can't 
No I won't yeah I'm the problem
Shaky hands on cigarettes or on the bottle baby
I don't wanna see you anymore I hope I die tomorrow yeah yeah yeah
'Cause if I don't it's just another one to live without you
I'd wait every day and all the nights to save this
You cut me deep enough I don't think I'll fucking make it baby
After all this time away
I thought I'd finally be okay
But every marker on the highway just makes me feel the fucking same 
I'd wait every day and all the nights to save this
You cut me deep enough I don't think I'll fucking make it baby
After all this time away
I thought I'd finally be okay
But every marker on the highway just makes me feel the fucking same
But I can't 
No I won't yeah I'm the problem
Shaky hands on cigarettes or on the bottle baby
I don't wanna see you anymore I hope I die tomorrow yeah yeah
'Cause if I don't it's just another one to fucking live without you 
Without you

the problem [bonus track] (p. shiki xo)

thank you for listening 
w/ @imnotenvy

lyrics 
// envy 
cause the feelings come and go i swear just like the wind
it’s only torture on my mind til i hear your voice again
oh no i
took a couple shots straight through my skeleton
oo oh oh
thoughts keep haunting me
and all the shit you said my heart is vacant

baby i can’t save myself
but i can guide you in
i think i’m
selfless not by choice
but cause i never win
oh ho oh
told myself i’d never fall in love again
but now you’re right in front of me
and i can’t let this end no

cause these thoughts of mine
always fight back and
step outside just to come back in
i don’t really mind at all
break my heart long as you’re happy

cause i can’t even speak my mind my breathings fucked up
i think i’ve reached my peak im dying my heartbeat finally stopped
and you know what it’s like baby
fall apart but it’s worth saving
oh don’t you go i need you baby for the thousandth time

// geist
cause these thoughts of mine
always fight back and
lately i just cannot win
poison in my mind oh love
you’re the antidote i need

so swear that it’s you and me
we’re running out of time baby
i wanted to trust
wanted to love
wanted to feel something
oh no oh
don’t let this fall apart just remember
that you have my heart, and it’s yours forever

selfless w/ notenvy [kenda]

Poison

Prod. Kado


I don’t feel a thing when I’m with you 
Not so often i even feel human 
I know you don’t think the way I do 
I don’t think I like the way we’re moving 

Feel myself collapse 
Feel that weight inside me, splitting me
In half 

I always try to think about 
The way my words effect you 
You say I’m always distant 
Like I’m never even there 
Because you don’t really think about 
The way your words effect me 
I dont really think 
You really care

You don’t feel a thing when you’re with me 
I don’t really mind you’re only human 
It’s been a while since you could say 
You felt like waking up today 
Never could outgrow your disillusion 

Feel yourself collapse
Feel your body breaking down it’s only simple math  

I always try to think about 
The way my words effect you 
You say I’m always distant 
Like I’m never even there 
Because you don’t really think about 
The way your words effect me 
I dont really think 
You really care

Human

PROD KADO

You say I'm always projecting 
It's not fucking fair that I make you feel like her 
Sorry I was just protecting 
All my fragile feelings 
Why'd you have to go be just what I thought you were?
I've always had this hunger for somene less than stable
I'm somewhat less than stable
Never seem to learn
Anything I need to 
Every time I see you 
It hurts like hell 

Hey girl wait what's gotten into you?
You tell me I should leave, you don't really want me to 
But that's okay 
There's nothing left to prove 
'Cause I'll go anywhere as long as it's with you 

[Verse 2]
As long as you can calm down 
And tell me what you're feeling 
I don't what you're feeling I can't read minds 
You were talking karma 
And hitting me with trauma 
You'll show me yours if I show you mine
I've always had this anger 
For something that I can't place
Maybe it's the right place at the wrong time 
Every time you like his, 
Pictures like a knife twist
Inward 'til you hit my spine

She said if I had a dollar for every time 
I said I love you first, I'd have like five 
I thought you could change 
I know you've tried 
I wish I could change 
God knows I've tried

Hey girl wait what's gotten into you?
You tell me I should leave, you don't really want me to 
But that's okay
We're onto something new 
'Cause I'll go anywhere to get away from you 
(To get away from you)

Karma

this isn't really the most me kind of song
just a lot of gibberish thrown together but i did want to share at least something as it's been a hot minute
i hope i'm back to usual soon <3

Lyrics:

it's probably better
it's probably better
it's probably better
it's probably better
it's probably better you're never hearing this

could you tell me that you love me
even if you'll never mean it i need something
i been needing reassurance that i'm something
this shit is fuel for giving up please
so could you tell me that you love me
it's fucking lonely in this body so i share it with her lusting
oh could you fuck me

could you fuck me right back
i won't get attached
just need to make it thru the night without a rollie or a pack
at least the music has my back
yuh
cuz i know people never last
yuh
i made this shit so in a week i'll have a song to cry to
i made this shit so in a year i'll be at peace and i won't mind you
she said that she'd be right there nothings ever right there
i'd honestly be dead if i found another life there

so let me know if you relate
or i'm alone to fight my fate
i tend to fall in love too quickly
have the habit getting clingy
have a habit sort of sticking
it's probably something that i'm missing
from my childhood or misery
and now i can't remember much
but i know i never really wanted this
and the things i'd give to run back life again
now i fantasize bout the corny lovey shit
but it's probably better you're never hearing this

yuh it's probably better you're never hearing this
yuh it's probably better you're never hearing this

it's probably better
it's probably better
it's probably better
it's probably better
it's probably better you're never hearing this

something, anything.

toothfairy

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