Symptoms (prod. @patchfacebeats @alexbrazy @bapsxx)

pain so potent you shouldnt inhale
words hurt more thats why my body's so frail 
i make it all up on the fly
the show must go on
will you atleast try
how can i put out my real truth
when im always lying to myself
these words im screaming back to you
seem like they come from someone else
not living up to the standard i tried to set
itd be the most honorable thing left
i made my mind up
will you do the same
if i leave right now
who else would u  have to blame
not once in these past five years
have i felt threatened by my peers
no they dont pose threat
i say everything with my chest
i got so much damn confidence
that most of yall wont be here in the end
the answers you seek
you will never get them
the ties you cut
those i will never mend
why cant you face it
no it will never leave
take time to change it
some things were made to bleed
they are the problem to an unsolvable tale
i took one look and i bailed
i tried for myself and failed
ill never be the man you wanted me to be but thats okay
id rather be the man i want to be
oh baby youll never understand
where i come from on this plan of mine

unsolvable tale (prod pekarot)

you are not alone

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3HxGoBfEQco

to say goodbye (music vid in description)

ruins

Mama  prod.laayz

https://teenpregnancy300.bandcamp.com/album/oct-25-1994

Oct. 25th, 1994 [FREE DOWNLOAD IN DESCRIPTION]

w/ @cpt_sad

guitars written, performed, and recorded by barren
production by @vibevoka
live drums written/recorded/performed by
Alec Doyle 

the calendar says may
but it is already september
got me guessing on the days
cause i dont remember
the last day i wasn’t bothered
by a searing fucking pain
the medication that im taking
aint working the right way
drive me to the er for a shot of morphine
4:30 in the morning
and im screaming out my lungs
try to take it easy
but you won’t

every nights a party
when you wanna stay fucked up
will you say the same sentence
in the morning throwing up?
do you have the same mindset
rolling that 6th blunt?
do these stupid fucking choices
really give you such a rush?
i just woke up
i know
im fucked
meet me at the corner
of the disagreement
eating at the ruts
im too strung out
on clout
that i dont even have
if i ever come up on some
imma give it right back

what u see
is what u get
i sleep thru the days
to feel closer to death
all this weed in my chest
got me restin
nah, i aint even tryin
to make sense of the words
they go flyin
but shawty dont mind it
so imma just kick back
and go for the ride
ive got ghosts in my aura
ive got smoke in my eyes
i been shed a tear
but i aint ever cry
i walk like a soldier
right into the fight
my thoughts keep me restless
all throughout the night
still keepin it quiet
im lit out in public
fucked with the spins
and im stumblin
roll up a spliff
someone give me the light
we're fully entranced
by these drugs and the height

every nights a party
when you wanna stay fucked up
will you say the same sentence
in the morning throwing up?
do you have the same mindset
rolling that 6th blunt?
do these stupid fucking choices
really give you such a rush?
i just woke up
i know
im fucked
meet me at the corner
of the disagreement
eating at the ruts
im too strung out
on clout
that i dont even have
if i ever come up on some
imma give it right back

strung out (prod barren x voka)

i guess not [joie de vivre]

rainy day (taylor morgan)

go listen 2 my band
@ifidiefirst


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you are not alone

lil zubin