prototype / For what it's worth

10/25

kurtains cover :)

LIKE A FUCKIN BALLS!
LIKE A CEO!!

no magician (cover)

this took a while
huge shoutout to dirkle aka @deadman

prod. me
live instruments recorded by me also

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lyrics:

(chriad)
you know your words cut deep
everything you said to me
you make it hard just to come back home
you know i'm struggling
'cause i'm never sure what you mean
when you change your mind and i never know

but i know the
truth hurts you don't want to hear it
got me fucked up for no reason
i don't understand your feelings
and you never step out to calm down a bit
truth hurts you don't want to hear it
got me fucked up for no reason [for the rest of my life]
put all the blame onto me
you give me no choice but to leave

(deadman)
i‘ll take the blame for it all
despite the fact i tried
you just put up a wall
and filled my head with lies
and i know you won't change, love
you fucked up the way i think, love
and i don't know what i'm doing here
with someone who'd take my life
(deadman + chriad)
if they could now

(chriad)
if they could now
truth hurts you don't want to hear it
truth hurts you don't want to hear it

truth hurts you don't want to hear it
[truth hurts you don't want to hear it]
got me fucked up for no reason
[truth hurts so i'mma spare your feelings]
truth hurts you don't want to hear it truth hurts you don't want to hear it
[truth hurts you don't want to hear it]
got me fucked up for no reason got me fucked up for no reason
[truth hurts so i'mma spare your feelings]

[truth hurts you don't want to hear it]
[truth hurts so i'mma spare your feelings]
[truth hurts you don't want to hear it]
[truth hurts so i'mma spare your feelings]

Spotify

truth hurts (ft. deadman 死人)

today it is the way it is
my skin feels like silk thats about to rip
replay ur kiss all against my wish
u display and dismiss while i cant resist

if i lash out nothings personal, u dont need to know
if i come off too emotional, u can always say so

the bruise left on my neck, the scratch left on my chest
open the door and check, no ones home

abandoned my mirror, im 2 weeks in
and i cant be near her, im getting too thin
and ive been so bitter since that kick in my chin
u cant find a place that ur always safe in
ill cough up my lung while i feel it cave in
im not gonna do this again

if i lash out nothings personal, u dont need to know
if i come off too emotional, u can always say so
ever since i got a taste of that ethanol, ive been stuck in a lull
and i got so used to following ur protocol and now im too dull

Pivot

Good Morning

yea cus yea

i miss u
spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/7KZm0nQJ0zlNnutRrh10du?si=61aZH4OLS_mrmPIrY87wmw&utm_source=copy-link

lyrics:

and just this summer
i realized
whats the point of crying
when u never want
to come back

these photos, these words, these messages i read
the bracelet i got, and the money i spent
is something ill never forget

oh u never realized the things that i did
neither tried to make me feel okay when i did
everything
you asked me for

i cant go outside or think about something else
when ur on my mind
girl u took away my heart
crushed it with ur hands
and made things worse

the time i consumed into writing these texts,
the things that i did,
even planned all those things,
for u
just to always say no
or planned on leaving after
i expressed my feelings

(its okay i still think that u are the best
ill never get over this
never forget
how i felt
when u were there
my love for u girl its crazy how its there)

i tried i tried
im sitting in my room once again
and i cry
u made me who i am but i hate all of it,
all these songs that i wrote for u theyre still there
and im weak
and i hate
but i love the way u act
even if u dont care
im scared of the future cus u are not here
the love of my life disappeared like u were
never there

the past 8 months i tried
to make u realize
i never tried to hurt u

i know u werent happy
but its okay my dear
ur better now
and aslong as ur here
im fine with that
cus my life is nothing without u

and just this summer
i realized
this was the best time of my
life with u being mine
the love that i sent
and the one u gave back
is something ill
never try to hide again
cus why should i leave it all behind
i never got to hold onto ur hands
or get a taste of ur lips once again
before u left
what happened to the part where u said
we'd both grow old together
and get a bunch of cats
live a happy life

this summer, i realized

covenbrook₃ — (A girl, a cherry-colored tahoe

3 of ?
June 11 2004

you came to me easy
head in a lock while i’m screaming 
saw you in my dreams and sweat through my sheets 

if i can’t climb up to you 
i’ll crawl down to her 
for what it’s worth 

i’ve got a kind soul but not a good heart
it leaks when i talk and it burns till i’m hot

For what it's worth

covenbrook₂ — (Graduation day
+additional composition by @caleblrt 

2 of ?
June 8 2004

a difference of interest in gender and sworn-off politics 
but you make an easy target
a perfect ball for the batter to hit

so what's happening now
do you feel the motion that's weighing you down

it's really never enough 
but when i say it is, i hate you
so unrefined, a prototype
oh when you say it is, i hate you

if i went down south would it change your mind
could it be yours if you needed
head split on the ground
dig my grave for the day that i drown

begging you to hold me, hold me
don't you know i get a little lonely, lonely
can't you see there's something that you owe me, owe me
so don't you know i get a little lonely, lonely
don't you know

it's really never enough 
but when i say it is, i hate you
so unrefined, a prototype

come to me
i'd make you sound so sweet 
if you'd let me

prototype

cover art by https://twitter.com/ukon3333

we been sittin on this one for a while. proud to call these amazing people my friends. go follow these talented goats and happy friday!! love yall - Okah

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NULLTRIP RADIO! + pk  (feat - tigerstar, fvtal, rans0m, chanelfather)

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produced by 8een & arcane
additional production by me
mixed written performed by me
+ thank you eve for mixing advice

frick north york
thank you for listening, i hope you enjoy <3

///
the more that I try, more that I hide
the more that I try, more that I hide

the past few months I felt like I would die
before I did anything that I loved, oh my
I'll stay strong
eighteen round the corner, how'd I (make it!)
this long
all the pressure makes my head hurt
give it time and it'll get better
and if you hate it well then, know I put in effort :/
I do my best, how dare you say that I don't
still get nervous when there's lumps in my throat

I'm aware no one said it'd be easy
spoke to the teller now everything's clear, see
it all
pretty girl
girl

and if I don't wake up
tell every single person I love
that I put all my heart in
I will be an artist
there'll be people that care and I'll build something honest

go!
don't hide
do you even know who you are?
go!
how'd you even call that shit art? (desideratum)
go back pull your hair out, restart

I can't focus well my darling
got a stutter when I'm talking
you broke the news as I was walking
news when I was promised

desideratum

A life full of charm 01: Bare the loss

the least i do is try to try
ignore the fade away from the corner of my light
Stuck within limbs and bones
Another passenger arrived

Stupid girl who has a lot to learn
cant pick and choose what you'd prefer
and make mistakes that leave their mark in the dirt
I can only hope im with the odds
permanent care or none
if it goes there i couldnt bare the loss

sometimes im scared of what we'd become
of course i miss u when ur gone
imagining im sitting by you its a one on one
its not the same through the phone 
i dont know where u came from
and i dont know where we'll go

whyd u fit the other side so well
make me believe we'll be alright
you've been my favorite thing no doubt 
uh huh hahaha
im deadset cus theres nobody like
baby you're my best friend for life 
lets go far out, lets go now

i'm trying to find something to follow
whether i would believe it or not
so if one of us happens to die tomorrow
we can keep more than memories to comfort us
okay i mainly hate the waiting when its so long
and then for once i didnt want the time to spare
i know that nothing guarentees i'll have some good luck
but if i go with u i would feel safe no matter where
i'd burn out every light and just trek along
or if u decide ur done liking me after all
they dont get it like i get it 
so mean and treat it like a joke
moving on from the out 

we speak quietly
putting me right to sleep
and im so sorry im not there
i shouldnt be afraid of it irrationally 
as long as u dont confirm fears
i wait for the minute u might not like
it comes apparent i'm just stuck i should let it go i was unprepared i was...
awake in the middle of the night because
we've been apart its not fair

whyd u fit the other side so well
make me believe we'll be alright
you've been my favorite thing no doubt 
uh huh hahaha
im deadset cus theres nobody like
baby you're my best friend for life 
lets go far out, lets go now
awake in the middle of the night 
because i like the way you keep me up
and who could blame me when i'm dreaming bout us
awake in the middle of the night because you call my name i think u must sleep talk or maybe u were dreaming bout us

prototype

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