from this comp https://throughthesoil.bandcamp.com/album/through-the-soil?token=EC-064796050J2702404

Lyrics:

I stared into the black void of night 
Aimlessly grasping 
At your dotted lines 

I miss you 
I miss you

Your eyes in the moonlight 
Hit just right 
It’s just right

dead of night

(Not my best) Lyrics: 

I think about it a lot 
I think about you a lot 
Your voice, your breath, your inner song 
Your voice, your breath, your inner song 
I think about it a lot 
I think about it a lot 
Your voice, your breath, your inner song 
Your voice, your breath, your inner song 

Like a mother like a friend 
Dead upon birth to the end 

True love doesn’t come easy now x1000000000
Doesn’t come easy

dinner

the rain will never end
it’ll haunt you like a shadow
reminders in your life

you know that i’m right here
i’ll hold your hand like amber
cuz death is just a word

yeah death is just a word
the feelings a reminder
of past nights in the cold

you don’t turn off the light
you leave the blind wide open
and float into the sun

the futures just your mind
the past is an idea
it breaks up what is not

cuz death is only cold
you hold your head against the wall
and listen to the sounds

the sound of pouring rain
spelling out the only name
that’s written on the note

it’s written with your blood
and bound with thoughts and prayers
if that’s a real thing

the rain (float into the sun)

Fog Lake - When?

backseat 30

The Best Love for the Lord - Instrumental Guitar

The Inside of a Tear

vulnerable people aside treacherous seas

an old version of lilies from before I got julia to agree to sing on it and also made it more electronic

lilies, but different *unreleased*

frail is how I see me
giving up on changing is ending me
feeling like I can’t feel
just another symptom you can’t heal

find nothing in everything 
mend my brain don’t want to break again
i can make you crave to be
someone that you’re really afraid to see

ignoring that corner inside of my
mind
tried to make sense of the patterns
im wrong
dream of a beauty in being so 
dull
disordered condition of living 
done choice

heart pounding why not be
learn to swim inside the dark abyss
you can make me so weak
use me like you used to when im sick

ignoring that corner inside of my
hell
tried to make sense of the patterns
they’re gone
dream of a beauty in being so 
numb
disordered condition of dying 
done choice

the rain (float into the sun)

lots of hands