Wake Up w/ Brecken

I keep hoping for more… w/ getbetter

fire in my lungs
the ladder on my tounge
its the only thing that keeps me holding on
when pushing leads to shove
theres something bout your love
it’s the only thing that keeps me holding on
do anything to make us numb 
you’re smart enough to know that’s dumb
my head spinning round like what is going on?
you hate when i make those songs
but it’s just me moving on
take the time heal but healing takes so long

it keeps me holding on
take the photo to remember you my memory ain’t great
all the time you wasted cuz i always show up late
police right behind me every time i switch the lane
i know you doubt me you think everything is fake
said im in love but you can’t see it on my face

fire in my lungs
the ladder on my tounge
its the only thing that keeps me holding on
when pushing leads to shove
theres something bout your love
it’s the only thing that keeps me holding on
do anything to make us numb 
you’re smart enough to know that’s dumb
my head spinning round like what is going on?
you hate when i make those songs
but it’s just me moving on
take the time heal but healing takes so long

fire in my lungs // holding on (mew2)

@lottaheart:
don't ask me
how i feel when i can't keep fighting
in my backseat,
a quick thrill to keep things exciting
i don't wanna act like i'm
doing okay cause i'm pissed
kinda sick of feeling like i'm
losing interest to exist

@xobroken:
i don't even wanna ask where ya been
cause i haven't seen you since
you told me you love me but now you hate me once again
i swear the cycle never ends

now i'm stuck up in my head
i should really take my meds
kinda wish we never met
you make me feel like i'm dead

don't ask me how i been
bitch don't ask me what i been through
like a demon, soul is what you're into
tore me apart and i been drinking to forget you
there's nothing left now
i'm just stuck in hell now

@lottaheart:
don't ask me
how i feel when i can't keep fighting
in my backseat,
a quick thrill to keep things exciting
i don't wanna act like i'm
doing okay cause i'm pissed
kinda sick of feeling like i'm
losing interest to exist
[x2]

unsaid w/xobroken

thank you guys for the beat, love all of you deadwood

lyrics
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I don’t mind
When you don’t find the time
I think I like sometimes 
to be alone
Cause you just twist my words
And you make sure it hurts
I never get hopes up
That you’ll atone

I been back on the pills, shit
I don’t wanna feel this
When the thoughts all flood back
I just kill it
I been up and restless
Hoping for a check in
Praying for a message
Knowing damn well it’ll never come
And I’m not the one
You made sure I knew that
Hearts go flat,
It’s just time that proves that
That's what you said
Misconstrued? 
That’s every word by fucking word

I think everything will turn out for the best. (wraithontheporch x NE'ERDOWELL)

I genuinely love this one so much

lyrics
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Wraith
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Locked out of my house
And its 20 below
I could go back to you
But I’d rather the snow
Winter winds, hitting skin
And I’m cold to the bones
Now it’s all sinking in
I was always alone

Look what did to me
Grabbing the mic and I’m spitting epitomes
Thought you were digging me
Making a mess and and then blaming me
You fucking kidding me?
Talking to you like are you even listening?
Gucci on me diamonds wet like a christening
Feel like I’m solving a mystery
Every time you even speak to me
Tell me what's happening

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web
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i guess im staying locked out
im trenching on through the snow
like baby i know that its cold
im out here in 20 below
and im trynna find my way home
its cold but i dont got a coat
i feel the blood sinking down in my throat
i feel the ache in my ears and my nose
when the winter time comes make december my home
i see your name when it comes on my phone but i dont wanna talk so i leave it alone
i guess im staying locked out
im trenching on through the snow
like baby i know that its cold
im out here in 20 below
and im trynna find my way home

december w/ web (wraithontheporch)

lyrics ⬇️

when you call me
i wont pick it up
you should know this
yea you shoukd know this
and im not sorry
you shoulda noticed
i was there for you yea i swear i was closest

look how the flow switch
i know that they gon love it
thought everything was picture perfect until
you had broke it
you broke it
now i can’t even focus
not inside of my room or when im at work but im hoping

wonder when ill get outta my head out my headspace
im locked inside my skin when i scream they dont hear me
so whats the reason i should be here clearly
i shouldn’t
i know its not alright but ima keep it keep it pushing
and i dont wanna lie but i been doing what I shouldn’t 

they dont wanna see me happy but im chillin here im grinnin
i dont wanna see you they think that im crappy im a villain
maybe that is true
but i refuse to see that vision 
i dont wanna lose my hope if i dont have to

i got bad news
you wont see me no more ima be way past you

should i (hostile)

produced by @nevermadeithome & @prodjolst ✨ 

when you open your eyes 
there’s a message from me
it says “good morning baby girl”
and “how did you sleep? 
did you pack yet? can you call and when are you free?
and im sorry i was fucked up the whole week”
i’m adjusting, feeling this is not normal for me 
i feel disgusting but i’m cool whenever we speak 
you love your coffee, i’ve always been more fond of a tea
you love your hockey, i’m learning girl just be patient with me, please 

and stay happy cus you’re moving tomorrow
so pack up all those mugs
return the books that you borrowed
it’s a double edged sword i know there’s some sorrow
but your dad’ll be fine
i know it sucks but you gotta go
5 nights on the road with a carload 
on the way to BC just avoid all the potholes
when you’re in your tent all alone with a bottle
and you’re lookin up at stars
i hope you know that your moms right there 

when you’re down baby please will you tell me?
i’ve been gone lately, i know it doesn’t help things 
don’t feel bad girl it’s not your cross to carry
i’m under mud from the weight that ive buried
you’re honestly fucking pretty damn amazing
a lots changed but i’ve always said the same things
“its not fate” i tell myself, then it kills me
you honestly will never know how much youve helped me :( 

when you open your eyes 
there’s a message from me
it says “good morning baby girl”
and “how did you sleep? 
did you pack yet? can you call and when are you free?
and im sorry i was fucked up the whole week”
i’m adjusting, feeling this is not normal for me 
i feel disgusting but i’m cool whenever we speak 
you love your coffee, i’ve always been more fond of a tea
you love your hockey, i’m learning girl just be patient with me, please

canada (nevermadeithome x jolst)

Shout out dash for making 10/10 beats 

Lyrics - 

No face
no case
 I be slidin through the night
All black blade tucked  ain’t lookin for a fight
30 on my clip turn his whip to a shrine
I don’t talk much I just creep when it’s time

Drip like the gutter ice look muddy
Hit your block once now the whole scene bloody
Don’t know names I just move how I move
Lost in the smoke ain’t nothin to prove

Ghost in the cut I don’t do no loud
Keep my head down but I still draw crowds
Lames talk slick but they all want clout
Slide through slow make the whole hood doubt

Tags on my toes not clothes that’s death
Ridin with a piece I don’t need no vest
Chrome on the hip make em freeze no flex
Came from the mud I ain’t pressed bout checks

No face
no case
 I be slidin through the night
All black blade tucked  ain’t lookin for a fight
30 on my clip turn his whip to a shrine
I don’t talk much I just creep when it’s time

Drip like the gutter ice look muddy
Hit your block once now the whole scene bloody
Don’t know names I just move how I move
Lost in the smoke ain’t nothin to prove

rise n shrine p. dash

It followed me home at night 
I got a white nose felt right 
I gotta let you know im alright 
All alone in my room blue sky
Tinted glass to hid the fact that im high
Oh im high oh I'm high
Reciprocate burn my feelings in a wood
I know it's stupid but something tells me that I should 

It followed me home at night
Its gonna kill me over snow 
Just tell me when it's over let me know 
I got a white nose felt right 
I gotta let you know im alright 
All alone in my room blue sky
Tinted glass to hid the fact that im high
Oh im high oh I'm high
Reciprocate burn my feelings in a wood
I know it's stupid but something tells me that I should

unsaid w/xobroken

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