Killed this. One of my favorites 🖤🖤

love the intro 😍 heard a clip on my feed.

I don’t think you realize how much I’ve had this in repeat In just the last 4 hours.

featuring safeatlast -https://soundcloud.com/safeatlast
produced by Ciche&Jarn - https://www.youtube.com/@cichejarn


there's blood on my hands oh christ
can't deal with myself all the time
won't open my eyes

fucked it up now i don't even wanna go home
i got problems with myself 
don't leave me alone
wanna melt my brain 
thoughts lead to overload
i cant see a future without overdose

without overdose
baby I might go comatose
xannies in my coat
put another paycheck in my nose

not addicted but I don't know how I could recover
if I was would you still be there for me not another

teenage suicide another stat another number
for the masses

back in school I almost o-d'd on a fuckin Xanax

I would show up off the wall like vans to all my classes

I can't see the future maybe I just need my glasses

fucked it up now i don't even wanna go home
i got problems with myself 
don't leave me alone
wanna melt my brain 
thoughts lead to overload
i cant see a future without overdose
x2

overdose (ft. safeatlast) (Ciche&Jarn)

im sorry that its been a while
the time had made a heart to mend
find me in another life
i swear id try as hard again

a catalyst in heavy dark
your voice and how the bleeding stops
breath in a cold room to comfort
the surface im under for two years in sunder

fade out, start to forget me
soften the dead leaves of somebody else
brave now, but i know its early
and you couldn't hurt me but try to again

i know its been a long time

silence feels like dying
i dont mind it
i cant find you in colours i had learned to know
olive skin in amber tones, cedarwood in maple grove
eyes low the night before i drove you home
said one day we could have our own
so why am i still here alone?

did you know then it was broken?
thought you cried in the car cause it still felt so far
but instead its just not what you want

fade out, start to forget me
soften the dead leaves of somebody else
brave now, but i know its early
and you couldn't hurt me but try to again

all that it brings
cold in the spring
whats the point of waking up
if not for you again?
i dont know me now
i dont know me now

Mount Hood

lyrics

Lord knows theres not a lot left for me
so ill just move along
i know you like to watch me hurt
but jokes on you i cant feel at all
i cant trust my mind
with these fucking with drawals
but i dont need anybodys help with this
your fingers on my lips
your face in my hands
we talk early morning
write your name in the sand
want this feeling to last forever, i know
she asked do i want to live forever, i dont
said im way too much for you
but im not that much at all

lets say this was all a lie
wake up in the sunrise
would you come and find me
said youd meet me in another life
i wish i had some extra hours at the end of the day
cuz lately i dont even got not time to cry
wish i could make something that sounded right
wish i could help you live a happy life

if i was living forever the goal is my shelter 
shielding me out from everything that ive lost 
if your goal was forever we messed it up early 
on in the span of what could have been 
oh in the span of the time that ive spent 
lamenting the thoughts of another night in 
wish i could wake up in the evening like we did too many times back then 
but you don’t have to think like that 
that’s where I think it all began then we 
separate like the tide and the sand 
locked in another memory of regret and shame 
cant forget when i first spoke your name 
id rather not

lets say this was all a lie
wake up in the sunrise
would you come and find me
said youd meet me in another life
i wish i had some extra hours at the end of the day
cuz lately i dont even got not time to cry
wish i could make something that sounded right

another life w/ lil booj (p. king theta)

"Watch You Leave (feat. Ivri & Brecken)"
Produced by Ocean

 Thank you all who listen

*lyrics*
It's kind of odd watching you be a person I can't recognize but I'm glad you're okay
And I'm not used to the emotional withdrawal, could i get a hug before you drift away?
The winter season how it loves to mock me, I can't be who you need, it’s written all on your face
If awkward silence and a two word answer is the best you can do it's time we go our own ways

Most days, Most nights, I was walking by myself
You took my side, I knew I wanted nothing else
But the clouds move too quickly, I can't stop the weather
Took my heart just to keep it for yourself

Too many nights without you
My brain lacks all the right screws
Time might well be overdue

Why do I make it worse than it has to be
You could let me try
Or I could watch you leave
I could watch you leave
I could watch you leave, me

Never knew love life could be this bad
Crashed out
Put down
I never knew life could be this sad but
Troubled minds think alike

I'd love to think that it's all in my head,
but that's a lie

I heard that you wanted me dead, blocked now and I know it depends
On how I sin with my friends
Blew clouds, and I'll do it again

Wake up, I don't wanna live another day if I don't change up
I hope I change up

Most days, Most nights, I was walking by myself
You took my side, I knew I wanted nothing else
But the clouds move too quickly, I can't stop the weather
Took my heart just to keep it for yourself

Too many nights without you
My brain lacks all the right screws
Time might well be overdue

Watch You Leave w/ Ivri & Brecken (Prod. Ocean)

https://soundcloud.com/hkfiftyone2
https://soundcloud.com/angelsofsorrows

I only feel like myself when I'm high
I'm still coming up, want a piece of the pie
Man every time I roll up, got so much on my mind
And every day I feel dead now, but I'm still alive

I only feel like myself when I'm high
I could see myself, penthouse in the sky
Then it's done, here again, I can't eat, don't know why
Get that cash, stay the grind, take a hit, i'll be fine

One day feel like me then the other different person
My mind never set straight yeah it's written all in cursive
But it's got a story ending on a cliffhanger
It's JoshIGuess I'm always dropping the bangers

Importance for years yet still got to decide
If any of choices are bad sacrifice
And everyone leave me so got no advice
But I'd rather figure out my own reside

Only feel like myself when I'm up to the mic
But the camera's too close to me like it gon snipe
Some of you guys just rely on a swipe
But that's not how I want to use my device

I only feel like myself when I'm high
I'm still coming up, want a piece of the pie
Man every time I roll up, got so much on my mind
And every day I feel dead now, but I'm still alive

I only feel like myself when I'm high
I could see myself, penthouse in the sky
Then it's done, here again, I can't eat, don't know why
Get that cash, stay the grind, take a hit, i'll be fine

I'll be fine, I'll be fine
I'll be fine, I'll be fine (yeah i'll be fine)
Yeah I'ma get by I'ma live my life to the fullest
I'ma not be stupid I'ma live
I'ma keep on going and I ain't give a shit
And I found my inner self, yeah
But it comes with sacrifices
Now I know why people tend to stay the same, yeah

I only feel like myself when I'm high
I'm still coming up, want a piece of the pie
Man every time I roll up, got so much on my mind
And every day I feel dead now, but I'm still alive

I only feel like myself when I'm high
I could see myself, penthouse in the sky
Then it's done, here again, I can't eat, don't know why
Get that cash, stay the grind, take a hit, I'll be fine

I'll be fine
Yeah I'll be fine, I'll be fine, let's go (yeah i'll be fine)

LOS ANGELES TIX

i'll be fine w/ hkfiftyone & angelsofsorrows (quitall)

Sad chill - https://youtu.be/D5nlv64abY0?si=AyfLKLpZt0bGqaF2

lyrics ⬇️

crashin in a whole nother land
maybe this was not part of the plan
baby i just wanna hold your hand
way too long for me to even wanna let go

oh i wish you could understand 
but nothing that i do could make you really understand how

every person after you is worse off
and they wish they never met me in the first place

knock down
everysingle picture frame that im in
what about
all of those big diamonds and the necklaces
time out
cant you look at all those messages?
shy now
how could you become my nemesis 

no dont go
blue flowers remind me of you
yea i wish now days you didnt think i was rude

yea well ever since i left you, you dont want anything to do
with me
never got to even really see
our full potential could be
nothing cuz you had to leave me

why you always up in my mind
so long i bet you don’t recognize 
who i became when you had left
im barley the same but you wont check

Long nights i was locked up in my room
Like prom night, thought i had nothing i could lose
then i lost it all the second that you walked away
so now i hold my breath every songle other day

i wish that we got to go to the beach
let down never got to see the sea
never rest now
our love is lost like a receit
youre not nothing to me
but i hope one day we could work out

shy now (yunny goldz)

https://open.spotify.com/album/0bJh1YQSw6Rk94DK3hiNtG?si=EPAP1Mm1SuKkJY954x3qkg

https://linktr.ee/lottaheart

produced by @metlast
mastered by @jolst

lyrics:

(I know how we'd end,
right from the beginning
i waited at the bus stop,
just hoping you'd get home)

she said she was falling, i said hang tight
just hold onto me, i'll be your lifeline
i won't let you go like it's the last time
need you in my life so you cant die
[x2]

this can't be our last day
there can't be another way
i'm holding on for you to stay
don't know what i'd do,
nor would i know what to say if i,

lost you and you never could come back again
without you i don't even know what's happening
as you slip i can feel my world crashing in
i love you and you don't even know the half of it

so don't fall, hold on
i swear that i'll do everything i have to do
cause you're all that i want
and if you let go i'm jumping after you

i just needed you to know,
i won't ever let you go
i just needed you to know,
i won't let you die alone

she said she was falling, i said hang tight
just hold onto me, i'll be your lifeline
i won't let you go like it's the last time
need you in my life so you cant die
[x2]

lifeline [metlast]

lyrics ⬇️

it’s been cold out
and I been here alone
yea
i been here alone
and you don’t check ur phone now

i just hear the tone but I don’t wanna hear it no

you got me by the throat
knowing what I’ve done with you its so hard to go
i know it’ll show when I walk up in the room
implode and choke
cuz you cant stand the view 
I know I know

I’ve often been the rude one in ur life
but I’m offering solutions to make it right

your life is full of gratitude is that a lie
only if they knew a thing or two of what we do at night

it’s not so nice it’s not a crime but I know that I shouldn’t do it y
they say I should go to therapy but I already do it
i know what it’s like to bury everything cuz I been thru it
multiple the opportunities I lose I can’t control it
honestly I think it’s pride that’s over doing my influence 
everyday I’m getting by but how idk i have been clueless

let me close my eyes then I’ll prove it
my whole life a lie 
make me feel stupid




I know theyll be laughing in the background
came close but never really got attached how
i really meant to and i wish that i got it right
maybe this the problem why i cant sleep at night

I know, I know. w/ NAVYXOWER (yunny x cxrter)

i think i hate everything that i ever loved
now that the fire snuffed
baby im packing up boxes of things that you gave me
and things that im running from

but "baby" ain't "baby" no more
cause im out on my own and im feeling numb
turn it up loud on my speakers
and lay on the floor 'til i feel the drums

i cannot drink, i cannot smoke
the blood from ym vomit keep burning my throat
im tryna get by but my heart beating slow
and if i ever left i know no one would know

sometimes i find myself grabbing my phone
every time that i be way too alone
but then i just drop it cause im at the bottom already
no point now in making it known

its all gonna be okay real soon
real soon

i feel abandoned, cause im a burden
maybe im fucked up, i know that for certain
got a life sentence now this is the verdict
death penalty, to the void im returning
im hoping to God that i dont end up burning
im doing my best but im just really hurting
i just need a break for a sec now im cursing
i scream at myself with these insults im hurling

im losing myself, im losing my brains
im losing the lifeforce that course through my veins
feel like my body is wrapped up in chains
tape on my mouth so they think im okay

dont even know who i am in this verse
i feel too much, now im blessed with a curse
its just like a nightmare but way fucking worse
and the only way out is the back of a hearse

sinking

prod. jascoebeats
@beeanieboyy

baby fuckin break me
tell me how u hate me
tell me everything i need to hear
and drive me crazy
i know that ur wasted
i know that u hate me
i know that u
i know that u love me so embrace it
 
baby u can break me
and tell me how u hate me
baby tell me where u wanna go cuz i can take u
i know i made mistakes
i can fix them i can make it better for us
would u like that 

blunt smoke trees fade
eyes red bleed grey
green out green up
cash flow dont stop
big head big whip
pink slip wrist slit
fast car new kicks
nascar new bitch

look at my wrist
look at the time
i gotta run
look at my fit
all black ripped jeans thats whats up
fuck what you told me thats bull shit

baby fuckin break me
tell me how u hate me
tell me everything i need to hear
and drive me crazy
i know that ur wasted
i know that u hate me
i know that u
i know that u love me so embrace it

baby u can break me
tell me how u hate me
baby tell me where u wanna go cuz i can take u
i know i made mistakes
i can fix them i can make it better for us
would u like that

blunt smoke trees fade 
eyes red bleed grey
green out green up
cash flow dont stop
big head big whip
pink slip wrist slit
fast car new kicks
nascar new bitch

beanie - shadow (safeatlast cover)

lyrics

now she starting to see me in a different light
and u act like u dont need me and it get me tight
ill make u a song if u give me time
and she gonna fall in love if the feelings right
pitch black skies blanket street lights
yesterday i grew wings and today ill fly
all the snakes in her hair will leave me petrified
baby its just me and u until we die

i put a jacket on
this room feel like an igloo in the winter
she make it even colder when she starting pointing fingers
baby i know, im so fucked up im a drinker
but i can make some pretty lyrics im a thinker

got me chilling up in the studio ripping blinkers
think back to the nights when we would blow out all our speakers
if none of that really ever met that much its unfortunate to say that im a tweaker
got me tripping out like you dont really mean that
miss when we would hit the mall
and we would pop tags
knew you wouldnt take the fall
so i took a step back
go ahead and try to call
but i wont hit back
you cant brush this off cuz you know that i live in doubt
you knew what the cost was when i didnt allow
ive been so exhausted
got me in a drought
make me blossom whenever youre around
passing options every night in town
that cautious laughter doesnt make me feel proud
wish that we could feel right
wish she saw a different light

now she starting to see me in a different light
and u act like u dont need me and it get me tight
ill make u a song if u give me time
and she gonna fall in love if the feelings right
pitch black skies blanket street lights
yesterday i grew wings and today ill fly
all the snakes in her hair will leave me petrified
baby its just me and u until we die

aurora borealis in the sky i would still prefer to look in your eyes
you havent called my phone in a minute bet youll blow it up the day that i die
thinking that you hate me so i dont reply
and when they put me six feet, would you cry
i guess i wont find out there'll be dirt in my eyes
baby hurry up and tell me what you want
and dont you give me that little look you do when you wanna fuck
cliche but all i wanna do is smoke a blunt
you dont understand how this shit helps me
breathe it in and breathe it out
i know its not healthy
without it im geeking out
its been a while since we fell out
but im still fiending now
man i fucking hate my heart wish i could tear it out

now she starting to see me in a different light
and u act like u dont need me and it get me tight
ill make u a song if u give me time
and she gonna fall in love if the feelings right
pitch black skies blanket street lights
yesterday i grew wings and today ill fly
all the snakes in her hair will leave me petrified
baby its just me and u until we die

lifeline [metlast]

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