Shatteredmemories/Lotus

lotus

bruh 4

https://soundcloud.com/lullabyboy

mix/master/art by me 

still i know you’re all i need
cigarette holes on your sleeves
every night so hard to sleep
without you i’m a wreck
kiss me on my cold wet cheek 
spill out tears all on my sheets 
my pillow soaked up all my screams 
alone i lie in bed 

maybe i'm the one who's wrong
that i'd confide in you at all
just getting tired & i'm sore
i waste the breath out of my lungs 
& you don't try for us to compromise at all or work it out
you said you'd stay i should've caught that lie 
before i cared so much

lullabyboy:

& i don't really care if you hate me
but why did you date me
yeah i admit it's getting hard to sleep
i don't wanna be myself
i don't wanna be me
breaking piece by pieve
i just hope you see me
i can't help but ask if it's worth it
but the lonely nights leave me so broken
i hope i fall asleep less hopeless
but you’re so done with me i know this

yeah i’ve tried
but i can’t do this again
you left me out in the cold
you got me stuck in emotions

Sleye:

i’m at the end of my rope 
no i can’t wait anymore
you should’ve told me before 
if you knew it's not what you wanted

Hard To Sleep w/ lullabyboy (prod. Sleye)

loves me not （+ukno）

you tell me that you love me, so why do i feel lonely?
baby what’s the point? i know you’re probably gonna ghost me
you like it when my nose bleed; cocaine shredding slowly
thought that you would fix me, but baby, you just broke me
tell me that you love me, so why do i feel lonely?
baby what’s the point? i know you’re probably gonna ghost me
you like it when my nose bleed; cocaine shredding slowly
i thought that you could fix me, but baby, you don't know me

and i know i’m not the one you're thinking of
but your love is like a drug and i can’t fucking get enough
i need your rush inside my veins, just load me up
let me die inside my sleep, this life is just too fucking tough
tell my mom, i’m sorry, but i just don’t give a fuck
i miss your voice, i’m not alright, my life is just so fucking dumb
can’t go a day without fucking something up
depressed as fuck, all i wanna do is cut

baby what’s the point? i know you're turning to a ghost
yeah you say you're down, but who’s that boy inside your phone?
you took my heart and you squeezed it till it broke
let me die inside the cold, i'm all alone, just let me choke
baby what’s the point? i know you're turning to a ghost
yeah you say you're down, but who’s that boy inside your phone?
you took my heart and your squeezing till it breaks
just let me die, i'm all alone, just let me fade

you tell me that you love me, so why do i feel lonely?
baby what’s the point? i know you’re probably gonna ghost me
you like it when my nose bleed; cocaine shredding slowly
thought that you would fix me, but baby, you just broke me
tell me that you love me, so why do i feel lonely?
baby what’s the point? i know you’re probably gonna ghost me
you like it when my nose bleed; cocaine shredding slowly
i thought that you could fix me, but baby, you don't know me

prod. @prodspyder
written by @lightninglogan

samples from You x Dracula

Ghost Me

SPYDER

ghost me [prod. spyder]

bring me alive (prod. by yasuu)

@lov3lotus
@listen2grace

[ lotus ]
lately ive been feeling like a dont know where to stand
cause my heads been a mess
tired of this stress
but when i talk to you
i know everythings gonna be alright

now i feel so lonely
but i know
that im not alone
waking up from these nightmares
my friends are my power

[ l2grace ]
head mess
yeah i fucked it up
going out sad
it aint looking good
friends on friends
but i'm still so alone
keep myself close
but i can't trust
feels like a ghost stuck to me
trust in me
i got no trust in it
i got no trust in anything

friends  (+ lotus l2grace)

wth is going on

@tsuki-skyful https://soundcloud.com/tsuki-skyful/stm-sample-challenge-2

stress

produced by @opal707
featuring @d1vwv
mix/master/cover-art by me

ok lets do this
i never knew shit
always getting treated like the new kid
i swear im just human
theres nothing to it
i wake up eat my breakfast and get to it

everything been diffrent for a while
it changed for the better
ever since i met her
id hate to be the one that waste ur time
ngl find it hard to maintain a smile

i hate when it happends, tragic on tragic
i love it when i get to be with you i feel fantastic
touch feel like magic, better then imagined
remember how it felt to be alone i  cant go back there

i cant do it again
(i dont think this shit is fun i wont do it again)
ill do better this time

im just trynna sleep away the days babe
wanted u to stay so i made place
calling out names like i was never there
i cant seem to cope i disappear
one last try can i just love myself thats all i need
will i hide all of the things we kept underneath
idk what to call it im lost for words
the way that i forget it thats all its worth

maintain + d1v (opal)

happy valentines day....
lyrics:
my mirror never lies 
its the only one who keeps on being
true with who i am 
i cant even trust myself

i should just let this go
get so lost inside my thoughts
u smile to him like that 
and im this mess 
i feel like i dont belong

its not that i want to die here
i just wanna disappear
my life isnt the same
as it used to be

leave me 
hate me
kill me
replace me

replaceable

lyrics: 
faded under club lights 
i cant ever let you go
kissing in the dance floor 
i cant ever make it worse
my head is so shattered from these nightmares
make them go
faded with your promises 
i cant ever get enough

faded under club lights

@no5
@shinjinv
mix @b07gem

https://youtu.be/FEGnsP3vhp0

feel conscious, wanna stop it
i'm toxic
I don't wanna talk it out
I promise, ima off it
im toxic 
got no other options

I’m toxic.. I got no more options
Shoutout killz but these pills got me #nauseous 
Catching fills (feels)
I might dust it like a stock tip
Shit is deep
Prolly deeper than my pockets

And I keep it by my waist
Like I shoplift
i hate your face
it looks like you photoshopped it
Give you a taste
but now its rotten
Someone tell me how I am 
Think I 4gotten

(take me away.. to a better place
take me away.. won't you do it?)
Someone please 
Someone please
I'm not begging
ijust want a little strength I guess im nagging
I guess im nagging I find that amazing

toxic </prod. nos _ shinjin> MUSIC VIDEO IN BIO

prod. @dreamcache
featuring @oaf1 <3
- + - * - + - * - + - * - + - * - + - 
im wet !!
i just put check 
onmy neck
flex
motherfvcking flex
g1rl dont fucking trip !
shitt She fuck with tha set :0
we go special ed 
shawty badd
meet us in the bacc
4 an autograph !!

put the fucking cash
in the fucking bAgg.
iv been dUmmy sad
so dont take a chance
ill make it ur last
my outfit doesnt match
but it doesnt clash
shawty got a glance
then she copped a tan
then she dropped her mans
txt from my ex o.0
i said wat tha heck..
..i said fucking bet
im a fucking wreck):
i wish i was dead
extacy and x.xans
thats tha fucking plan
till i meet tha man
ima end it fast !!
put it in my hands

@oaf1
beach trip !!
count up som money n swim with my friends
ima b wet til the world end
i jus snuck sum drugs in to the friday nite dance
i askd my bro 4 a hug n now i cnt even stand
days pass so faast
my life is so bad
but im happi im wet :p

im.wet !! *++@oaf1*

Punch the light
Surrender 
Cover me 
Cover me 
From these perma drugs
Cant get enough 
Opioid luv 
Bully make fun 
Out runned 
Out Gunned 
There’s gum on my shoe 
Might scrape it off and chew 
I’m in love with you! 
Your fevers fuck with me 
the toxic fleas might creep 
I’m in my head might scream
So hold me down can’t breathe !

PERMALOVE! (PROD.HM.WAV & DULLX)

prod @lil4c

vocals @xkerosene @crescentxx

yes i eat pepperoni 

Stream us on Spotify! https://open.spotify.com/artist/5EyYculuuhEIKCu9IClSV7

Bad Bitch ft. kerosene, crescent (prod.lilac)

[00:03] shelter remix
[01:29] crystal statues - be nice to me cover
[03:01] lotus - puppet (prod lilac)
[04:09] lotus - somwhere i belong (prod lilac)
[05:15] lotus - lvl up! ft. blackwinterwells (prod lovefelt x yandere)
[06:53] l2grace - tainted
[07:53] 9souls - corpse bride (prod lilac)
[08:38] bladee - skin (lotus rework)
[10:24] the cure - boys dont cry (lotus cover)
[10:58] shinigami - boiz dont cri
[11:51] lotus - crystal tears (prod yandere) 
[13:21] yandere - stargazer
[14:27] mistry - kawaii dancing girl
[15:00] yandere - starfox 
[16:12] l2grace - spidrntwrkprty ft. dolly
[16:47] lotus - idely (prod yandere)
[17:49] bmth - pray for plagues (lotus cover)
[18:16] bmth - chelsea smile (lotus cover)
[18:38] alesana - apology (lotus cover)
[19:03] alesana - seduction (lotus cover)
[19:34] shatteredmemories - far away
[19:56] ptv - circles (lotus cover)
[20:21] sws - james dean and audrey hepburn (lotus cover)
[20:39] the jonas brothers - s.o.s (lotus cover)
[22:43] yandere - dreamcore
[23:29] yandere - breathing +l2grace
[24:07] lotus - letdown (prod waifu)
[25:22] crystal statues - feel like im not me
[26:09] blackwinterwells - useless (prod maknae x waifu)
[26:42] lew - istillcare edit
[27:10] crescent - fantasy
[27:38] lovefelt - 33checkss edit
[28:16] lilac - takemefarawayfromheree