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The sweet taste of self-hatred V.

The Upload 34

5/9/22

produced by the goat: @nevrfall

lyrics:
i'm hiding in my own pain don't think that i won
my beretta's in the closet locked away in a box
with everything you've said got me collecting the dust
and everything we had is something that can't be undone
so put me in this freezer cause i need to reset
i had an asian girl but she left me for college
"things happen for a reason" that's what she always said
so if i die is that a reason why it happened

n the texts you send, question me how i write
but i'm too afraid to say direct in ur eyes
and this feelings dark but with you i had light
n before u left we loved us one last time

so tell me bout u first
u always cease to amaze me
u still worried about her
i think ur just crazy
u know that it hurts
when u don't even trust me
i'm far from a flirt
nobody even wants me
just another face, i'll forget about
just more extra pain and scars to heal out
just get out my way, i don't need u now
no way we could make up, without a doubt

i'm hiding in my own pain don't think that i won
my beretta's in the closet locked away in a box
with everything you've said got me collecting the dust
and everything we had is something that can't be undone
so put me in this freezer cause i need to reset
i had an asian girl but she left me for college
"things happen for a reason" that's what she always said
so if i die is that a reason why it happened

i'll wait 3 more years until college is done
that's if were alone, with nobody to give love
the war is on its way can u hear them run
they're raging and they laugh, when the jobs done

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lyrics:
u cant tell me how i feel
u dont know my mind u cant tell me if im real
f*cking, laughin, crying u cant tell me if were good right now 
even if im bleedin ima still stick around 

honestly f*ckin tired of this 
sh*t just works out terribly 
problems thrown like snowb*lls 
so cold with it
anxiety 
sinkin in my brain 
got two feet but i still cant stand 
work through my troubles its takin its toll on my mind i cant help if i dont feel alright 
f*ck it ur right
im outta my mind

u cant tell me how i feel
u dont know my mind u cant tell me if im real
f*cking, laughin, crying u cant tell me if were good right now 
even if im bleedin ima still stick around 

u cant tell me how i feel
u dont know my mind u cant tell me if im real
f*cking, laughin, crying u cant tell me if were good right now 
even if im bleedin ima still stick around 

u cant tell me how i feel
u dont know my mind u cant tell me if im real
f*cking, laughin, crying u cant tell me if were good right now 
even if im bleedin ima still stick around

kais - can't tell me

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lyrics:
i know that you got
skeletons in your closet why not share them? 
im not one to judge you baby tell me whats the outcome 
you know i fucking hate it when you don’t speak 
just tell me whats been on your mind lately 

7 months and a heartbreak later 
i don’t tknow if i’ll ever find somebody greater 
im standing in a fire filled with broken glass 
you can cut me with the shards and i’d still take you back

and i just want you to know that i got 

broken bottles over polaroids
i need to find my way back home to you i hope
that you’ll be there when im gone
i can’t even lie im not strong 

right now i mean nothing but its comforting 
to know that at some point i was your everyting                 
now i’ll lie and say i’m better on my own now 
i don’t think i’ll get over how you left me out at sea to drown 
alright alright, 
i’m not doing fine 
lay awake and staring at the ceiling 
with the thought of y ou at night 
alright alright 
im not doing fine 
those pictures of your face are keeping me laying awake at night 

broken bottles over polaroids
i need to find my way back home to you i hope
that you’ll be there when im gone
i can’t even lie im not strong 

so why’d you have to leave love 
i still don’t know how that works 
are you dreaming of me? 
cause i still dream of you 
tell me for what its worth 
i hope its worth the hurt 
i hope its worth 
being 6 feet underneatht the dirt 

broken bottles over polaroids
i need to find my way back home to you i hope
that you’ll be there when im gone
i can’t even lie im not strong

cover by Vict Molina

broken bottles over polaroids (prod. sleeps x)

Don't Feel Right (Prod. Ryan Bevolo x Nico Baran)

Thoughts Under My Hat (feat. KID E$S)

how does it feel to be loved I can't imagine that
prod. Guala Beatz
mixed by @nolliejaw on IG

Imagine Ft. Guardin (Prod. Guala & 5head)

@cay2o snapped, follow this man

lyrics:

do you remember when I would tell you everything that I felt?
I put my feelings all over your shelf
I felt alive and I came out my shell
but now, I dont know what got into me
pressure from pressure I was stuck and you were pissed at me
but right now thats history

starin at the ceilin
babe where are you?
I want you in my arms
but ig ill call you

like yeah, I been fucked up for almost a year
this life aint shit but I’m here for you
stumblin off track cause I fear the truth
that I’m only here to prove myself

I dont wanna be that
I know that i'm lyin when i tell myself that I need that
you care for me a lot it's not really hard to see that
baby you the best and im sorry that I just cant be like you
im gettin why you tell me what to do
cus we never really talk things thru
we both know thats not like you

like damn
why the fuck you look at me damn
I be doing what I want cause I can
I do what I want cause I'm me
I don't care if you hate you can leave

the ceiling

the ceiling (prod. cay2o)

@pekarot_161
just an idea, ambient
tell me on ice am i the one for you
why you want to wage a war if i know the truth
i need an armistice to defuse my own ruse
i feel like i vanish i got nothing to prove
give up on me
you give up on me

armistice

</3
guitar played by acey
rest prod by me

how can i not talk to you everytime i overthink
think of the words that you've been spewing
your right arm is covered in ink
found my charm and i let him in
i wanna know why you ruin it
found my heart and it might be pink
i wanna know why u pursuing him

i wanna know if you want me dear
raise our love but never our fears
i dont know if you want him here
recycle what you said to me ill make you go a floot
remember what you did to me i fucking hate you
do you hate me too, well hey i fucking hate you
i kissed a girl, i fucking love you

your eyes so nice i love them
im on ice when i talk to your best friend
she told me i suck i should leave you
back off i know my wrongs due
sunflower we're in orbit
you a lone wolf and i want it
and i want you babe he got you and i hate fate
slits in his brows your attracted to that
im here with a towel conflicted to scrap
i need out, resist all that cap
im bugging out i hate you for that
ill tough it out, ill make you look bad
if you loved me and if you want home

you touch on my neck and girl it felt like home
now im filled w stressed now and now im fueled w bones
you said you wouldent go, but now im all alone
you touch on my neck and girl it felt like home

guitar by @prodjpjp
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lyrics

im eating her bodyweight no, i know that you hate my face. bro
neck it down w a slice of cake yo, lets hold back from tainting grace, hoe
stomach thin w a feint of shake woah, she grows back but cant stay, loyal

im curious by the way that he touch you
im destroying us by the weight of my bad mood
im enjoying us, everyday is so bad dude
depression getting worse, i cant even leave my home dude
do i deserve this bad, i swear that i want to hold you
ur all i never had, i swear to god that i told you
does he want you back, as much as i do
i guess i like, i guess i like you

im eating her bodyweight, laying down as i deflate
where are you now, as i replay
deep in the ground is my only space
where are you now, i got something to say
i live in hell its the only way
i couldent tell that i need your face
locked in a cell and its called my place
how can you tell that i need a razor;
the trees when i stepback feels like safest place
if i see your guy ima stomp on his face
are you alright im not scared to embrace
whats that from your eye, get those slits of your face

cake

thank you for listening <3
@yokaidreams
@livingpuffy

// lyrics 
// geist
up all night till i blackout, yeah
lights off at your place now, yeah???
eyes glued to your waist down :)  
getting so sick of this ghost town 
 
tell me whats been on your mind 
you seem so out of it 
truth is I’ve been killing myself 
to stay relevant 
i don’t want to talk about it
just take me to bed again 
cause everyone’s a friend 
just to reap to the benefits  
 
won’t tell you how i feel cause i might regret it
i don’t want to be the one who’s losing now  
steady building skeletons in my closet 
everybody smiles but i’m still breaking down :(
in the middle of the night 
tell me it’ll be alright, be alright 
fake another smile, tell another lie
tell me it’ll be alright, be alright 

// yokai 
hands around my neck I'm choking out
hard to be me when they say that
i’m too laid back
never gonna make it
grow up, face facts
gotta make the payments

and she tells me that we'll be alright but i doubt that
i gotta find a way to get out but i’m trapped
i thought that i could finally find a way to bounce back
forget it tho

be alright w/ yokai dreams [living puff]

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our time has passed ik i need you here alone
your face looks nice from the pictures i see on my phone
you don't think twice when i tell you i've grown all alone
was i the one that you wanted before it begun

her name is poison and i am addicted
she cast flames on my heart, ik that shes different
i know  that im lame still living, this is what i predicted
no direction or aim, tunnel vision getting twisted
shes poisonous shes poisonous shes ignorant shes ignorant
shes poisonous shes poisonous shes ignorant shes ignorant
destroy me leave me out, you annoy me your a cow
got some grass to feed, hear me out
you on the fully feed, on the ground?

our time has passed ik i need you here alone
your face looks nice from the pictures i see on my phone
you hide everything you do i'm inside of everything i knew
wipe tears behind pine, get back beside my life
i love you how fuck me then tell me to be fine

her name is poison and i am addicted
she cast flames on my heart, ik that shes different
i know  that im lame still living, this is what i predicted
no direction or aim, tunnel vision getting twisted

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Beat & Vocals By ℒund.
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Lyrics

I feel the cold again
i feel alone again
(x4)

my heart is so cold
i feel so alone
stayed up all night girl
i wish you were home
ill take a hold of you
i want to grow old with you
where did you go
oh where did you go
you got me feeling like 
I’m six feet below the ground 
don’t tell me its over now 
i won’t live this way 
i can’t live this life without you
cause all i fucking do is think about you
all night and day 
baby girl believe the words that i say

addicted to love and your my supplier
but you and i we burn like a fire
and your words they cut like barb wire
but thats how it feels when you love a liar
(x2)

I feel the cold again
i feel alone again
(x4)

so pour the salt on my wound babe
i just wanna feel something
remove the blood from my veins 
so this heart will stop pumping
on the edge and I’m jumping
give me something thats numbing
cause if i don’t have your love 
then this life means nothing
(x2)

I feel the cold again
(i feel the cold)
i feel alone again
(i feel alone)
(x4)

(i feel alone)
i feel the cold again
(i feel the cold)
i feel alone again
(i feel alone)
(x2) 


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lyrics: 

crush me under the pressure of your talons
oh what a talent you have
for pulling me apart 
oh, its like a work of art

why didnt u just tell me?
i drag myself through hell
so self depreciating 
i think i need some help...

i think i do...
u told me that...
i would be nothing without you...

but u were never truthful
drag myself thru the mud for your approval
yeah u might as well just kill me...
u might as well...

yeah end it right here i dare you
cuz ur cup runneth over with blood i spill for u
yeah i do this every single time...

ever motherfucking time.....
everytime....

crush me under the pressure of your talons
oh what a talent you have
for pulling me apart 
oh, its like a work of art

broken bottles over polaroids (prod. sleeps x)

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