when I get a gf, I'll dedicate her this song :)

lyrics//

lost my mind
i was driving to austin
asking why
did she give me the option

cracked spine
roots grow
why am i holding on hope anymore
guess i’m waiting for the day
i can work up some strength off the floor

maybe we’ll be better in the next life
maybe we’ll be better in the next life

[red eyes
guess i couldn’t be the one
take flight
but don’t get too close to the sun

icarus 
ur the achilles to my heel
fight my feelings so i keep them all concealed

if i was all that you want then why’d you let me go?
guess i was never enough and now i’m so cold
but don’t mind me 
i’ll be good on my own
five pills in my hand, 5% on my phone]


i’m so sick of back and fourth can we talk this out
playing games on my court
and i hate how it sounds
fuck a red light i just wanna get home
and for my last high
i’ll take you as my drug


[red eyes
guess i couldn’t be the one
take flight
but don’t get too close to the sun

icarus
ur achilles to my heel
fight my feelings so i keep them all concealed

if i was all that you want then why’d you let me go?
guess i was never enough and now i’m so cold]

you won’t let me go
you won’t let me go

icarus

@nothingnowheremusic
@killbreanna

what if it’s too late to go back
if it’s too late i won’t know that
maybe today i can photograph
my own suicide wit da kodak

2g of sticky i roll that
to let out the feelings i hold back
sellin my life it’s on rollback
i don’t ever want my soul back
so

believe me i’m okay
i would never lie to you no
believe me there’s no way
that ima let you walk out the door

stand in the doorway
blocking you from leaving your home
you belong here close to me
don’t you leave me out in the cold

don’t leave me out here to rot
don’t believe me when i say i’m okay truly i’m not
i want you back more than i thought
but now it’s too late for me i could never save you a spot

can’t save that spot for you it’s not mine to be savin
i’m not meant for you my heart is truly vacant
i can’t be there for you cant be your safehaven
i don’t wanna do this i refuse to be complacent

its too late, to save, my sanity
you cant, expect, any change

too late (nothing, nowhere. x kill breanna)

guitar by magicDz

love y'all a ton.
thank you for listening
thank you for being here, truly
hope you enjoy

ep postponed, but i got a lot else i've been working on
yea



take me apart
reassemble and recharge what you erased
no regards
zip my lip, i cannot communicate

above every scent they embellish
it's rotten, yet fresh, so i cannot repel it

they ain't know me like that
do my homies got my back?
rigor mortis 'till i crack
brought me back in, yet we're never patching
glass, all up in this brittle back
always lacking what i have, like a magnet
opposites attracting

(i don't) i don't wanna feel this bitter
but i don't wanna rock that mask, no
redacting myself from the present when i wanna end it
pelt dust at my mental
cavities build in my dental
skipping toothpaste for the mentos
everything felt so common
i hurt so often; bent like a stencil

caffeination, isolation, what a cycle, what a day
couple people that i talk to; very seldom light the way
i do it myself it seems
shot down like it's belomancy

sat recluse in my room every noon, glued to youtube
if i had somebody special, it'd be them too
won't you settle down and tell me what you're going through
call me up for once, 'cause honestly you never do
so when the clock strikes, i feel the curse so tight
staying up 'till it's twilight
green flash in my eyesight
black cat in the moonlight
waving bye when i'm boutta cry
i hit you up 'cause i had to cry
spirit guide lurkin' hindsight

drill in my head, got a shovel in my chest
but i leave it like that, let it grow like grass
i'm a fucked up kid, can't live in the past
and the moment don't last, break shit when i laugh
no meds and i'm gassed, but deflate real fast
real friends hit back, understand where i'm at?
why you treat 'em like ass though?
do you got a moat for the castle?
been down every ounce, now i'm fragile
she had meant so much, what a hassle
days into weeks, now months
stolen my crutch
fuck it i'll hunch
punching my gut 'till the air flows
cornering stare with an echo
licking the tip of the arrow
wove in a rope like a pharaoh
sooner than late i won't care, no

like that
do my homies got my back?
rigor mortis 'till i crack
brought me back in, yet we're never patching
glass, all up in this brittle back
always lacking what i have, like a magnet
opposites attracting

they ain't know me like that
do my homies got my back?
rigor mortis 'till i crack
brought me back in, yet we're never patching
glass, all up in this brittle back
always lacking what i have, like a magnet
opposites attracting

bombay

[+ sogimura]
@noxious-nights ♤
@safeatlast
@northshoremusic 🂡
@strivemusicau ♤
@navyxower 🂡

Hatred/Brain-Dead w/ noxiousnights, The North Shore, strivesad. & NAVYXOWER (ft. safeatlast)

originally performed by sewerperson
produced by eric godlow

-lyrics-
if this is how it ends
well im glad you were part of it
this was all inside my head before
i even started it
you made it to the end and i appreciate the tolerance
really im my brain inside my head and that is it
these holograms around me somehow willing me to live
and i know i cant touch u i mean really really touch you
on atomic level shit but thats not how were meant to fit
if you look at people walking everybody moves the same
perfect mess of flesh and bone equipped with total mental reign
when you think about it really only difference is the brain
so thats why im looking thru you when im talking to ur face
please dont be scared
theres nothing for me to think about
its over now
im sober now
i power down

catching up cuz she told me we can speak now
i keep my lights on when i sleep now
i keep my phone on when you go out
cause when i fall asleep youre the one i dream bout
brought a black nikon to the beach house
pull my fleece out when i feel the breeze out
used to freak now you busy to go out
threw my dreams out all i do is seep now

sewerperson, eric godlow - its over. you can go home (lxst boy cover)

thorns freestyle (p. farber)

Chase The Moon w/ Devie & Blocktane

produced by Jacob Vallen & Lxst Boy

-lyrics-
on these warm September nights
fireflies dance in your eyes
we can take out time
I don't wanna grow up, we got the rest of our lives
time stood still when you kissed my cheek
when I close my eyes I see us in dreams
try to soak up this moment and make it last
when we're old and grey, hope we look back on

past lives, we were seventeen
I'll write songs for you and me
stay here, we can make-believe
stand strong, baby we're evergreen

please stay
take it day by day
and I don't wanna know a life without you
tell me what's it gonna take?
please stay

Neverland don't seem so far away
when I'm by your side, I know I'll be okay
I know you know
soon we'll find us a home
hold tight, we're almost there
I'll hold your hand and push back your hair
look me in the eye when you say that you want this 
forever and ever and ever and ever and ever

past lives, we were seventeen
I'll write songs for you and me
stay here, we can make-believe
stand strong, baby we're evergreen

please stay
take it day by day
and I don't wanna know a life without you
tell me what's it gonna take?
please stay

past lives, we were seventeen
I'll write songs for you and me
stay here, we can make-believe
stand strong, baby we're evergreen

please stay
take it day by day
and I don't wanna know a life without you
tell me what's it gonna take?
please stay

Seventeen Evergreen

@killedmyself

20 years have caught up wit me n they fucked up my mental
she tellin' me she in love wit me but she ain't ever do no sentimental
amphetamines have caused cavities to just rot out in my dental
all my life i felt worthless can somebody tell me what i'm meant for?

all my life i felt worthless
i took my heart and i purged it
never comin up to the surface

thought that you would be worth it
i thought that you was perfect
tell me what'd i do to deserve this?

take me back,
take me back to the real world
take me back,
take me back to when i couldn't feel

rip my heart straight from my ribcage
i've been led astray from the good place
i've ran out of luck where did my good days go
the place in which i reside no longer feels like home

20 years have caught up wit me n jus fucked up my mental
tellin' me she in love wit me but she ain't ever do no sentimental

20 years have caught up wit me n they fucked up my mental
she tellin' me she in love wit me but she ain't ever do no sentimental
amphetamines have caused cavities to just rot out in my dental
all my life i felt worthless can somebody tell me what i'm meant for?

real world

real world (killedmyself)

Having to upload on this account due to upload limit reached on my main, hope that's ok with you guys x 

Lyrics:

You’re far away 
You’re far away 
I'm falling into another mistake 
You’re far away 
You’re far away 
I’ll cut my heart out 
and feed it to the wolfs 

I know your far but your heartbeat
I still hear it 
I fell in love with your voice 
Yeah I’m all ears 
Its been a minute since i drove
through my dark dreams 
I push the keys in my car 
And whip my German like I’m driving pro street 
You have a art degree 
Your so pretty, make me nervous
When you talk to me 
But can you talk to me? 
You got time for me? 
Can we link up and drink herbal tea?
You're far away 
You're far away
I can't drive to you
you're oceans away

You’re far away 
You’re far away 
I'm falling into another mistake 
You’re far away 
You’re far away 
I’ll cut my heart out 
and feed it to the wolfs

Far Away (King Theta)

Kwiat.

currently in Marine Corps boot camp
inquiries? @lxstboymanagement on instagram

Seventeen Evergreen

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