you r so afraid to cry and yo heart been feelin dry

Afraid to cry

▶︎ music video: https://youtu.be/v-xMME7PJLE ◀︎

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​https://supernalsofttouch.bandcamp.com/

🧬 'ループ' 🧬

Music: Kenji @user-943047036
Words from 'Suicide Note' (1965) by Anne Sexton
Poetry Reading and Model: Cristel Bere @berebere9
Director: Kenji @user-943047036

Video Samples from:
'Dead Movie' (1964) by Takahiko Iimura
'The Blue Sky Maiden' (1957) by Yasuzo Masumura
'The Boxer' (1977) by Shuji Terayama 
'Tokyo Drifter' (1966) by Seijun Suzuki
'Hanagatami' (2017) by Nobuhiko Obayashi
'Comet' (2003) by Isao Yamada
'Relation' (1980) by Toshio Matsumoto
'Via Karelia' (2021) by Elian Mikkola
'Mement Stella' (2018) by Takashi Makino
'A Tiny Place That Is Hard to Touch' (2019) by Shelly Silver
'Engram' (1987) by Toshio Matsumoto
'Dissociative Amnesia' (2020) by Shun Ikezoe
'Mountain Plain Mountain' (2018) by Daniel Jacoby & Yu Araki

[Lyric]
And once with 
a mouth like a cup, 
clay colored or blood colored, 
open like the breakwater 
for the lost ocean 
and open like the noose 
for the first head. 

Once upon a time 
my hunger was for Jesus. 
O my hunger! My hunger! 
Before he grew old 
he rode calmly into Jerusalem 
in search of death. 

This time 
I certainly 
do not ask for understanding 
and yet I hope everyone else 
will turn their heads when an unrehearsed fish jumps 
on the surface of Echo Lake; 
when moonlight, 
its bass note turned up loud, 
hurts some building in Boston, 
when the truly beautiful lie together. 
I think of this, surely, 
and would think of it far longer 
if I were not… if I were not 
at that old fire. 

I could admit 
that I am only a coward 
crying me me me 
and not mention the little gnats, the moths, 
forced by circumstance 
to suck on the electric bulb. 
But surely you know that everyone has a death, 
his own death, 
waiting for him. 
So I will go now 
without old age or disease, 
wildly but accurately, 
knowing my best route, 
carried by that toy donkey I rode all these years, 
never asking, “Where are we going?” 
We were riding (if I’d only known) 
to this. 

Dear friend, 
please do not think 
that I visualize guitars playing 
or my father arching his bone. 
I do not even expect my mother’s mouth. 
I know that I have died before— 
once in November, once in June. 
How strange to choose June again, 
so concrete with its green breasts and bellies. 
Of course guitars will not play! 
The snakes will certainly not notice. 
New York City will not mind. 
At night the bats will beat on the trees, 
knowing it all, 
seeing what they sensed all day.

🥀 ©︎ supernalsofttouch 🥀

Kenji - ループ (feat. cristel bere)

Absorb(ed)on Skylab Radio, aired 3 June 2022.

Music Make Me Wince !!! An hour with composer, label inspiration & friend, Sarah McCauley / skysay  (FKA Ava). Youth choirs + Chief Keef + Naomi Osaka interview, all in one breath. Make a face !!!

@opensecrets @opensecrets @opensecrets
Art by James Crowhurst

⭐️

Tracklist:
Pushkin's Wreath: 7. Reveille – Georgy Sviridov, perf. Glinka Choral College Boys' Choir
Soteria I – waterhouse
Alexandra Trusova tantrum 2022 Winter Olympics
Hurry B4 The Gate Close – Chief Keef
Frutta E Verdura – Whitearmor & Gud
Compass – Croatian Amor & Scandinavian Star
Old Meme – Buum
Ride Or Die (feat. Chilly Gonzales) – Boys Noize/Kelsey Lu
exit loop – SKY H1
I WANT TO ROT IN YOUR ARMS – oozini
Our Own Roof – Nils Frahm
? – Inner Mongolian Youth Choir
my heart is deceitful above all things – Gud
Naomi Osaka 2020 Australian Open Interview
april sunset – Sadness
#verything #verything indigo sparks edit (dj special intentions) – skysay

E7 - Sarah McCauley: Music Make Me Wince

more cloud more cloud hymn but got lazy at the end

grey cloud bladee (mb unfinished)

Audio documentation for Late July with Lynn and friends, featuring performances by Celes, Kenji, Natalia Panzer, Bug Bus Piano and wish. The event was held at Kaje in Brooklyn, NY on July 31, 2022.

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Late July was facilitated by Eyrie Alzate, Holiday Lim, and Luke Herrigel.

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Bug Bus Piano (New York)
carriswheel.com
bugbuspiano.bandcamp.com

Celes (New York)
celes11235.bandcamp.com
soundcloud.com/celes11235

Kenji (Tokyo)
supernalsofttouch.bandcamp.com
soundcloud.com/user-943047036

Natalia Panzer (Kraków)
ft. Marie López and J. Gordon Faylor (New York)
npanzer.com

wish (New York)
soundcloud.com/wish17

Kaje
kaje.world

Lynn
lynn.earth
@lynnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn1

Late July

Bug Bus Piano (Late July)

Kenji (Late July)

World Canvas Mix 24 comes from Helsinki native and long-time World Canvas affiliate, Murrettumeri - an artistic moniker of producer/dj and sound designer Henri Nikkilä. Their recent endeavours have included, but are not limited to, contributions to Helsinki-based label Surrexis, collaborations with Kaino Wennerstrand at ANTI Festival in Kuopio, and Dreamworld performance collaboration at Flow Festival 2022 with Dream duo of Taika Mannila and Lina Schiffer.
Murrettumeri’s guest mix for World Canvas reflects their multifaceted musical practice and foreshadow their upcoming projects and productions.
@murrettumeri

Cover art by Gabriel Boicel

World Canvas Mix 24: Murrettumeri

shimmer w/ didi & aichakushi - 18/11/2022

forever fc - On the Blue Side of the Evening

20250313

Kenji (@user-943047036) - 10年後 [feat. Shintaro Matsuo (@shintaromatsuo), Jiyoung Wi (@jiyoungwi)]

3rd single from "愛の響き" (via @absurd-creation)