i feel like killing myself but i cant

bother

i’m spinning spinning so fast baby break my heart 
why don’t u meet me by the bathroom 
u can kill me when u want 
i just rly wanna know 
i just wanna rlly know 
if you’ll fuck me up if i give u all my love 
break my bones put me into tiny pieces 
slit my throat and make me quiet 
ask me if i’m fine baby i’m just crying 
i don’t feel good yeah i wanna throw up 

i like self destruction and self harm 
it’s the way i fucking cope 
so i gotta cheat the rope 
she slit her cute throat 
i just wanna know 
if u rly loved me 
then why’d you have to go 
omg it stopped being fun 
whyd you stare at me
i guess u should’ve run 
times out 
baby don’t u pout 
ur so pretty when ur dead 
i’ll lay ur corpse in my bed 

jesus fucking christ i have so much hate in my heart 
wish it would go away 
i didn’t want it from the start
i cant sleep 
i wish u were here 
it’s my fault 
that i fucked up 
i lost something that meant so much 
do u know what it’s like to live so numb 
wishing 4 death that shits so dumb 
i’d rather slit my wrists then fucking move on 


i didn’t learn my lesson 
everyday i wanna give up 
i hate looking at my phone 
i wanna hurt my self and upload that 
livestream my suicide bitch it’s cute 
i get closer and closer and nobody knows 
feeling like a psycho the way that it goes 
i’ll be gone soon i hope u know

livestream

livestream (kaneda7)

i want to smoke you like a cigarette

m1v - fashionista ft. luvwillow

m1v - old memories!

prod. 2broke
mixed, mastered. me

I got half a cig watch me throw it away 
I dont wanna speak so could you please move out my face 
There i watch your tears leak like my fucking brain 
I know your mama see me she can not look my way 

I dont wanna speak so bitch please move out my face 
I got half a cig lucky thats all it fucking takes 
I split half these tabs just to show you your disgrace 
Love my heart beating when it splits my fucking face 

Dont see you 
Dont need you 
No thanks, it just feels lethal 
Love bomb me 
You caught me 
No doubts my lifes not stable 

Tired of the feelings and im tired of the pain
Lost another one im going down the liquor lane
Oh dont call me up when u feel bad
U never cared when i text back
Just leave me on read
Its all forgiven 
dont care what we lacked
Its ironic all the bullshit texts
And the bullshit times

I got half a cig watch me throw it away 
I dont wanna speak so could you please move out my face 
There i watch your tears leak like my fucking brain 
I know your mama see me she can not look my way 

She says the wait is over 
I seal my fate unsobered 
For life thats not uncertain
Cough up my heart your burden
Yeah im fucking losing it, choke down beer till dead 
Loaded up no i'm not shooting, bottle up till red 
All that shitty talk was fed, cycles through my head 
Pull me on that tightrope string, no wait not too bad 

half a cig ft. m1v (clasdorse)

mastered by @d3rcore

you can look but u cant touch it
what u wanna do tonight
off my meds
i dont rlly give a fuck im feelin high
double cup in the club
ya u know that im that guy
feelin high omg what u wanna do tonight
i just wanna fuck u til u bleed
thats ur fucking welcome 2 the scene
suck my cock all on ur knees
u cant get away from me
baby i just wanna fuck
i been feeling so obscene

@d3rcore

I don’t give a fuck about these whores, but when you look at me
Oh my god I just wanna fuck, I’m gonna keep going until you scream
Me and Fab right in the club and we’re gonna go pop some molly
We are a private party, why you tryna go and fuck on me
Never spent money on no whores
Talking to them is like a chore
I’m like god damn, why is you looking at me, come on do the roar
I’m gonna kick you out the door, like I’m a sinner, make you sore
You know Fab is so up, cause we be stacking bread like it’s a score

do tonight :p + d3r (bloodpup)

included in Limit Breaker〈ΛDVENT〉XXII Tri-Allurcante（会場焼きコンピ22）.

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Starry-Starry-Night-Voyage.

“Neon Pulse” is a relentless surge of Hard Techno energy, built on pounding kicks, hypnotic loops, and the raw drive of industrial rhythm. It’s the heartbeat of a sleepless city — flashing lights, metallic echoes, and pure kinetic motion captured in sound.

Each track is engineered for the underground: cold, mechanical, and alive with electricity. From deep warehouse resonance to blinding strobe moments, Neon Pulse channels the power of the rave into one continuous, unbreakable rhythm.

This is techno in its purest, hardest form — minimal words, maximum impact, pure motion.

Don’t Stop Now

art https://www.instagram.com/drownlore
prod me & @creativeravine