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I feel dead already 🤞🏻✨

DEUPLOAD 2

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what’s wrong w me :/ [+fourteendaysxo]

produced by phixel
mixed/mastered by phixel
backing vocals by maeEXO
sample: https://soundcloud.com/snowblowerr/hillcore

notes: first song in two months! so very excited :D this is definitely one of my best songs, and its a long time in the making :) i started making this in june, and finished it around mid-august when i added maeEXOs vocals at the end of the song. some inspirations for this song include porter robinson, jane remover, blackwinterwells, and tons of others ^^ enjoy

lyrics:
i dont wanna die, i got so much to do
i promise i'll try, try out something new
don't wanna be scared of the whole wide world
scared to get my throat slit, scared to watch it unfold
(no one, there is no one)
(no one, there is no one)
(no one, there is no one)
(no one, there is no one)

[maeEXO: there is no one]

i feel like that baby bird that you saw dying on the ground
trying to scream and trying to cry but i can't do it out loud
and your friends all lied and told you i'd be worse if you helped
'well, the maggots got to eat too" is what you told yourself

tell me what you were thinking
have you no empathy? not a drop, not an inkling
if you wanna seem nice don't act like you hate me
it's really not difficult to see things and say things (say things)
tell me honestly, did you even feel a bit of pity on me
when you looked down at the ground and you saw me
i was vulnerable and i was sobbing

(no one, there is no one)
(no one, there is no one)
(no one, there is no one)
(no one, there is no one)

[maeEXO: no one, there is no one, no one, there is no one here]

the maggots need to eat too - Single

the maggots need to eat too

tmntet on all services

count yr blessings (wavypang)

die tonight

i hate you all so much

shattered

over me

COMPIALTION PROJECT WITH ME YAMEII LIL HARD DRIVE AND FRIENDS! i love you guys <3

monster! deko + m1v

under the tree

my best friend

NOTES: very long personal song about dysphoria and psychosis

produced by me
with samples from holidaykiss, synthesized through openai jukebox
written by me
mixed/mastered by me

lyrics:
i saw the eyes of god in the moon
they looked at me and right past you
so you didn't catch his eye
and you still claim that it wasn't real
i saw the blood of god in the dunes
the craters give off platinum fumes
from a wound so deep i'd die
and you still claim that it wasn't real

its all plastic
you dont seem to care
this isnt lasting
it breaks, it bends, it tears

(very large instrumental buildup)

I TRIED TO UPHOLD THE TRADITION I SWEAR
YOU THINK YOU HAVE IT HARD? THIS IS MY LOAD TO BEAR
THERES NOTHING FOR TRAITORS
THERES NOTHING FOR ME
ASHAMED OF THE PARASITIC STRANDS I MUST WEAR
THEYRE TAKEN TO BLADE BUT THEY JUST DONT SEEM TO CARE
THERES NOTHING FOR TRAITORS
THERES NOTHING FOR ME

there is nothing

visuals: https://youtu.be/qX8WTGlsFLY

tracklist:
[REDACTED] - clay figure
hikaru purpose - mercy for us all
seaplanes - breaking apart
tjweaver - tofu
sglilyy - oceans apart
crafter2011 - imposter sandwich
marshall - well what if i don't wanna do it right back, huh? what then?????
makina ft. evangeline - lifeline
canopie - baseball season
austyn with a y - this will surely put an end to my abuse of underscores acapellas
[REDACTED] - gentle heart
user-177606669 - CRazy TRACK GUYS LiSTEN RIGHT NOW OMG !!!!! SO cool.....
moemoemoe - house alt (part1)
[REDACTED] - fl chan loves 2 bounce (unreleased)
neco arc - neco arc

visuals

[REDACTED] live at USERFEST 2

wht r u doinb to me

THIS ACCOUNT ISN'T DEAD
FOLLOW @hoshiestar
FOLLOW @roninkys
FOLLOW @imxofilo

lyrics:
(hoshie)
I'm with my bros,
party packed, poppin molly with these hoes
she a freak she got white inside her nose
im  a star u can watch me strike a pose
you can see me over here
you can see over there
i dont give a fuck baby,
do you think that i would care
everybody stops and stares
they wonder what i fuckin wear
ima keep my mouth shut
because I don't really like to share

i don't like to share, i don't like to talk
mixing molly in the fuckin wock
and the neighbours, they callin' the cops
cause here, the party never stops

the party never stops
me and ronin smokin pot
this bitch givin top
cause she said she likes my songs
she a copy cat and i do what i want
she gon switch up but im a day one

(ronin)
i got fucked up off the drugs in her car
she kno that she love me she can see it in my scars
paparazzi onto me i dont kno where they are
but i cant give a fuck that's the life of a star


life of a star u wish u had that
toxic in my lungs need a hazmat
swear to god, name a thing that I'm bad at
I'm on top, u r not, understand that

u don't understand
that's y u cant come in
ill be swervin in a Benz
pop a molly with my friends
hope it never ends
i got molly i got Xans
if u wanna see me dance
better meet me in japan

hoshie star + ronin - STRIKE A POSE [prod. xofilo] *RARE 2K21*

searching.


prod + mastered + mixed by me


and i just wanna leave this place 
run away, change my name 
searching for the great escape 
watch me turn to kurt cobain 

take a shotgun, blow my brains 
we were never one in the same
i hear the whispering @ night 
i know that ur the one to blame…

one more month and i’ll be dead 
remember everything you said? 
drag the razor across my thighs
hurt myself to feel content 

he was just a lonely boy, she was a stupid fucking girl
she’s left alone in this world, alone in this world, i’m alone 

oh no, i’m dead now 
my wrist slashed in this decrepit house 
wanna be pretty, i watched her dance in her new dress
where will i go?

am i hellbound, or am i godsent?

Promise you won't miss me

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zSIoWVzdOZo

mv and coverby: buffalo bang
lyrics:

let me step out of this club
i just cant seem to get enough
got jack and NOCCO in my cup (s/o loveboy)
im rolling, tesla on my tongue
im holding down and coming up
im waiting for another one
u could be my #1 yea u could be my #1

my heart is on fire when im here, when youre there
we can dance, never tire without a fear, without a care

NOCCO and Jack in my heart, in my cup
not going back its too far to give up
its getting late and im all out of luck
pop me a pill & im falling in love

nocco (MV OUT NOW)

36Hours w/ tonser [+ sg37]

on ur mind [+tenoji]

@pressure666

it wasn’t meant to be 
now I don’t know what to do 
change my identity 
I can’t trust nobody 

are you with me or against me 
I think I know the answer 
and I rly thought ur special 
now it don’t even matter 

I’m still damaged after all

smile at me before u go
now I want you even more 
walk right past me take my soul 
now I don’t need it anymore 

oxy, Perky, love me or hate me