those days i need to cope

Keeping Me Numb

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Maesk

@qawikamri
both of my friends doesn't have soundcloud
buzzhead
mylo ping

Lyrics:-
QAWI KAMRI
i can't change my ways
demons in my brain 
im trapped in my own cage
always end up in pain

ice cold got the temperature dropping
my heart has a space but no feeling
i feel like my friends are slowly leaving
ive been searching for a meaning

my mum said get off the bed
i can't move a muscle i feel like im dead
well i got some shit inside my head
slowly fading i feel like im on some meds

useless, i feel useless all the time now
holding all my tears back, and you know now
fighting, ive been fighting for years now
no one even cares so i dont even try now

sorry, sorry for the love i can't give
sorry for the times i've wasted
sorry for all my mistakes
im sorry for everything

BUZZHEAD
I can turn down my voice
So just follow your fantasy
But I wouldn’t be me
If I keep on holding it

Let me show that i care
Show me that you fight fair
Stuck in my own nightmare
I need you but you’re not there

I dont wanna fight all night
I dont wanna cry all night
You say you’re alright, alright
Bitch i be alright, alright

MYLO PING
nauseate
nauseate
so much shit inside my head
in my wake
ive been tryna elevate 
prototype
ive been up tryna be great
no mistake
ah ah

i dont wanna miss her but  i can hear her calling
sorry for the way i am but i have never bothered
petty shit not caring sorry i misscalled and 
like my wraps around my racket whack it like its nothing

pull it back pull the strap on my ashaway
flick my wrist as i place it you can go away
in my back as a space for my short escape
nauseous i feel nauseous i dont wanna change

stuck in my own nightmare (feat. buzzhead, mylo ping)

<3
prod me

lyrics:

I try to pick the pieces up like I used to be able to.
I needa stop givin a fuck and honestly u do too
bc its pointless
this never ending fucking conflict its like poison to us
its killin us both and I cant fuckin wait to change
and face it on my own 
but u gon stay the same?
okay.. i guess I'm back alone

when my world turn grey 
I look for some answers 
and all that they say is 
come home

babe are u serious 
we cant hold a convo thats serious…
so distant 

what if I wake up and everyone hates well maybe they already do
cant help but tread past feelings I detached I feel a ghost sometimes 

“do u wanna talk about it?”
they treat me like bitch so I kinda highly doubt it.
I hope that all my brothers and girl dont flake cus im rly kinda fucked up and I cant find my place in this 

ghosttown 
I wish woulda knew what I know now
goin down
the spiral that im used to I know now

u told me u want me to stay away 
well maybe I will u 
cut my lips

cut my lips

spotify

cut my lips.

lyrics ⬇️ 

you mean nothing to me 
you mean nothing to me

one minute trippin 
next minute you know wassup
well you should speak up then
cuz I don’t do well with the drugs
I’ll fall down the stairs
and everyone knows you won’t pick me up
yea you do not care
i think our life better without us in love

cuz it’s not getting better if you do not get away from me
say I want you later but I cannot have your company 
look to check the weather app
but it’s gonna be raining
so what I’m saying
is I’m not waiting
around for anyone else to get with
i stand my ground well I hope that you keep ur distance
huge town
but I cant find no one to live with
move south
well that’s where I went ye a that’s where I live in

one minute trippin 
next minute chillin
what’s this abt
say I’m a villain 
well I’m in ya head and I’m in ya mouth

just listen the lights gettin low
for the mission
i don’t wanna speak 
when you don’t want attention 

might weep for my life get to wishin like
how can I tell what is real 
how can i tell what is fake
get out my face
cant catch a break or even a meal
like what is the deal they not fixin the wage
I been makin my plays 
every single day they going to waste
livin a lot make it harder to save
but don’t get it wrong I’m still makin a lane

yea no mission accomplished only assumption 
yea I need an accomplice but I got no options yea

you mean nothing (yunny goldz)

thanks for listening <3
prod by king theta

lyrics:
My life is a movie shot by Ari Aster
Hard to stay on script like an actor
Nothing really matters
What's the point when it ends in disaster
Theres no happy ever after
Cut! I need quiet on the set
Cause there'e a mother fucking riot in my head
I, I just wanna do my best
But honestly I don't know how much better it can get
I can't act right without direction
Every time I speak I hate every fucking sentence
I forgot to mention
I'm doing better that's a point of contention
I guess I never learned my lesson

Scratch that, I think we need another flashback
Way before I ever turned to a jackass
Doing good is something that I'm bad at
I'm a joke go ahead and cue the laugh track
Lights, camera, action
It fell apart before it ever happened
It's the story of my life and its tragic
Demons in my head and I'm trapped at the cabin

Close your eyes and count to ten
This is where the story ends
I'm all alone lost all my friends
There's whispers in my head again
I hear voices coming from the shadows
Saying that I'm worthless
Calling me an asshole
It's like I'm swimming up stream, no paddle
My life is a never ending battle

I feel like something's after me
I'm followed by catastrophe
I woke up from a nightmare nauseous
Now I hear noises coming from the closet
Life's like walking barefoot on a spiked floor
I'm just another point you added to your high score
My tongue's tied and you always seem to bite yours
My heart is racing and I hope it's on the right course
I only feel fear and loathing
Black hole my hearts imploding
It's hard to keep the camera rolling
Game over a new one's loading

Lights, camera, action
It fell apart before it ever happened
It's the story of my life and its tragic
Demons in my head and I'm trapped at the cabin
Scratch that, I think we need another flashback
Way before I ever turned to a jackass
Doing good is something that I'm bad at
I'm a joke go ahead and cue the laugh track

Close your eyes and count to ten
This is where the story ends
I'm all alone lost all my friends
There's whispers in my head again
I hear voices coming from the shadows
Saying that I'm worthless
Calling me an asshole
It's like I'm swimming up stream, no paddle
My life is a never ending battle

My life is a never ending battle
My life is a never ending battle
My life is a never ending battle

quiet on the set! (prod king theta)

Lyrics:
Man I know I'm getting older
I turned into a stoner
Hey dad I just be playing
Know you know I'm just a loner

I wonder where my life went
I put that shit on silent
The days keep passing by
Live my life behind my eyelids

I keep seeing prime examples of what I'm supposed to be
I worry everyday that I'll let down my family tree
I've been working night and day but I still wonder honestly
Is it even good enough and can I change my destiny

I'm staying up, I'm laying low
I'm in the stu, don't check my phone
Don't understand, the new world we know
Not as a part, but just as a whole

I feel left out, not gonna cap
All this new shit, don't keep up with that
I stick to myself, the loneliest fact
Life just goes on, you can't run it back

Man I know I'm getting older
I turned into a stoner
Hey dad I just be playing
Know you know I'm just a loner

I wonder where my life went
I put that shit on silent
The days keep passing by
Live my life behind my eyelids

I keep seeing prime examples of what I'm supposed to be
I worry everyday that I'll let down my family tree
I've been working night and day but I still wonder honestly
Is it even good enough and can I change my destiny

I will keep trying, just for the sake
Yes I will bend, but I will not break
Take a step back at the end of the day
But it's not even over, like give me a break

I don't agree with my fate, yuh
Chasing the money since day one
Still in this mess, I'm a late one

Getting Older

lyrics

its taken many rough seas to seize this place
its taken many slow curves to convert old ways

/

in my backbone era
the coldstone bearer
a held down thought 
fell to the earth a skin tearer

/

but have no fear
the withered souls here
with nothing more to lose 
expect prime care

/

holding on to fortunes that where whispered very cordial
he understands the torment that he’ll with take along with the torture
protect the castles heart with cobble walls from the mortars
or she’ll take with her the treasure to another land and youll have lost her

/

build untill the bones inside ur body start to break
and lose ur own longevity in the process of this pain
actions become second nature but it is not a cage
he freed himself within then started jotting on the page

/

heal your heart, don't wait
the torment begins now until your end days
put in the forefront b4 its too late
i hadn’t had a sweet tooth but ur the sweetest fucking cake

/

i want u in my youth oh
i want u in my old state
i try to hold the cool tone 
but i don't want u to decay

/

knowing u exist 
i might have to start to pray
i know ignorance bliss and thats just why i could never stay

/

its taken many rough seas to seize this place
its taken many slow curves to convert old ways

/

this is the best way I could have spend my life

if I step foot outside the gates 
then I will have to go fourth

castle drawn from bones

castle drawn from bones (empty roads)

lana del rey cover

lyrics

what is this hell
i feel the bells
fire and smoke
there's no one to tell

/

hole in the ground
who am I now 
just covered in dirt
can't leave this house

/

maybe u don't miss me but u changed me
loves just a picture in my fake teens
heart starts to tears up with nosebleeds
come to my stretcher and we'll live forever 

/

if u go ill stay 
if u come back ill be right here
like a barge at sea
in this storm I stay here

/

if u dance i'll dance
and if u dont ill dance anyway
give peace a chance
let the fear u have fall away 

/

go 
don't stay
this time 
you'll break 

/

its ok
ill be fine 
i'm water
and you're wine

we can live forever right here

we can live forever right here (empty roads)

lyrics

ill make the fire
u’ll create the place
i can tell that ur tired from those bags on ur face

/

but how many times do i gotta to say
that inside this realm, we cant relate
the creatures of deep have decided to stay
it’s impossible that things stay the same

/

in this light i see stripes
sparks flare then black and white

/

hey, know that u can talk to me 
tell me about all of those feelings, i forgot sorry
i didn’t choose to be wired with this honesty
so i’m not surprised when no on want to fucking talk to me 

/

if there’s divine please just give me a sign
i’m tipping like wine 
the clocks not ticking
where’s time?

/

what was aim 
burnt me to a grain
left me in the dark
but u think that fucking pain for me 

/

in my dreams 
i been stuck inside this wasteland as long as can be

/

open ur eyes 
for once in ur life
i’ve been stuck inside this wasteland all my life
oh god, a devil but deflects the spite
enough control to make anyone petrified 

/

oh god, oh god
i’ve been looking for signs in the stars
disect my ways don’t stop
theres no time to waste give me all ur thoughts

/

well what was the aim 
theres no time to waste
just show me the prints and ill keep u safe
i see in dreams
i had no choice to detest how i feel

/

hey, know that u can talk to me 
tell me about all of those feelings, i forgot sorry
i didn’t choose to be wired with this honesty
so i’m not surprised when no on want to fucking talk to me 

/

if there’s divine please just give me a sign
i’m tipping like wine 
the clocks not ticking
where’s time?

the point in time of no return (empty roads)

lyrics

i’ve been too cold to let it out
she was supposed to let me rot
i had fallen sick to the new reaping age
bunker and mold pushing out oh a functioning face (not)

/

circling back, all the way to 
when i would just run thru 
the unknown before i’d even have thought 
to just head straight for the gate

/

i’ve not feel the need since i’ve been back
to tell the tales of a broken man
starve in his eyes, dark undertone
scars cover lies, ‘coz he’ll just never fold

/

ive read the pages from, back to front
i can tell u im not the one
ill reaffirm that idk who put me here
asking daily, i live for what

/

my words will decay but rustic
is the outlook ill give, non toxic
know its not how u wish or wanted
but this is the way its fallen

/

experience made not chosen
i was someone at one point
all of the things you’re hoping 
are all of the things i’ve seen at one point

/

i told u to let me rot
just leave me in this one spot
but just like everyone who’s crossed path
they don’t listen to me when i sound sad

/

hear me out 
this is a message for those around 
ive carried this weight for century now 
dragging modern day with a heavy frown

/

ive escaped thru the gates 
id love to take u one day
time is essential to be great 
we all have our own pace

untold tales of a broken man

untold tales of a broken man (empty roads)

lyrics

dirt on my name
curses on my body
i’ve been casted many a time it’s turned in to a hobby

/

dust by the freight
ash all in the lobby
descriptive sentences u think mean nothing 
matter oddly

/

coz oh it’s the little thjngs
don’t pull no middle finger
we accosted how we feel jus coz we know we will never heal

/

it’s a modern world
we think like life is washed
skin home top of skin piling up on the sand 
just like moss

/

i've seen favours done with more grace
its so deceptive how we seal each others fate
but we can't wait, we can't wait uh too much on our plate uh
misunderstood the sign and now a sticks holding my face up

/

don't throw away the pitch forks
coz they still contain memories, don't alter it from the source

/

you don't have to fight against the force
we've created planes before just light another torch

curses that cross the bridge

curses that cross the bridge (empty roads)

lyrics

only looking this way when its sweet
i still only picture in smiles when u scream
just give me a little more time to think
‘coz these years they will go by in blinks

/

all of me she asks
“because it’s all of me”
half is whole in this realms u see
the future is the past held in dreams

/

prepare to lock all of the doors
that valued fortune’s not in store
could u tell me who that was before 
why am i peeling at the core

/

maybe through this missile i’ll find the answer to what u meant
held me in the present when the future wanted me dead
i’m flying
u too could be gliding

/

tamed me like a beast
put me on all fours 
im painting all these scenes 
and you’re guiding this course 
is this what is meant for me 
i’m missing me centre piece

/

im crumbling up these pages 
threw in the fire like its war
inside just like a mage inside my head its a decor 
i never was taught love before
i know that i’m not one for different stages

/

she told me about the world that we’d create, tranquility
the beauty was created and the price wasn’t free
ooo i grasp my sa-sanity
ooo these tapes just reaffirm that i’m free

/

talk to me 
let me preach
your actions speak your soul
just let me go

/

curled up in the bathroom from wounds i recall
applying pressure deep but it seeps through the holes
i foresee the future it seems
heart shaped crumbled up cookie getting strangled in my dreams

/

dreams are for the weak i’m building up stamina with this hope
it’s been like this from start to now i cant even comprehend cope
dumping all these hard covers with a mind infilled with quotes
‘coz i know the direction the wind is taking me is filled with snow

/

i think i’ll love you through this, no matter where the wind blows
i crumbled up these pages and my mind can not let go
oh these notes are for the ages and the stories will be told
you’ll be reading this at 68 just sitting on your throne

/

holding back the tears like it is acid to your bones
you put it all out for the world to see and now your all alone
you dreamt of that palace and now your left with stone
i hope that you’ll mange to live with this set and stone

brittle notes scattered along the hallways

brittle notes scattered along the hallways (empty roads)

lyrics

hold on, hold on by a thread
with the faintest of whispers you’ll learn to forget
love me, love me again
the world crumbles slowly but you soften the fret

/

minding my step with the way words are falling
crush me, my dreams and the things i love calling
my dearest companions in the darkest of matters
a seek i reward with the absurdist laughter

/

lately i’ve had less lately
more formed to one with the moments more date free
less on the fence i used breathing to save me
i found all of our gifts and the exploits, you might hate me

/

i want peace for us all
i feel when quite and calm
i close eyes and sense the close call
i could lose my breath in your arms

/

help me my dear i am falling to pieces
mend my body i’m ok with creases
i now know the future, just stay for the night
a day can last forever if done just right

/

minding my step with the way words are falling
crush me, my dreams and the things i love calling
my dearest companions in the darkest of matters
a seek i reward with the absurdist laughter

last line of defence

last line of defence (empty roads)

support: https://soundcloud.com/lilxlotus
very soon

revealing hope (ft. Lil Lotus)

Thank you all for the support you give

one of the bonus tracks off of 'Leaving Behind'

soon

among us, in silence

i wanted to cry, i wanted to die.

Featuring " https://soundcloud.com/deadroseofficial "

@prettyboywoe - heartbreak bandit 💔 feat. jack de vil (prod. @bruferrbeatz)

something fit for summer
support harvest: https://soundcloud.com/harvest
samples an old Caesura song I love ‘Say Hello’

free download

kms & harvest - clover field

(prod. shattered, bangss & ryan medina) 

i think it's time to let go
drive with my eyes closed
baby i don't wanna die
tell me imma be all right
cocaine nose
driving real slow
i don't give a fuck if you cry tonight

hope i die slow
in a car crash far from home
you can't stop what you've created
i am everything you hated
i know i'm not the best at everything
i'm trying really hard just to get you to finally see
you're pulling on my lungs and you're making it hard to breath
i'm going over 90 right into this fucking tree

everything stops when you say that it's over
i never wanted this
i just wanted some closure
you just wanted my clothes off
i just wanted your heart, 
but i fell too deep and now you want us apart

falling down on my bedroom floor
i dream of days where i don't have to feel anymore
im overwhelmed with emotions that i can't explain
i think im dying slowly every day i mask my pain

i think it's time to let go
drive with my eyes closed
baby i don't wanna die
tell me imma be all right
cocaine nose
driving real slow
i don't give a fuck if you cry tonight

you can take the wheel i got my eyes closed
wonder what the fuck goes on when my eyes close
night-time see you when the blinds close
every other days like the same it doesnt change

fall out
fall out i can hear you call out
from a far like a fallen star
gone so far
off of it
so im stuntin hard
and you get lost in it

caution to the wind
and often i find
that all my friends are coffins
gone and lost again so toss it
all your effort is forgotten

i think it's time to let go
drive with my eyes closed
baby i don't wanna die
tell me imma be all right
cocaine nose
driving real slow
i don't give a fuck if you cry tonight

driving with my eyes closed (ft. dylon bangss)

produced by @metlast
featuring at @ihatepromnight

https://soundcloud.com/lottaheart/broken-in-two
https://soundcloud.com/ihatepromnight/restart-prodmetlast


@lottaheart:
broken in two
but i keep falling for you
that's how i know that its true
you say you want me
i want you too

baby come with me
just take my hand
i can tell you really wanna dance
if only you could give me one more chance
cause you're the only one that understands me

as long as i have you i dont need no plan b
tell you i want you and you say that you want me
hold you so close when i'm feeling lonely
you're so sweet baby you remind me of candy

so sweet
you're so sweet whenever you're around
i want you to hold me down



@ihatepromnight:
yeah i'm back where i started
back to being broken hearted
never gave a fuck about myself
you think by now that i would try to find some help

self destructive-
type of person
my demons chase me,
they fucking lurking
i'm sick and tired-
of fucking hurting
will i ever be better than a burden?

yeah i'm back where i started
back to being broken hearted
never gave a fuck about myself
you think by now that i would try to find some help

broken in two + restart (ft. promnight) [metlast]

Lyrics and Vocals by: 7WOUNDS
Produced by: IOF
Mixed and Masterd by: Chris Freeman (XLHC)
Cover Art by: llogan

LINKS!!!
(Lyrics after links)


IOF: 

Youtube:
https://youtube.com/channel/UCDJbJhZuEFF8X-npl1tPUrQ 

Instagram:
https://instagram.com/prodbyiof 

Twitter:
https://twitter.com/prodbyiof 

Traktrain:
https://traktrain.com/iofbitch 

Beatstars:
https://prodbyiof.beatstars.com/ 

Soundcloud (MAIN):
https://soundcloud.app.goo.gl/ft4hb 

Soundcloud (BEATS):
https://soundcloud.app.goo.gl/acuye 

Spotify:
https://open.spotify.com/artist/0k1O56LBSBVbS4De1vBNDf



EXTRA LARGE HOLIDAY CARD
(CHRIS FREEMAN): 

Spotify:
https://open.spotify.com/artist/2jfvYlfqx5eA71jqycOYUe 

Apple Music:
https://music.apple.com/us/artist/extra-large-holiday-card/1518660359 

Soundcloud:
https://soundcloud.app.goo.gl/w825P 

Twitter:
https://twitter.com/XLHC_ 

Instagram:
https://instagram.com/xlhc_ 

Bandcamp:
https://extralargeholidaycard.bandcamp.com/ 

Youtube:
https://youtube.com/channel/UCAB2Cdde1j-T0I7gYzRei8w


LLOGAN: 

Spotify: 
https://open.spotify.com/artist/5M2q5W7zyrWRI3cmL4QTUy 

Apple Music:
https://music.apple.com/us/artist/llogan/1465207162 

Soundcloud:
@llogansux 

Instagram:
www.instagram.com/llogansux/ 

Twitter:
https://twitter.com/llogansux 

Bandcamp:
https://llogan.bandcamp.com/


ALSO LISTEN TO "HOT MULLIGAN"



Lyrics:

Not so fast
One more second is all I ask
Before you throw me away for good
How will I live
All I wanted was what you couldn't give
And I wouldn't ask even if you could 

Go away go away
No I just wanna talk to you but you won't hear me
I think I think
You wouldn't be acting like this if you knew how I see things
One more chance
Is all I ask from you
One more dance
Under the light of the moon

I Lost My Krabby Patty Gummy Under The Couch [Prod. IOF]

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