ophelia xoxo

Maesk

lyrics:

Our Safe guards Couldnt pull me in
The beams rot And I let them cave in
A fortnight Spent Behind these weathered gates
Worn hands slip the door and permeate the house
In my world its easier to suffocate
My eyes glaze my tired form emaciates
The warm dark birthed me to these cold parts
The birth marks Cover me on both arms 
If the horse dies then the foal does too
I don’t wanna ever live my life without you
Independence begs me to overlook truth so I do
Myself is a word I use around u
I just gotta a lot of pain in my chest woah woah
I cannot be like him but ill do my best woah woah
Lately I think I lost the fear of death woah woah
Baby I can’t be saved just save ur breath oh no

Don’t let them see u cry is what u said oh oh
I know that they’ll love me when im dead oh oh
Ion even wanna talk about the bad no oh
I like how it fuck me in my head oh oh
Blood drips from my nose
Stains bleed thru the snow
Its these nights they will never know

Take my body and feed it to the typhoon
Better than having say that strange goodbye soon
Baby I would never treat u same as u treated urself
I admire ur soul cause it is see thru
 late at night I drink and i fill myself up
Poison pours into my open mouth and I
Mean it when I say I miss how we was
This the game we chose to play with our love and I know
But Where’s your honour
I can see pain flow fast into her mold
So She left me cornered
But suffering like this bring me home that’s all that I know
As Toronto gets warmer 
I can come alive in a way that I never knew
Pour it up into my soda 
I started rolling up purple every time im feeling blue
Our Safe guards Couldnt pull me in
The beams rot And I let them cave in
A fortnight Spent Behind these weathered gates
Worn hands slip the door and permeate the house
and In my world its easier to suffocate
My eyes glaze the sweat on me evaporates
The warm dark birthed me to these cold parts
The birth marks Cover me on both arms 

Don’t let them see u cry is what u said oh oh
I know that they’ll love me when im dead oh oh
Ion even wanna talk about the bad no oh
I like how it fuck me in my head oh oh
Blood drips from my nose
Stains bleed thru the snow
Its these nights they will never know

these nights are urs (splashgvng)

talk 
i think we need talk
walk 
away from everything i wanted
its probably better if i dont mention this stuff
doesnt realiy matter ill be gon soon enough

im off
run away in to the forest
too late for peace of mind if i am honest
you may think that i am really lost
but age will never finish me and that i promise

waking up at 3
but not getting up until its dark again
nothing to do think ill head back to sleep
repeat and do it over again

i didnt even wanna make this song
but i forced myself its been so long
ive been keeping to myself way to much
it must be that i just miss home

i cant lie
suicide is on my mind
only one way to get it off
will i die
i dont know if its right
my morals might just be my demise

patience
they say take time to heal
wasted
right now dont know what is real
face it 
never wanna face what i feel
i think that i should let it out before i disappear

talk 
i think we need talk
i know that i owe it to you 
been thinking bout it a lot 
and i dont ever wanna lose what we got

you may think its just a song
you think i wanna write these lyrics you are wrong
i remember when this was shit was fucking fun
now i start a track and i cant get it done

this aint even just my therapy 
this is what is left of me
and im starting to fade
think im counting my days

say you want my voice to be more loud
but i dont have the energy
cant help but hope i made u proud
a sacrifice for the enemy

Started this track bout 2 hours ago and just finished it. The track speaks for itself I guess. Currently 6:40am :/ goodnight, thank you for listening.

talk (idealism)

//been using ur mæsk //

lyrics

chorus
she said i got high hopes high hopes for u
like do u even know who the fuck u talking to
but to let her down right now just dont feel possible
so when it all breaks down im sure ill feel responsible

verse
u wanna talk u wanna talk bout it to
me but i would never wanna do that to youuuuuuu
but youuuuuu choooooseeee
live in ignorance or blissful views

u got these skyscrapers 
and all these large mountains 
bet her hope for u is higher
but yet u still hav found ur fucking self

i been using ur mæsk 
i know it hurts when ur not the person that she thought she was after

hurts
i swear i say the same fucking shit inside of every single verse
it’ll either sound a lil different or a lil fucking worse
somebody please teach me to mix so i can make it fucking work
now she would reassure me that i should leave it how it is its fucking perfect

and that im worth it
I swear these days even sun filled days I feel so worthless
she made me feel like i had purpose
even tho i didn’t think there'd be that person

æltitude (rarrebear)

updated mastering by @ztope

my favourite creation thus far, hope u enjoy <3

lyrics

and when our arms touch
i lose a sense of space yeh im so starstruck
ohhh what have i lost 
the journey sacrifices everything that u lov

i wanna take off
the world awaits for me no i can’t stay long  
id fucking freeze death here out in all these cold months
move away from under the clouds before rain falls
oh dont u see oh dont u see 
i gotta take off

its not hard when uve been living in the dirt this whole time
“we should talk about this” but you’ll change my mind
u say the sky falls everytime i see u cry
now here we are, i understand if ur not on my side
 
know in ur arms oh ill be safe
but if i stay inside my comfort zone 
my mind will still escpape
so ill be on my way
no i dont expect u to wait
for me but sorry im off

when its blue its so blue wish i could tell u bout it
but when its dark wish i never was around if
u could see what ive become in climbing all these mountains
id be content with laying here so fucking helpless

and when are arms touch
i lose a sense of space yeh im so starstruck
ohhh what have i lost 
the journey sacrifices everything that u lov

will it be worth it
well i cant say that for sure
but ill be hurting
yeh i can say that and more
oh ill be surfing
the ups and downs down to the shore
its clear on surface 
but the pain it lays deep in the core

u slip u drown 
u won’t be found
out there there’s no help but yours

i tore my face
explored my taste
i change my ways
to get this far

its hard to leave now
tho its cold out
i wanna make my mark

please belive me when i say i still see ur face in the dark

and when are arms touch
i lose a sense of space yeh im so starstruck
ohhh what have i lost 
the journey sacrifices everything that u lov

and when are arms touch
i lose a sense of space yeh im so starstruck
ohhh what have i lost 
what have i lost

s p a c e (nevrfall)

single off my ep 'gust' that ill drop soon. ep prod by @wstdtimez and @secre_swallowtail

lyrics

i dont give a fuck if u talk loud
and i dont give a fuck where u at now
she been walking round like a rat
but im not playing games like its cat mouse

i dont giv fuck bout bout 
no i dont give a fuck bout ya 
i never did
i dont wanna talk to u well no shit
prolly shouldn’t blamed me uh for all of this

lifes hard so she wanna talk now
i got friends they told me that u talked down
on my name
and now she wanna restart
now
but she wanna talk down fuck nah

fuck love 
take drugs

switching up flows more than
u be switching up hoes
im with the same bros
be mindful
dont bring em over here
i only like toes

like i said she wanna talk now
that she low
coz ive been getting to the top 
while she froze
i did it from the start and now shows
u turned on all the lights but nobody’s home

shoutout wstd, coz now im on the floor
i can not take it any fucking more
i take fucking painkiller theyre too strong
she jus wanna take me outta my clothes

i don wanna talk why u tryna make me
my emotions going rampant i just hate it 

poor another cup of the same shit
poor another up coz im a lame bitch
but i dont wanna talk to u no
no fuck i dont wanna see u at all
keep coming with the lame shit
th fuck u wanna say snitch
write another song huh every fucking day bitch

distant (wstd)

remixed and mastered

lyrics

"why do u wish u went back?"
she told me that i only live in her past
im a castaway

now drowning in something so toxic 
i cant even comprehend, 
like what is this pain that im feeling?

swear its warmer in winter
i come back home
but this town is so tinted

wait 
im leaving soon but u just cant wait?
wait for me

i never said how i felt
so is this rlly love song
she said its ok now we older
still wish i told her

bae u look sad
u can cry on my shoulders

(I wish I told her "that I will always love you")
(I will always love you x 4)

and now u talk about the pain i caused
love is just a game im sure
they say its fun 
well no-one won
baby breaking down inside my heart

inte än
men jag kan inte vänta, 
män 
jag kommer altid elskar
jag kommer altid elskar dej

inte än (hateful)

what the hell am i supposed to be 
i open up and the world hurts me openly 
time soon to be up

told u not to follow me
baby go home tearing up like a broken leave uh

takin a stroll for the stress
up to the tree where i felt so much love

it doesnt get harder than this


baby again
why we playing these games
got my heart in a fram but u dont give fuck


i cant keep saying that we fine
she in th worst mood
but ive had enough of living in lies
makin her cry
i cannot refrain from making her cry
in for a rideeeee

baby oh girl i guess things never change she said the worst while im walking away

skipped winter…fall 
but now summer rain
not everything comes to those that will wait

she breaking down 
while im falling apart
guess we drifting the same 
we drifting to our fate 
it was all the same
but i still hope that ur heart will remain

pain when we talk 
and even more pain when i walk
knees shaking im fading like chalk
baby its over its over its over
need to taker cover the storm won’t be long
but im lost

sun almost gone
karma to face while my eyes in the dark
write till ive starved 
jot till im dead
how come i still regret everything i have said

över (hateful)

kän (hateful)

i don't wanna go
unfamiliar places make me scared
and i feel safe at home
always on the road
i've been so alone
even when you're right here by my side
it's like i'm on my own

how'd it get so late i lost control of time
all these fleeting moments tryna run my life
i can pay attention if i really try 
but 20 minutes later i'm inside my mind 
i've been anxious talking, typing, sticking to my word
everything i promise getting overheard
i'm aiming for perfection but i'm out of line
i refuse to trace an image and pretend it's mine

slipped, somewhere in my vision there's a dip
i can only see it when i trip
but the ice below my feet give me a lift
used to skate around when i was a kid but now i'm clipped 
all the energy lived
in amphetamine scripts 
and I thought that he'd never listen
don't know whether he did

and a brick don't swim
what i do when the ring's all melted
and the lights go dim
and it feel like no one helping
when really they is 
and it's just another part of me
that won the anti-lottery
I'll take my win

how'd it get so late i lost control of time
all these fleeting moments tryna run my life
i can pay attention if i really try 
but 20 minutes later i'm inside my mind 
i've been anxious talking, typing, sticking to my word
everything i promise getting overheard
i'm aiming for perfection but i'm out of line
i refuse to trace an image and pretend it's mine

i feel like i can see my whole life right in front of me
i try to make it right by bracing for my suffering x2

tracer (prod. illumikaze)

mix and master @ztope

lyrics

butterflys in ur heart
and i will take them to my grave
i am doing my part 
but i cant choose to be saved
we can worship the stars
time just stops where we lay
ive been delt all my cards 
and i am well out of my depth 
and deeper when pressing my scars

i can feel the pressure building
fast
push u out the way, theyre on
attack
in jeaporady when getting to
attatched
feeding on my bones until they 
snap

protect th silk casing like my worthless pulse depends on its
ur beaty will project to outside planes changing course of comets
im not what needs to be beside u in the end in fact far from it
i jus hope u can appreciate our final moments

ink is running out 
most likely my last few pages
everything battered and worn
theres not many too more stages
but i am yet to explore 
the deepest part of my core
but  this aint about me anymore
im happy to pass the torch, in this storm
im still warm, coz i can tell that ur changing ur formv

still one arm on this battle ship i steer
there are one too many waiting for us at the pier
it isnt fair
we’ve come so far 
it stops right here
now this ur part
i hope you’ll know that this is what i wanted dear

butterflies in ur heart (killedmyself)

trevor wong th goat 4 this 1

lyrics

deep breaths
holding my heart
blowing out smoke 
from the car
lov, abuse
ah
i cant tell these things apart

i tell her something 
she call me nothing
i take it lightly

i caught her bluffin
losing the trust and 
my mind follows timely

wait for the days
more than just likely

everyones so hateful
please just be grateful
can u for once be present 
i might not see u again

i might die today
i dont see no point at all
but then i c u ur face
and i don wanna lose it all
i read between the lines
try not to give it thought
know there’s more than 1 of me 
but i jus play it off
x2

more than one

>1. #040522 (trevor wong)

new music every week

mæsk
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