produced and mixed by brody
4EVER

[LYRICS]

Believin that I’m seein all these walls movin sideways
Maybe if I pop another klonop I’ll feel okay
Reflection stayin tainted with some flaws I hate my old face
Scrollin through the shit I said I wish that I could just erase (x2)

Where did you go and why did you leave?
You carved your name in my car with ease 
Rejecting Carr like a recall disease 
I’ve been making decisions I’ll regret next week
If the weddings in autumn, I hope that you freeze 
Cause lately you’re sin and I am the priest
You pray I’m ok, but you call out my name
Rest lies in your face who am I to blame 

Believin that I’m seein all these walls movin sideways
Maybe if I pop another klonop I’ll feel okay
Reflection stayin tainted with some flaws I hate my old face
Scrollin through the shit I said I wish that I could just erase (x2)

Myself from this planet being here caused me agony
Too scared to pull the trrigger kill myself inside a fantasy
Instead, wish you well when i’m dead, 
Blood scattered on my walls same walls that move sideways,
That’s my new wave, fuck all of the death,
hard drugs to get me thru the days
Fuck what i said, 
That shits old fashion to me now i think that i’ve had enough
Never really done a drug if imma keep it a buck,

Believin that I’m seein all these walls movin sideways
Maybe if I pop another klonop I’ll feel okay
Reflection stayin tainted with some flaws I hate my old face
Scrollin through the shit I said I wish that I could just erase (x2)

[outro]
Believin that I’m seein all these walls movin sideways
Maybe if I pop another klonop I’ll be okay
Reflection stayin tainted with the flaws I hate my old face
Scrollin through the shit I said I wish that I could just erase

Sideways feat. Ila (prod. brody)

Mixed/Mastered By Me & https://soundcloud.com/sakuradoves 
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Cover Art By https://soundcloud.com/vendilmz
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Produced By https://soundcloud.com/nevrfall
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[Lyrics]

(akiradoves)
you should know you disgust me way too much
oh dear i just think you should know 
i just miss you way too much 
you mistake me for someone i don't know
just take me away i just wanna disappear

so tell me why you stabbed me in my back 
you're acting like a little bitch don't know why
you ripped my heart i think i'm just a waste
i think it's about time that you let me go

(sakuradoves)
darling let me go im falling in the snow
i wonder if you know
how much i need you sleeping with me 
baby im so empty maybe they gon envy
when im going up with you now

yeah yeah yeah up with you now
come bring me out 
stuck in this crowd of the memories
from the past living 
fast have fun killing me

(akiradoves) 
i should of known that you'd leave me for him
oh i apologies for the things i did
i fumbled my words way too much 
i wanna be together forever

you should know you disgust me way too much
oh dear i just think you should know 
i just miss you way too much 
you mistake me for someone i don't know
just take me away i just wanna disappear

mistake w/ sakuradoves (nevrfall)

mix and master @ztope

lyrics

i await for call on death row my dear
i knew how this would end up in but still i steered
we crossed the bridge and now i can close my eyes without a constant fear 
they think th war is over but you will always be stuck in here

can’t u see the clouds are rising 
the fog is gone, my hearts still pounding
savour this, my gift, the present
the sky light blue and a moon so crescent

growing.evermore (killedmyself)

mix & master @ztope

lyrics

just leave me alone
over halfway down the street
babe  jus wanna go home

i get the feeling u vacant in every seat that take 
new conversation, the same shit
now all of this food is just tasteless

looking out in the distance 
i can still hear u say bye
jus reminiscing 
ig guess time flies
causing the dimming of light
dont make up ur mind till 
the fragments aline

just hold it there in place
warm the coldest state
forget th bigger pic
and lose a sense of space

no no no never no
eyes at the back of my head fully grown
but i cannot see the world fall to my toes

i never expected this
u never mentioned this
nods and sighs
we dont speak in sentences

cold, affection less
never questioning
stoped to care
but thats worse than ending it

“are u okay”
u “said i miss u” i turn to ur face
words to my grave
i won’t disclose what i felt that whole day
coz i thought u had changed

woah woah woah leverge woah
moved way too fast but ignoring th past yet if a meteorite crashed
yeh i think u would know
sometimes i wish and i hope
that, u would reciprocate this back 
theres a big a difference between a i miss u 
and my i love u so

no no no never no
get rid from ur rotation, playing it safe wasting time when we can move it the edge of the globe

dont wanna not live in this world but the walls are so thin 
no amount or brick or stone could make me suffice with this life
if ur not in the plans its a house not a home

never expected this
and now im crossing every bridge
burns behind me
there’s no way back to bliss

i hate myself 
so i read these passages
lock the safe
but they’re always cracking it

always go fast
but i never fasten it
if it hits hard please stop masking it
deep and buried 
always be asking it
surprised ive lasted this long

i always hated being sheltered
im not urs just give it up
i go to parties full of strangers
just to come thru and fuck it up
at least my music going good
but knowing me ill prolly fuck it up
tonight my head is feeling good
but of course i always drug it up

never expected this x8

th_inventor (killedmyself)

mix & master @ztope

lyrics

fish in a new port
soul in a new core
i cant contain what i feel in this cold heart

they wanna take 
all that im good for
i cant attain
what i need to just move forward

stoic to rest for my days
doesnt that just sound great

wasting away

wait for me 
ive been sitting so patiently
i cant help hear the darkest scream
im going, promise this world this world just aint made for me

uh yeah just for the moment
connect with me like we’re running components
i know how its hard how we go thru the motions and then act like the worlds gon get better, i know it i see u 
u just dont believe it, truth aint just words what u say has no meaning trust is just action still i cannot piece
im missing something but don’t think ill ever see it

th_stranger (killedmyself)

SoundCloud struck the original and denied my claim even though i own a lease. so here's the song unmonetized. sorry for the delay.
"lifefuckinhatesme" track 1.
prod. metlast and 5head

lyrics:
i been tryin my whole life
to figure sumn out
but nothin ever goes right
and i thought i was gonna be okay
when you came into my life
but now you're gone
and im pretty sure its my fault
guess you couldnt handle me after all?
and i swear to god this is the last time
cuz all this bullshit weighing down on my mind

its weighing down and its been so fucking long
since i felt okay
im running out of things to say
feelin so fucked up every day

and it never seems like i can ever figure out
wtf is going on inside my mind
but im trying, believe me im trying
but i swear to god it seems like
they're always lyin
so idk why i keep on tryin
i just wanna let it go
and ion really know
why nowhere feels like home

i just wanna go, but nowhere feels like home
i been feelin so fucked up
feelin so alone
i just wish that there was somewhere that i could fuckin go
guess ill just settle for another night stoned...

Spotify

myfault. [+metlast & 5head]

hope u like it

piano cover:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=27U0oAREUA4

navy blue - tssf cover

find solace <3

mix & mastr by me 😱

lyrics

wear your heart out on ur sleeve now that ur bleeding out
there’s a lot more u will see now that ur leaving town
pressing screens, live like feins i can’t tell u everything but what u hear u gotta scream it loud

nearly accepted what i preach but do u mean it now
there’s not a lot more i can teach with that defeated frown
i can sense a force that’s tense and did i mention still affection coz the trees that we grew from weren’t from different ground

baby i’m tryna ‘scape reality 
coz maybe this life we live ain’t what it seem
ur point of view is something i’d love to believe
but when you’ve lived inside this hole so long it’d hurt even looking up to see

now
feel the breeze now 
and trees now
hear the voices speak now

i’m sorry for my point of view and i can take it back
and i’ll try help with all the damage that i caused but that
isn’t a promise i’m just not one to hold my word when the futures as uncertain as my mental (verge on the collapse)

and if i’m honest
we’re living in a lodge amidst a fire in th forest
it’s in ur gut so save urself before it’s too late i’m sure ur prolly sick of hearing all this logic
im sick cant stop it
lets change the fucking topic

fire in th_forest (yasuma)

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