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crash (jolst)

CHORUS:

my eyes roll back
the skies fade to black
nothing stays the same
and i wish it wouldn’t change
the clouds are looking gray
as my colors fade away
and i cant tell what’s real and what is not
anymore
my life’s becoming a chore

VERSE:

(becoming a chore)

b-been wasting my time 
trying to find
happiness in that
that don’t feel right
how might i
survive this tragic life

(how might i survive)

i wake up and complain 
about the day 
before it’s even begun 
am i the only one
that feels this way
i cant look at my own face

BRIDGE:

to bare witness to face the facts that i just go on living the same boring shit… i cant fuckin do this


CHORUS:

my eyes roll back
the skies fade to black
nothing stays the same
and i wish it wouldn’t change
the clouds are looking gray
as my colors fade away
and i cant tell what’s real and what is not
anymore
my life’s becoming a chore

my life's becoming a chore (metlast)

produced and mixed by brody
4EVER

[LYRICS]

Believin that I’m seein all these walls movin sideways
Maybe if I pop another klonop I’ll feel okay
Reflection stayin tainted with some flaws I hate my old face
Scrollin through the shit I said I wish that I could just erase (x2)

Where did you go and why did you leave?
You carved your name in my car with ease 
Rejecting Carr like a recall disease 
I’ve been making decisions I’ll regret next week
If the weddings in autumn, I hope that you freeze 
Cause lately you’re sin and I am the priest
You pray I’m ok, but you call out my name
Rest lies in your face who am I to blame 

Believin that I’m seein all these walls movin sideways
Maybe if I pop another klonop I’ll feel okay
Reflection stayin tainted with some flaws I hate my old face
Scrollin through the shit I said I wish that I could just erase (x2)

Myself from this planet being here caused me agony
Too scared to pull the trrigger kill myself inside a fantasy
Instead, wish you well when i’m dead, 
Blood scattered on my walls same walls that move sideways,
That’s my new wave, fuck all of the death,
hard drugs to get me thru the days
Fuck what i said, 
That shits old fashion to me now i think that i’ve had enough
Never really done a drug if imma keep it a buck,

Believin that I’m seein all these walls movin sideways
Maybe if I pop another klonop I’ll feel okay
Reflection stayin tainted with some flaws I hate my old face
Scrollin through the shit I said I wish that I could just erase (x2)

[outro]
Believin that I’m seein all these walls movin sideways
Maybe if I pop another klonop I’ll be okay
Reflection stayin tainted with the flaws I hate my old face
Scrollin through the shit I said I wish that I could just erase

Sideways feat. Ila (prod. brody)

both beats prod neverforever and audio clip from the big lez show (sassy)

lyrics

never get bored of this scent, yet its far from my first
put the gun between my eyes and do your worst
im breathing still, feeling im used to i forget what is real
let me tell you the deal
when hearts are involved it is more than to steal

its just a phase its just a phase ok
choosing my mood and my thoughts
im gonna start today

you were the one for me 
but your not the one for me no more
im talking bout trust you see?
it only takes once for me draw the line

ill see you again in time 
even if theres no other life

sassy mumbo jumbo

beat switch

i cant help but feel somethings missing
black and white still cant distinguish
she communicates only in scriptures
i cant decipher her wishes

she saw th blood on the carpet 
eyes grow so bright in this darkness
they point like a laser to my heart
halfway through untill im unarmed

a burning sensation in my lungs
i breathe all of this poison at once 
the words that follow break down her walls
were not so different at all

beyond / we arent so dif at all (neverforever)

mix & master @ztope

lyrics

just leave me alone
over halfway down the street
babe  jus wanna go home

i get the feeling u vacant in every seat that take 
new conversation, the same shit
now all of this food is just tasteless

looking out in the distance 
i can still hear u say bye
jus reminiscing 
ig guess time flies
causing the dimming of light
dont make up ur mind till 
the fragments aline

just hold it there in place
warm the coldest state
forget th bigger pic
and lose a sense of space

no no no never no
eyes at the back of my head fully grown
but i cannot see the world fall to my toes

i never expected this
u never mentioned this
nods and sighs
we dont speak in sentences

cold, affection less
never questioning
stoped to care
but thats worse than ending it

“are u okay”
u “said i miss u” i turn to ur face
words to my grave
i won’t disclose what i felt that whole day
coz i thought u had changed

woah woah woah leverge woah
moved way too fast but ignoring th past yet if a meteorite crashed
yeh i think u would know
sometimes i wish and i hope
that, u would reciprocate this back 
theres a big a difference between a i miss u 
and my i love u so

no no no never no
get rid from ur rotation, playing it safe wasting time when we can move it the edge of the globe

dont wanna not live in this world but the walls are so thin 
no amount or brick or stone could make me suffice with this life
if ur not in the plans its a house not a home

never expected this
and now im crossing every bridge
burns behind me
there’s no way back to bliss

i hate myself 
so i read these passages
lock the safe
but they’re always cracking it

always go fast
but i never fasten it
if it hits hard please stop masking it
deep and buried 
always be asking it
surprised ive lasted this long

i always hated being sheltered
im not urs just give it up
i go to parties full of strangers
just to come thru and fuck it up
at least my music going good
but knowing me ill prolly fuck it up
tonight my head is feeling good
but of course i always drug it up

never expected this x8

th_inventor (killedmyself)

mix & master @ztope

lyrics

fish in a new port
soul in a new core
i cant contain what i feel in this cold heart

they wanna take 
all that im good for
i cant attain
what i need to just move forward

stoic to rest for my days
doesnt that just sound great

wasting away

wait for me 
ive been sitting so patiently
i cant help hear the darkest scream
im going, promise this world this world just aint made for me

uh yeah just for the moment
connect with me like we’re running components
i know how its hard how we go thru the motions and then act like the worlds gon get better, i know it i see u 
u just dont believe it, truth aint just words what u say has no meaning trust is just action still i cannot piece
im missing something but don’t think ill ever see it

th_stranger (killedmyself)

hope u like it

piano cover:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=27U0oAREUA4

navy blue - tssf cover

pessimism (prod. swaine)

whts the prblem if im dead asl
everybody tries to be me i js wish em well
everybody knows i fell so deep inside this wishing well
if you lived with what i lived with youd wish you was in hell
yeah im on my chronyc shit im smoking on my toxic shit
its hard as fuck to gts cus im paranoid
sleep on my baretta cus i mean business
dont sleep on my bayonetta i mean business  
huh i cant even love rn im on another planet
sry if im rough i really didnt plan it
its really fuckin hard to not get up and 
get up
stop settling
and, "oh yeah, i owe you"
yeah u fuckin do
last week u stole my kid like wht the fuck it do?
thought u were my bro
thought were my brother
thought u were my blood
thought u were my one 
to hold onto when everything is fucking shit
when it goes dark when the lights turn out and i cannot see the spark
when i cant lie no more
when i cant breathe no more
when i cant stand more
when i pass out and im damn near dead but i really couldnt care no more
ive given up my body's laying on your floor
do whatever you want to me cause i just cant fight no more
i feel like i should feel bad but i dont know why or how yeah
and i cant get turned on, cus..


hey, dork
posted with a toy
you be shootin bbs 
i be smoking real joints
ion even see u as a person rn
i see u as a monster and its freaking me out
ay
the voices in my 
the demons in my
like to talk, i hear tapping n scratching on the wall
i shouldnt say that
ill drive a maybach.

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