sad ah ah playlist

Prod. Greenwood

LFDF Pt. 2

haha

my favs

@pekarot

i've got a wound on my chest
talk to me soon before theres nothing left
i promise that ill be gone soon
dont come stay in my bed
you talk for hours and i live with dread
you know what ur supposed to do, 
i dont want you close to me
gripping your fucking heart all that is meant be

eyes so pretty i need them right next to me
cant believe i said that omg admit defeat
question why i'm leaving and i dont post you on my feed
you dont either i wish that u did for me
pull on that lever, open up the gin bottle
let it go let ur legs wobble,
let your head go to the rubble,
let ur neck go ima struggle
let your chest go till he go home
if you talk to him hes trouble
if you love youd swallow my heart 
 
yeah

i've got a wound on my chest
talk to me soon before theres nothing left
i promise that ill be gone soon
dont come stay in my bed
you talk for hours and i live with dread
you know what ur supposed to do, 
i dont want you close to me
gripping your fucking heart all that is meant be

wound

acey ii
stuck inside my hollow frame
nothing ever felt the same
doing ur damage to my brain
loves a lie man its insane

if u cared now u would stay
are u scared now, what i say
u want this war how, in my face
loves is a lie man i fucking hate
everything we had cos its all at stake 
u play the victim on our last day
say if you love then, then u shud stay
even thru the hardest to help their brain

know where their heart is
never help them through the hardest
u know right where their heart is
get back no im cumming for this

if u cared now u would stay
are u scared now, what i say
u want this war how, in my face
loves is a lie man i fucking hate

love is a lie man
get out my face
dont wanna die yet
get out my face
am i even alive yet
to be replaced
u can see in the soil, fuck ur face

this is the end
that i been waiting for
ur the only one
that ill ever adore
now ur gone
ur in my song
giving me torment after torment
think im lost dont know where my door went
find a new path without this pain
find a new man to push ur blame

if u cared now u would stay
are u scared now, what i say
u want this war how, in my face
loves is a lie man i fucking hate

this is the end

w @xona

produced by sleepwater speedlmt leftquiet and xona

lyrics

i needed some revenge
but i dont wanna vent
can you hear me now
its hurting my head
stop shutting me down
you were half of me wow
but now your not here
i need a way out
u were liquid to me
maybe mixed w some sea
but now she is flying
i wanna retreat
guard my heart
while u stand
from the mill
its feeling far
when u tell me its real
how could i move on when
i dont even want to
ill let this go on
cos i dont know how to
miss you
another song where
i vent bout my issues
waitings long come rip
out my tissues
im so selfish
everyones got traumas
im not speaking can u let me follow her
do i need therapy or pills in my fucking head
my life expectancy
cheers for all this fucking stress

im escaping every night my fucking hed
pls dont aim in
counting on my fucking hed
collecting all my fucking debt
pounding hard right out my chest
guess im sleeping thats a flex
lets skip eating and have sex
what are you eating guess thats bread
what are you doing no no
who are you with now
its how it spread
would u even like me
cant u tell that im trying
oh pls just like me
i swear that im crying

xona
i thought i need to go and let loose of me
but I’m stuck inside where the sun don’t seep
so i just watch along as the days runs deep
and i got my tea in hand so I’m calm for the least
and i don’t know, who i could be
i feel alone, when there’s others around me
i can’t cope, you know it better than me
to let it go but I’m the worst you could be
to go back home
where I could find a home cause I feel alone
falling, dying right here for you

oh i dont wanna talk
im ruined

ruined w/xona

introduction
prod/ft my good friend @greenwood2000
<3

lyrics:
something was stolen
something i borrowed
must’ve been open
must’ve been hollow
& open progression
is nothing but awful
i trample my thoughts
till they’re tougher to swallow

its passion that kills you,
the nerve’s gonna drive you insane
i can’t stand to look back
when the only thing there is your name
i took this as a loss
when i should’ve been counting the days
its a wish on a star
you’re the one thing that’s keeping me sane
i’m losing this game
when you’re learning to lose
well, the world isn’t spinning the same

greenwood:
I put some distance out into the worlds
And I never trip about the way that it hurts
And I think they buried me deep in the dirt
But trust me, and trust me it still could get worse

Seventeen years in a hospital bed 
And they treat me different I know what it is
And it'd take a year to explain what it did
When I got a phantom inside of my limbs

Closed down, held over
And I found the worst way to tell you
And I couldn't leave but I'd let you
And tell me you think I'll be dead soon

Held down, I'm closer
And I found the best way to end it
And I didn't sleep just pretended
And fucked up my life like your friends said

its passion that kills you,
the nerve’s gonna drive you insane
(cant take back what i said, 
im the one you can blame)
i can’t stand to look back
when the only thing there is your name
(not the man in your heart,
he had went with the pain)
i took this as a loss
when i should’ve been counting the days
(its a pattern i keep,
wish i’d throw it away)
its a wish on a star
you’re the one thing that’s keeping me sane
(i know its too late)
i’m losing this game
when you’re learning to lose
well, the world isn’t spinning the same

learning to lose

learning to lose w/ greenwood

spotify & apple music!

new lil piano ballad w my goat @greenwood2002
hope u enjoy <3

lyrics:
if i told you what it felt like to me
you’d be scared too
cause in the matter of a past light, for me
this is brand new
paint the ashes on the sunrise
cause i can’t stand to watch the moonlight hitting you
i’m in trouble but i’m alright, i think
long as i got you

if it’s sudden i’m sorry
my words aren’t working quite yet
it’s been a while since
i’ve felt, nothing less
than a miracle both of us met 
in the depths of it all

i probably needed a warning
but life only gives one chance, i know
you’re scared, i get it, i’m sorry
maybe it would be best if i took you home

cause if i told you what it felt like to me
you’d be scared too
and i don’t care about a past light, i think
i just want you
paint the ashes on the sunrise
cause i can’t stand to watch the moonlight hitting you
i’m in trouble but i’m alright, i think
long as i got you

long as i got you

long as i got you [greenwood]

apple n spotify <3

lyrics ⬇️ :))).    PROD GREENWOOD.

talk to myself on the daily
Switch up my mood got me shaking
you swore it’s the truth never makin sense
i wish u could call you my baby
But lately
you and I have both been failing
you never used to talk to my friends like that
now everywhere I go I gotta watch my back
look at my surroundings 
I think they’re approaching
now they gotta bounty on me
Idc low care
I’m not one to run away so you gon have to face me
maybe there’s another day where you will get to play me
or play me not
If you watch me rot away will I be worth a shot
Prolly not because I change every day when your gone
so let’s be honest 
you been breakin me down
you left a promise but there was nothing found

decks 🐐

i broke a promise to ya honestly i never thought
that it would change everything that i thought i knew and i
fought the battle but the war was too much all along
i still remember all those nights out on the promenade
and i wish that i could take it all back
i see the message in the pitch black
never good, its always bad, how do you live like that?
several months and now you're asking for a little back

greenwood 🐐

two weeks could you call back?
looking outside of the pain but it's all that
i don't want hope cause i'm holding it so bad
just to find out in the end that it don't last
don't ask questions i don't want new friends
got old ones but they pretend
so i'm paranoid for the weekend
might disappear just to free them, fuck

slow burn surrounding it
with a subtle breath i'm wearing thin these days
suddenly so attached
up in the place i'm at
summer had come so fast
wanted to stop so bad

play me, or play me not w/ decks & greenwood

this 1 means a lot to me 

thank u to @greenwood2000 for the amazing production

lyrics

help me out on the top of this promenade
i wish i could pray 
i got things to say

shes on my mind and im jus grabbing by the waist
people wanna play
they jus playing it safe

love me hard and it'll all be ok
i jus want you to know that. i still have faith

clocks ticking coz ion know where is home
she told me about those nights
this time im prepping all alone

weeks
go by like nothing
im on time but minds still rushing
then i find vices. i wish that i wasnt
drawn in deep. like a love u cant stomach

beats 
my heart still beats
i found heart in the midst of the trees
i spent time in the dark on the east 
then it all made sense with what u said on the beach

life goes where you reach 
and they know when you teach
its all in ur hands. theres no turning back

jump forward 5 and you’ll drop all the pieces
my route’s more important than yours. we’re jus creatures
my youth was alined in this unfortunate manner
we are an equal but in my world u matter more

crossed paths now im just crossed on saturn
lungs dust. could this get any badder
but im still locked till im not. not about her
coz im still lost just need natural laughter

my hearts in monaco x8

i been out of the way for a few years
it is not many times on a new years 
i feel how i do with just 2 peers
life tends to move with or without ur cruel tears

i see ur vision and i tend to lose fears
holding the past like a grudge. its just you here
ima forget all the rest with a true stair
deep in ur eyes lays the pain that ill chew. dear

wishing
no point listing 
i have the script im a man on a mission
actions over the words so i get pissed when
u do what i tell u hurts. would u listen?

im so great but u think thats what im thinking
ice cold soul in a summer, just hinting
i have a voice now. i wish that didnt 
a pawn away from a crowd will stay drinking

loves hard can we go by the sea
traces of myself off in the deep
we dont have to gloss over the painting
just lay down and lets fall asleep

a harsh truth for a thing that kind
hard news for being who wont not try
i tell the tales of a figure in the night sky
and what i see is it lasting a lifetime

this world i know
im sorry its so cold 
forgive me im so cold
but its just all i know

i feel were tying souls
my hearts in monaco
our love forever grows 
and you'll forever glow

monaco

monaco (greenwood)

Stream "know a thing" by @heylog (prod. @irby314)
https://streamlink.to/knowathing-heylog

Lyrics:
i don't wanna heal myself again
no, i don't need to miss you like i did
promised recently i'd hit decline
but i couldn't do it this one time

i don't know why i can't
feel anything or understand
feel anything or understand
i don't know why i can't
feel anything or understand
do i even give a damn
do i even give a damn

every night i wake up in a sweat
every single word you ever said
come together without feeling harm
quickly run to you with open arms

can't believe i'm doing this again
it's been so long so like, how you been?
they don't even know a thing or two
they know more about me than 'bout you

i don't know why i can't
feel anything or understand
i don't know why i can't
feel anything or understand
i don't know why i can't
feel anything or understand

do i even give a damn
do i even give a damn

heylog - know a thing (irby)

self doubt* w/ wulfparkwhite [jesse brown]

Ifellinlovewithyouractions

5 New songs to add on to my project Life of The Party<333

Nowhere (Ft. Never Better) [Prod. Living Puff]

DANCING WITH U (Prod. Klimlords)

love yall, i got another song coming out next week aswell!!

lyrics:
missing all the times when you were right here
I'm lost in my mind yeah I can't see clear
weight up in my mind but I know im 'bout to blow
enemies they lost but I know im in the snow
rewind reset gotta take it back
I know feelings start to fade but I don't dwell on that
whats this life? yeah I'm feeling so empty
lost soul but theres I know theres plenty
tired of looking for someone to save me
told myself that everyone hates me
yeah but I've been looking at the bright side
dawnblade posted up in the nighttime 
yeah tamagotchi on my wastline
squad landing in yeah we on the frontlines
chase world I'm just looking for the good vibes
pants dior thrift store thats a good find
ride or die till I know its the end of the world
I'm surrounded by all this love I got diamonds and pearls
I miss the times when you were right here
too gone yeah I can't see clear

Dawnblade

'into the wind' produced by heylog

lyrics:
on my last little bit of breath
will i make it to the final stretch
but the wind has something for me instead
bones break and every single muscle group
feels torn apart, skin is turning blue
and i cannot comprehend on what hurts
seems like i did a little bit too much
pushing my limits way too far above
way too far above
the wind before winter is like getting punched
and i ain't got any spit left under my tongue
under my tongue
the wind blows on a tuesday
do you think we'll make it, what do you say
i've been away from home now for a few days
and it got to living like i'm in a new age
standing in the wind, i know it's cold out
2 somethin the morning, it's a ghost town
conscious telling me i should probably go now
cause as soon as the wind stops there ain't no sound

this ain't nothing light and nothing small or subtle breeze
just shows how much force the wind can put resist on me
run i'm almost there, i'm so so close, aheads the fin
head down, forward movement, running straight into the wind
into the wind, into the wind

spotify

into the wind

huge thanks to evergarden for being on this!
produced by michael harrison
**lyrics**
(me)
I still go back to that Autumn night
I lost my judgement in your eyes
You said I need you right here
Now I know it wasn't genuine, I'm masking up my fears

Not gon' lie I thought you were my only friend :/
Am I supposed to sit and watch it all go to waste?
You got a little rent free spot in my head
Chalk mark memories weathered in my brain...

(evergarden)
Withering beside the willow
Watch you lay to waste
I'm so hollow
How can I say in simple terms?
Hard to put this feeling into words...

(me)
It's okay to say goodbye
Maybe you can find your peace
I'll just let this feeling die
I don't know what I need

need w/ evergarden (michael harrison)

forgo the movie sample. lol
song 01 in a lil @greenwood2000 project <3

Lyrics

Me time
Giving up myself, got a weak spine
That’s just what was given, she a freak mind
And it’s setting me ablaze Im just sleep dying

Besides you, who do I trust
Look at my view, its turning to dust
Only us 2 when it turns dusk
And now I'm just starting to rust

She can tear inside my mind on a Monday disguised
As someone I want in my life
Think the coast is clear on the east side
Water is so clear, I cant decide

No guts, so cruel
Tonights type a night were you stay in the cool
No more no more, you can take it like no more
While she’s waiting for you

Pink clouds to a world turning grey
Baby its dark but that don't mean it's the same
No words we just chopping up pain
Till the things that we feel are are unable again

You are where you are, there's no fooling love
You see who you see and you form to 1
No percent shy, or you’ll be dancing on your grave under the moonlight

Hug first
Don't lie, it hurts
My weakness the worst
I just lay here in my search

Brains breathing again, who I was can't recall
Recollecting the thoughts of us both, no control
Memory loss so severe, when I lean I just fall

I’m healthy to cope, with my understanding
I’ll have u know, U don’t consume what I’m fasting
Holding me close, knowing I’ll manage
The places it drives us is well above standard

Standard, I’m still a human, I manage
Passage, I took that route soon I’ll vanish
Dashes, decipher the message
Don’t and see flashes

White lights flashing
Dancing inside these mansions
Holding the gates, still seeking the passion
Meshing 2 worlds still protecting masses

Baby its me inside these cold walls
I'm struggling to catch my fall
Severe pain, severe shock
Still trying to play with my feet stuck

Darling I’m stressed
I’m losing my mind I just need time to rest
Yes, darling I’m not feeling the best
Darling I think I’m depressed
Darling I’m loving you less
When my hearts starts to waiver my whole view is a mess

Where is my heart set?
What if we never met?

the severe shock as described in the extract

severe (greenwood)

cedar street w/ evergarden

lyrics

now she starting to see me in a different light
and u act like u dont need me and it get me tight
ill make u a song if u give me time
and she gonna fall in love if the feelings right
pitch black skies blanket street lights
yesterday i grew wings and today ill fly
all the snakes in her hair will leave me petrified
baby its just me and u until we die

i put a jacket on
this room feel like an igloo in the winter
she make it even colder when she starting pointing fingers
baby i know, im so fucked up im a drinker
but i can make some pretty lyrics im a thinker

got me chilling up in the studio ripping blinkers
think back to the nights when we would blow out all our speakers
if none of that really ever met that much its unfortunate to say that im a tweaker
got me tripping out like you dont really mean that
miss when we would hit the mall
and we would pop tags
knew you wouldnt take the fall
so i took a step back
go ahead and try to call
but i wont hit back
you cant brush this off cuz you know that i live in doubt
you knew what the cost was when i didnt allow
ive been so exhausted
got me in a drought
make me blossom whenever youre around
passing options every night in town
that cautious laughter doesnt make me feel proud
wish that we could feel right
wish she saw a different light

now she starting to see me in a different light
and u act like u dont need me and it get me tight
ill make u a song if u give me time
and she gonna fall in love if the feelings right
pitch black skies blanket street lights
yesterday i grew wings and today ill fly
all the snakes in her hair will leave me petrified
baby its just me and u until we die

aurora borealis in the sky i would still prefer to look in your eyes
you havent called my phone in a minute bet youll blow it up the day that i die
thinking that you hate me so i dont reply
and when they put me six feet, would you cry
i guess i wont find out there'll be dirt in my eyes
baby hurry up and tell me what you want
and dont you give me that little look you do when you wanna fuck
cliche but all i wanna do is smoke a blunt
you dont understand how this shit helps me
breathe it in and breathe it out
i know its not healthy
without it im geeking out
its been a while since we fell out
but im still fiending now
man i fucking hate my heart wish i could tear it out

now she starting to see me in a different light
and u act like u dont need me and it get me tight
ill make u a song if u give me time
and she gonna fall in love if the feelings right
pitch black skies blanket street lights
yesterday i grew wings and today ill fly
all the snakes in her hair will leave me petrified
baby its just me and u until we die

petrified! w/ brecken & kiddamo (p. nevrfall)

prod. jkei

lyrics:

u push me back and that's okay
u wake up every morning just to shit on my whole day
said, uh, i'm tryna change could u let me?
(i empty the pockets of my heart until it's empty)

i can see ur tears freeze it's like twenty four below
i feel icicles like glaciers forming quick from out my nose
i hate to watch u bleeding out like grenadine in snow
it's too late to say i'm sorry baby, that's just how it goes

when u coming home?
i caught u breaking in the cabin after close
i seen like fifty people calling baby please put down the phone
i don't know quite where to go i'm not cut out to be alone

drag me thru the woods by my feet
she’ll complain about the cutting if the line work isn't clean
i got bugs inside my stomach they are stuck inside of me
i feel warm beneath this snow bc my denim's lined with fleece 

she said
"u will get what u deserve, i've watched u regress"
she pushed me down into the water i feel seasick
i'm so seasoned with this suffering i need it
need u to tell me that u hate me while i'm bleeding

(oh wait, it's all in your head)

i can see ur tears freeze it's like twenty four below
i feel icicles like glaciers forming quick from out my nose
i hate to watch u bleeding out like grenadine in snow
it's too late to say i'm sorry baby, that's just how it goes

when u coming home?
i caught u breaking in the cabin after close
i seen like fifty people calling baby please put down the phone
i don't know quite where to go i'm not cut out to be alone

24below

24below (jkei)

Vails & The sound clown “immune to success” 
Hope you enjoy!:)

Said I don’t wanna die but I can feel it coming closer
cocaine in my nose, blow it out and keep composure
I’m walking down a path and I don’t know where it will go
Life’s so fast paced but I prefer it when it’s slow 
breathe out clouds of smoke, this toking really gets me faded
The devils on my shoulder, and my eyes are glassy jaded 
I don’t wanna die, but what’s the point of living wasted
I’ve tried to get my mind right 
To see how winning tasted 

get my mind right, leave behind my bad mind 
Fucked up when im sober 
So whyd i get myself high?
july to ocotber, im sinking down corona 
I need to isolate myself 
Pandemic isnt over 
In my head, gotta get these things of my chest
i got a sudden wish for success
So fuck it ima try my best 
putting my will to the test, got these blood stains on my vest, on my vest 

And i tried to wash away,but it always seemed to stay, 
How come everytime i better myself nothing seems to change 
I been leading back to alchocol, its calls for me when im alone 
Starry nights and mirror fights, isnside my home 

Said I don’t wanna die but I can feel it coming closer
cocaine in my nose, blow it out and keep composure
I’m walking down a path and I don’t know where it will go
Life’s so fast paced but I prefer it when it’s slow 
breathe out clouds of smoke, this toking really gets me faded
The devils on my shoulder, and my eyes are glassy jaded 
I don’t wanna die, but what’s the point of living wasted
I’ve tried to get my mind right 
To see how winning tasted

#emotrap #vails #soundcloud #thesoundclown #singer #songwriter #rap #alternative #music

Immune to Success

i shouldn't look back w/ scum & lil lotus [prod fats'e]

luna has risen

also available on:

itunes: http://itunes.apple.com/album/id1214071959?ls=1&app=itunes

apple music: http://itunes.apple.com/album/id1214071959

spotify, and all other major music stores.

lost and afraid of the world that surrounds me
i constantly let down everyone around me

my heart it glows
my soul it floats
i stay awake cos i cant breathe
when demons haunt me in my sheets

have you ever felt like you were dead?
like nothing feels the same 
so you just lie in your bed?

light a cigarette 
put your woes to rest
im a fallen angel baby im not like the rest

i try to hold on to the things that i once loved
my heart and emotions are something im void of

youre wasting away
are you okay?
please just keep your head up and just hope for better days

hold on to your memories and youll be safe
this may be our last chance to leave this place

its like i hold myself back
crying wolf to all the sheep
singing lullabies to ease my mind
safely drifting in the night

but nothings ever as it seems
waking up from fever dreams
ive counted every single sheep
but i still cant fucking sleep

luna

download

a fallen angel 🌟

your backyard

@youngburial
@familypet
@anobodyreally

me:
feels like im drowning and i cant breathe
the walls are caving in around me
i call out your name but you cant hear me
hold out my hands but i cant reach

fats'e:
i saw your face in a dream
staring blankly at me
and i cant let it go
cant you just let me be

me:
my gaze turns to the sky
as i fall backwards im
taken back to a time
when you were still with me

familypet:
I had a dream I was sinking at the bottom,
Wake up reach out and grab the bottle,
Drink a fifth just to stop my head from pounding,
In either state of mind I find myself drowning.
I really miss you now,
when I look out,
and see the ocean and the clouds,
smell the salt and hear the sounds,
I can almost hear your voice now.

fats'e:
leave my body out in the middle of nowhere
after im dead
so the vultures can pull me apart 
and i wont have this pain in my head

outro(familypet):
Emotional lies, 
in this pool I will die,
At the bottom I'll lie,
End my emotional life.

perfect nightmare w/ fats'e & familypet [prod ʎpoqou]

so long, goodbye (ft. Lil Lotus)

new music every week

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