Love soulful emotional ballad. Lyrics by DjSas. Song by Joy

-Just Friends

—-Verse 1]
I see your face
 and my heart aches.
Standing so close but we're worlds apart.
Every laugh we share 
cuts deep
 beneath the skin.
feelings that 
no one will win.

[Verse 2]
Your hand in mine feels like a spark. 
A love we can't call ours
 drives me 
insane.
Each glance a secret that we bury in the sand,
Pretending we're just friends 
when our feelings 
are much more. 

[Chorus]
Just friends 
is a lie we tell
ourselves.
 Our hearts
 rebel,
Falling 
for the one
 you can't have.


[Verse 3]
I watch you smile but it tears me to shreds.
Every word spoken dances round the things we don’t
say to each other. 
The way we joke it’s as if we’re free,
But behind this 
 is a love that’s 
breaking me.

[Bridge]
The love is true but you say
 no.
I hold back my tears,
 though they threaten to overflow. 
In your shadow I’m lost 
 feelings 
we can’t let win.

[Chorus]
Just friends
 is a mask we wear.
A fragile oath that hides despair.
Living,
 but never whole.
Your touch
 I’ll never hold.

Just Friends ( seems like it )

Fallin'

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stillness

It's been awhile now but,
I miss you so,
I have to admit,
it was so hard to see you go, 
And now I wish you could see me grow,
laugh at the jokes only you know
but every now and then,
I still see your glow 
And oh I know, one day,
I'll get back to your soul.
...
...

but until then I've gotta roll
this life it takes quite a toll
and we just keep digging the hole
with hearts black as coal,
our minds are clouded,
dividing like poles.

but still I stroll,
shed light on the cold
through shadows and scrolls
looking for signs
in the cracks and the folds
in the way thunder rolls
or how the wind scolds—
and sometimes I swear
I can hear your prose.
In a way only love knows.

Well they say grief gets light,
because it makes you grow.
I say love is all we know—
it's rhythm steals the show.
through every rhyme and flow,
your voice still echoes.
Carrying your tone
through  every high and low...

Some days I feel hollow,
like you’re too far to follow,
a constant reminder,
it's time we borrow.

So I create in your eyes,
I seek love not lies.
with harmony not aye aye's
because at the end of the day,
a mother's love never dies.

Yeah, Mama, I miss you so
All I ever wanted
was to convince you
But timing became an issue
What I'd give for a redo
and in time maybe that's what I'll do,
'til then I'll just write these songs,
to remember you.

A.I.O.U.

Sonlight

Some words don’t have a place in conversation.
Not because they’re not important—but because they’re too real.
“Words I Don’t Use” is an intimate dive into the unsaid:
apologies with no address, affection without a name, questions that never made it out of the throat.
It’s about the words that live behind your teeth—like quiet guests, like unsent letters.
About midnight monologues in the mirror. About melodies hiding in silence.
About the fear that if you said it all out loud… you might disappear.

sometimes I think I’m made
of everything I didn’t say

Words I Don’t Use

A song for those who know how to function, but don’t feel present.
For those who say “I’m fine” like a ritual, while something in them stays silent.
“It’s Not Me – It’s Just Me” is about splitness—about playing yourself so well even the mirror stops questioning.
The skin fits, but it’s too quiet inside Like someone left the room but locked the door It’s about being seen, but not really there.
About smiling at the right time—and wondering who, exactly, is smiling.
—
“My Head Can’t Hold It” is not an album.
It’s a slow unraveling of what awareness sounds like when it slips through the seams of everyday life. 
For those who function—and sometimes quietly ask:
is this really me?

It’s Not Me – It’s Just Me

Why Remastered for the last time. 
Different ending. Question being asked. 
Hip hop style. Lyrics by Sas. Song by Joy and appearance by Sas. 

- Why? 


Twenty years 
Has been 
And gone
From that day
And I still 
Don’t know 
Why?

It’s hard
To not forget

That you didn’t 
Care
 You didn’t try
Too see if 
I 
Was alive

Why?

Why did 
You leave me 
All alone 
To die

Why did you 
Leave me
To be with 
Another 

Why?

Twenty years 
Has been 
And gone
From that day
And I still 
Still till
this day 
Don’t know 
Why?

Not knowing 
If you knew
That you 
Left me 
left me to die

Why ?

Why did you 
Leave me
To be with 
Another 

Why?

Not knowing 
If you knew
That you 
Left me to die

left me 
To be with
Another 

didn’t try
Too see if 
I 
Was alive

You Came back 
Into my life
Telling me
Of your love 
For me 

To tell me
Wedding bells
Rang 
For you

When it 
Should have been
Me and you

Why did 
You
Leave me 
To die

To be 
With another

Not knowing 
If I had died
Why

Twenty years 
Has been 
And gone
From that day

And I still 
Don’t know why,
why
to this day 

That You left 
me 
To die 

Why ?

Wedding bells
Rang 
For you

When it 
Should have been you and 
me 

You didn’t 
Care
About me 

So you left me
 to die.

my life 
Has 
Never been 
The same 

able to
To forget

Able to 
Truly love 

To believe 

That someone
Who said 
They loved
You

Left you
To die 

Why?

Did 

you Leave me

to die? 

To be with
another 

Wedding bells

rang for you 

You came 
back 
into my 
life
to 
tell me
that you 
still loved 
me.

Why ?

You left me
Left me
to die.

You Call that Love???

A part of 
Me 
Couldn’t recover 
From that. 

I just slowly died
Inside.

Why Bozana? 

Please tell me before I die, 
Why YOU left me to DIE??

Why?

Never tire

[Intro]
Hey, love…please whisper my name.

Why are the words so hard to purge?

After all this time, you should share the blame.

You the one half of a whole which converged.

[Verse 1]
I stitched my soul with nettle thread.

A martyr of your vanishing.

The cradle sighed in shades of lead.

Fed lullabies of scavenging.
[Break]

You left a psalm beneath my ribs.

A dirge inked in vernix and bile.

The townsfolk watched with opal eyes.

Their breath held in a feral smile.

[Pre-Chorus]
Now you trespass my ossuary grace.

Murmuring penitence dressed in gauze.

But truth does not decay with lace.

Nor time annul abandoned laws.

[Chorus]
You were the echo in the void lit kiln.

The quill that inked a Judas hymn.

There is no altar built for fraud.

No sermon left in this façade.

[Break] 
"I nursed the silence… until it screamed…"

"You turned absence into a doctrine…"

"His eyes never found your face…"

Hmmmmhmmmm...

[Verse 2]
You sculpt apologies from sleet.

Yet my winters did not thaw.

Each year was an ossified beat.

A metronome bound by a flaw.

[Pre-Chorus]
Don’t croon cowardice like it’s divine.

My spine bore the brunt of your eclipse.

You feared the gallows; I kissed the twine.

While shame fed salt to my cracked lips.

[Chorus]
Yes, I was the vesper, I was the gall.

You were the ink beneath the pall.

The absinthe swirling down the sprawl.

There is no covenant left to mend.

Only the myth you failed to defend.

[Break]
Hmmmmhmmm…

Hmmmhmmmm…

[Bridge]
Go etch forgiveness in your sleep.

But I wore grief like silken peat.

You ricocheted off when life took root.

I braved the thorns, I bore the fruit.

This isn’t grace, it’s the howl restrained.

The orchard you never once maintained.

[Final Chorus]
I was the vesper, I was the pyre.

Breathing fever through marbled mire.

I forged my crown from quiet decay.

And you just the noise that slipped away.

[Outro] 
So sleep, apostate of my womb.

Your name’s a ghost I won't exhume.

He walks unchained, and I retire.

No longer prey to your half-spun lyre.

[Outro]
Hmmmmhmmm…

Hmmmhmmm…

The Vesper

Style note: Spiritual, almost hymnal, with piano and subtle strings. A slow build, from vulnerability to an uplifting chorus. Lyrics are introspective and intimate.


When the world grows quiet,
I hear the silence that knows me best.
It holds all the words I never spoke,
A gentle weight inside my chest.

The silence that knows me
carries every sorrow,
It sings me to sleep
and meets me tomorrow.

There’s comfort in darkness,
In secrets I cannot confess.
But silence holds me without judgment,
It’s the one who forgives,
and forgets.

The silence that knows me
carries every sorrow,
It sings me to sleep
and meets me tomorrow.

The Silence That Knows Me

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MagicMind Relax is dedicated to bringing balance, peace, and inspiration through sound. Whether through gentle lullabies, mindful soundscapes, or emotionally resonant melodies, our goal is to create music that soothes the heart and expands the mind.

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