Emotionally very challenging song about the joint drug use as a method of escapism from harsh reality and troubles associated with everyday life. The initial title of this track was “The Golden Shot” which is a reference to the best know but rare method to commit suicide by the intake of drugs. However, it is not always easy to figure out if the golden shot was just an accidental intoxication or a real suicide (without a farewell letter left behind). Anyway, I lost a few good friends to drug abuse, and the entire Grunge Movement collapsed largely because of the drug addiction of its leaders. Somehow, deep inside, I felt obliged to write a song like this one… My drug of choice is gothism. Enjoy!

Kamil Walczak - ESCAPISM ON DEMAND (Alt.)

Em & Double-U - THE DARKEST HOUR

Em & Double-U - A DARKWAVE RESIDUE

Em & Double-U - BREAKUP

Em & Double-U - IRRESPONSIVE

"Gaping For Death" is the fifth track of the A-side studio album "Bloody Rituals" released in June of 2025 by Hanging Graveyard (duo of two brothers: Michael Walczak and Kamil Walczak). Their music is described as gothic metal, while guitar-driven compositions are carried by instrumental parts blended with lyrical essentialism. The lyrics of this song refer to the longing for the culminating moment of giving the last breath (or the final rest in death): "I'm gasping for death / To set my spirit free! / I'm gasping for death / The ultimate relief…".

Hanging Graveyard - GASPING FOR DEATH

The Spirit Of The Forest

Honesty

Makowski Solo - HONESTY (Melodic Piano Song)

Homecoming

Makowski Solo - HOMECOMING (Melodic Piano Song)

A cathedral of circuits and steel: blade-edged guitars, obsidian synth choirs, and drums like thunder in a vaulted nave. Black Glass Gospel is a liturgy for the neon night—sermons of grit, absolution through distortion, and hymns sung to electricity.

What it sounds like
Retrosynth choirs over metal spine • cinematic low end • angular hooks • epic, chant-like choruses.

Themes
Faith under fire • shattered icons and new devotions • confession at the edge of the city • mercy in the machine.

For playlists / mood
metalwave • dark synth • cinematic • night drive • fight scene • ritual energy

Credits
Written, performed, produced & mixed by Vector Collapse (Chris Morley).

Suggested tags
retrosynth, synthwave, metal, metalwave, darksynth, cinematic, industrial, cyberpunk, VectorCollapse, BlackGlassGospel

Release notes
Mastered for impact and width. Light the censer, raise the gain, let the gospel roar.

Hashtags
#VectorCollapse #BlackGlassGospel #Metalwave #Retrosynth #Synthwave #DarkAesthetic #NewMusic

Error Budget

Elusive Veil

Odin's Heart

Em & Double-U is a Polish-American darkwave band, formed online in 2019 by two childhood friends: Wojciech Makowski [a.k.a. Em] (vocals, synthesizers, samplers, programming) and Kamil Walczak [a.k.a. Double-U] (guitars, bass, drums, vocals, programming). In 1992-93, they were co-founders of the Polish coldwave band, A Herd Of The Rushing Vises, which broke up after recording a demo tape “The Bad Place” (1993). Since then, their musical paths have diverged to merge again during the Covid-19 pandemic due to their unwavering friendship and their intact passion for music. Since the very beginning, the band has been associated with the Metronome School of Music and Recording Studio in New York City. So far, they have released 4 full-length studio albums: "A Lethal Dose Of Sadness" (2002), "Beacon Of Hope" (2003), "Phantoms" (2004), and "Stolen Dreams" (2025). Presently, they are working intensively on their 5th album "Silent Suffering" (with original material from 2003). Wojciech Makowski is a prolific creator of piano and ambient music, while Kamil Walczak is an enthusiastic creator of gothic music.